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shadesofnavy · 1 year ago

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I love how you cannot help but make most BFs into a himbo. I feel that the only BF I've seen that you haven't made into a himbo yet is shslpunkartist's gremlin BF

It's a blessing and a curse. I can't draw Boyfriend without making him a himbo. I'll be honest though, I can't exactly picture Gremlin as a himbo it's just, well, not Gremlin lol

#i dont think i'd draw it unless punk is fine with it #but personally i think itd be like someone drawing my himbo keith as a short twink #which i mean the gesture is nice and i really appreciate the effort #but on the other hand that would pretty much make me go :(#i wouldnt wanna make someone feel like that #gremlin is gremlin #himbo is himbo

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skunkes · 1 year ago

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guy liker moment

#a doodley #once again very difficult times for the has never been touched community #also recently some fictional men have me questioning things further and its making me sooo miserable #in the sense of like. it wouldnt be enough to t**** a beautiful man i want to be one. too.#i want someone to feel the same way ykwim. eager excited. witnessing beauty. crawling into each others skin.#i want you and i want to wear your face and be desired too.#ugh ugh ugh ugh #i probably wont ever even draw it but the lino piece i want to try making is based off of like. lately...#my skin burns when i see even the imitation of a human body. When i think of it. its so dire #or like i love the human body in general i love studying it bc its so beautiful and interesting no matter what #but i do studies and its like ahh i wanna get closer i wanna get closer im at the zoo i want to jump into the enclosure and get clawed apar #t. (saying this as metaphor bc obviously humans are not things to be owned) but i want my own model to pose and study #closer. and closer. look and touch and examine.#<- 3 seconds away from drawing nefarious shit with talon in this nature but i didnt say that #talkys #🌺

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fernfreakingtastic · 8 months ago

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If you're having a bad day but think you don't deserve someone or even yourself being nice to you:

Shane, even at his lowest, has the farmer want to see him and care about hearing how he's doing. Even when he was at his meanest/lowest points in the game, everyone that collectively put in the effort to see those hearts with him rise up knew what they were walking into. They still came by sometimes every single day they could to give him something they hoped he liked and talked to him to see how he was doing. They genuinely wanted to see him smiling and happy with his aunt and niece and get better. Whether platonically or romantically they care for him

You deserve your own farmer.

You deserve to treat yourself like how the farmer treats Shane when they're trying to get his heart events

#stardew valley #sdv #sdv shane #me having feelings when someone accurately describes why i love Shane #i dont like how if you marry him his room in the house is an utter mess with cans but honesty #i look at my room especially on my bad days with the pop cans i keep forgetting to recycle or at least get out of my room #and i remember Shane probably has bad days to #i'd check to help him try to keep it cleaned up whether just as a reminder or actually helping him #i wouldnt make him feel like shit but still call him out if it was needed #i need to be like the farmer and care about myself like i care about Shane #If i wanna see those blue chickens i need to give myself something i like that makes me happy #add on: i do still understand why some people dont like Shane and honestly? completely fine with that! they see him differently than i do #also yes hi im not dead im just 🌟tired but trying🌟

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skitskatdacat63 · 3 months ago

