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ivymoonstudios · 1 year ago

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Jude Duarte, Daughter of Clay, High Queen of Elfhame

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spooky-activity · 7 months ago

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Finally warping outta there

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#my art #honkai star rail #hsr himeko #hsr kafka #kafhime #hsr stelle #hsr firefly #I wanted to avoid a foxian looking Himeko for her half-transformation #like that's hot and all but #really not fitting for the vibe #I didn't write it in because it made it look too cluttered but #there's the sound of bones cracking and muscles straining when she grows like that #those FX subtitles or whatever are in my heart #i wanted it to look pretty gnarly #buuuut nothing I tried was working for me #so this tame half transformation is what you get #maybe I’ll figure it out later 🤔

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seagulley · 4 months ago

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Took Kaija to an informal baby nosework class today where she learned how to search for and retrieve a piece of a red deer antler 🦌

#3 years #australian shepherd #dogblr #dog training #nosework #my tentative plan is to get a full roe antler from somewhere (i.e. probably from a hunter) and switch to using that #and maybe actually go out looking for real shed antlers at some point?? i've always wanted to try that.#a couple of things from today:#1) i don't really think this is something kaija has loads of natural talent for 😅#considering that at some points she was walking right past the antler or seemingly relying more on her eyes than her nose #but i guess time will tell maybe we'll figure it out eventually #2) we have a retrieve to hand now :')#i remember i was working on a (more formal) retrieve at some point but then the RO trial season started and that fell to the wayside #her retrieve atm may not be pretty but it works! and i'm happy about it!#3) nosework really tires her out fast. those wheels in her head were TURNING today and she's sooo exhausted now #so if nothing else then at least we have a fun new activity that we can do both indoors and out

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moeblob · 3 months ago

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i have no idea where the compulsion to giver her a pokemon came from ??? but her and her minccino gotta go make sure her husband stays safe.

#my characters #pkmn #honestly very shocked she got so many notes yesterday and yes she has a white cat #why did i feel the need to give her a pokemon ?? idk!#but also fun fact i cant recall if i mentioned in tags yet #is she really does just worry about how nice her husband is bc while hes recovering #she has to say mmmm maybe we DONT call an electrician over while im at work and cant be here for you #and hes like well why not ?? do you think the electrician is going to kidnap me????#and shes like not really but you ARE really gullible and suffering a head injury where you space out at times and i dont want #to leave you here with a stranger ok #and the husband is just like you know what thats actually so valid i am really gullible i might be tricked into something #and just accepts it ! hes like YEAH ! i AM easy to convince of things! my wife is so cool and smart and looking out for us #but its also why he realizes while hes at home recovering there are ONLINE COURSES he can take #and so he starts to look online and figures out how to fix the flickering himself and gets a couple online courses under his belt #and he uses his engineering and construction knowledge to help him figure out how to build death contraptions #and so his wife is like sweetheart why dont you try to do something with that as a job? you have the ability #and hes like yeah but what do i put on a resume?#i used free online lectures to fix lights in my bathroom and build really cool ways to die? trust me? ive died a lot?#and shes just yeah ok fair that is a bit hard to convince people you know what youre doing when you do it to die #loving wife loves her loving husband and together they go die a lot now ft a cute lil pokeman

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brionysea · 5 months ago

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if stranger things 5 comes out and they're like 'omg! the upside down has been a product of someone's dark and twisted mind this whole time! it's... WILL!' I'll immediately lose interest

