#im so tired of feeling this way

[girlyteengirl16]

there is something deeply wrong with me that no one will ever understand

[graciebrams]

when is this going to end????????

[wxvzkk]

wait why am i actually always alone 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[bunnyboy-juice]

mm.

[acespacecadet]

...

[archivebottles]

Happy birthday to the most special girl in the universe!! Wanted to try something ambitious and ended up with the biggest comic I've done to date

[basedhoya]

i want to forget everything

[beaulesbian]

One Piece Live action season 1 + hints or similarities to future One Piece moments (specifically after East Blue saga) - part 1: episodes 1-3

This wasn't meant to be a comparison between the live action and the animanga, but more so seeing these added/modified scenes that differ from the manga, yet with some of the acting/writing includes clues and hints to different and future canon material, or even characterization that necessary doesn't fit East Blue yet, but fits well enough into later arcs.

Luffy not knowing his world directions both in Opla (ep 1) /// Skypiea arc, in anime ep 168. But it could be for honestly any other arc (Funny thing is, in Opla he rang the bell that unfortunately alerted Alvida's crew, and only when I was rewatching that scene it made me connect it with the great Luffy moment at the end of Skypiea.)

The matches that Zoro has on the Island of Sixis in Opla ep 1, possibly manufactured on Baldimore (?), with a name Beast of Baldimore. /// After Sabaody Archipelago Franky was sent to Baldimore by Kuma, finding Vegapunk's homeland and laboratory, and also developing more of his science projects, as well as causing funny incidents, such as the Burning Beast. (It has probably nothing to do with the matches, except for the 'tiger on fire' motif and the name of Baldimore, but the details of Opla are just so fun!)

Zoro's first meeting with Luffy in Opla episode 1 is really different but fun nonetheless, especially with wording of the line that he doesn't want to 'play pirates' with Luffy. It's such a great setup line for his development to truly be one of the very first to understand how much Luffy means everything he's doing /// Zoro in ep. 323 Post Enies Lobby arc, making sure both his crew and the audience know how seriously he takes being part of Luffy's crew and what it means for future arcs.

Opla ep 2, Luffy mentioning Shanks' way of thinking about fighting (or not fighting someone who's not worth it) /// ep. 146 Jaya arc, Luffy saying to Zoro not to fight Bellamy's crew, which was direct influence from Shanks not fighting the Mountain bandits in the first chapters of the manga. It's interesting that for both of these scenes both Zoro and Nami are there to hear this.

This is just a fun bit, but seeing Nami excited about having a bath was cute. Opla ep 3 /// anime ep. 326, just after they get Sunny and everyone was finding out what space there is for them.

Garp and Koby playing the game of Go, Opla ep 3 /// CP0 agents playing Go while discussing the outcome of Strawhats & Oden's crew's raid on Onigashima against Kaido. It seems like a game that maybe Marines play more/enjoy (?) & above, up to CP ranks.

Usopp 'retelling' a story about eating a dragon, Opla ep 3 /// Punk Hazard ep 580, Zoro killing the dragon and planning with Luffy what's the best way to cook and eat it. Lol. In next chapters Luffy was carrying a big chunk of it, seemingly ate a bit part of the dragon already.

This one is self explanatory. Zoro is so gone for Luffy in Opla it's insane. Every time I remember that I get emo. ep 3. /// One of the first really fond smiles that Zoro keeps smiling at Luffy, a mixture of proud and understanding how Luffy works. ep 63, but it's just so much better in the manga, just look at it. Smitten™ (ch. 104)

[mossy-aro]

ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.

when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!

that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.

but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!

joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.

and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.

tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.

[heirloommtomatoes]

the way kaladin is like. the only character who gets an arc relating to overcoming his prejudices but it’s…him overcoming his “prejudices” against lighteyes…like huh……?

[theythemmer]

phinktober day 11: ur fav AU

i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo

(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)

ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3

[wxvzkk]

I yearn so much. For you, for me, for something. I want things I know I was never meant to have. I was put onto this earth to want. I was born to watch others have the life I wish so deeply for. I sit seemingly content but the longer I wait the quicker the chance to stop it all comes. I have long accepted the fact that I will not have what I yearn for. I have accepted that I won't ever have what I want. I've accepted that until I am already decomposing, I won't be seen. Those flowers I have wished for, to be felt wanted, to be me, I will never have it. I know all of this and it's something I've accepted. I will spend my last days knowing I'll finally get what I want. I know how those who have ignored my signs and cries for help will react. They'll blame themselves, sob to other people and ask how could they have missed it? How could they have let me come to this?