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#lol i love seeing just straight up bullying on tiktok(/s)#someone(im guessing) went into a discord server for proshipping #and then posted their face reveals on tiktok!?!??!?!#basically saying: look how ugly and weird they look #like what the fuck #just bcs you dont agree with someones opinion ON SHIPPING #doesnt mean you should blast them on socmed?#they posted those pics in a trusted space :(#why are people so cruel and vindictive nowadays #people who make it their whole personalities to shit on pros OR antis are so embarrassing #just keep to yourself and keep your personal moral highground you know?#like they go low we go higher etc #cause on tiktok people will post very bait proshipper tiktoks #to the point where i honestly think they're 100% antis who just wanna sow discourse and disgust #like when i see those people im like just ignore them???#just dont engage man. you end up encouraging people to do worse and worse just to cause drama #but yeah antis in return will make all their posts 'correcting' these obv bait posts #like both of you get a life and just do things that make you happy. not things that obv upset you #idk it kinda sickens me how much time people devote to activities that clearly doesn't make them happy #even if youre pleased about dunking on people you morally disagree w +#wouldnt you feel happier engaging with content that yknow. fills you with genuine enjoyment?#not enjoyment fueled by disgust or morally superiority #idk some people feel like children so i shouldnt care too deeply. but the amnt of toxic behavior is so disturbing to me #the posting of faces got on my nerves badly. no matter if you disagree with someone #you shouldnt just straight up expose their face on your big acct BECAUSE OF DIFFERENCES IN SHIPPING OPINION #and the fact that the point is to imply they're all ugly. so fucking childish and disgusting #i reported but idk if that'd do anything. i wish i could have an honest dialog w people like that tbh #catie.rambling.txt

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firefl1ezz · 6 months ago

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i just. hit s+ rank in splatoon and i never honestly thought this would happen?? am i cool now.. do i get to be a part of the s4? do i get to be watered down to my running joke all the time?

#the last part is a joke but i do not see a whole lot of recognition of the s4 being. the s4 #like yeah they were cool formidable foes in the s1 era and skull even beat goggles despite his plot armor #but now theyre just #there??#dont get me wrong i love their existence but #it feels like theyve been watered down at least a bit #skull is always just getting lost and army is almost always either the manual guy or the curry guy #thats. thats it thats their bits #skull also has the sweets thing #rider is sometimes a considerable foe too but at the same time the s4 doesnt usually consist of him so im not sure how much to count him #that being said it is a kids manga so i dont really expect it to lean too far into the formidable foes thing #even the xblood werent that scary in the long run and ended up goofy despite being who they were #i also get it in terms of fandom #i understand the appeal of something like aloha being cutesy dumb pink guy (who maaaaaaybe commited some crimes and it shows)#i also definitely understand the appeal of army having a thing for curry as well as the manuals #the manuals can be an endearing thing to write about trust me #but i also wouldnt mind seeing more things that center around the likes of the s4 and the xblood and even the best8 being the absolute best #of the best during their prime #reminder that s+ was the highest rank around when the s4 were introduced. same with the xblood #they were the strongest players and id like to see things that center around that #id like to imagine that moving on to the square and splatsville that the s4 would have had a chance to move uo and get into xbattles #i think of all of them skull and army would have the highest chances of actually making it to xrank and being successful #but honestly if mask and aloha could probably make it pretty well too if they got off their asses #and i think rider would excel as well being rider #he has his own kind of near plot armour i think #so do most of the big teams in my opinion #theyre the sort of doomed by the plot that forces them to battle goggles at some point lmao #maybe i could use this in a fic or au one day #maybe someone already has...#(please send to me if you know of any creators who have played around with these vague ideas of strength i wanna see em)

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tossball-stick · 2 months ago

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that last kieran analysis drives me particularly insane because ive always thought he was way older than the rest of the fandom seems to. reading fic and people are writing him to be like 19?? like ive always thought he was in his late 20s minimum, possibly up to early 30s. he talks about his time in the army, does that not imply a similar age range to bill? i dont know what got into peoples heads that he would be under 20 in some cases

#do i tag this. do i #hh #well. why not. i will participate in fandom instead of staying holed away in my little corner #not main tagging tho #kieran duffy #just that one #youre all just lucky i didnt she/her kieran for this post. making it accessible.#granted he could be in the army at any given time but i feel like someone like. uhm. him. wouldnt willingly go #it would be conscription of some sort in my mind.. or bottom of the barrel desperation for money #i wanna give him proper war trauma. let him be a certain reflection of bill. men who handled their times in the army #very very differently #idk

