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erikkarlsson · 9 months ago

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the 92 million dollar man answers the important questions in his return to san jose

#this happened a while ago but you know how it goes i can only resist the siren song for so long #erik karlsson #returning to my roots...if you want something done right you really do have to do it yourself #miss him so bad i actually cant do this

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bitchfitch · 2 months ago

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I've started playing Potion Permit, and so far it's one of my favorite games I've messed around with, but the most big brained move the devs made was giving you a dog on day 1, and then making that dog able to track NPCs and lead you directly to them no matter where they are in the town.

#im still early game but i like the play and the writing is passable #like #Theres a flatness #the characters Are distinct but theyre mostly just their jobs #with only a few who stand out and have like. something to really grab onto #Like rue? rues entire deal is little girl you can date. Nothing else behind those eyes. She has nothing better to talk to you about #than the fact her favorite color is red #Sorcelia? Sorcelia is a goth nun who loves singing and teaches one of the village children #Reynerd? sure is a guy #got nothing else to say about him. hes just a Guy™. Victor? Has ghost friends and loves bugs and cares deeply about the cemetery #he tends to. At the moment it feels like they're trying to imply there aren't actually ghosts. and hes just talking to himself/#insisting his imaginary friends are real people #and so far? The games been cool about it. Victor's a member of his community and his eccentricities are accepted and not ridiculed #all four characters ive mentioned are romance candidates. but its just as hit or miss with the regular towns folk #Opalheart is an older woman and a world renowned blacksmith who only takes jobs if they will do Good. regardless of whether or not they #pay well. She declines to make a dagger for a rich man but makes a helmet for a childs father bc the girl asked #and olive is here #anyways you can be best friends with a cat (shes just a regular cat) and i appreciate that #idk im putting it above sun haven in my ranking of life sim games #purely because there are older romance candidates.#no fat romance candidates. but sun haven doesn't have thise either.#and sdv has neither fat or old candidates Nor can you fuck a cat boy. it goes at the bottom.#gameplay wise sunhaven is at the bottom then sdv then potion permit at the top. sunhaven has the Most™ but having #a lot of crap doesn't mean its fun and it ends up making half the game feel really incomplete #idk. Sdv is a game you should've started playing a year ago. sun haven is a game that perpetually needs another year worth of updates #before id say its worth it bc the devs keep pushing content ™ updates instead of quality of life or polish so what is there is uh #Bad. plentiful. and a large portion is good #but a Lot is just bad.#its insincere and cant take itself seriously it gives you (the right dialogue option) an (the shit joke option) which is worse than just #i ram out of space. tldr. potion permit is good Now. sdv Was good. sun haven Might be great Eventually

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nashvillethotchicken · 4 months ago

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The Vampire Lestat is my much less talented Kanye West, my 2020 Yung Miami, My Ice Spice

#lestat would absolutely write im the shit im that bitch im miss poopie and think this will get Louis back #it does not get louis back #so obsessed with how bad his music is #like the production value is so high and you can tell but the actual lyrics...#well its a win for fat lestat nation so i cant complain truly but... this is like lates 2010s Smoky Robinson to me #lestat de lioncourts debut album is what smoky robinson thought gasms would be #lestat should stick to producing #but imma stick beside him ill be in that stationhead arguing with barbs on charting numbers #people with ears: is the song good?#lestat stans:it charted!!!!!!!!#hes my yuno miles. my sexxy red #lestat absolutely could do bae i luh. you you my everything you my main one fuck a wedding ring-#but sexxy red couldnt do ill get fatter when we break up im an actor #interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv #lestat de lioncourt #iwtv s3 teaser #the vampire lestat

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hellishgayliath · 3 months ago

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Oooooooooohhhh im gonna feel bad for saying this and it kills me cuz i love epic with my whole heart but