My mom will mourn her baby, never seeing me as her son but there won't be much I can do about it when I'm gone. My sisters will cry, guilt overtaking them as they realize my jokes were no longer just that. That no matter how many times they reminded me of my worth, of how they need me, it wasn't enough; Kass will cry, I'll be the reason for her life going worse than it is now. The added stress will cause her to fall deeper into her own emotions. Rora will fall deeper into the path we have all feared for ourselves, she'll use substances to cope while her dreams and aspirations become simply dreams, something unreachable and I will be to blame. Angela will use this to gain sympathy points, it won't be about me, rather her. She will do just as she did to her brother before me, use our death as a way to excuse her behavior, the only difference is that she won't be able to use seeing my body as an excuse. Justin, I'm not even sure how he would react. I know he loves me, hes one of the few people who actually make me feel loved. He's accepted me and watched me grow up, becoming a father-like figure to me. I know he will mourn me, it might cause him to have walls, fearing of opening up and wondering if it was his fault at all, or if there was anyway to stop me. My nephews, those poor boys, will never know me. I'll be to them what my uncle was to me, a story, a concept. Someone they know of but never know. Manolo is older, he might remember me. Faded reminders of my touch, voice, and my face will flood his memories when I'm brought up, he will wonder where I went and why I'm not there anymore. Marco may not even remember me, its a blessing and curse at the same time. I hope, that if I go, he does. I hope he knows in his heart the memories we share. I hope they both do. I hope they have memories of my days with them. I hope I'm not a story. I hope I inspire them, I hope they wish to have me near them. I hope they look up to me. If my sisters choose to have more children, I will never know them. They will hear about me and sit in silence to what brought me to this, how my fate had taken me down this path. They will be told of my achievements and aspirations and wonder what took me to the edge. My sweet baby Olli will know, she'll know I'm gone. I won't be coming back. She'll know. I know she will. She'll cry and wonder why I left. She'll be the one to sit next to my lifeless body, wondering what happened to her dad. She'll be the one I spend my last moments with. She'll be there as I take my last breath. I hope she will nuzzle closer to me as she notices I'm leaving, I hope I can feel her warmth as the last thing I notice. I hope her warmth overtakes the pain and its all I notice.

It scares me, the fact knowing if I follow through with this that I will never hold my nephews. That I will never feel their touch. Never hear their laughs as I tickle them and rough house. I won't go visit them and I won't play video games for them. I won't cook their food, I won't change them, I won't play with them. I will never be there in their lives again. I will never know the future generations that I should know. It scares me that in my heart, I've accepted it. I sit here, crying, and I think about the weight of all this. Never having a future like I want, knowing that I'm no longer joking whenever I say something about taking my life. The fact that when I 'joke' its a cry for help. Its become a sob at this point. I'm not hiding from anyone that I need help. Whats worse is no one seems to care. Its hard to sit here, doing everything I can to have an adult, maybe even a child, help me but instead I watch them ignore it all. Isn't it shitty that I, a child, have resorted to this as a final attempt for help? The only way I can see myself getting the attention that could bring help is by doing this, is that selfish of me? Is it wrong of me to want help? Will I ever get help? Or will I finally have enough and take my life? It seems the path I am going down will be the worse option.

I don't wish for these to be my final days. I know I don't. Deep in my heart, I want to keep living, I want to keep creating memories, I want to live. But this is so hard, to sit here, to feel so useless, to feel empty, alone, ugly. Too many things to even mention. I feel horrible, I am a horrible person. I know there are people out there who hate me. I know some are closer to me than others. I know people wish I wasn't in their live. I know people look back on the memories with me and resent them. And I know they won't read this, but I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused you.

I'm so scared. A part of me isn't, but most of me is. If I do this, will anyone even care? I know people say they do but I dont feel cared for at all. I don't feel like you want me here. How do I believe you? I'm stupidly emotional, I'm selfish. I sit here, thinking of how people try to reach out but I am too terrified of putting a burden onto someone that I say nothing. People know I'm not okay. They watch me, I know they do. They know I'm not okay. I wish one of them would help me. But I dont even know if I actually want help, what help could they even give me? These are my problems, not theirs. I'm tempted to telling my therapist of my thoughts but I'm scared of then me being put into a facility. I was already threatened with it and I'm not sure I even want to go there. Well, I know I don't want to.

I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry if I do go through with this. I'm sorry if you feel guilt. I'm sorry if I'm no longer there for you. I'm sorry. I just want my sisters to know even if I do end up doing it. Its not your fault, or anything that could have been stopped. Clearly yall have been trying for years lol. I'm sorry that the last days I spent with you were full of fighting and I'm sorry for making you worry. I hope, that if it happens, you guys will continue to live. I hope you guys will be happy. Don't forget me, don't let the boys forget me. That's all I ask.

[deoidesign]

Return date for my webcomic, Time and Time Again!

It's been set for a while but sometimes they change the date without warning, so I'll keep you updated if anything changes!

I'm extremely proud of the work I've been doing on it, I can't wait to share everything!

See you then!

[ganondoodle]

(OC Lore and design time!)