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bunnihearted · 3 months ago

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#the thing is that even if i always long for a relastionship...#i've never even been in one and idk how they work & im so scared of many things #i have sm troubles and issues with touch. i've gotten to a place where i cant even stand my own sisters or mom bumping into me #and outside i cant stand when someone accidentally walks into me or touching someone's legs on the bus #i hate it. it's not only feeling uncomfortable i feel distressed and scared and sick #smth that seems very normal in like all couples is that youre 'allowed' to touch eo all thge time whenever #that scares me a lot. like touch is so scary for me. and when youre in a relationship theres just this silent agreement that you can touch #eo all the time and thats like... how it's supposed to be.... ://#thats so scary to me. that theres this expectation and demand that if im someones gf they should be allowed to touch me whnever #and like i've never been in love and been in a relationship and been touched by that person so idk #maybe it wouldnt be an issue. but just thinking that.. i dont belong completely to myself and therefore give up #the right to not be touched if and when i feel distressed or uneasy is too scary for me #maybe i could learn to feel safe with them and want their touch but rn it scares me skskks #what if they kiss me when im feeling extremely sex reoulsed and wanna kill myself bc of my inner agony #and they get hurt when i try to pull away?#bc regardless of what ppl say... it is a truth that in a relationship youre exoected to want physical touch at all times #and it is seen as an insult to your partner if there are other forces within u (like trauma etc) that makes u sometimes uncomfortable w it #but yeah idk... the problem is that... in humanity and society #consent is one of the least important and prioritized things. as a humanbeing living u will have your consent disregarded countless times #and for me personally consent is one of the most important things. & thats one of the reasons why its so hard for me to live in this society #like yes i do want to have a partner and touch and be touched #but what if we're in the store and im feeling particularly bad that day and feel like #i need to turn myself inside out and peel my skin off and feel anxious and scared #and they just casually grab my ass?? then i will go home and kill myself :) or have a breakdown in the store lol #i dont want to go thru this but i also dont wanna put someone else thru it #and like it would be different if they asked first if i was ok being touched and i said yes #and if i said no theyd respect me and not get hurt #but like be for real.... almost nobody does that. and almost everyone thinks thats lame #in most relationships nobody asks eo. youre expected to just always be ok with it. if u want to be asked youre silly and demanding #nobody asks their partner abt that. that just dont happen lmao. so idk. :((( i wish i was normal

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mellotronmkll · 3 months ago

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I just typed out a really long rant about like the shame I feel about being autistic and getting this obsessed with things and how hard it is to let go of that and just let myself like things as intensely as I do since it's literally fine and my therapist is encouraging me to but like I still feel so guilty and embarrassed all the time because I learned from a young age that I should be and that I should really try to suppress all aspects of my personality to avoid being a weird sad obsessive annoying freak or whatevs and how it's way worse with my current obsession because I have a longer history and deeper emotional connection with it than basically anything else which means that it's both more intense than other fixations and I also automatically feel so much embarrassment because I was made fun of so badly in high school for being the weird tmbg guy and yet I couldn't stop myself from talking about them 24/7 and it's so frustrating the way that always happens to me where if I'm just like I wish I could shut up about this but I feel like if I don't talk about it constantly I'm actually going to die and it's just so exhausting and frustrating and I know from experience it will start to be more manageable after a while but trying to fight it just makes me miserable and makes the fixation even worse and it's like I desperately wish I wasn't this way but also beating myself up about it does nothing to make me Not that way so there's just no point and my therapist is literally like you need to stop judging yourself and just have fun with your interests like if you want to spend several hours listening to bootlegs and reading interviews just do that without judgement or feeling like you wasted time since doing that literally makes you happy and is fine . and im like this is true. Probably. But how. But anyway tumblr errored and it didn't post which is probably for the best because it was 5 times longer than this

#but its like by trying to force myself to stop being obsessed with something . it literally doesnt work and then i also am like i could be #having way more fun and learning way more about this thing if i just let myself so im trying to just let myself but then #my brother or someone makes a Lighthearted joke about how my encyclopedic knowledge (which i dont even HAVE theres so much about them #i dont even know) is like Freakish and i just am like i kinda wanna die now because i feel so embarrassed . but i also.#love this thing sooo much that i feel like my heart will burst out of my chest and it makes me happier than anything so #the combination is just so overwhelming #and part of me is like if i could just keep quiet about this and not be constantly bringing them up and stuff it would be fine #because i also wouldnt get made fun of. but thats not how it works i feel the strongest most irresistable urge to share them with everybody #and talk about them constantly even when i know other people dont care and its just. GAHHHHHH