Wisdom Saga did not hit right :v

#the cryptid talks #epic the musical #like i actually might rank it as my least favourite saga AND ME AND MY SIS FEEL SO BAD FOR DOING SO #AHHH #like dont get me wrong the crew still did an amazing job #the animations were amazing tho and spectacular #and there were some parts i like #like telemachus and athena's song and calypso's song love those #but everything else was just ehhhh #we're not mad just a lil disappointed #telemachus is absolutely endearing tho #i thought i wouldnt like him as much but baby boy carried this more than god games did IM SORRY #and we were looking forward to that one the most but it was just sped run through and we missed hera's more sassier deeper voice aghgghggg #love you tho mr jalapeno im looking forward to the vengeance saga the most #im sorry i didnt enjoy this one as much 😭#i see everybody else's hyper/posistive reactions to it and i just feel like i cant really get on board with them :V #it threw me off from the story that was happening and i couldnt focus as much #we were so shooked tho when the livestream got cut off like EXCUSE ME??? CAPTAIN! CAPTAIN?!?? xD

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inamagicalhallucination · 6 months ago

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i dont think bsd is poorly written at all

#i actually think its pretty well written all things considered #in general weekly/monthly publications have problems becuz the author cant really go back anymore like a published all at once novel or #something #but either way i think bsd is written pretty well #like yeah things dont make sense at times and there r parts that r brought up that we havent seen concluded but uh the manga is ongoing #im not mad at the “loose strings” becuz asagiri still is writing the manga so theres plenty of time for him to address everything #the only real complain i can get behind r all the fake outs (which tbh rlly dont bother me since we have several characters who think on a #level we dont rlly understand)#and honestly i dont think teruko's death was a missed opportunity its true i didnt expect her to be a child but tbh when u look back to her #moments in the manga it totally makes sense #although i do think asagiri could have played it out longer i dont think its bad the way it is #and i dont think it takes away from the tragic aspect of her character

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dykedvonte · 17 hours ago

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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.

I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.

It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.

There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.

#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea #would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress #was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he #just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim #the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking #eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the #reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew #feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to #choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like #it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto #that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the #scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt #cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still #followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want #because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so #they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you #just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be #like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c #crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot #himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point #like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a #point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c #there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance #in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly #is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the #convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied #Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact #Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs #around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin #to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more

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cradle-of-darkness · 1 year ago

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COOKIES OF DARKNESS NATION WE ARE OFFICIALLY BACK 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

(long rambling in tags if u care)

#cookie run #licorice cookie #red velvet cookie #affogato cookie #I KNOW im late to this but i was at school ok 🙄 anyways i have a lot of thoughts #first off LICORICE UGH I MISSED HIM SO BAD IM SO HAPPY FOR HIM #his stats are so fascinating to me. i don't think anyone was expecting his strength to be that high #its pretty average but its still his best stat surprisingly #im shocked his strategy and puzzle solving are only 3. i think that's a strange decision to make them so low but I'm open to accepting it #maybe his avoidance/lack of ability to see the big picture contributes to the low scores?#his stats are so unexpected but I could get used to it. still i want an elaboration from devsis on these #i want them to show his strength in the show because i was expecting his strength to be like. 3 or 4 #but anywho. i think its very funny how affo is 0 strength. i love how its canon licorice could easily kick his ass in a fist fight #i really do love affo and im SO happy to see him with the cod fucking finally all we got with him as a cod until now was ODYSSEY 😭#im so excited to see him work with the cod as an actual member. he's a very fun character for me #i cant wait for them to actually make him feel like one of the cookies of darkness its been over a year since he joined by now c'mon #im just so ecstatic that the cod are back. hopefully this is a good omen and will pave the way for more cod appearances soon #bcs u all know how i feel about the lack of cod for the better part of the past year. this better be their comeback i believe in them #😁😁😁😁😁😁 IM JUST SO HAPPY THIS IS THE BEST POSSIBLE OUTCOME IM SO HAPPY U HSVE NO IDEA I LITERALLY SCREAMED #btw ik crepe is there. but they're in a weird grey area of being a cod so i didn't post them BUT IM VERY HAPPY THEY'RE THERE TOO ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#♦️charlie's miscellaneous

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guinevereslancelot · 3 months ago

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decided to leave my job and i'm gonna fr gonna cryyyyy