#manifestation theory #I really hope not #like I don't. hate will. he's fine. but he's so easily likable that it doesn't feel rewarding to like him?#mike wheeler's been a menace this whole time so I had to put in work to figure him out #and they literally said 'getting to mike is the key' which would make sense if by understanding mike you understand everything #in the show where no one knows what's going on and also no one knows what mike wheeler is thinking ever. unrelated ofc #he isn't important look away. don't look at him #like why would they! make him the bad guy! if they're not going to MAKE HIM THE BAD GUY!!!!!#I'd say it makes too much sense not to do it but I'm always saying that and then these stupid shows do stupid things anyway #because. listen. if one of them is the heart and one of them has to die for the upside down to be permanently defeated #and that person is will #there's no conflict there. everyone loves will. because he's designed to be likable and for you to want him alive #but MIKE? mike's flawed. he's frustrating. he's a bad friend and a worse boyfriend. he's very obnoxiously a teenage boy #if it's mike the audience would need to be reminded that this is a Child‚ and no matter how much you personally dislike them #wanting children to die because you think they're useless and annoying and etc. IS NOT NORMAL #THAT'S NOT NORMAL! ESPECIALLY WHEN MIKE ALREADY THINKS THAT ABOUT HIMSELF!#mike being the heart gives the 'maybe we should just kill him' side of the trolley problem weight #think about it. really think about it. if they decide that mike has to die to keep everyone safe‚ what's going to happen?#the adults won't agree. hopper won't do it. he talked about killing mike before but he won't ACTUALLY let any of these kids die #maybe mike jumps off a cliff again but he needed the pressure of dustin's immediate safety and a countdown to make himself do it last time #what I think is more likely? nancy. she has guns in her bedroom (there's a 6 year old in the house I know where I keep my guns; her SISTER)#she hates the upside down for taking barb and making her feel like this; she wants to finish what they started - she wants to kill it.#if mike has to die‚ then nancy has to kill her own brother. because he can't do it himself and his big sister can do anything #does that sound right to you? this being the first time they agree and connect and are on the same page? is any of this right?

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trash-can-sam · 1 year ago

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What happens when your coworker kills your other coworker but both of you are in a relationship (kind of) with the same ethereal woman who had an admiration for said dead coworker.

+bonus Evandrey because it’s funny to me (I’m sorry Eva.)

#pathologic #pathologic 2 #andrey stamatin #yulia lyuricheva #eva yan #evandrey #yulieva #evaandrey #Eva yahn #Andrei Stamatin #see I think that Eva is very okay with Eva being how she is- promiscuous and spreading her love (Maybe a little jealous but more rooted in #self loathing and insecurities)#and she’s like look I’m okay with this whole open relationship (technically we aren’t in a relationship even though I really want to be)#thing BUT why HIM. I have to work with him and he’s by far the worst man I’ve ever worked with (besides maybe his brother because at least #Andrey actually talks but really they’re a package deal anyways) I need to have meetings with him often and it’s horrendous every time #like spread your love it’s noble really.#I wouldn’t expect anything else from you #but maybe give him less he’s annoying as hell #I also think that she’d figure out pretty quickly that Andrey and Peter killed Farkhad #just bcuz like. yk she’s there. she’s seen the already shaky relationship crumble beyond repair. she’s seen them argue in meetings.#she knows the stamatwins are not above murder. especially for art. and she’s clever.#And andrey knows that so he doesn’t try to hide it. she doesn’t have recourse anyways-#the kains (who I think helped cover up the murder) employ her too #and andrey respects her to a degree- he assumes she’ll see reason.#and honesty. Yulia might be upset that Andrey killed one of the only other architects but also she does not miss him that much.#she’s like I don’t agree with this whole murder thing but you are kind of right he had to go he was getting on my nerves #the meetings will be 10x more tolerable now that the twins can’t argue with him about things that aren’t even real #it’s awful but it did drive Eva further into my arms so necessary evils.#my art #sorry for the essay in the tags.

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harvestmoth · 11 months ago

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what do we think about pet store workers team xen

#for the pet thing i had a bit ago #neved doesnt work with them hes just a delivery driver for some of their supplies. he mostly helps out with his wifes orphanage #idk if clear kieran and eden are around too or not though im not thinking that hard about it #jenner used to work there too but he quit and works for something at home #hes like a stay at home dad now or something #cassandra is either part of corporate or shes just the evil mayor of gdc still and has no affiliation to them idk #she still has something going on with madelis no matter what though #eli and sharon work part time and ren is like the guy who gets them coffee or something. runs delivery too maybe #regina comes in sometimes too to flirt with nastasia when she can but thats like a side thing and completely unrelated #btw zepto is like a clay figure zetta made and is either alive or just a figure. you decide #sorry i was trying to think of something rejuv related to draw and ended up thinking a little too hard about the pet thing. my bad #pokemon rejuvenation #if you have no idea what im talking about with the pet thing its just rejuv but they have weird looking pets instead of pokemon #and i guess technically a modern au. whatever. melia still has the power of god and anime in her. dont worry about it #zetta isnt a clone though hes just a guy. idk where he comes from but hes jenners son and melias older brother #im not drawing madame x im sorry. but know she really does show up to her store wearing all that and never takes it off. + the uniform #oh and nastasia still just straight up has deoxys. dw about it