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pleasedontcareaboutme · 27 days ago

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i posted that stupid shit on my instagram i might just kill myself fr

now im afraid i wont sleep for another 24 hours damn 😭😭

#took me like 50 hours but we did it 🔫😼#i might still delete jt #the anxiety is no joke #like no joke #ahahs7bsudbdus #im so tired man #so like fuck me.but i cant justify killing myseld before trying. after that i can. somehow. Im tired and i want nothing more than that but #maybe i just want to stop the pain. nevertheless #i hope someone anyone who sees. that even if im being too open or too vulnerable online i hope it inspires someone a little bit to do the #same. i hope the reactions wont be too harsh. just dont ask me abt it irl cuz ill cry.#fuck mental illness and traumas man. acchan i hope it wasnt so suffocating for u. at least hopefully the people who loved u could make it #better.#tbh now my anxiety ia better cuz nobody is awake xddd #whatever its not that serious. only for me ig #sorry ppl the mental illness really said emphasis on the illness these past 2 days. i didnt think id live it so badly but here we are. well #i hope with this i managed to get something heavy off my chest. i hope i can continue for just a little longer #to see if it's worth it. i dont even wanna think abt tge fact imma have prom on sunday. why is that im always most suicidal when i have to #graduate? i skipped elementary graduation cuz of it. im not skipping this one but im not participating in the dance cuz i knew id somehow b #at a bad place and i wouldnt have a partner also. hmm whatever. i should sleep now maybe. i feel good now a bit. really have to sigh get my #shit together now.#not sunday friday the 50 hours no sleep getting to me

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skunkes · 8 months ago

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I'm tearing thru this sketchbook i did 19 pages this month

#unless i do another one before march ends #im jst scribbling in here i dont think anythinf is happening though #idk i dont like what im learning #drawing very stylized makes me feel unknowledgeable...or like im not depicting what i want to depict #bc extreme iconic stylization removes that organic human warmth i wanna convey #but then the alternative is drawing too realistic (which is more evident in my trad sketchbooks)#(i know my style in general is NOT realism)#and i dont want. to be too realistic. it makes it harder to get away with certain stylization bc then it looks more obviously ''wrong''#and out of place....aroo #AND ALSO MAKES MY WORK STIFFER!!!! i want to find a balance....#i hate that even when i learn and ''improve'' i get no where closer to drawing how I want! alas #talkys #also running into that super confusing mindset where i look at art i enjoy and think about how if *i* drew that i wouldnt like it #i wish i had someone elses eyes so bad i dont get it

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nomairuins · 3 months ago

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anyways sry its not srs eventually ill get it together . and be a person again. one day

