#i wish i could disappear

[endlessmidnights]

I walk into a room and immediately think of all the potential ways to kill myself that exist there

[ossydrawsthingz335]

my life is so easy rn why the fuck do i get so fucking depressed and relapse i hate myself

[mushed-kid]

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[lucyvaleheart]

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[butchnavi]

I can't do this anymore:)

[vampiradyke]

they forgot my diet coke when I picked up food and I just cried in my car about it

[hersurvival]

I have wanted to disappear since elementary but not in a kms way. Just my own safe little bubble where no one can harm me, other, or even themselves. Where it could all be good and genuinely loving...a life worth living for. ( ´･･)ﾉ(._.`)

Anon, thus beautiful and we should all be so lucky to have the chance to disappear at times!

I dream about this, as well. But I'd disappear into the woods, a little cabin, off the grid and out of mind. Living my best life in sync with the sunlight and to the sound of birds ♡

A life worth living means something different to everyone, but I'd like to be free to chose and change my mind whenever I feel!

Thank you for this ♡

[clits-and-clips]

I was tired all day and now I'm not at midnight AGAIN and I'm lonely and sick of fucking complaining I wish I had the balls to do smth about it

[travel-to-my-daydreams]

Sometimes I just don't care anymore. The thing is, is that I do care but it hurts too much because I do. It hurts to care about things. The world, its people, not all but a good amount can so easily make me feel like nothing. That everything I care about is nothing. They make me feel hopeless. My family makes me feel hopeless too sometimes. I just don't want to care anymore. I just want to disappear and never be found.

caring is important, but why does it have to hurt so much?

[belle-theuglybeauty]

Please don’t get close to me when you’re just gonna leave

[wxvzkk]

sometimes (a lot of the time) idk what to do with my life. im so bored on my phone but i have nothing to do outside of it, but actually, i have so much to do. i could crochet, paint, write, read, so many things and yet all i do is sit on this stupid box and waste time. i hate it. i take moments where i sit and contemplate what im doing with my life. i do think my phone brings my mental health down lower, i know it does. i do nothing but stare at it. i dont leave my bed, i dont do anything. it pisses me off because i have so many things to do but i cant. im depressed, i know this, i hate it. i crave to do fufilling things but i can barely get the energy to pick up a glass of water so i dont die of dehydration. i fucking hate how incapable of taking care of myself i am. i hate talking about my struggles especially when it comes to my actual physical health because its complete shit. i always feel like i'm attention seeking when i talk about things wrong with me, or if i say something that bothers me. which is stupid, because how am i attention seeking if i just want the help? idk if it makes sense. i dont tell my therapist things becayse i fear she'll look at me like i'm doing it, or making it up for attention. its my biggest fear, to want help but to be labeled as doing it for attention. its irrational but its my fear. i'm scared one day i'll open up about my struggle and emotions and the person i trusted will turn on me and tell everyone and call me names behind my back. i dont care if people talk shit about me so long as i know what they're saying. UGH fuck idk. i have a migraine rn and im really tired and im like having trouble breathing so like f it we ball? im so tired of human interaction and i dont think i'm gonna stay after school tmr but i feel evil deciding that when i know im in a state of mind where i dont want to but i doubt anything will change. lowkey i just want to sleep and not have to go to school, i feel evil asking for mental health day because then it feels like im abusing the opportunity when its not even anythint serious and i've gone this long without needing one. but i feel physically sick because of my mental exhaustion? idk how maybe its getting so bad its affecting my actual body but yikes!! i can barely even keep my eyes open lolz! idk what to do with my life, i wish i could skip to the part where i'm an adult and my life is settled. i wish i didnt have expectations or affect on other peoples emotions. i wish people didnt care about me so i could just not have to worry about my actions and how they seem. sometimes i wish i was the completely nonverbal, unable to live without a caregiver type autistic so i didnt have to deal with all this lmaoo its horrible ik but lowk the dream well not when i genuinely start to think about it but yk. i have no clue how im gonna deal with at LEAST 12 more years of school 💔💔 am i cooked? i should js choose an easier job and do some easy fucking mcdonalds shit and become a druggie so i can off myself without worrying about how it affects my community and family

[endlessmidnights]

I have no reason to live but no energy to kill myself

[magicrealisms]

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[ogjellyfisher]

just found out my friends are now talking crap about me behind my back because of my spongebob hyperfixation!!! wowsokind!!!

[hiddles-in-the-dark]

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[lucckitty-333]

never feeling like i belong anywhere

never feeling like im enough

im always an extra

someone that doesnt matter whether or not theyre there

the puzzle is complete and im an extra piece that has no place