#im crying because of them everyday
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soobinsonly1bf · 1 year ago
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i will never get over hyyh yoonkook tbh
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youngyoo-apologist · 11 months ago
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Kim Roksoo’s parents must have been really sweet and loving people.
Even with all the pain he experienced because of his uncle, and losing his parents, he still didn’t become a bad person when everything was set against him.
Like with the children averaging whatever years old, KRS takes care of them and is in general a good father(I mean I question his lack of communication towards his children, like please tell them you have a healing ability at least tell your kids dude please please please please please) but that’s just a general KRS problem coming from the years and years he spent relying only on himself for various reasons.
His parents probably loved him a lot, they cared for him and they showed him what it was like to be loved. That just makes the fact that they died so early on in his life more terrible. Kim Roksoo may not remember them well, but I like to think that when they were alive, he was happy.
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jellysharkowo · 5 months ago
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Currently having a breakdancing session with myself<333
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girlivealwaysbean · 1 month ago
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#bro why is everyone growing up and away and trying to figure out their lives and careers and loves#and im just sitting here missing them?#like sure im trying to figure out mine too we're all that age so I don't resent them for it#but why don't they miss me? why don't they feel empty when they haven't talked to me in a long time?#like. didn't they feel very light and happy after talking to me like i did with them don't they have a bad day and think that oh ill#talk to me and it will all feel okay even if it isn't just for a minute?#oh ny god i feel so pathetic asking this but like why am i suddenly crying now???#like my bestf. she's so busy in her new internship in mumbai that she can't be bothered to text me back#a simple yes no question for days. like i understand you have cool new office and work and friends and your stupid fucking ex#that you couldn't stop crying about to me living in that city with you but what about me? what about us?? what about you saying#that you're my first bestfriend i haven't told this to anyone else this is forever everyone else judges me but you're the best#like i just feel like if you're going to leave me then don't fucking say shit like that to me??#okay oh my god this is so irrational but i literally can't stop crying and it's definitely pms like i checked#she's not even leaving she's just suddenly busy and adjusting it's only been like a month#but i hate this stupid fucking knife like fear that as soon as someone is a little busy or seems like they're pulling away a little my#brain is like okay they hate me they're going to leave me so pack your bags we're leaving first#like i know a better solution would be to just tell her that hey dude i fucking miss you and i saw this show and remember how you used to#love peter kavinsky because he was adorable and i want to sit and watch it with you and just why aren't we back in school#where we are basically forced to hang out for like 7 hours because im so sick of only seeing you like once in 2 months for a few hours#like i know it's not your fault and we're just growing up and in different directions but just please like five more minutes can you stay#i don't even have the confidence to say anything to her lol she's my only friend like if even she gets mad and leaves#but i know that's not how healthy relationships work. and ugh my sister is so fucking far away i can feel it everyday#in the 5 and a half hour time difference. i hate this i hate everyone everyone has to go so far away#i hate living in this empty fucking house and being responsible for my own emotions fuck this isse accha toh living with dad hi hai#atleast when im there there are only 2 emotions anxiety and boredom. now i have a whole house to myself to cry whenever I need#for however long i need in a locked room. really looking forward to adulting haha i can see just see myself succeeding so well🙄#man this is crazy im gonna go do jumping jacks or something so this comes and goes faster#umm#dni
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saudebazi · 10 months ago
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#the more i stay around people the more i want to become like them out of spite#because i was so surprised these people are at least 24-26 years age some even did a minor bachelor's before coming here#some have completed post grad and then joined#like aren't you all too fucking old to act that immature#i grew so resentful of everyone how they keep on doing the worst low man shit and then victimize themselves#hypocrites full of shit they don't want to hear the truth#i know no one has the audacity to take a fight with me on here because they know im the youngest here#not because im the youngest but because im better#the girls frown upon me because i don't hear their low mindset humorless jokes and pointo out where they fall short#oh [my irl name] youre so stiff hamesha kami kyun nikalti rahti ho hamesha baat kaatne ki aadat hai learn to take a joke#mazaak hi to kar rahe hain kya yaar#ive cried so many times because i feel suffocated here and out of hate i want to act immature selfish hypocrite too so i do#i become self centered and look into my needs#but everyday bcg shows me how one stays firm in mindset even amidst surrounding of shit people#he points out to me all the time when i start acting like them he says why aren't you trying to rise