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creativesplat · 1 year ago

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ok... so Lambert x Eve...

Eve and the two Blaiddyds

Lambert and the two Fierenes

The step-siblings

@blaiddydbrokeit and I were talking, and they have now sent me down the wonderful rabbit hole that is Eve and Lambert getting married and looking after their children.

#Dimi desperately needs a good mother figure (y'know rather than his idealised image of Patricia who never really loved him and didn't pay #attention to him no matter what he says to himself (you know only having that one memory of her where she was looking out the window and ig #ring him) and then tried to murder him adn his whole family) anyway #Eve would be good for Dimi #and Lambert and Alfred and Celine would get up to all sorts of shenanigans #but also Lambert might be able to help Celine understand and overcome her fear of other's deaths #Dimitri in particular would be able to understand that fear and sympathise with her #and alfred is just having a great time with a new brother and dad because everything is awesome all the time and his old dad would have lov #d his new dad and he tells alear all about it and she's like ooh!#anyway an adorable meet the step-dad step-brother situation for the couple (you know my alflear loving heart can never resist an opportunit #anyway #other tags were originally messaged to a pal when we discussed the idea but I thought they would work under the picutres too:#crack ship or not Lambert and eve are adorable in my brain #lambert egitte blaiddyd #queen Eve #fire emblem engage #fire emblem three houses #anyway maybe in a heroes universe or something; or dimi revives Lambert using some sort of magic and then Lambert and eve meet up in a Fodl #an and Elyos meet and greet sort of ball and they become friends and then they discuss being widowed and through a long series of meet ups #realise a political marriage between them both would be good for Fodlan and Fahrgus and good for Fierene and Elyos and they're also in love #anyway they both visit each other's spouses graves on the anniversary of death #like they would both really respect their partner's deceased spouses and not be jealous at all when the other gets upset and is like #I really miss them. Because they both get it

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wackywatchdotcom · 2 months ago

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man, i have to go do something in a minute here, but i am CONSTANTLY think about like... how long DOES the average circus member last before they abstract?

we dont have a lot of information about the passage of time in general in the show (which is infinitely painful to me, who likes to know about technical details very in-depth. but i understand writing wise why its like this) other than that the first 4 episodes take place over the span of 4(? or 5, depending on how you interpret the ending scene of episode 4) (which this also intrigues me that 8-9 days will pass over the course of the show... and also makes me curious about just how eventful the average day truly is in the circus!) days and that everyone in the circus has likely been here for at MINIMUM 2 years

(i say that because jax says "weve been stuck here for years" which implies that all of the people there at the time have been there for more than one year and because of the plural years, a minimum of 2. maybe. he also could just be oversimplifying things but unless given reason to think otherwise im interpretting the line this way)

we know of a at least ~18 people whove been in the circus total, but i frankly think its more than that. we know ribbit abstracted before kaufmo, but we dont know when ribbit joined the circus, or how much time was between these

it also depends on how long you think the circus members have been trapped for. i personally think this has been going on for at minimum 10 years (i have my own hcs abt it being ~16 years, but thats just hc and based on a bunch of my interpretations of random details) but we dont really know this, and how long this has been happening, and how long kingers been here, and whether or not kinger has or hasnt been here the longest of anyone whos ever been in the circus

like if its been like 5 years thatd mean like... 3-4 people join the circus each year (on average). if its 10 years thatd mean 1-2 people join the circus each year (on average). and we dont even know how many people the circus has in it at one time on avg!! like theres the theory it floats around 6, but thats just a theory and not smth we know for sure. point being, we dont even know how often people join the circus and that effects a LOT of things

idk..... i guess the question really is 'how often can a person last in the circus before they literally cannot take it anymore' which is a much sadder question. we dont even know how long ago queenie abstracted, or ribbit abstracted. did zooble know ribbit? did ribbit get here before or after zooble did??

