#thats so bad lmao

[wxvzkk]

sometimes (a lot of the time) idk what to do with my life. im so bored on my phone but i have nothing to do outside of it, but actually, i have so much to do. i could crochet, paint, write, read, so many things and yet all i do is sit on this stupid box and waste time. i hate it. i take moments where i sit and contemplate what im doing with my life. i do think my phone brings my mental health down lower, i know it does. i do nothing but stare at it. i dont leave my bed, i dont do anything. it pisses me off because i have so many things to do but i cant. im depressed, i know this, i hate it. i crave to do fufilling things but i can barely get the energy to pick up a glass of water so i dont die of dehydration. i fucking hate how incapable of taking care of myself i am. i hate talking about my struggles especially when it comes to my actual physical health because its complete shit. i always feel like i'm attention seeking when i talk about things wrong with me, or if i say something that bothers me. which is stupid, because how am i attention seeking if i just want the help? idk if it makes sense. i dont tell my therapist things becayse i fear she'll look at me like i'm doing it, or making it up for attention. its my biggest fear, to want help but to be labeled as doing it for attention. its irrational but its my fear. i'm scared one day i'll open up about my struggle and emotions and the person i trusted will turn on me and tell everyone and call me names behind my back. i dont care if people talk shit about me so long as i know what they're saying. UGH fuck idk. i have a migraine rn and im really tired and im like having trouble breathing so like f it we ball? im so tired of human interaction and i dont think i'm gonna stay after school tmr but i feel evil deciding that when i know im in a state of mind where i dont want to but i doubt anything will change. lowkey i just want to sleep and not have to go to school, i feel evil asking for mental health day because then it feels like im abusing the opportunity when its not even anythint serious and i've gone this long without needing one. but i feel physically sick because of my mental exhaustion? idk how maybe its getting so bad its affecting my actual body but yikes!! i can barely even keep my eyes open lolz! idk what to do with my life, i wish i could skip to the part where i'm an adult and my life is settled. i wish i didnt have expectations or affect on other peoples emotions. i wish people didnt care about me so i could just not have to worry about my actions and how they seem. sometimes i wish i was the completely nonverbal, unable to live without a caregiver type autistic so i didnt have to deal with all this lmaoo its horrible ik but lowk the dream well not when i genuinely start to think about it but yk. i have no clue how im gonna deal with at LEAST 12 more years of school 💔💔 am i cooked? i should js choose an easier job and do some easy fucking mcdonalds shit and become a druggie so i can off myself without worrying about how it affects my community and family

[paintedcrows]

Biting you. Biting you. Biting-

[doctormori]

I love this book to death, so here's some things I noticed <3

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

[mo-ok]

🚨 RED BOYS 🚨

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[gunsatthaphan]

"people died" and it's just a music video-

[arcanegifs]

why do ppl post anti-ship stuff on the fuckin ship tag……… BEGONE

[aroaceleovaldez]

What is the PR disaster in question that made Rick announce TSATS? I wasn’t active in the online fandom at that point

Of course! This was awhile ago so it figures people don't remember it/aren't familiar:

Basically a couple years back (2020) the fandom had some posts circulate discussing the ways different characters in the Riordanverse were written poorly or offensively. There was a masterpost that went around tumblr but the two major points people were particularly focusing on were Piper and Samirah (particularly because Piper had featured prominently again in Trials of Apollo recently and the third MCGA book had further emphasized and discussed Samirah being Muslim, since it was supposed to take place during Ramadan). Basically each had multiple posts breaking down the ways they were depicted incorrectly or offensively. The entire fandom for a little bit was VERY intensely discussing this (and it's around this time the "RR crit" tag got very popularized on tumblr - it did exist before, but suddenly was being used VERY frequently - cause it was that wide-spread - though the discussion took over basically every side of Riordaverse social media on different platforms). People really wanted Rick to respond to these criticisms, so he did!

He made two blog posts, one about Piper and one about Samirah. He has since deleted both so the links are to archived versions. The short version: he essentially tried to justify his poor research and double-down that he hadn't written them offensively, actually, people were just being mean to him. The fandom, of course, reacted poorly to this.