#its just like atm everything that i need is like . not possible. which is oartially my brain being like We have to do this before we this #which sometimes isnt true but sometimes is #like i cant get medicated again or back seeing a psych or back on t until i get a job again #but i cant get a job again utnil i get my ged <- partially untrue but ged would make it a lot easier #but i cant get my ged until i have a job bc it costs money <- if i asked my parents they would probably help me If they had money 2 spare #since like. yk. they want ne to be able to work again so i have money again and ill be another source of income and they care abt me also .#affirmations . ppl donot just see me as a piggy bank they do see me as a person im not judt someone to squeeze money out of thats not how #ppl view me and its fine its fine its fine its fine . it feels so stupid being scared abt that i feel like a rich person whos like She only #likes me for my money 😭 like stfuuu annoying ass. i just ummmm. have a massive fear of debt and like. ppl demanding money from me #unexpectedly or expecting i am going to give them money. not in like a Ohhh fucking ppl want me to donate not it at all im happy to donate #but in like. god this is dumb. eveeytime i got birthday or christmas money as a kid i had to give it to my parents so they could buy food or #gas or whatever. and it never got paid bsck and it felt like shit. but i couldnt ever say no bc then itd be My fault we didnt have food that #week . yk. my first paycheck i had to give it all to my mom for groceries and we got in a fight in the store bc she was like Ok im gonna go #buy pop and my dumbass got upset abt it bc like. my mom told me itd be Necessities nd like. yk. wtvr. it was fucking stupid my entire family #r caffeine addicts so pop is a necessity i was just. rly upset and it felt like my parents saw my money as just. theirs but they had to ask #abt it so i wouldnt get pissy. yk. and they ask me for money a lot usually for food and i dont mind but it like. idk im rly paranoid abt #being a provider and ive got a Lot of guilt abt like. anytime we dont have enough food it feels like my fault bc it was my fault when i wasa #kid if i didnt give up my christmas money for pizza. or whatever. idk its so dramatic like i didnt need the money i was 8 it was selfish of #me to wanna buy fucking. toys or whatever that wasnt more important than My parents being able to get to work or my siblings being able to #fucking. literally eat. or paying bills. like its selfish that im like wahhh wahhh but i wanted to buy vibeo game wif my bday money i #shouldve judt been fucking grateful i was able to help my family. wtvr. I hate connor. wtvr #n then the shit with ugh last year like. yk. and stuff. and then the them stealing 1000 from me not getting into it b4 i get mad. idk.#and im just lazy now i need to get a job again but all the shit like. as i was saying earlier b4 i started whining. idk. i should be happy #that i get to help w bills and stuff that was my dream as a kid #like ever since i was 5 when i was fantasizing abt my future i was like Im gonna marry a prince and then ill be able to afford to pay all of #my families bills and my parents and siblings will be able to go to college and be happy and maybe never have to work bc ill be able to #handle it and ive always like. yk. when i was a dumbass kid i was like Ill go to college so i can get a good job and be useful. of course i #cant ever go to college bc im fucking. useless. and itd just be another burden on my family if i was in debt bc i couldnt help them as much #if i had debt and itd be selfish. and it doesnt matter bc im too stupid to go to college anyway. idk. i wish i could just fix everything #it just feels awful rn im literally just a drain and my family doesnt say it to me yk like. ik theyre happy imback i think they are

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gay-fordeath · 3 months ago

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#dont call anyone im safe im fine im just venting. tw for suicide/self harm/kind of intense language. ideally no ones reading this tho #bro i cant keep living like this #i dread waking up every day so much that i dread even falling asleep #i got insomnia medication in my system and my brain is still like nope absolutely not #i cant keep up at my job even when i am rested enough #i get headaches every other day #my instant mental reaction in the face of stress is to hurt myself (i have not)#like fuck. i work for the disability department of an insurance company #i know for a fact that (probably) every contract stipulates we wont cover disabilities as a result of self inflicted injuries #which is supposed to prevent ppl from taking advantage of the system or whatever #and im always like if someone goes to the lengths of actively injuring themselves to the point of disability #in the name of 'getting out of work'#that person is not 'taking advantage of the system' THAT PERSON IS FUCKING MENTALLY ILL #AND I WOULD KNOW BC I AM ONE OF THOSE PPL #do not come for me on some shit about wanting to disable yourself being morally questionable i cant be concerned abt that rn #i gotta focus on the fact that i hate my life so much id rather break my own right hand than continue it #its an improvement from the active suicidal ideation but its still a symptom of the passive ideation #fucking hell. im too self aware so i absolutely feel like im faking it or making shit up so i can be lazy and not work and whatever #but FUCKING CHRIST theres no way. if i had a choice i wouldnt let myself feel like this.#i just got to a point where i can live alone and support myself. i was so happy and so proud of myself. I don't want to lose that #but god every phone call i have to make for work makes me want to hurt myself. every early morning (and there arent many!!! i mostly work #from home!!!) makes me wish i was dead. i have to sleep for hours after work more often than not. i cant really maintain my living space #theres fucking. mold and discoloration and shit on a bunch of my clothes and some of my bags and shit!!#cause i cant fucking keep my room clean and my basement apartment got fucking humid over the summer and so much moisture got trapped #i constantly have dirty dishes getting moldy before i get to them #i just dont have the fucking energy. i want to take better care of my space. i want to be more social. i just want to go to sleep without #fucking dreading waking up. i wanna go a full week without a headache. i want my stress response to be something other than the intense and #overwhelming desire to cut myself. if i start again i dont know if ill be able to stop and i know i wont be able to keep it to my arms/legs/#easily hidden parts of my body. last breakdown i escalated to my face and i know ill pick up from there.#fuck