it just haunts me a little

#tadc #i perssonally dont think kinger is 'the' creator of the game. its a theory i see often but dont personally ascribe to #though i think him having worked on it is obvious. but i dont know if i think the game was 'his'#im also of the mindset that queenie was also working on the game which isnt smth i see much?#i think ppl assume she was an entomologist but imo that was just a passion of hers #not her job. but thats getting into hc territory #anyway i just think about like. the time frame a lot #they get up before 6 each day though..... or at least sometimes #if they ever get out (um. maybe.... not to sound bleak but erm. my hopes arent high)#their sleep schedules gonna be so weird they have not experienced a normal night-day cycle in years #but also #its too hc-y for me to include in the post proper #but imo a person typically maybe lasts a few months. people more predisposed to not being able to handle it prob abstract relatively 'early #but people who are more likely to be able to tolerate it long-term can pass that benchmark #i imagine the time spent is not often some middle pt. i think it likely lingers around the extremes #...actually thats probably WHY the people whove made it so long are so so very unwell #like yeah being in the circus is traumatizing and makes it worse #but people who already have problems nd stuff are. prob more used to a degree of despair and arent as easily struck down by the situation #tho if taken to the extreme obv they would abstract early on #theres probably some weird fucked up sweet spot of 'deeply unwell but not too much'#that enables a person to survive the circus for a really long time #as best highlighted with kinger #its less of an adjustment #...thats probably why ep 4 almost took gangle down actually. for a variety of reasons ofc #too mentally ill for the real world not mentally ill enough to abstract just mentally ill enough for the digital circus (/ref #of something but i cant figure out to look up what its a ref to...)#anyway i gotta make a tag for me talking abt like... meta stuff or smth #cus i do it a lot and i have fun #OH and also imo one persson abstracting prooobably puts others at greater risk of abstracting :(#what with how the show is emphasizing the role of Having People With You in making the circus survivable

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sysig · 6 months ago

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I’m turning you all into marketable plushies, you watch (Patreon)

Bonus eyes because embroidery brain:

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #ZEX #Original #Cure #Bar #Caleb Stern #Brain has turned to plush mush lol #Tsumtsums really feel like the correct outcome here for those two hehe ♪#I actually went about looking over my like - one and a half Tsumtsums to get a grasp on their construction #Y'know for funsies just to see just to be curious #I think they wouldn't be all that hard to make - something to consider anyhow #I was also thinking about the Tsumtsum sneezing thing lol - many Max all flopping around a Dex! Or many Dex overwhelming a Max haha #Still on the ZEX plush brainrot of course of course he's just so cute ;;#Thinking a lot about construction of his eye :0 I see the appeal of printed fabric so you don't have to contend with large embroidery #Or seams - especially on circles hgwegh not my favourite #Just want it to be flush and flat! Eye-shaped rather than any bulges hmmm how to how to #I'll figure it out - there's ways to make recessed edges in plushies too! Just a matter of how #Few originals to throw into the mix ♪ Cure's already a plush bear! Specifically with the plush pattern I have on hand #I personally don't care much for the pinch style of sewing on features but I feel like at least for her ear inlays that'd probably work best #For the ''meaty'' part of her ears maybe that could be full and proper lol #Barrr <3 Just now realizing how off-model I drew him lol but either way! Huggable! ♥ I've looked- ball-jointed plushies are Kind of a thing?#Even if it was just by shape tho it'd be awfully cute :) And to dress him up in a tiny jacket hehe #More of the Helix lads! Bit cleaner now that I know a bit closer what I'm aiming for hwah they're so cute ;;#I do think it'd be really fun for them to have different eye shines based on their personalities :D #It wouldn't be all that much more work - maybe a lack of practice on specific shapes but apart from that #And rounding out with a short joke lol Caleb's the shortest! It's only right that he'd be a smaller plush! Obviously! Lol

