#schizophrenic person

[todays-a-good-day-to-be-tired]

INTRO POST!!!! XD

Name: Ditto/Oscar/Norman

Age:9-18

Gender: Demi-boy, Agender

Birthday: February 21

Pronouns: It/Its/He/They/W0rm/Flesh/silly/Yippie/Teeth/Rot/Smile/Web/:3/⭐/👁

Sexuality's: Bisexual, Aromantic, Demisexual

Currently obsessing over: Sally face, mouthwashing

Comfort characters: Gnarpy, Prototype, Fizzarolli, the main 3 from DHMIS, etc

I'm a scenekid!! X3

I play violin and I'm recently learning cello as well!!!!!! <3

Dating status: taken by: @i-eat-lip-gloss <3

I'm a Therian! What is that? A Therian is someone who identifies as an animal on a physiological level. Not physical. "Therians are attracted to animals and have up crushes on them!" No, Therian's absolutely do NOT. Have any sort of romantic attraction to any sort of animal.

My theriotypes :D: Red fox, Birman (its a breed of cat), and a German Shepard!

I'm also an otherkin! (Dragonkin)

Fictonkin: Fizzarollikin

Likes: FNAF, DHMIS, the Mandela catalog, GHOST AND PALS, TV GIRL Corpse bride, MELANIE MARTINEZ Regretavator, drawing, hanging out with my spouse!! <3, SCP Foundation, WILL WOOD AND THE TAPEWORMS (wwatt), Weirdcore, Maretu, VOCALIOD, quadrobics, KIKUO, Dangarompa, assassination classroom, school bus graveyard, Sally face, mouthwashing

Ig why not put my pronoun page here u got 🤷

Disorders/mental illnesses: Autism, depression, anxiety, BDD(body dysmorphic disorder), DID (Disossitive identity disorder), and I have undiagnosed schizophrenia (I need to get these things officially diagnosed but can't)

Also! You are perfectly allowed to tag me in anything and talk to me about almost anything but I will set a couple boundaries on things I will kindly say, please don't say to me. (TW: Schizophrenia, DID mention/trigger words) please don't say to me (or anything along these lines ^^'): "Wake up", "You're not real", "life is a simulation/life is fake", " I'm in your walls/house", (this isn't a trigger, but its just rude to say in general ->) "You're just faking it for attention"

Blogs: @glitchsv3ntbl0g

I'm an Age regressor!

My agere blog!: @spadesagereblog

What it means: Age regressing can be a form of coping for a person. The coping could be for child hood trauma/stolen childhood like forced to grow up to fast of something happened. But it can also be done for fun!

Am I regressed right now?: nope!

Age regressing is a valid thing and should not be hated on. Its just coping and even if people tell you its weird, it if helps then do what help yourself heal <3

[autopsyfreak]

my anhedonia is eating me alive so i’m making these mental illness memes to cope

[johnlennonirl]

Here I am, posting something similar like the fibro post... this one goes out to my psychotic folks🫶

[psychotic-tbh]

Stop saying…

“Psychotic/Schizophrenic” when you mean: unpredictable, unhinged, unreal, etc.

“Bipolar” when you mean: polarized, scattered, fickle, unstable, etc.

“Delusional” when you mean: unrealistic, unreasonable, close-minded, stubborn, etc.

“[insert “R” slur in relation to intellectual disabilities]” when you mean: unreasonable, unintelligent/ridiculous, immature, etc.

“OCD” when you mean: particular, neat, overbearing, etc.

“Narcissistic” when you mean selfish, abusive, manipulative, etc.

Note: I’m NOT saying that these are synonymous. This is also not an exhaustive list.

