#my guess is the AuDHD

[derpkind]

I want to play videogames and then I DONT

What gives!?

[thatadhdfeel]

when the social event doesn’t end when they said it would

[coldflash-corner]

"Barry is a total idiot" literature is a classic and a staple in Coldflash culture, and never would I beg the creators who produce it to cease doing so nor would I ever dare say anyone is writing them wrong- just catering to their own preferences

However, my preference is

"Barry acts impulsively, and has to use his big smart brain to think himself out of the situations he put himself in, and is pretty good at the second part when not having a panic attack"

With a helping of

"Sometimes Barry doesn't get certain social cues, but figures everything out pretty quickly one someone tells him the thing he missed"

[goodartitude]

i've been thinking about unmasking and letting yourself be comfortable a lot, and you know what? It makes me so mad that when you google things like "i don't want to look other people in the eye", you immediately get "tips" like "how to overcome struggles with maintaining eye contact"

what if i don't want to overcome that? what if i want to beat my feelings of guilt over not looking people in the eye because doing that causes me So Much Discomfort? what if I just want to accept myself instead of forcing myself to perform for the sake of someone else's approval?

i HATE how we don't get advice on how to accept ourselves and show ourselves compassion and gentleness. it pains me how everyone is always expected to conform to other people's expectations which are literally so irrational. the weight of those expectations is difficult enough to deal with, but when paired with your own feelings of guilt over not fitting in? it's the worst

so a friendly reminder to everyone: you don't need to look other people in the eye, hide your stimming, sit with your back perfectly straight, wear that uncomfortable shirt... the list goes on

your needs and experiences are valid, and you can be you, because you're awesome <33

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Gender is insane what does it even mean the dictionaries don’t even know. Its all made-up nonsense. I’m too autistic for this. Gender is canceled and silliness will take its place there is no more gender only silliness.

[etherealspacejelly]

some words just sound better in other languages

when im putting the subtitles on for a video or tv show i usually say to myself "I need the sous-titres"

if i drop something or make a sudden mistake i usually instinctively say sheiße instead of shit

me and my mum often say to each other "wo ist die katze?" when we are looking for the cat

I will often say "Qu-est que ç'est?" instead of what is that

me and my dad have an inside joke where we deliberately pronounce common French phrases with strong northern British accents, just because it sounds funny (similar to the way David Tennant says "allons-y" in Doctor Who, but with an even stronger and sillier accent)

i often comment "il pleut" when it is raining, or just say "he rains" in english even though that is the incorrect grammar, because i think it's funny to say things in english with grammar from other languages

I am English, both of my parents are English, I was born in England and have lived here all my life. I just studied three languages in high school like a fucking nerd (and im autistic, that might have something to do with it)

[wanderingmind867]

I don't know why, but i seem to get a strange desire for attention when I'm online. Which makes no sense, considering i deal badly with pressure and I'm extremely antisocial in real life. But ever since i got into the habit of making posts years ago, it's always bothered me when my posts get no attention. If a post gets 0 notes, my mind won't be able to let go of the desire for the posts to get noticed. I'll be hounded by it for days, until the posts finally get some damn notes.

But then again, I do snap at my dad in real life when I think he's tuning me out, so maybe I'm both antisocial and also desperate to be noticed, depending on the situation? That sounds weird, but it also sounds like me. I'm a riddle even to myself. I don't know why i act the ways I act, why i do the things I do, etc. All i know is i do behave certain ways, and i just have to deal with that.

[autisticlee]

no one knows just how hard I work at things. how I have to work 1000000x more than the average person to compensate for being autistic and adhd and probably other things i'm working out with therapist, and having a sort of physical disability i've not received any help or treatment for. everyone assumes I don't try or give up too soon. they think I just started, need more practice. they think I expect everything handed to me immediately with no work or effort and don't acknowledge the multiple years i've put into things. they think I have no right to be upset about still failing to get where I want even after working my entire life to get there, while watching people around me surpass even my meager goals within a fraction of the time and work i've out into the same thing. constantly getting surpassed by everyone around me who seem to barely do any work to get there compared to me. it's all handed to them and falls into their lap so easily. all because they don't have the extra obstacles to overcome and work around that I do. while they go from point A to Z immediately with no major stops in between, I have to go through every single letter and then some, often getting sent back to the start. but it's always *my* fault, according to everyone. it's not the fault of those around me who ignore me, don't support me, don't help me, don't believe in me, etc. it's my fault they don't do those things. because doing the work of 10 people in one isn't enough, just because it's me. and not reaching Z as fast as everyone else means I don't deserve any of the support or help or anything else and means i'm not trying hard enough. it doesn't matter that I *need* to work harder than 100 "normal" people combined to get even half the result! Just because I can't reach what they do means i'm not trying hard enough! ugh.

[techiekittie]

I think I may have autism

I malfunction when my routine is interrupted

I get overwhelmed by pretty much everything

I have hyperfixations (short obsessions) that become special interests? (Less obsessive but long lasting)

I cry. A lot. Over nothing.

I can’t tell what people are feeling (my default assumption is anger!!)

I just told a guy that I loved tetanus while trying to make conversation (it’s so fucking cool like ppl think it comes from rusty nails but it’s a soil bacteria and soil is usually moist causing rust and it’s usually nails bc it goes deep into the skin so it gets infected while a shallow cut won’t as easily (emphasis on easily bc you can still get infected so be careful) bc it’s exposed to air and the bacteria can’t grow in the presence of oxygen!!! Anyways it used to be called lockjaw bc it affects your jaw first by contracting all your muscles, and it’s usually fatal when it makes your respiratory system contract and can’t relax to breathe properly so you die of not enough oxygen, pretty creepy but kinda cool!!!)

[aropride]

got worried i was confirmation-biasing (or . unconfirmation-biasing?) myself so i put all the criteria for pd's directly from the dsm5 into a spreadsheet and hid which disorder they were linked to from myself And then shuffled them and ranked them all likert-style. And well once it's unshuffled The bpd criteria section looks like this

[lupismaris]

Happy Baltimore Pride, the parade starts in 3 and a half hours and I'm already exhausted

[noa-de-cajou]

Me : I'm adhd therefore I am disabled

My adhd : *Disables me*

Me :

[possamble]

ive been really really loving your fic work for awhile now and i saw u worrying about trans rep stuff the other day and i wanted to tell u that as a transgirl who has terrible BPD from being a lonely kid ive felt very connected with your intrepretation of falin. the whole inner dragon metaphor and the inner guilt of if its justified for standing up for yourself was so absolutely keen to some of the struggles ive had in relationships and seeing them written so well in a character that already means a lot to me is wonderful. also your smut is tremendous please keep doing the lords work <3

[moreover-clover]

Me: *opens google*

Me: "How to tell if you fractured your thumb?"

[transkingcobra]

Finding mild hilarity in seeing “ace” in my bio but then my simp-ass postings that lean horny-on-main-esque

Like no you don’t understand I’m sensually and artistically simping

Y’all can read it sexually Idc but for *me* I’m here for ~vibes~ I’m here for ~stims~ I’m here for ~too much time spent in an art classroom~

I’m gonna study his body like it’s my final exam for life because it’s fucking pleasing to stare at and daydream scenarios but I’m not automatically ripping off my pants but also like idk maybe if he asked

[minnieposting]

Uugghhhhhhhhhhhh why do autism evaluations have to be so complicated