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I’ve been on testosterone for 2.5 years, but T hunger remains such a nuisance.

I ate dinner & left for work still hungry. I am full, but nevertheless spending my shift thinking about where to pick up food from after work. Why‽‽‽

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Why the hell is stubble so itchy?

At this point I can only grow a few dozen proper facial hairs total. I am not shaving more often just to get rid of the tiny amount of itchy stubble.

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Testosterone HRT causes one’s body hair to become thicker and darker over time. I feel that’s pretty common knowledge.

What I did not anticipate is that this process can occur much faster in the spot(s) where the testosterone is injected.

I switch between two injection sites so scar tissue doesn’t build up in one spot & you can tell exactly where they are, lol

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I’m flying overseas for a wedding later this month & it just occurred to me that I should probably not wear my packer while going through airport security.

Probably best to put it in a bag beforehand & then dip into a restroom to return it to its place after passing through.

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Proposition: use “get the mail” as a punny euphemism for taking testosterone 🏳️‍⚧️

(Shoutout to my brother for being funnier than me & coming up with this gem)

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Polycule Yearning Time:

Them doing my hair. Me doing their hair. Scalp massages & being pet on the head during quiet moments.

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Polycule Yearning Time:

Oh to be in a polycule with folks who are fluent in &/or learning different languages, so we could help each other practice & maybe flirt a little bit in the languages we’re learning

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I'm ftm, 6 months on T. I know you answered an ask like this in the past, but the asker was pre-t and I am not, not sure if it makes a difference. I have to see a gynecologist next week but I've never been before. I've never been able to insert anything in my vagina without immense pain and bad flashbacks so the thought of a pelvic exam terrifies me and is dysphoria inducing. Do you have any advice for me or information I should know or tell my obgyn?

Lee says:

I think you should be honest and open with your doctor. Tell them before the procedure starts you have experienced pain and flashbacks in similar circumstances. Dysphoria-wise, I’d recommend wearing men’s underwear!

These links might be helpful, so try to read through all of them:

A Trans Man’s Guide to Visiting the Gyno

Gyno Visit 101: A Step-By-Step Introduction to the Procedure

Help! I need to see a gynecologist

Tips for a gynaecological exam (tw: rape mentions)

Dysphoria Tips Masterpost

Coping with Flashbacks 1

Coping with Flashbacks 2

Coping with Flashbacks 3

Coping with Flashbacks 4

Coping with Flashbacks 5

Anxiety

Panic attacks

A Guide to Gynecological Exams: What Should — and Shouldn’t — Happen

I have also copied this source below with a few modifications to be gender neutral:

Find a health care provider with whom you feel comfortable and trust. You can search around and ask your other doctors and trans people you know to find a gynecologist that makes your comfortable, whether you’d rather have one of a specific gender, one experienced in treating trans people, or one with experience in patients with anxiety/pain.

Knowing your rights and your needs will help you be more assertive and confident. For instance, you have a right to refuse or stop a procedure or examination. 

Make an initial appointment to talk with the doctor about the procedure or examination, your concerns and difficulties, and what will help you get through it. You can ask questions ahead of time about procedures that will be performed (like what will be done, what you will see, feel, and smell). If you do not have an opportunity to have a talking appointment before your examination, tell your doctor that you find these examinations difficult. You do not have to disclose that you have a history of any trauma if that applies to you, although it might be helpful in explaining what’s going on. Use your best judgement with this.

Learn some stress-reduction techniques and coping strategies like deep breathing. Bring fidget toys with you, a stress ball, headphones or earbuds to listen to music with, and a treat for when you’re done, like a favorite snack.

Wearing something that has pleasant associations for you such as your favourite scent or clothes that help you feel more masculine may be helpful. Carrying something comforting, like a stuffed animal, might also help.

Before you get undressed, talk with your doctor about what you need to make the examination easier for you. Make an agreement beforehand that if you are too uncomfortable at any time you will ask, or give a signal to stop and the doctor or nurse will stop.

After your appointment, plan something pleasant for yourself such as meeting with a friend, counsellor, or support person. If you don’t have anybody available, go on a walk, buy ice cream or a treat, or do something you find calming.

What works for one person may not work for another. There is no right way of doing this. You are the best judge of what will be useful to you.

Remember, clearly discussing concerns you have about procedures with your health care provider should help ensure that you feel more comfortable and gain some sense of control over what happens to your body.

Ask to have the top of the exam table up so you can see the doctor or nurse. This may give you more of a feeling of empowerment.

If you think it would be helpful, ask to see a vaginal speculum and how it opens and closes. Ask the doctor to use the smallest speculum available.

Keep your eyes open to help keep you in the present and look at something on the wall, or close your eyes so you don’t have to see it, whichever you think is more helpful.

Ask the doctor to drape you so you can see her or him during the examination. Maintaining visual contact also helps keep you in the present.

Ask the doctor to explain what they are doing and why both before and during each part of the exam if you want to know what is happening, or ask them to just tell you when it’s over if you’d rather have no idea.

Use self-talk like “I can get through this. I trust this person”.

You have the right to have a support person with you during the exam, if that is helpful. You may have to arrange this ahead of time with your care provider.

Followers, is there anything that’s helped you cope with dysphoria, anxiety, and flashbacks when going to the gyno?

Followers say:

smolqueerkitty said: Something you can request if you fear it’ll hurt is for them to use some numbing gel. With the numbing gel you don’t feel it as much and if you have vaginismus like I do, it’ll hurt less.

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Trans men & transmascs of Tumblr, I need advice from anyone who has undergone a gynecological exam, pap smear, IUD insertion, etc.

Any tips on managing discomfort & dysphoria for this kind of procedure?

(Feel free to respond to this post or DM me directly. I understand that this can be a pretty personal topic, but any responses would be appreciated.)

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Been thinking about this everytime I get dressed

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alloromantics : wow that person is pretty i wanna date them

allosexuals: wow that person is hot i wanna fuck them

me, an oriented aroace: wow that person is ????? and i wanna ?????

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Aroace who's extremely confused by their tertiary attraction call that a disoriented aroace

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I’ve been reading all the tags so far & this is my favorite:

[ID: “Y’all don’t like pingy? Little dingy in your pants???” 🥺🥺🥺 End ID]

Trans men, transmasc folks, & anyone else to whom this applies

I’m curious how many people wear a binder &/or wear a packer. Always = daily or almost daily, often = around half the time, & never = not at all or almost never. Pick whichever option is closest to your experiences.

If you have had top &/or bottom surgery choose the option that reflects what you did before surgery. People with a more complex experience of gender (genderfluid, multigender, butch, etc.) that affects their desire to bind or pack feel free to elaborate on that in the tags.

Reblogs to boost sample size are appreciated!

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Trans men, transmasc folks, & anyone else to whom this applies

I’m curious how many people wear a binder &/or wear a packer. Always = daily or almost daily, often = around half the time, & never = not at all or almost never. Pick whichever option is closest to your experiences.

If you have had top &/or bottom surgery choose the option that reflects what you did before surgery. People with a more complex experience of gender (genderfluid, multigender, butch, etc.) that affects their desire to bind or pack feel free to elaborate on that in the tags.

Reblogs to boost sample size are appreciated!

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Today’s outfit :)

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using a tape measure as a packer so i can give myself a comedically large boner whenever its funny