#literally can't work with my new boss bc i can't trust her #she went to the head of the department with complaints abt me without ever speaking to me or giving me any indication she was unhappy #and various other reasons im not happy w management and the school in general #HOWEVER #i love the kids sm and im gonna miss them and worry abt them 😭😭😭😭#im literally scared for some of them bc it feels like the other teachers have no empathy for some of my favorite kids #one of them who is so so sweet and when he cries i'm the girst to comfort him bc everyone else thinks he needs to toughen up 😭#also my new boss sucks so so bad and is gonna be such a bad influence on him and all the other kids #and my main co teacher said she's gonna quit if i do so i cant even beg her to look out for my babies and take care of them 😭💔#and it would be unprofessional to mention any concerns to the parents but genuinely some of the kids would be better off elsewhere #like im actually worried about it #i dont want some of the really sweet sensitive kids to lose their sweetness bc they're being treated unkindly #and the worst bullies and spoiled kids are the ones the teachers dote on #so it encourages some of the sweet ones to act out for attention #anyway 💔#i really do need to go tho #and i'm sure i'll love the kids at my new job #but im so sadddd #also its unlikely i can find a well paying job w this age group even tho i love this age group #its basically impossible not to get attached to them at this age and i get to pick them up and hold and cuddle them and stuff #and you cant really do that with the older kids sadly #literally on the verge of tears even seriously thinking abt leaving #things have been p bad for a while due to management but i never seriously considered leaving bc i love the kids so much #but i literally can't see a future here #and my new boss clearly hates me and im worried she's going to try to get me fired #she already made up a bunch of lies about me and its only been three weeks #anyway i only make 15 an hour so hopefully i'll at least get more somewhere else and i know i'll still love the kids #its just really hard #which is why i've stayed this long #i was p unhappy before my new boss even started bc of the way they treated my old boss

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pbnmj · 2 years ago

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actually you know what the mcu was absolutely evil for introducing spider-man and immediately making him follow iron man around and then ALSO using him as a prop to make iron man look cooler meanwhile peter barely gets a faithful story of his own IN HIS OWN MOVIES

#sorry that it takes like. one textpost to get me writing a paragraph wall #THE FACT. IRON MAN . IS A MASSIVE PLOT POINT IN HOCO AND ALSO IN FFH. BROTHER I DO NOT FUCKING CARE ABOUT THIS GUY #DO NOT GET ME FUCKING STARTED ON THE SONY MOVIES . I AM SO . FUCKING . INSANE RN #I MISS HARRY SOOOOOOOO BAD I WANT PARKSBORN CODEPENDENCY NOWWWWWWWWWW #PERSONAL #THE FACT THAT HOCO IS 'peter is so young and naive he keeps making mistakes'#AND THEN FFH IS 'peter is so young and naive he keeps making mistakes'#AND THEN NWH IS 'peter is so young and naive he keeps making mistakes'#DUDE WHEN DOES HE LEARN. WHEN DOES HE GET CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT #ALSO THE FACT HE JUST . EVERY MOVIE HE FINDS OUT TONY IS ACTUALLY AN EVEN WORSE PERSON THAT HE PREVIOUSLY BELIEVED AND #NOOOOTTTTHINGGGGGG IS DONE ABOUT IT #the fact it took 3 movies of fucking around and it ended up with the mcu implying he's going to be more comics accurate. or at least less ..#like that....#like you have a trilogy to do something with spidey and also an EXTENDED UNIVERSE and nothing happens #the nymcu (new york marvel cinematic universe) where its just daredevil and spider man and some select avengers that i like is very real to #me. VERY real to ME #we also seriously have to lower the stakes i'd love for him to be a friendly neighborhood spider-man #im not joking. why was he even in england. like just write any semblance of plot so peter feels responsible and FOLLOWS beck to england #because he literally cannot leave it alone. because it is his responsibility. because he cant help but think this is his fault #mostly a joke cause i dont love england but still.#SOMEHTING LIKE THIS PLEASE. PLEASE PPPPLLLLLEEEAAAAASE (the sniper on the opposing rooftop takes the shot and kills me)#edit: excuse me everybody i am not hating on tasm i love andrew garfield so much i can look over its issues #i AM hating on the weird little fucking spiderman universe theyre making without a spiderman. LMFAO #like what is sony thinking . WHAT.#morbius and also the kraven movie i have so little hopes for you its insane #and i very much enjoyed the venom movies but theyre also soooo fun as a standalone #where eddie is just going a widdle batshit

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ditttiii · 10 months ago

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it's every single time i give myself a minute to breathe. a minute away from people, places, distractions, running away from my reality--when the heartbreak catches up and hits me. knocks my fucking breath out.

