#i’m just not doing great

[skyward-floored]

All I could make myself eat for breakfast was some sugar cereal and while I did put milk on it I’m definitely going to regret it later

[sofi182]

ha, i’m a mixture of anger and sadness rn. i’m sad bc normally cassie’s books leave me, yes, crying, but also satisfied.

…and rn i’m not satisfied. and i think that’s why i am disappointed. it’s the first tsc book where i don’t feel absolutely elated and destroyed with an ending. and that fucking hurts and sucks.

i wanted this book to lift me up for a bit. not to leave me feeling more like death. and maybe that’s, you know, a very personal thing. but goddamnit.

christopher deserved better and it kills me bc honestly, i don’t get the necessity of his death, it wasn’t necessary to make us sad and i don’t think his death had much of an impact besides making them (the characters) suffer. i’m pissed. i’m sad. i’m disappointed.

like i said, probably a very me thing. but agh, i’m sad. and rn it’s so difficult to look past that and see the things that i did like and enjoy (also bc half of those things include kit).

agh.

[pencilscratchins]

sorry i stopped posting, i got medicated and also engaged

[lost-forest-heart]

Imagine, you are too sick to eat or sleep.

Also imagine, your period hits during this time.

Then add iN SUDDENLY AND VISCERALLY CRAVING RAW MEAT-

This could apparently be something like stress based iron deficiency or even anemia, me fainting before I got really sick doesn’t do much against that case either. But what’s weird is I just had blood work done, and supposedly everything was fine???

I just want to not be so sick that I don’t want to exist, I didn’t think that was too much to ask. I haven’t been this sick since February 2018 when my lymph nodes in my abdomen were so swollen that I was vomiting up almost everything I ate for nearly a month straight.

[durge-marzio]

Ohhh, I'm rereading Mystra's entry in the Sword Coast Adventurer's Guide... and this detail:

This means Gale was punished for trying to restore and preserve what he thought was a lost piece of Mystra's magic. Gale being Mystra's ex-lover put aside. He as her follower, she his goddess, was punished for attempting to do the one foundational rule of her faith.

I'm seething and so sad at the same time.

Edit: I used the word punish loosely, as in, toxic/abusive people will take any small mistake or action and twist it into something they can take advantage of. This post was also largely from the stand point of a toxic deity rather than a toxic partner, but both takes are valid here. Especially with the, “you didn’t stay compliant so now I’m giving you the silent treatment” part of it—from a god and a partner perspective.

[shorthaltsjester]

watching the sdcc panel and i am just very :) about how sweet their answers to “what are some of the micro moments from the game that have stuck with you the most over the years?” are. taliesin saying what the fuck is up with that which was the first like The Party Gets To Know Each Other moments of c3. travis saying asking his wife if he could kiss her in campaign. marisha going way back to the cannonball competition in campaign one. ashley choosing the beauyasha date but also just the silly goat noise matt made. liam adding onto that to compliment matt roleplaying grass so well and then saying his favourite moment was writing a story for laura and reading it to her as caleb for jester. and then matt saying that was his answer, and that his favourite moments of the game are when they find ways to give gifts to each other whether tangible or not. and sam saying his favourite moments have less to do with the story and is more so when he can just. see his friends across the table from him. when marisha perches and when laura and ashley are (badly) drawing dicks and liam saying he loves when sam sneezes and ashley tells him to stop it and just. yeah. they Are an extremely popular online powerhouse, but i’m so happy that they’re also friends building a world together out of gifts to and love for one another.

like i Am so enamoured with the characters and the world of exandria but the moments when you can feel the love that those people have for each other reach out from behind the stained glass of their performances (to steal a metaphor from brennan lee mulligan) are so extremely special and i am endlessly grateful that they decided to share their silly little home game with the world.

[an-internet-introvert]

Countdown to October 19th (1/19)

Phil Is Not On Fire 1

[6ebe]

When I said Spain were violating child Labour regulations I didn’t think they actually were 😭

[ricky-mortis]

I heard that Corey Dorris sang Show Stopping Number at Innit- so I present: Corey!Hidgens

[pallanophblargh]

Wake up, new cryptid just dropped!

It’s true that I’ve had to reimagine my day to day life since we got her, but I can’t imagine how we got this lucky. We thought we would have to work to earn her love, but from the moment she entered our house it’s been a cuddlefest, one I couldn’t possibly deny. There are hurdles she will be facing to be sure (and she will still need to meet the cats face to face) but I’m so happy to see this happy lil cheese every day. Welcome home Raclette!

(The couches will always be hers, even if it means she does try to smush whatever I’m working on at the time!)

[asukiess]

felix being into magic is hysterical to me…. what if he was being silly goofy and pulled marinette’s earrings from a hat and was like “isn’t that cool :) yeah I learned that a few years—“ meanwhile she’s preparing an aerial attack on him

[sluttycinderella]

y’all do get that if dan and phil hard launch it will break the internet right? like people who haven’t thought about dnp since 2016 and literally everyone else with an online presence will know. suddenly there will be so many new eyes on our cute little community that we’ve managed to build from the ashes of the early phandom. it’ll be worldwide news that those guys from youtube who “weird girls” always shipped were actually together the whole time. it’ll be absolute chaos. it’s not that i don’t want them to hard launch if that’s genuinely what they want to do, i’m just afraid that it’ll send shockwaves through the entire internet that’ll shatter the nice little thing we’ve got going on here. i for one don’t want to be talking to an acquaintance in class next semester and hear them say “did you hear that dan and phil from youtube are together? that’s crazy! i never watched them ‘cause their fans were always so weird. i didn’t even know they were gay. i guess their fans bullied them out of the closet.” and then have to pretend to be normal.

[foldingfittedsheets]

To the person who specified a tip for me to feed myself, thank you for correctly intuiting that money I earn from commissions counts as income but tips that come with directives must be used in trust for the instructed action and nothing else.

I am now full of delicious food and feel much better.

[idontmindifuforgetme]

I want to read books I want to write more I want to play the piano I want to sing in key I want to delve into fashion history I want to travel I want to publish research papers and I want to become a surgeon and I’m supposed to do all that in this one wild and beautiful life

[astarions-wife]

Ascended Astarion tells the player that they get to be his consort while he takes control of the city. Non-Ascended Astarion tells the player that he wants to spend his life with them together, as partners, and as equals.

[weirdo-from-bonesborough]

It’s reiterated over and over again that Marilyn and C.C. didn’t keep artifacts and always gave them to museums and Theo Adam killed them because they were going to turn everything in the tomb over to the egyptian authorities and idk i just think it’s interesting Billy then “grew up” to be a guardian of magic and magical artifacts and storing history that would otherwise be forgotten without him