#in our system and so I have a lot of thoughts about it

[tadpoles-and-daydreams]

Op thank you for this. Bc fun fact, to all who remember that we were in such active communication with our deities that we enjoyed channeling them for writing and whatnot bc we could get specific words and such from them-

That's rarely happened since we realized we were plural. We were so overwhelmed with rearranging how we think, parsing whose thoughts belonged to who, learning to trust our own perception of our thoughts and recognize when a new member of our system is being discovered, etc. etc. Having to literally change how we thought was pretty damn intense for obvious reasons, especially because it involved learning to TRUST our reality; something we've struggled with a lot. So our deities, our practice, everything witchy just stepped to the side while we figured that out.

All our communication to our deities was abruptly cut off. We still don't feel quite right about where we're at- we distrust the communication we get, still, and we don't get much. Likely DUE to the distrust. But we're slowly getting back into it, I think. We feel better about it. We're not working on our practice quite as much, but it's because we have other projects to work on that our deities are helping us with- not because we're neglecting it and feel bad.

Sorry for hijacking your post OP, I didn't mean to- I feel very strongly about this since it's something we're currently experiencing.

-Phoenix

For those of us who have active communication with our gods, it can be unsettling when we go through long periods of time with little or no contact. We may feel tempted to think we have been abandoned, or that we’ve done something wrong.

When this happens, remember that the gods are very old, and have a very different experience with time and reality. Take a good look at the things that have been happening in your life recently. Chances are, you’ll begin to see traces of the gods’ influence, like an artist’s signature scrolled very subtly at the corner of a painting.

[plurapony]

i was scrolling through the syscourse tags yesterday and saw an anon ask that made my JAW drop and I have some thoughts (quite a lot actually) so let's discuss! cat photo is my honest reaction 😯

You're not going to relate to every single person with DID, you just aren't. Thinking that way is going to end being really damaging to yourself because you're expecting the impossible. People have commborid disorders that are going to affect their presentation and their symptoms - commborid disorders that you DO NOT have.

This isn't a "spicy take" this is a really selfish and self absorbed take. Those with DID online do not exist for you to relate to, not everything is about you. The world doesn't revolve around you and you need to grow up and realise that.

We personally do have commborid disorders! We have OCPD and to achieve the extreme amounts of perfection our brain asks of us we must organize everything - which involves our brain and our DID. Whilst we do view ourselves as all parts of Plura, let's be honest using "me and other me" gets reaaally confusing after a while. We all have seperate names because when we are viewed as separate it is easier to work out the different a) amnesia barriers b) personality traits and c) roles they play in the system with their unique set of personality traits. Then we can dig a little bit deeper and find out the causes for why they are the way they are. What trauma resulted them to be this way?

And the other part of it is simply respect! Our parts all being viewed as separate and having unique names makes us feel respected, we feel valued and we feel loved. Majority of our trauma results from being neglected, so to feel cared about by our other parts is so incredibly important to us. We are ourselves but we are all part of Plura and feeling respected and loved results in better communication and system accountability upheld. We really do want to do what's best for Plura, all of us do.

And you know what's the funny thing? That's our experience and that's OUR healing journey. You do not need to have the exact same healing journey in order for you to be healing. I don't expect you to relate to me, I don't exist to be related to. If viewing yourself as one and never separate works for you? That's great! You don't need the entirety of Tumblr to have the same experience for that to be a positive for you. Worry about yourself, not others.

[system-of-a-feather]

Honestly, a thing I've kind of started to realize within both our proper involvement within trauma / mental health care spaces and within our own healing, a large issue (not bad or derogatory, but rather a "flaw" and an obstacle that gets in the way from the most effective condition) is that a lot of DID / OSDD / CDD spaces are heavily built with a large atmosphere and focus on trauma, trauma labels, terms, the nuances of what is and isn't possible, and just largely a lot of the talk and engagement is about sharing one another's trauma stories and explaining How The Trauma Happens and the details of how Trauma Has Affected / Impact / Forever Changed You and that is COMPLETELY expected and understandable

Trauma is an incredibly harmful, incredibly hurtful, incredibly impactful thing to go through and it can very very easily make you feel EXTREMELY stuck in the place you are. It's not something that can easily swallow your existence - especially if you have DID and even more so if you are specifically a part that got the misfortune of having the role of holding trauma or being explicitly stuck in flashbacks. There is nothing *wrong* with the community being like that, it's completely expected and there is nothing *bad* about it. I think it is incredibly more helpful and better than everyone being isolated, uninformed, unsupported, and having *nothing* to help them through what is often an unsafe environment or the challenges of early recovery.