above#i say ham bhi karte hai na unn chutiyon jaisa behave kyunki unhe unhi ki language mei samajh aata hai#achha ban kar honest banne se kuch nahi milta yaha#but he knows his stuff#he never does these things#however much i let evil thoughts take upon i get astounded everyday how he's practicing his rightful his honesty even tho no one's looking#it makes me want to cry#i hope he gets so ahead in life i hope he stands at the podium one day on a stage and deliver speeches where people actually can see him#like he sees the orator that come to attend our unis gatherings and says everytime kuch to baat hoti hai inn logon mei#i hope he achieves whatever he wants i hope he gets ahead of everyone all this fucking corruption#its not that he's done anything that im applauding he tries his best#and maybe teachers see that too all in class they're only looking at him and teaching they know#do you know how fucking hard it is not get corrupted in this uni and become one of those assholes that have done things unimaginable#im inspired everyday ill try my best to be like him#i do not just want to praise him i want to become someone he doesn't have to say fir tum bhi vahi karogi to kya farq reh jaayega#kuch bada nahi hota logon ki roz roz ki choti choti aadaton se pata chal jaata hai vo kaise hain
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my-thirteenth-reason · 8 months ago
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kicking my feet and giggling (<- just got apologised to)
#guys i have worth??? im actually a human being deserving of basic respect and SHOULD be apologised to if i am not given that??? holy shit#ok but like i actually was pretty mad and i just wasn't going to talk to them when the weekend ended but to think they'd actually apologise#guys i am a friend worth apologising to omg this is so nice#(<- was fuming over how i was a “friend” not even worthy of her basic decency and respect an hour ago)#LIKE IM STILL MAD#okay i actually cant vaguepost to save my life but basically this girl whos a friend i recently got close to and formed a friendgroup with#shes really fucking whiny and ive been tolerating it for so long but on friday she was extremely whiny and rude whenever i just asked a#simple question#and it's really draining and humiliating to be spoken to like poop on the sidewalk in front of other people#but anyway other than that i was really upset because during pe i wanted to show her my hip injury cuz i thought it was funny#(it wasn't diagnosed yet i just felt my joints moving weirdly)#and like that involves her putting her hand on my hip#so i asked her to do that then she started whining about how she doesn't want to touch me and that i'm weird for asking ppl to touch me#then she started telling like the 3 other ppl around us i was weird and wanted ppl to touch me#then this other cool girl overheard and looked at us funny i guess cuz then the friend said 'haha now [cool girls name] is also laughing'#i was so fucking embarrassed and humiliated i still want to tear up thinking about it#like are you actually my friend wtf i don't even need enemies w a friend like you#i wanted to cry so bad then#ugh i hate it#like you couldve just said no thanks bro what is ur problem#this just made me realise how much i hate how she talks to me sometimes#and i know i need to stop surrounding myself with negative vibes in order to feel happy#but its still so frustrating#we were doing so well the other day and google meeting everyday#then this happened and then she got mad and started ignoring me on the way home#bro idk i hate ts i should just stop making friends#rant
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learn-and-accept · 2 months ago
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I will truly never understand how I managed to find such a truly incredible partner let alone on the first try
#we've been talking about me moving in and while i love the idea of living together im also a bit terrified of it#and so i made a list of some of worries last week and last night we talked about it and i swear this girl is truly incredible#she was kind and considerate and reassuring and just so sweet#especially since one of my concerns is that i will most likely become disabled and not be able to work because of my shitty health#and she was literally like that's okay my roommate and her partner are in a similar situation and she's just gonna work as long as she can#and she'll retire early while her partner covers them both#and my gf was like we can just do that because once the house is payed off it wont even be that much and i have no problems supporting you#to which i promptly fucking sobbed lol#she was even so cute and was like you could be a cute stay at home girlfriend and we'll find some plants or pet for you to hang out with#to which i began crying even more lol#i just have never felt so fucking loved in my life#like truly and completely and wholly loved#i dont know what i ever did to deserve such kindness but my god do i appreciate it everyday#plus she'd marry me so i could get health insurance so like peak love for Americans right there lol#but seriously i am so thankful her everyday#life has been so shitty and dull and stagnant and ive locked myself away for so long#and to emerge from that and be met with my girlfriend is something i will always be grateful for#i dont believe in soul mates or that someone can complete you#but my god do our puzzle pieces fit together#personal
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formerfbiagentbatman · 1 year ago
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I just want to thank my dad for when i was trying to share my crippling gender dysphoria and self consciousness for saying *checks notes* … its genetic? And thank you mom for when i was trying to communicate my gender dysphoria with you for saying im sorry you hate everything i gave you. This is normal and fine and wont affect me in the future.