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bmpmp3 · 6 months ago

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post ankle-twisting clarity

#i slipped in the mudddddd the other day LOL i twisted my one ankle and scraped up my other knee #so the past few days ive just been kind of needing to waddle around.....#LUCKILY its healing well and fast <3 but yknow i was like #so stressed out over shit that doesnt matter in school. and like this is an awful unintentional habit i have but i will get like #overly stressed over shit and then i'll start getting SUPER careless with everything. and then i'll injure myself foolishly and Calm Down #happened last year with my foolish midnight woodcarving incident LOL its always november....#BUT yeah luckily this years foolish injury is a quick one at least!!#but yeah like genuinely i was so stressed out about all my fine arts major shit. teachers have been really getting on my case recently #my main professor said that it was a good thing people get so riled up with my work because it means its impactful #tbh i didnt believe her at all i thought she was just trying to placate me but then i listened closely to the things faculty say when #they look at my fucking. cartoon wolf drawing or something and i think. she might be right actually. people keep getting frustrated with me #because i think they see a lot of potential in me but i basically only have to drive to draw cartoon wolves etc HFKJSDHJVKRFEds #which is great for my ego. maybe too good for my ego. that my mark making and colour use etc is so evocative to these industry and #instutition people. but on the other hand i was told like thrice now that my work has no place in a gallery. which is fine although im not #totally sure how true that is. but also afterwards one time i was suggested to go into animation instead which is. um.#so its not out of nowhere i mean i did want to be an animator when i was like 10 but if you know anything about the current state of the #animation industry its like genuinely wild to tell someone who you've only seen 2 dimensional watercolour and acrylic painted #sketchy lined drawings from and who has said they cant do digital art anymore that they should get an animation degree?#brother they would kill me. i would be killed. i had an inkling but it really made me notice so clearly how limited the experiences my #faculty kind of have with certain industries. which is fine. or maybe not. for a professor LOL but yknow. but i was like huh. i guess i can #just kind of chill lol if i just keep doing things maybe something will come of it. i may not get as much help in my artistic development #rn as i would like. but its chill i think i'll figure it out if i just keep doing stuff <3 #doesnt really matter that my teachers dont know what to do with me. my kneeeee has a booboo so i am CHILLING out :)

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tateytots · 2 months ago

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the duality of me ig lol

#in the happiest relationship of my life and yet i am so very lonely!!!#not from him or bc of him just like. i miss having friends i wish i could combine my life w my fiance now #and my friendships from like three or four years ago or whatever #everything just feels so daunting #idk. i don't feel like i'm any different but maybe i am #life is all about growing and changing but no one said anything about how lonely it can be #like i'm looking at houses and planning a wedding in two yrs and my career movements and kids and all of this #trying to get this stray dog on my street to trust us and cultivating what i have in my apartment and budgeting #my step dad took a fall and he can't really walk anymore and im taking a whole week off just to clear my mom's house out #so that we can set a bed up for him downstairs until he can retire and they can move somewhere else #like i'm trying to figure all of this out and i am but it feels like i'm shedding who i used to be to do it #and i wish i could just have both of those exist. i wish i could stay who i was five years ago and be who i am now #and i have lexi she gets it because she's married with kids now #and emma and i have a set day to call every week but every time we call i just miss her so much #and my sister moved to another state to be with her girlfriend and i'm just here.#i miss being goofy with friends i feel too serious and preoccupied now #i just can't find a way to balance no one taught me how to balance #talking to people now make me feel like a creaky little robot. i don't know how to just BE anymore #i can with hunter and he's my best friend but him and i have talked about it and we agree that it's not the same #as just having friends that you can shoot the shit with!!!!!!#why is it so much easier to talk to my 75 year old neighbor and his wife and help them with yard work without never having met them before #than it is just to talk to people i have known and loved for years #i can go days or weeks without talking to friends that i don't physically see at work now #what is it about having undealt with abandonment issues that makes you close yourself off. those are incompatible ideas lol #it feels like i'm a stranger in my own life #i think the answer here is to just take a fat edible and then move AWN #tate.txt.#i'm avoiding reading back what i just typed LOL