That said, both of those values / beliefs / mindsets are incredibly trauma-driven focuses that - in the process of helping meet needs, a sense of community, and safety (things individuals with a trauma history have a lot of a need for), reinforce the building of one's sense of self and identity AROUND and on top of the trauma and thus also kind of reinforces the idea that someone is defined, forever stuck, and distanced from other people based on their trauma.

And I think that is a key thing thats a difference between peer survivor groups processing things together and proper professionally guided group therapy of survivors. I'm not saying that professionals and group therapy is "good", because I have had a number of really negative experiences with it myself and as a person with a trauma background myself (even if I talk like this, I'm not immune) I both distrust "officials" and instictually would very much prefer if people who have not experienced extensive trauma stayed out of my trauma spaces.

What I am kind of trying to say is that in the former, there is an issue of the blind leading the blind as everyone involved is more or less stuck in that trauma space / mindplace that makes it hard to see the avenues of healing that go BEYOND trauma and are not something that individuals who are still deep in the trauma sauce are not going to really be the most open to. In the latter, in theory, there is a heavy trauma-responsive and trauma-informed professional who is both able to understand, empathize, be attuned to, and respond positively to traumatized individuals and the frequent challenges; and that not "In the Trauma" view provides a lot of essential and helpful opportunities to challenge (positively) some of the largest generalized trauma views / values and help in developing and builiding a sense of self and a life that is not as heavily built upon the basis of "Trauma being Defining" to who you are.

And as someone who was there before, its totally fine if you have a problem with me saying that "Trauma does not have to define your entire existence and doesn't make up everything of who you are" because 1) I don't know your story and 2) You don't have to trust me, you have no reason to trust me on that; but as someone who went through a shit ton of trauma and recovery myself, I hope that its something you would at least humor that I strongly believe that and have seen it multiple times - both in human and nonhuman experiences.

I just really say that because in my experience, the most important belief and self concept to challenge that REALLY changed how I felt about myself, my disorder, and my symptoms was the development of the belief that "I went through a lot of trauma and it greatly impacted me, but trauma isn't all of who I am and with every day I live outside of it, trauma becomes a smaller and smaller portion of who I am"

I think its important to hold discussions on how healing doing things and engaging in conversation AWAY from trauma can actually greatly help develop a sense of self apart from trauma and paradoxically greatly help in recovering from it. It sounds very anti-intuitive and against what might feel right / productive in the moment, but it's honestly really just such a powerful thing in my experience.

[doomdoomofdoom]

Every now and again I wonder if maybe all trans people face roughly the same amount of bigotry and one just gets more attention, but then i have to read terf posts and.

wow.

obviously every group of trans identities faces their own struggles and unique oppression but there's this incredibly vitriolic kind of hatred reserved for transfems and its sickening.

[seventh-district]

7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos

[moonilit]

I like to think Bruce have a journal, not as batman just as Bruce Wayne and you can see where he wrote all the headaches he gets from his kids

[kazumasougi]

im gonna be real for a second. if fantasy can only be enjoyable to you when removed from any and all real world implications then is it even good

[nexus-nebulae]

thinking about when i had such intense phantom limbs as a kid i told my math teacher about it

[skrunksthatwunk]

i would really appreciate it if i didn't have a brain that thought torturing me was a helpful response to being scared of us. im your copilot stop fucking tazing me you dick

[ratatatastic]

panthers outdoor game at loandepot... FUN but also do you people want our traffic TO DIE. DO YOU THINK DOWNTOWN CAN HANDLE THAT TRAFFIC??? AS IF IT DOESNT IMPLODE ON ITSELF WHEN PEOPLE COME DOWN FOR HEAT AND FISH GAMES. PLEASE THINK OF THE RESIDENTS WHO LIVE THERE