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nt3000s · 2 years ago
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im so lucky to know so many people in my life to have met so many people in my life that are just life saving ill never not feel lucky people are so beautiful and kind and talented and funny and have so much worth everyone ive ever met anyone in my life i have ever touched i just cant believe it ill never be able to understand it how important everyone is how much i love people the degree to whihc i love people and everyone i have ever met ill just never ever be able to express the depth of how important it is to me it might be the most important part of my entire life. i just need people to know how much i love them im desperate for it to be known how important everyone ive ever met is to me. all of my friends everyone whos ever been kind to me and whoever ive been kind to it will never be lost on me how important it is. and i feel so lucky to be graced i guess by my friends. i cant imagine the life i would live without every event every person who ive ever crossed. i would never sacrifice anything to not be where i am now because of the people i know and have known. the people i know and talk to everyday or the people i see in a notification or pass by. i cant overstate your importance to me. i cant overstate how important i want people to feel. i want people to see themselves how i see them. i can not overstate your importance to me and i love you. im so lucky ill never be able to take it
#i just want ti go to sleep but i cant my sleep schedule has been so miserably depressing me#not that badly. i cherish every moment i have with the people around me and i cherish how lucky i am to be surrounded by such unbe#lievable people. i am happy everyday because people love me.#this will never be lost on me. the importance of it. the importance you all have will never ever be lost on me. your worth as a human being#you are so kind. you are so talented. you are loved by people because you are seen by people that way. i will never lose this#im miserably desperate for everyone i know to feel loved or to know that i love them. nothing will ever ever ever in my whole fucking life#ever be more important to me#nothing in my fucking life will ever be more important than that. please know how much you mean to this. to everything#i dont know what changed but i cry so often now and every single time my thoughts wander to how deeply i feel about this#im just sobbing and sobbing and im like. i love the people that care for me. i love the people i care for#i know when i stop crying or when the day rolls over i get to talk to everyone again. and i feel so lucky. i feel so desperate to explain it#how. much. it. means. to me. How badly i mean this and everything I say.#i dont fucking care if yoire my mutual from fandom or someone who random followed because my blog was funny#someone i talked to once or twice. you mean so much. i swear to god. ill never be mpre genuine or more serious. i guess#thats very kind of you to do that. or like my posts or anything. youre very kind for that. you mean alot to me.#i just dont want to fall asleep when the sun rises and wake up with a few hours to talk to people before im alone#i really hate it right now. and my neutral state has genuinely just been on the brink of crying. like if i sit still too long i just sob#thats genuinely how i have been for the past few days#and thats not the fault of anyone its just how my brain has been treating me#but whdn i get like this i just remember how lucky i feel about everything. like the depth of my feelings#you really just have to trust me when i say like how forever sincere and deep snd monumental it is to me. like please understand the depth#of when i say i love you. dear god i love everyone ive ever met i love you. please please please please understand how desperate i am#i will never ever feel more strongly about anything. i cant imagine it#i have to make this exact same fucking post over and over again#i need to keep saying it man#i need people to love themselves like i love them#the degree to which i say the word need#anyway. i love you. i hope you have fun or are happy about something. or draw write something nice. talk to your best friend. something
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neonqueerautumn · 2 years ago
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I just...miss my job okay...