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gestippeldedieseltreinworm · 6 months ago

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#I’m getting so frustrated about the girl I like #and like not even about my own feelings #I just get so sad for her bc she’s trying to fit into this monogamous relationship despite being anything but monogamous #like it’s so fucked that liking someone makes her feel like a horrible person #and like I don’t even blame her partner bc he also shouldn’t feel pressured to be in a open relationship if he’s monogamous #I just wish they could accept that they’re no longer compatible #and like on one hand I wanna tell her this bc I feel like I should be looking out for her as a friend #but I also have a crush on her so I’m biased af #but even if she did break up with him it wouldnt mean she would date me #that’s the other frustrating thing #one second she asks me to pls not be into her #and the next second she’s hitting on me #like make up your fucking mind #and I kinda feel like this would be the wrong timing #so I’m just feeding the delusion that maybe in a couple years we’re gonna date #but at other times I really don’t wanna fucking wait #also can I just mention that the last couple days she’s been joking about me and her getting married?#anyway #if you wanna know how to torture a polyamorous lesbian #this is it

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smol-tired-binch-blog · 1 year ago

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hate how im now at a point where im legit like kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot over fictional characters SEND HELP

#take One Guess who im talking about. YES ITS KOI BOI #hes so prettyyyyy and cute and lovely and i love looking at him i wanna hear him speak and laugh and sing just AAAAAAAAAAAA #(turns to my own brain) BITCH WE ARE MEANT TO BE AROACE WHY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH TWO FICTIONAL CRIMINALS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?????#my brain: (that fuckin anime girl gif from evangelion (i think??))#like fuuuuuck man is it self shipping if u use a proxy? like. hes an oc but he's a stand in for me. he is me and i am him but we also arent #he is his own person and i am my own our lives are very very different but i use him to express love for Mad Dog and Koi Boy #cause they could actually love him if i were in their world i wouldnt stand a chance but my boy has one so he loves them for me #its far easier to imagine him kissing them than it is for me to imagine myself kissing them but that might be because im wired weird #idk it *feels* like it counts yknow. my dumbass out here gettin jealous when i see a Certain Ship cause like i disagree with it on #a Fundamental Level. and on TOP of that half the time the art is so CUTE and im like 'motherfucker that should be ME' or i guess my lad but #STILL am i making sense?? doesnt help that i worry im like. misreading what content i have but also fuck you i can do what i want and also #i get him more than yall kgyugkhjhk (jk jk. Unless) basically when i call them my boyfriends i fuckin mean it #look its Real Missing Nishiki Hours i love him i wanna kiss his perfect face someone shoulda shown him love i could save him and he could #make me worse <3 I Want Him #and do not get me wrong i may be focused on him but Majima is still my wifey too!!! hes mine you cant have her <3 #i just have koi boy brainrot i very much desire them Both (YES THAT MIGHT BE WHY I SHIP THEM TOO LOOK I ALSO THINK THEYD WORK WELL TOGETHER #OR AT LEAST HAVE A FUN DYNAMIC TO EXPLORE I SHOULD DATE THEM AND THEY SHOULD DATE EACH OTHER WE ALL HAVE 2 HANDS)#might delete this in the mornin who knows but im feelin silly i wanna talk about them i wanna talk about my boy but idk if ppl would really #GET IT yknow i can think of maybe Two People and that INCLUDES bestie but just aaaa point is i love my koi boy so much hes so lovely <3 <3

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krispiecake · 1 year ago

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i hope that everyone is aware that i am trying SO HARD to be normal but the universe is TESTING ME.