(it got longer again ... sorry ... idk how to make things short, i just need to talk, but i guess if you can read the written stuff in the pic thats the barest bare bones of what i wrote here)

i was asked what new lore story stuff i had thought about that made me sad which i mentioned a bit ago, and while that is too hard to explain given all the missing context i thought i could at least talk about lore having to do with it :D

so, (Lord) Eadrya is one of my fav OCs (big blue lad, here a rough sketch in humanoid form) they are both one of if not THE most powerful demon alive and the most battle trained;

at the mid point of the story the demon world gets invaded by the celestials (the angel inspired things i talked about in the previous lore post with Xaror) and Shargon, as the king, should be their first and only frontline, but at this point his life is only being sustained by maschinery after being mortally wounded, he cannot fight (he realizes what is going on, rips himself off the maschinery to get at least his youngest child to safety, barely managing it before dying- the guardian, the demons god, takes over his body to attempt to fight against the celestials but cant keep itself alive long enough since its host is already dead) Eadrya takes the role of the frontline fighter (despite being very full of themselves and aggressive they care about their 'job' of protecting their own, also giving them the chance to show off just how strong they are); the fight was going well for them all things considered, but when the guardian activates it drains the power of all elemental lords (which Eadrya is one of, and since they have the most strength it also takes the most from them), so much so that they lose the fight and suffer deadly wounds (the worst being a spear through the chest made of a material that grows hard, root-like formations when in contact with demonic blood like a fungus but worse, also stopping any self healing processes) after the guardian falls apart it creates a huge shockwave of energy that stuns every living thing within a certain distance and possibly more-

Eadrya (in true demon form, so like a blue whale in size at least) was likely taken through an active gateway to the human world in a large tidal wave also created by the guardians fall; they wash up in the harbor of a small secluded village, the head of which is 'lady 13'; although never having seen a demon before and everyone being afraid (largely thinking its a strange hurt animal, only she suspected otherwise), they still gather all villagers to pull out the celestial spear, which is diffcult and brutal given that its already taken root, but the village lacked both knowledge and means to help any other way- doing so damaged their heart which is how they were able to collect samples of all three demonic blood types ('normal' -red like humans-, energy -essentially purely magic- and heartblood -highly concentrated energy only found within the heart of a demon and the only one to contain genetic material) (this is the start of Eadryas character arc, having to deal with the fact that their world is likely destroyed, them failing what they didnt think they could fail, having lost a battle so badly (even if not really their fault) for the first time and not knowing if literally anyone else has survived .. also being now stuck in the human world, which they dont like)

Lady 13 (placeholder name? stands for experiment 13) is a human that was tricked by demon hunters to enroll into a series of experiments trying to create hybrids of demons and humans, which they hoped would be powerful and easily controllable tools for their endeavours, though the two are inherently not compatible, they tried grafting body parts of demons on humans to make them compatible- all experiments failed except for her, more or less, though she never got to see the hybrid she carried and was then told it had died too, they threw her out believing she wouldnt survive much longer either and all such experiments were cancelled due to the high cost of human life, research material (demons are still rare) and upkeep with no successful results Lady 13 survived though (perhaps even via the pirates picking her up?) and she ended up living in said small village far away, hiding her half demonic body, though most know there soemthing 'wrong' with her (her being this tall when it doesnt fit the rest for one), only few know the full extent; she enjoys the life she has now, perhaps on the more poor side but safer and more loved than ever before; she largely lead the efforts to try and help Eadrya when they ended up in the harbor, though there wasnt that much anyone could do it was still enough- they leave immediately after waking up, but return after really having nowhere to go and struggling to deal with everything that has happened; over time (probably years) they start to open up towards the people there (though not .. very much) enough to get rather close with Lady 13 too- she actually falls madly in love but after Eadrya (extremely aro/ace) rejects all her attempts quite clearly she respects their boundaries

However, after hearing news of potential demon sightings Eadrya decides to leave in hopes of not being the last demon left after all; Lady 13 then decides to reveal her secret to them (though hearing and seeing what lengths hunters would go to for their experiments makes them absolutely seething with rage- she insists on not being out for revenge) and asks if they would be willing to donate a small amount of heartblood; shes always wanted to be a mother but is now incompatible with humans too- through things she picked up back at the experiments facillity, hers and her doctors research she is sure that is all that is needed, she dares to ask since she does not know when, if ever, she will meet another demon, much less one she could actually trust enough for this though Eadrya hesitates (why would she want to go through the same thing again that didnt work and threatened her life, if it does work, do they want to be involved with any of this? what if hunters find out it worked after all?) but after her ensuring that they would have no part in it other than giving up a little blood and would not be considered a parent in any way, nor made responsible for anything that might happen to her, but considering it all in the end they agree to it

only for her to reveal shes had a small bottle of it already, along with multiple samples of the other types, which she collected when Eadrya was bleeding out into the harbor not knowing if they will survive, though not wanting to make use of it without their consent either way (they are actuallly rather touched by this)

alot later the main group returns here and it turns out to have worked (though she is unable to walk/bedridden for a long while bc it did alot of damage to her body, which can heal since its demons parts, but only really slowly bc she does not have a full functioning system and no demonic blood of her own -she uses the other samples for the healing process-) though its a little awkward to explain, especially considering that 13.1 took alot after Eadrya xD (their theory as to why it worked so "well" that time is that even though the sample was already taken, them giving their consent for it still made it less likely to be rejected; demons dont need partners to have offspring, and all can do it, they just have to decide to- so them agreeing to it, even though its long been outside their body, still had an effect on the blood sample)

[stiffyck]

I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

[lemongogo]

they should get to kill each other at least twice .i think