[lullxbyblue]

How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

[madpunks]

please include schizospectrum people in your mental health positivity post. please actually include schizophrenic, schizoaffective, schizotypal, schizoid and other psychotic people. still to this day, i get called dangerous for being schizophrenic. my last ex told me they "knew" i would lash out and become dangerous and that they shouldn't have dated me specifically because i'm schizophrenic. i never lashed out to hurt them, by the way, but they routinely hurt me.

schizospectrum disorders do not make someone inherently dangerous. people still believe this firmly. our fight isn't over we still have to continue to speak about schizospec people and how unfairly we are treated. we are dehumanized instantly the second people find out about our conditions. we are treated like ticking time bombs. people openly admit that we are scaring them when we talk about our psychosis and how it affects us.

people tell us to calm down and that our delusions aren't real and that we're overreacting. people give reality check us and force us to try to think in ways that scare us. people refuse to trust our own accounts of our own lives and what is happening to us, even when we are not actively delusional or hallucinating. people infantilize us and treat us like we're stupid and have zero autonomy.

we are not dangerous. we are not scary. we are literally just existing in a world that refuses to accept us. please keep talking about schizospectrum struggles and how we need to be seen as just another human, just like anyone else. we can be as unique and varied as anyone else with any other neurotype. we are not all the same person, and we are not inherently dangerous or scary.

[thecorvidforest]

to my psychotic/paranoid/OCD/other friends - you might start seeing posts in the next few days about how the rapture supposedly happened or is going to happen very soon. a group of evangelical “rapture watchers” think the rapture happened 9/22/23 for a handful of reasons, such as the dates lining up in a way that’s somehow significant.

i promise the rapture didn’t happen. i don’t personally believe in the rapture and i have nothing against those who do, but it for sure didn’t already happen. if it did everyone would know. there would be tons of footage. anyone who tries to claim it did happen or that they know the date is either lying or misguided.

[cemitadepollo]

Not a day passes by without me being mad as shit that ableism against demonized mental illnesses is normalised.

We are not criminals. We are not dangerous. We do not owe neurotypicals a complete explanation on why we developed our disorders and why we aren't serial killers that kidnap people.

Fuck hollywood, fuck ableist criminology and fuck saneism.

[brethilach]

"ohh thorin trusts Bilbo above his own family and kin because he just loves him sooo much because I think romantic love is superior to any other form of love" or maybe it was he was experiencing a severe episode of paranoid psychosis and he implicitly trusted Bilbo because he was the only person in the Company who didn't have any preexisting, longstanding loyalities to him (as a King or brother-in-arms or Family or otherwise) and followed him purely out his own desire to and he saw Bilbo stay by his side even after his contract had ended even though he knew how much he wanted to go home (and had every reason to at that point). maybe it was because he knew Bilbo would had nothing to gain by betraying him (re: no birthright to the crown, no desire for riches or property, etc). Maybe he believed he could confide into Bilbo because he felt like he wasn't responsible for his safety in the same way he felt responsible for his nephews or his kin (as their King), and he no longer need to mantain any sort of formalities or barriers with him (because Thorin is not. his. King).

sorry I just refuse to believe Thorin doesn't love his nephews as much as he loves Bilbo (someone who he'd only known for 6~ months at that point) and I think there's a lot of better ways to explain his behavior here

[todays-a-good-day-to-be-tired]

Woah schizophrenic breakdown at 6 in the morning AND I have school that's crazy now ims go lose my mind bye 😋

[autopsyfreak]

‘letting my intrusive thoughts win’

shut the fuck up.

you’re referring to impulsive thoughts, intrusive thoughts are undesirable and often horrific for the person experiencing them. you dying your hair randomly is not an intrusive thought.

if i let my intrusive thoughts dictate my actions, id be in jail for a long fucking time.

[schizodiaries]

some schizophrenia symptoms that aren’t normally talked about

confusion

restricted range of emotion

incoherent thoughts/speech

lack of motivation

boredom/anhedonia

social withdrawal

apathy

trouble sleeping

taste and smell hallucinations

distorted thinking

thought blocking

poor memory

catatonia

labile affect

i usually see schizophrenia described in terms of paranoia, visual/auditory hallucinations, and delusions - so i thought I’d put together a list of other symptoms that may be present!