#as someone who's default has been for the longest time to love love love not being able to give it all the time actually makes me feel #like i am missing a part of me #its the weirdest most incredibly frustrating feeling to feel just slightly off kilter every single minute of the day and knowing u have #no choice but to ignore the oddness bcoz if u poke it its gonna all come crashing down #i hate having loved someone to the point where it was more than how much i loved myself coz now i m left #picking up the pieces they chose to leave behind and not knowing how to piece it all together #and it hurtshurtshurtshurts and never lessens and i can kiss someone else and still feel like a corpse inside #bcoz theres pieces missing that i gave away and that feeling of being incomplete just wont go away #trusting someone to love me forever might have been the stupidest thing i will ever do #and on bad days i think i deserved being left for the sheer stupidity of my life choices #istfg i m never loving again until a man puts a damn ring on my finger #so unbelievably fucking done with this shit #i wanna hate him but i cant and i wanna stop loving but i wont and i wanna feel full again but i dont #tw breakup #tw heartbreak

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rubiesintherough · 3 months ago

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#(( ooc. ))#.... so #if youre wondering why ive been so absent lately. ots bc im dealing with stuff like that. on top of handling everytuing around the house #and additional super stressful family drama #health scares caused by stress #the works. i feel like im a constant state of mindfuckery and i have been since we moved #thoght things would improve after getting away from MIL but apparently not #ive been so exhausted and stressed and pain has bee. spiking so bad #im really trying to be here bc writing has always been a calming thing for me like a fun distracting hobby #to get my mind off irl things but everytime i open up a reply i start crying #bc the words arent there and im too tired to even tupe bc im running myself ragged #and on top of that im dealing with hubby and whatever the f is up with him and the weird #180s he does where 1 second hes the sweetest most attentive guy ive ever known and the 2nd #im crying and apologizing for doing sometjing weong and i dont even inderstand what i did but hes upset at me #and somethings suddenly my fault #or im begging him for help around the apartment or smth #idk. i am really trying to be here i swear i am. i miss you all. i miss the stories we're writing together #i miss by bbys and wanna weite with them bc theyve been loud and active but i iust cant type what i want to #a single paragraph is taking me hours to get out no joke #idk. sprry for dumping all this on the dash out of nowhere im just kinda flailing right now and offkilter #gonna head off to bed and see if an actual good nights sleep for the first time in a week helps with my brain and makes things make sense #hope you all have a goodnight. sorry again for this #negative tw #negativity tw #venting tw #personal tw

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triglycercule · 2 months ago

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god i wish it wasn't only killer that could come back from the dead so that both horror and dust could die and it would be fine(ish) so they can all just kill eachother over and over. a little peek into my dark twisted mind ahh post but i seriously wish,,,,, time to make killer!versions of them so they'll both have human souls and then be able to respawn and then this idea will be real!

#they do WORSE than just fighting they LITERALLY KILL EACHOTHER #horror and dust can kill killer as much as they want!!!! but he cant kill them back??????#its okay killer can just sadistically torture them until he thinks theyve had enough in exchange #i want them all to die at eachothers hands but for it to have no consequence #if horrordust kill killer and it seriously pisses him off he waits for a few days/weeks/MAYBE EVEN A MONTH in the save screen #that way horrordust have time to think about what they did and itll make them miss him and then theyll see how much it bothered him #and only then will he choose to come back. would killer ever be that mean and petty #maybe not...... or maybe i just cant think of something that's bad enough that horrordust would have to do to get killer to do this #i can see him doing it though and thats the funny part. wdym thats manipulation NO ITS NOT!!!!#theyre so terrible for eachother UGH i LOVE IT!!!! eats the toxic relationship #its more than just a toxic dynamic atp its PHYSICALLY ABUSIVE #tricule rant #OMG killer and paranoia..... bc bc bc paranoia has alizas soul #so he can also save and reload. he cant reset tho i made that up i think #stage 3 killer and fight response paranoia in a constant loop of death and rebirth #until one of them moves on from that stage. idk how long fight response could last for paranoia i should decide #anyways killer!dust when. i need to make dust absorb a soul too so he can join killer and paranoia!#stop thinking about it youre gonna actually make ot happen triglycercule.......