#do i think baking cookies would be fun? yes. but i just...don't care about it.#yes this is something i want to do because its fun#but i just dont think im ready to do anything until i can look at a comic book and not cry#like....it wasn't just a job to me#i cared so much. i may have lost the plot around the time my manager barked STAND UP at me.#but i cared everyday. i wanted to make people feel seen. i wanted to make the world better.#i miss working with canva everyday. that stupid fucking frienemy of a program. i miss creating. i miss learning. i miss restocks.#i miss previews. i miss the stupid fucking statues. i miss the stupid chat ding. i miss joe being joe. i miss mike. i miss jeff.#i miss jamie. i miss froggy. i miss tiny. i miss sarah. i miss Trevor. i miss seth. i miss josie.#it doesn't even matter if they didn't love me like i loved them. they were nice to me so i would go to war for them. i have a complex.#i miss them.#i miss the batgirls computer background.#i miss being excited about pride in December. i miss being excited about the doctor who mtg drop. i miss the paper stars.#i miss my staff picks sign. i miss when the shop was collectively ours. i miss the rainbow tape on the one ceiling tile.#i miss the comic of the week being ridiculous to get in and out of the slot. i miss the amount of product counts.#i miss learning about new rpgs and games and comics#i miss reading before we opened#i miss variant covers. i miss pre orders. i miss the sun blinding me mid day. i miss the ridiculous audacity of customers.#i miss “hey. im looking for a comic from this week if you have a sec?” i miss making displays. i miss paint restock.#i miss enthusing with customers over media and comics and books. i miss critical role. i miss dnd. i miss deck boxes. i miss card sleeves.#how dare you fire me and basically tell me i suck at my job. no. fuck you. i suck at YOUR JOB. i was damn good at the job i was hired for.#im so sorry i didnt want to stalk people and was busy finishing the pride display you effectively gave completely to the only gay.#and was finishing the restocks you gave me to finish#you dont get to take away all of my responsibilities and decide that i boil down to my weaknesses instead if playing to my strengths#you dont get to decide that i boil down to my WORST 3 weeks. when i would bleed for that job.#i was GOOD. AT MY JOB. I DID MY JOB.
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poindorkster · 2 months ago
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I've always tried to push back against my family's small minded bigoted bullshit, and it used to suck so much more cause I would get so emotional and I would just get dismissed as crazy cause I would be so upset by the fact that they were so casually hateful and ignorant, but I've been doing it for years and I can keep my cool now and I see it as a challenge, like I'm a spy trying to manipulate them into being better, empathetic people.
But secretly falling head over heels for a transgirl will really turn that "keep your cool" mentality on its head and have you wanting to rip your sister's throat out with your own teeth in front of her children on a Thursday afternoon.
#luckily she was in a rush so the conversation had to end and i held it together and stayed calm#but omg shes such a fucking stupid pos#ITS NEVER BEEN ABOUT GIRLS SPORTS YOU DUMB BITCH#and even if it was IDC ABOUT SOME TEEN MISSING OUT ON A HYPOTHETICAL VOLLEYBALL SCHOLARSHIP WHEN PEOPLE'S EXISTENCE IS AT STAKE#TRANS KIDS & ADULTS ARE BEING MURDERED OR COMMITTING SUICIDE BECAUSE THEIR VERY RIGHT TO EXIST IS BEING ARGUED AGAINST IN THE NEWS EVERYDAY#i guess its good news she doesnt vote#shes also not a terf cause she anti feminist.#shes just a fucking idiot.#but god her saying that shit made me cry so hard on my drive home#and it all started bc i made a comment abt how i dont want anymore harry potter merch for xmas#and she was like oh cause youre almost 30 and its childish and i was like nah cause j.k. rowling is a terrible person#and then i explained why and she took the side of joanne#like bitch i just said shes a terrible person for her views. what do you think im going to think about you for having the same ones???#ive always vehemently argued for the rights of trans people#but ive never been succumbing to an all consuming crush on a transgirl whilst doing so#i would cut my sister out of my life if it weren't for her 3 children who i could never not be there for#god if my husband ever gets on board with full polyamory i am going to shake the fuck out of my familys worldview#i would never subject her to them but i would loudly and frequently talk about how amazing she is#she's kind of a total badass tho and would probs be like nah let me at em#trans rights#respect them or i will commit wrongs
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clover-the-awesomest · 11 months ago
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I did not expect it to be so depressing! Thought it was just gonna be another fun and happy adventure with the kids with just a slight hint of lore BUT THEN THE ENTIRE THING WAS JUST STRAIGHT-UP LORE AND CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT.