[alixisherebutringagain]

Psychotic episode are fucking terrifying so sorry if I don't like when you use the word "delulu" and sorry if I don't want to talk to you because you think I'm crazy or dangerous and sorry if you think I'm exaggerating BUT FUCK YOU BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED.

I WAS SCARED.

I WAS LIKE A KID SCARED OF THE DARK.

HOW DARE YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY.

I WAS AFRAID TO GET KILLED, I WAS TERRIFIED OF GOING OUTSIDE I WAS CONVINCED OF HORRIBLE THINGS I COULDN'T SPEAK I COULDN'T MOVE I WAS TRAPPED IN MY BRAIN SO FUCK YOU.

Fuck anyone who thinks psychotic episodes are funny. Fuck anyone who judges someone for being on the schizo spec. Fuck anyone who laughs at this.

[madpunks]

i don't know what psychotic person needs to hear this, but it is in fact okay for you to be psychotic. it's not your fault. you're not asking for it. it's something that's occurring to you. trying to force it to stop happening ALL the time is going to drain you way too much. some days you just have symptoms and it's alright. sometimes you just have to go with the flow. you're not a fuck up if you have episodes, days, weeks, months of not being able to hold it together and mask your paranoia, intrusive thoughts, delusions, hallucinations, catatonia, confusion, etc. it's alright to just be mentally ill for a bit. i love you

[schizopositivity]

It's me and my partners 3 year anniversary today!!!

They know more about my schizophrenia than anyone, they've seen me be symptomatic, they've seen me struggle, and they still love me.

I'm so lucky to have someone in my life who I can ask for reality checks, who can recognize my symptoms without me having to tell them, and is willing to take care of me when I can't take care of myself. I love and appreciate them for a million other reasons but I want to stress that they love and accept me fully, schizophrenia included.

It is possible for people a schizospec disorders/psychosis to find happiness, find safety, and find love. We are not unlovable. Our disorders do not exclude us from the beauty that is love.

[ewwap]

Irl ghost/entity NSFW experience???

Ok I've had some crazy experiences recently and idk where to talk about it so I'm just gonna ramble about it here

About a year ago I woke up with something/someone rubbing my back. It was really comforting. I was asleep and then woke up but didn't open my eyes, and it took me a while before getting the nerve to turn around and see nothing. It stopped after that and I was kinda sad it did.

That happened again once or twice in isolated events a few months apart until I noted my furniture moves slightly?? It's very slight, like my swivel chair turning slightly where I question if it's really moving.

Sometimes lights will flicker or dim for a second when I enter rooms, sometimes randomly when I'm in a room.

Then this morning, I woke up and was doing that thing where I was awake and still had my eyes closed--and for some reason, I had the feeling someone was in front of me? He talked to me (I don't remember what I said) and I reached forward, like kinda in front of my head, and there was a dick. Like, I felt a dick. I opened my eyes and there was nothing, but I felt it. And it didn't alarm me, the presence actually made me feel safe ngl. I don't know what came over me but I started stroking it, feeling it, and teasing him--sometimes I would open my eyes just to see I was jerking off the air. He was about to come when I stopped, and dude, I asked him to fuck me. Did I say it out loud? Maybe, I don't know.

And I felt it. I felt him enter me, I felt him moving in and out of me. It felt really good. I was just ass up feeling a phantom dick. I kept asking him to rub my clit, and sometimes I would feel, like, this ripple of please on my lil dick, and I felt like I was gonna come and then it would stop. This happened for a while until I fell asleep again, and I woke up very horny.

Idk why I'm adding this last part, but all of this started before I began to develop sort of a monster kink. And now that I have it this happens.

Tumblr, am I going insane? I hope not cause, to be honest, I welcome this. I probably am though, or more likely I was dreaming. But the thing is I don't feel things in my dreams, I felt this. If he's real I challenge him to appear while I'm fully awake but goddamn I think I'm going insane.