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tommygotwrittenoff · 3 months ago

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i need eddie to get another guy friend in season 8, and buck loses his shit about it (again), so he breaks up with t because he's convinced that the weird feeling he gets when he sees them together is because he is Really attracted to the new guy.

#like things with t are fine cuz he likes exploring this new side of himself even if t doesnt always match his energy but whatever its fun #and maybe at work chim is the one who brings up eddies new friend and he is immediately just. what new friend?#chim laughs and says. tbf last time eddie got a new friend you attacked him so you could date his friend. hes probably keeping it to himsel #and bucks like. dude what. that was. yeah it was shitty of me but it was a one time thing. i wont do it again...#and when eddie shows up for shift buck immediately asks about his new friend and eddie tells him about the guy without hesitation #after shift tho buck is like. why didnt you tell me about him? after t i get why you dont want to but im just. you dont have to worry man.#buck. i know. im not worried. anyway he and i are gonna head to a bar to catch the game. you want to come with? you can bring t if hes free #oh. thats. thatd be okay? i dont want to idk ruin the vibe by bringing a date #nah man. itll be fine #and so he and t go to the bar and eddies already inside with the new friend and its Fine. its Great actually because t gets along with eddi #and the new guy and the new guy makes eddie laugh and doesnt miss a beat and knows more about the teams record this season than buck and #buck is doing Fine. this guys smile is big and his eyes are bright and when he laughs he sorta leans into eddies space alittle and its Fine #the night ends and buck and t go back to his apartment and buck cant stop thinking about that guys hand when it clapped down on eddies #shoulder or the look on his face as he teased eddie about the beer he drinks (cuz its kinda bad but only buck can say that) and buck Cant.#he wants that guy. he wants his hands and grin and teasing voice all to himself and not on eddie.#so he breaks up with t and ts confused af cuz i thought things were going good?#yeah. i just. i want to explore my options yk now that ive uh figured out i like men.#and its a clean break. not dramatic or messy. t tells him to call if he every changes his mind. buck wont.#bucks trying to not pry about eddies new friend and he doesnt grill eddie or anyone and just waits and listens to all the new info he gains #and eventually eddie invites him out to watch another game because whatever team they were watching made it to the playoffs #and when he gets there eddies like. no t tonight?#nah we. uh. we broke up.#eddie says sorry man that sucks. and the new guy is like. honestly he didnt even seem that into you which what an idiot. youre great.#and its good because the new guy splits his attention between the two of them now. eddie isnt the only one getting hands and grins and eyes #and the third time theyre at the bar the guy follows him to bathroom and kisses him hard against the door before pulling back with a #panicked sorry and leaving and when buck finds eddie after hes like. what happened? new guy ran out of here without even saying goodbye #he kissed me in the bathroom. i think uh. i think he was kinda freaking out about it and thats why he left.#and eddie just blinks at him before being like. buck. buck you said you werent going to do this again.#i didnt mean to! and buck means it. he just saw the way that guy made eddie laugh and put his hands on eddie and had eddies attention and #oh.

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dandyshucks · 4 months ago

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trying to tell other ppl about OCs is so hard and embarrassing, like yeah here's my automaton guy that I've been calling Empty Mask, yeah I nearly cried over the thought of him collecting broken porcelain dolls the other day, yeah he sounds kind of stupid but he's actually kind of a tragic character if u get to know his story,,,,,,