#i am trying ao hard not to fall back into old habits rn but jesus CHRIST brooooooooo #i havent been able to get barely any time with the staff i need for the past two days and now #theyre like 40mins late with my meds bc of another tenant #and its not even like theyre WITH the other tenant rn btw there are two members of staff sat in the office just talking #and its like bro. BROOOOOOOO #like they know this shit is SO triggering and i know they cant help some stuff but i still feel like i should be able to get my meds on time #if they arent actively with another tenant #its such a small thing but it helps my brain remember that actually they do still care abt me lol #all ive wanted to do since like wednesday was just watch a movie with my fp now that we’re cool again #and i was waiting in the lounge for like an hour and no one even came in #and its not like we planned anything so im not mad or whatever im just frustrated that #i had a rlly shit night last night and a pretty shit day today #and there just isnt anyone around to talk to bc theyre all dealing with someone else #or not even just sat around talking or whatever #idk this shit makes me wanna punch things burn everything to the ground and then kill myself if im being totally honest rn #and like last night and this isnt my therapists fault or anything but ahe wasnt able to pick up #and i managed to get thru it but it just added to the feeling like no one gave a shit #and its past nine again so she probs wouldnt be able to pick up now even tho i kinda need help again #idk this shit just. its so fucking triggering and i feel insane and so tightly wound #and ive been putting so much effort into my stupid therapy and i just wanna let go and have a full on meltdown again #i wanna take a bunch of pills and scream and cry and throw things and argue and just LET GO #cuz i feel like thats my ‘true nature’ and everything else is just me faking #or masking #AND IM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT ITS SO MUCH EFFORT AND I FEEL LIKE IM GETTING NOTHING BACK

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skyburger · 8 months ago

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i know their asses are fake music fans i know wamuu has never heard a single george michael song hes never even heard wake me up before you go-go. esidisi doesnt even KNOW about highway to hell. kars is also there

#SORRY IDK ANY CARS SONGS #i did look them up on spotify and like i listened to it and its good music!!!! but ive never heard it before LOL #anyway. i feel like ive sinned spelling acdc and wham like that #but i always spell kars with a k he looks stupid with a c... Automobile? your name is fucking automobile?#anyway as much as i just wanna call them wham and acdc. if i write them the official localization way #its easier for me to make clear when im talking about wham! (the pop duo) and AC/DC (the rock band)#anyway im allowed to post this because like well firstly why wouldnt i be #but secondly george michael is my moms fave singer #and before i discovered mcr i would say ac/dc was my fave band cuz that was like the first real artist i would just #sit down and listen to all their music you know #like before that i didnt have a fave!!! i would just say i liked 80s music #cause tbh all i listened to was video game songs and the radio #and i feel like half the radio was and still is one hit wonders #so id listen to one song by someone on spotify and like it but then i just wouldnt care for any of their other stuff a lot of the time #anyway ac/dc and eventually mcr were my gateway drug into like becoming a Music Guy (aka having more of a taste in music than i did +#when i was 12 years old.)#tldr wham is my moms fave band (''pop duo'' technically i guess but stfu its a band) and ac/dc was my first fave (and i still love em)#so im rightfully furious (jokingly) that these faker jjba villians dont even listen to their music!!!! THAT MUSIC IS BICHIN!!!!#stop killing people and listem to everything she wants by wham! please. please. it will fix you #also heres my formal apology to santana because like i have beef with kars for being kars #but santana didnt do shit i just dunno any songs by santana #like the band. sorry to mr. santana himself i will listen to your music one day i promise #anyway sorry for the ramble i looooove talking #muffin mumbles

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