[Further elaborated events under the cut since this got a bit lengthy]

(Fun fact, this all happened within a month or so of the time i posted an open letter on aphobic tropes in the Riordanverse that Rick replied to, and then he immediately followed with announcing that Reyna was intended to be ace-coded [which cause a LOT of fandom debate] before Rick dipped for a couple of weeks, and then came back to post the blog posts in response to Piper and Sam stuff. So I like to jokingly refer to this as "The time I imploded the fandom/drove Rick off of twitter." Twas I that set the house ablaze.)

Rick fully left social media after this and the LT Musical social media manager became Rick's social media manager for the time being.

So this all happened June/July of 2020. Tower of Nero would end up being published in October of 2020 and a few months after that Rick would state that he was done with the series and wouldn't be writing any more series installments involving Percy, and also that he wouldn't be writing a Nico quest following Tower of Nero as it "wasn't his place to" and encouraged the community to write their own versions of Nico's story.

The community continued to circulate the tumblr posts and discuss the topics of Rick's offensive character depictions, and this is also where we see the dramatic shift in how the fandom depicts Piper in fanwork (though in most cases it is admittedly not an improvement 😬) because of all this discussion. This is also around the time when the fandom brought Viria under scrutiny claiming that she was whitewashing Piper as part of the same discussions, through the justification that she was drawing Annabeth as having tan skin (which she does canonically), and if Annabeth has tanner skin then Piper then that's whitewashing Piper? Except they were using completely separate images of not fully rendered Piper art versus Annabeth in dramatic lighting, so it's all very awkward and poor logic, and did actually get kind of racist. A lot of people were calling it "Tannabeth Blackchase" (yeah, i know) or similar and a common sentiment you'd see repeated is "Don't draw Annabeth as having darker skin than Piper, because that's offensive/racist/whitewashing." (Note: it was not phrased "don't draw Piper as having lighter skin than Annabeth" - we also won't get into certain offensive depictions of Native Americans, but I digress). But yeah, the Annabeth stuff in all that did not age well at all.

Anyways, in October of 2021 however Rick would announce that he was co-writing The Sun And The Star - with a lot of heavy emphasis on how Mark Oshiro works as a sensitivity reader, and some false advertising from the official social media that Mark Oshiro was the first time a non-Riordan author would be collaborating on the series (disregarding the ghostwriters completely). One of the big criticisms in the breaking down of issues in Rick's writing was his lack of ever seeking a sensitivity reader, and fans claiming that a sensitivity reader could solve a lot of the problems. This was basically Rick's "look! I totally listened!!!!" (though it did little to actually improve things, based on the book) and in TSATS as well Piper gets a large cameo at the end where the text very directly addresses a lot of points made in criticism of Rick's writing of her.

We also then of course got the CoTG trilogy later, explicitly stated to be for advertising purposes for the show.

So basically, short version: Rick came under scrutiny for a lot of offensive writing within the span of two months, made some bad blog posts doubling down about it, left social media. TOA ends. Rick says he wasn't going to continue the series/write what would become TSATS. Community celebrates the end of of the franchise but also continues to discuss Rick's poor writing and the blog posts at length. Rick suddenly announces TSATS and Mark Oshiro's involvement. Everybody gets distracted from being mad. Show announcement stuff also happens and the discussions peter out.

[lokh]

also i think if roleswap laios and canon laios met theyd immediately start fighting.

[bacchuschucklefuck]

okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is

[iscariotapologist]

the eucharist goes crazyyyyy you guys

[renarin-spren]

you know while I'm at it!! I'm sick of people not letting Rlain stand on his own as a character. of course his whole thing in WaT (and to a certain extend RoW) is that he's finally found acceptance and a place he fits in with Renarin, and I love that! I love rlainarin as much as the next person!! but it's driving me up the walls bonkers how the majority of the fan made media I see about him is solely in the context of their relationship. like can we please get more love and appreciation for him as a character? or does everyone else just love him because He's Gay ??

[tacc0yak1]

parenthood definitely does things to you its crazy

[rbtlvr]

smth for @remedyturtles new fic firefight! the twins ever <3 i'm sure they're fine

[feng-shui71]

Finally, some time to rest after running around Spain for 24h straight.

Jordan and Leon edit of that one Marceline and Finn screencap from Adventure time. OG RE4 version + some extra doodles too :3

[arkiwii]

i was supposed to draw something sad but my hands slipped, so oops?