#I JUST FEEL SO STUPID TRYING TO EXPLAIN CHARACTERS TO PPL 😭😭#they always think empty mask is a weird silly name and it IS weird and kind of stupid fjfkdl #but its like. the cracked exterior shell of an automata and he's missing stuff behind the face shell.... THERES MEANING TO IT 😭😭#also its technically a placeholder name until he figures one out for himself once he finds a proper identity for himself...#BUT THE SAME THING WITH WARDELL #''yeah this is my guy who turns into a dog. um. the fae cursed him sort of and now he works for them? but he doesn't want to.#and he's... yeah u know what lets talk abt smth else actually'' DHDJDKL BLEASE i wish i was better at it #actually i could be better at it but i dont want to put effort into telling ppl stories if they dont care #and i cant tell if they care or not so i just give them a half-hearted explanation to judge their interest #and then ofc bc i do such a bad job then they aren't rly interested fhfkdl #but i AM a good storyteller if i actually put effort and heart into it 😭 I've been told many times how engaging i am w storytelling irl #i just. get scared to put effort into it LMAO esp when these stories Mean smth to me #i can tell someone abt when i had to try to cross paths w a black bear easy peasy bc thats just a thing that happened #but it doesnt Mean anything to me beyond it just being somewhat interesting #my characters though .... aaougghhh #dandy.cmd #vent //

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sorrowsaint · 6 months ago

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i like the kelp too

#.............................................#..............................................................................#......................#.....#i think if he was right in front of me i would kill him and i dont know if im okay with that #not that i want him to live no. that i would feel that way.#i like being a cleric because i dont really like hurting people. ill do it if people hurt me but i never seek it out #but i think if it was just me and him i would tear his throat out with my teeth like a wild animal and that scares me more than him #... does that make me a bad person?#i dont want it to be like that #no he hurt my friends. he made them hurt me. so hating him is okay.#i just cant let it define me. im not letting my rage or hate define me. im lucy frostblade and im nice and sad and thats ok #and thats okay. i think thats okay. and i mean that #and even if i do get scared i have friends. ruvina can you believe that? i have friends.#the high five heroes are still here but i also have baron and bee and miss gukgak and tracker and kristen #i have friends. my god loves me. im okay. i think im actually okay.#well. not fully and i dont think ill ever be fully okay ever again #but i think even thats okay. i should actually try in therapy i think #im still scared but when i turn my back on whats scaring me i dont see more scary things anymore #there arent more knives in the dark #there are hands and i can take them and be okay #im okay. and im not lying.

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marsbotz · 7 months ago

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i had a dream i had a beautiful loving friendship with gus fring to match the one where i was besties with mike. im so broken take me BACK!!!!!

#i could FIX him #alsooooo jesse was there i think he like. helped save gus at some point idk #i was like god damn best episode EVARRRR. heartbroken #i dont rlly remember the details i kinda slept like shit so im a bit scrambled #but ik we were fucking around w like.. game code? to make a pet shop?#so fucking random #we made a starfish and fucked up dog. there was a pool. a guy tried to kill gus. OH #he got shot and i had to stop him from bleeding out until the ambulance arrived #also he called. and cus they were super busy he was like ‘i can provide information aboyt felonies. also i have been shot in the chest’ LOL #wtf mike got shot in my dream abt him too. why thats so random #there was also a separate dream abt ummm. idk some sort of puzzle thing we had to do as a team…? saul was there. he set a fire as a scheme #but the fire ppl wouldnt come until he said there were ppl inside 😭#idk if i ever talked abt the mike dream here actually.#we were just friends…. besties… and he got SNIPED…….. and i tried to save him but he died #it was so sad the next day i was sad like all morning #feels similar now. miss u gus #^^^ EFFECTS OF ZERO FRIENDS #ummm anyway. more updates #i bought a meta quest like on impulse cus i saw they were cheaper now. the thing fucking sucks but vr is so awesome #ive been mostly playing beat saber cus my room is teeny tiny so i cant rlly safely turn #i started making my own map w a patricia taxxon song. SUPER fun i can see this becoming a new hobby #ive also been fucking around in vrchat a little. that shit is mindblowing #so immersive. its like unbelievable #ive only been playing that solo rn bc im shy and also testinb how well my laptop csn hsndle it LOL….#but its so awesome. i feel like a little kid #i had to get a better headstrap and face pad bc the stock pne is So bad. like i camt wear it for more thsn like 20 mins at a time #so maybe when that comes i will muster up the courage to go into public worlds #best world i have visted so far. udons bird sanctuary. i think irs called #U CAN FEED DUCKSSSSS. WAAAAGHHHH #one day i want to make my own avatar too. im feeling the inspiration

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