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gibbearish · 9 months ago

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btw similar to the whole "if you try adderall at a party and it calms you down, get an adhd test" thing, if at some point in your life you try microdosing shrooms with a friend and end up feeling like a functional person for the first time in your life, get tested for depression. like yeah hallucinogens come with elation so youre probably gonna have some "this is the best ive ever felt in my life" vibes regardless, but like. if that in and of itself feels like finally breathing in for the first time in years, thats for sure a sign that something is up with your ability to process serotonin most of the time. feeling better than ever before should be a nice bonus, not a crushing weight off your chest

#fun fact there are currently multiple ongoing studies vis a vis the effectiveness of psilocybin on depression #both on its own and as a companion to ssris #psylocybin targets the 5ht2a serotonin receptors which wikipedia tells me are more numerous in the brains of those with depression #so like. if you spend most of your life feeling like your brain is an aquarium with a leak in it and serotonin is the water and your default #state is 'slightly damp gravel grinding painfully against itself' thats ummm not normal 👍#and on the flipside of that if you have depression that no other med has worked for and know a guy. its 1000% worth it #origibberish #also i say 'wikipedia tells me' as if i just looked it up but that all comes from a long night of spite filled research after i asked my #psychiatrist if we could use the fact that psylocybin worked for me as a basis to like. narrow down which legal antidepressant #might work instead of basically just throwing darts at a board every time #and after several minutes explaining to her that i was not just asking her to prescribe me shrooms but in a legal way she went #'ohhhh yeah no unfortunately theres been no research into that‚ yeah.... sorry......:)'#which. as far as 'lies you come up with on the spot to avoid having to say i dont know' go‚ that is. maybe the worst one to pick #like. 'no‚ thats not an option'? alright fine maybe theres some internal rules or something who knows #'theres no research' though just. immediately tanks any and all credibility 100% even on its own but considering the subject matter?#youre telling me. that humans. the famously curious species that researches fucking Everything. and also Loves playing with drugs. when #trying to figure out how to make drugs that make brains feel good. would not start with the drugs they already knew made brains feel good.#youre telling me that not one (1) singular scientist tried shrooms and went 'oh my god wait. i dont feel like im dying for the first time #ever. holy fuck i need to study this'#complete misplay. absolutely legendary fumble. there were so many ways to fuck it up and somehow you found the worst. congratulations #om the other hand though. really was an excellent setup for the punchline that is the voicemail i have from them saying she'd been fired LOL #they didnt say what for specifically but yknow. based on my own experiences i certainly have theories jebfksbfk #it was annoying in the moment but at the end of the day i have shrooms and she doesnt have the job so. whos laughing now emily KSBFKSBFKDN #this is what i mean though like. rn i feel fine. not on top of the world‚ not like a god #just. fine. i just dont feel like shit. i feel like i can do stuff if i want to‚ or chill peacefully and have it actually be. relaxing.#i dont feel like gravel right now‚ i feel like a person.#and god what a fucking relief it is #really i guess the moral overall is that if at any point you react to trying a new drug the same way an addict craving a hit for days would #then there maybe is something up with your brain chemistry because that means your default state of existence is comparable to that #of withdrawal. a famously shit experience

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lieutenantselnia · 10 months ago

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Yesterday I've been doing some proper physical exercise for the first time since last year and I'm just imagining how proud my f/os would be of me🥹