[caffeinatedopossum]

Watching neon genesis evangelion and it's extremely relatable, to the point that I'm pretty sure I have quoted it exactly before without ever having seen it

[thethingything]

local man discovers he's gotten into the habit of using DBT techniques without actually being taught them because at some point he realised that the things we get the urge to do when we have strong emotions often aren't healthy and that he doesn't like how he feels afterwards so he started noticing when that was happening and going "fuck that shit" and doing the opposite instead

[blu-engineer]

weird trains of thought at 5/6 am

[pepprs]

also like to clarify.. we were not expecting her to leave. and any time she would have left would’ve been bad timing but it’s like.. this was HER program and we didn’t have enough time to really get to know it as well as she did (and still does probably). and there are so many flaws in it that we didn’t have time to address and our attention was spread so thin bc we were / still are juggling a million things and trying to compensate for the vacancy in our already extremely and egregiously small staff. so i get that the leaders may be feeling unsupported and resentful of that and that is very valid. but it’s like.. if that is in fact the case i think it’s important to know that this is not ideal for us either. we lost the person who knew this program inside and out and we still haven’t recovered and even though her position has been filled now (by my new colleague bestie who is AMAZING and has been helpful and supportive and has gone above and beyond in every way and i adore them don’t get me wrong) we may never fully recover from it or at least we won’t for a very long time. and im not even just talking about like the impact on our work. i mean on us as people who were closely psychically bound together. which sounds freakish and weird but we were. that wound is going to take a long time to fully scar and when the scar forms it will always be there. so excuse us for not putting on a perfect asb less than a year after she left us we are kind of seeing the consequences of all of the horrors right now lol.

[skipppppy]

“You shouldn’t self-ID as ADHD/autistic, you’re turning a very real mental condition into a trend” Ok then stop saying delulu. Stop speculating on which cluster C personality disorder the criminals you hear about on the news have. Stop saying “schizoposting” and “acoustic” and “is it restarted?” Stop using “psycopath” and “sociopath” as catch-all ways of calling someone a bad person. Stop saying “the intrusive thoughts won” when you bleach your hair and then turn your nose up at people who suffer from very real, very scary urges of physical/sexual violence. Stop saying “I’m so OCD” as a way of calling yourself neat. Stop treating BPD/ASPD/Bipolar as inherently abusive. Stop saying “OP I am living in your walls” without tagging for unreality. Stop diagnosing complete strangers you’ve never met on r/AITA with NPD.

You first. If you don’t want our disabilities to be treated like trends then stop belittling and minimising them. I’ll NEVER judge a person for trying find labels for their symptoms when an apathetic, racist, sexist, ableist healthcare system refuses to. But I will absolutely judge a hypocrite. Which a lot of you are

[apilgrimpassingby]

I thought today - the TV show I'd really like to see is one about a medieval monastery.

You could have all kinds of characters: the pious guy who joined because he wanted to serve God, the son born out of wedlock sent there to cover up his parents' shame, the geek who wanted to study Latin but couldn't afford to go into university, the former knight sick of violence and afraid for his soul... Plus monasteries were centres of pilgrimage and places where criminals could take refuge, so we can have a lot of characters who crop up for a few episodes and leave.

Some plotlines I thought of:

Our relics aren't bringing in the pilgrims the way they used to - what do we do?

A women fleeing an abusive marriage has taken shelter in the monastery - how will the brothers respond to having a women in their midst?

One of the monks wants to leave - will the abbot accept or not?

A murderer has taken refuge in the abbey, and the abbot decides to try and save his soul - what will happen?

People are coming to the monastery for food during the famine, but the monastery is itself short of food - how will this be dealt with?

War has broken out between two local lords, and the monks attempt to broker a treaty - will it work?

I've already mentioned some reasons why I think this setting would lend itself to television, but I'd also love to make it for two other reasons:

Get people to understand how weird medieval religion could get, but also that, within its own frame of reference, it was a reasonable and consistent belief system.

Show people that the Middle Ages consisted of more than just muddy people stabbing each other and burning scientists at the stake.