That spooky month episode was so SAD what the FUCK
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tortademaracuya · 10 months ago
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Everyday feels exactly the same and it makes me wonder if there's even a reason to do anything
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girlivealwaysbean · 3 months ago
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hey god if you've created someone for me can you introduce me to them sooner? i kinda need them now
#like i know i know im sad and hurt but in my heart even the worst breakup friendship or otherwise can kill my hope#like i know this is gods plan for me this is my arc but god it's getting worse and harder everyday#i thought nothing could be worse than yesterday but i hadn't lived today them#then*#i need to talk to someone so bad oh god sl yesterday i had the exam right#and like i don't even know what happened i thought i was going to fail even after giving my 2000% studying#for like 10 hours a day for 15 days for this one exam#and i was panicking and shivering so bad that my heart felt like it would fly out of my chest it was beating so hard#and so fast it didn't even beat like that when i climb too many stairs#and i tried to deep breathe but nothing worked it was so scary like yeah i get stressed sometimes#but this was another level so scary i was nauseous too#and then i clicked submit and i got 82!!!#when i was so sure i was gonna fail because i was only sure about 54 marks answers and the passing was 50#and i got really happy and relieved and then i realized. oh. i don't have anyone to tell#like yeah i told my dad and he was like oh cool ofcourse you did very good#because he doesn't GET it that im not smart anymore and 10th cbse is not an accurate measure of intelligence#he wasn't even happy or surprised he was like well nice obviously#and that's it. i didn't have anyone else to tell#granted i hadn't even told anyone i was giving the exam. i mean i say anyone as if im swimming in friends#only have one. two if u stretch. and i didn't say. cause like idk doesn't really seems like anyone cares#and aah stupid emotional me before the exam i was feeling sad and trying not to panic (??? why??) and CRY in the car because i was thinking#that how my mom always drops me to exam centres and we talk i play music and when im getting out she says all the best beta#and the beta. wow i typed this and immediately have tears in my eyes now. i don't even understand why but#idk i made it up to be a little tradition in my head and i really wanted to call my mom and say mom pls can u say all the best#to me now bc i think ill fuck it up and im really scared and maybe if u give your blessing it'd be okay. but then i thought how embarrassin#it wld be if i failed. bc we don't have any kind of rship my mom and me. and then when she heard i passed from dad she didn't even call me#or anything. thank god i didn't do all that drama but fucking hell. this is all just for me right nobody cares not my parents#and it's too difficult im crumbling under the pressuee but i have to grit my teeth and do it or ill never be able to get out of this house#and i know ill find people when i do get out. but in the meantime. please god ji just one person idc who girl boy friend or love ANYONE#ik it's weak & ik i shld be enough on my own. but pls i just CAN'T.they dont even have to put up with me they just have to care a bit
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pears-trinkets · 11 months ago
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#my mom just came over to tell me#YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR PROBLEM IS?? your problem isnt autism your problem is that you cant adjust to everyday life and you're just too emotional#you just cant adjust and then you make it hard for yourself on purpose because you cant just get over it and forget it#you just let negativity fester inside of you#all because i told her that i wasnt chosen for an autism diagnosis via email lottery and she immediately answered with#STOP BEING SAD DONT CRY YOU JUST HAVE TO DO X Y AND Z and i explained to her for the 1000th time that she has to word it differnetly#because i didnt even tell her how i feel and she just assumed my emotions and then told me to STOP HAVING THEM#and i try to gently explain to her how she has to ask first and not assume because she makes me feel worse than i actually felt#and shes liks YEAH BUT I CANT CONTROLL MY EMOTIONS IM JUST A PASSIONATE MOTHER TRYING TO HELP HER KID#completely making it about her again and making me comfort her and her emotions and i told her that and she said#well then why dont you tell me to stop? you have to make me aware of it how else am i supposed to know#after several years of me telling her this and how she needs to think before she speaks#and after all this she came over to tell me ANYWAY YOUR PROBLEM ISNT AUTISM ANYWAY ITS JUST (DESCRIPTION OF AUTISM)#like???????? are you trying to win the other argument by telling me i didnt need the diagnosis anyway#anyway i said GOODBYE and shoved her out the door and locked it#im 30 and i still have to fight with her like im 13 and having to end arguments or physical abuse by shoving her out of my room#and pulling a bookshelf infront of the door and hiding in a corner where she cant see me through the window in the door
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lilacgaby · 5 months ago
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6:21 a.m
husband!bakugo experiences one moment of what you deal with everyday with your kids.