#it was just a 20 minute beginners home workout and I can feel every muscle in my body now but I think they'd be so happy I pushed through!#I've had particularly Heinz and Maximilian on my mind I think they would be sooo happy that I'm trying to take better care of myself💖#Heinz because he's always there anyway of course but I kind of imagine Max is probably overall the fittest out of my f/os #he seems like the kind of guy who'd want to be an example for his soldiers and always hold himself to the same standards as them #he'd be so supportive and cheer me on and be proud of me every time I get myself to do something😭💖💖#I've never particularly enjoyed doing sports (aside horse riding but in the past year I didn't have time anymore for that bc of uni😭😭)#so I didn't really do anything anymore after I finished school #I started doing simple home workouts last year but in winter my mental health went a little📉 and then I had no motivation to keep going #dunno how long I'll go through with it this time but better than nothing I guess #again with the home workouts lmao bc driving to the nearest gym ain't worth the time for me and I'd need some basic fitness first anyway #I'm doing it mainly for health reasons but this time I'm also motivated to actually get a bit stronger #I don't mind looking like a stick figure and I'm overall content with my body (maybe it could help me to look a bit more masc tho?👀👀)#but I know especially for my posture and such it would be good if my muscles were just a tad bit more developed #my mum was proud of me too when I told her about it hehe :) she works in healthcare she's always a little concerned #she's just a little worried about me getting health issues when I'm older that could be avoided by taking proper care of my body now #I get where she's coming from but it's not easy but at least I'm motivated to try again now :)#selnia talks

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neverendingford · 2 months ago

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#tag talk #vent #also I'm gonna complain because I had another experience of “I look dumb because I assumed things followed rules and they don't”#okay so most heavy machinery uses keys (as opposed to numberpad locks) right? right. so I'm renting out a boom lift to a guy and we finish #finish the rental process and I go out with him to unlock it and get it hitched up to his truck. and I'm like oh right you need the key.#so I go in to the key box and there's a shit ton of keys and they're supposed to be organized and of course they're not organized at all.#so I take a picture and text it to my tool tech and then call him to be like hey which fucking key goes to the 35' boom lift???#and he gives me a vague description that matches 3 keys so I'm like okay I'll figure it out from here. and I check and all 3 keys have #have different teeth. now most times the same brand and type of equipment will just have the same key. a kubota key will turn on most kubota #but they have different teeth. so I'm like okay I'll just try each key. it's only 3 keys it'll be easy. so I go out and I try the first key #and it turns. cool. problem solved right? I get suspicious and try another key. it also turns. I get worried. I try the third key. it works.#I'm now concerned because they're literally keyed differently. so I get worried they they all turn but maybe they won't really all Work #now in retrospect I realize that it's not that complicated. like those cheapo locks that have a “key” but really can be opened by anything #but I'm stressed. the inspection process already crashed on me once. and I'm alone and behind schedule for closing up shop.#and because I learned a rule as a kid. locks can't be opened by different keys. and I had 3 different keys.#so I call my tool tech again and I'm like man I don't know which is the right key they all turn in the starter #(it's electric so it's not like an engine turns on or anything.) and my tech is very clearly confused and I'm panicking because this guy's #been trying to rent this boom lift for the past thirty minutes and the program crashed and now this green kid doesn't know which key to use #and anyway. I realize all too late that any of the 3 keys would work (even though they're. once again. literally KEYED DIFFERENT)#and I have a mortifying moment where I just.. hand him the key and am like “any of them would work”#and I've been sleeping like shit the last few days so I've been stuttering like hell and he's been giving me sympathetic looks the wholetime #and anyway I'm gonna go down myself in the bathtub or something I feel like a fucking idiot #need one of those “be patient I have autism” shirts or something.#and like.. I'm MAD. because keys are supposed to work how keys work. I got taught how locks work and now they work differently??? ughhhhh #I know it's stupid but I'm mad because it's a stupid little thing and now I look like a fucking idiot and I'm not and yet I am #I know if I were R this wouldn't bother me and I would laugh and be able to slow down my mind enough to speak slowly and clearly #but I can't I'm not her I'm not wearing my armor right now I'm stuck weak and stupid and I know I'm venting I know I know I know I know #I should add the vent tag so people can block this accordingly. so you can ignore my- no calm down buddy don't get that self pitying okay?#hey it's alright. I'm gonna post this and we're gonna have a chat okay?

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lyssafreyguy · 7 months ago

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found some cheap heart sunglasses at the dollar store with my mom last night so now Gay Barbie has some cute sunglasses :3

#i literally just unscrewed the arms popped them off and threaded the holes so i could attach them to the top of her head lmao #i DID think about trying to have them sit on her nose since they're an alright size #but i couldn't really figure out how sewing them on that way would work. maybe i'll figure it out another time!#i like how they look on top of her head for now she looks cute

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