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you were currently cuddled into katsuki's chest, fast asleep.
in between taking care of your newborn son and your toddler daughter, he knew you were exhausted out of your mind. he already had to return to hero work since he took a month off for your last few weeks pregnant, but he wasn't home all day besides the weekends. like today.
speaking her into existence, his toddler daughter slowly waddled over to your side of the bed, about to pat you on the back and awaken you.
"tsk. hey, no." he whispered, making her pout. "i wanna play." she said, crossing her arms. she rubbed her eyes, obviously still a bit sleepy herself.
"mommy is sleeping, she can't play it's bedtime. go back to bed." he said, hoping to every single deity that'd hear him that she wouldn't start crying.
she pouted even more now, before stomping her feet over to his side of the bed and pulling on him. "nooo, i dont wanna sleep!" she said, her voice getting loud.
"don't yell at me missy, use your inside voice." he rolled his eyes, paying attention to your body that seemed to always be on high alert stirring slightly. he soothed you back to sleep, before untangling himself from you and sitting on the corner of your shared bed, now face to face with your daughter.
"we're going to your room and you're going to sleep, unless you want to be put in time out." her eyes widened, her crossed arms dropping as she decided to start negotiating.
"two bedtime stories, go fish, and uno."
"one bedtime story, one go fish game, and i won't tell your mom this happened."
"and pancakes for breakfast." she ordered.
she nodded to herself, seeming happy with the arrangement. she grabbed onto his sweatpants, trying to pull him off to her room already.
"i'm going, im going."
he was heading out, until he heard the whines of his son start sounding out from the baby monitor, making both him and his daughter freeze.
she tugged on his pants, "the baby's crying."
he sighed. "i know." he was squinting his eyes in the dark environment trying to see if you had woken up. after he saw no movement, he ran to go get your son.
he picked him up in his arm and then followed his daughter to her room across the hallway. he proceeded to play go fish one handed, occasionally asking his son, who was drinking a bottle of formula, for 'help', which made his daughter say "you're cheating!"
he read them 'goldilocks and the three bears', which he kept having to reread pages because he 'wasn't doing the voices good enough' in his daughter's opinion.
his voice, still husky because he was half-asleep, soothed his son to sleep in his arms, and his daughter back to sleep.
he layed his son down in the cot in your shared room, too lazy to go back to the nursery.
like puzzle pieces, you fit back into one another, your head back in his chest and his laid on top of yours. he was glad you got to sleep the entire time, even though he knew you had woken up because of your daughter's loud nature, you managed to go back to sleep.
a win was a win, he thought as he went back to sleep.
and woke up with his daughter hugging your back, sticking her toungue out at him when he asked why she was even there again. making you laugh when you woke up to his scrunched up face of annoyance.
as he made the chocolate chip pancakes, your daughter clung to your side as your son laid in your chest, he thought about how having kids was one of the best decisions he'd ever made.
"hurry up and give me more! you always give mommy the better pancakes!"
most of the time.
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