#like ever since i was 5 when i was fantasizing abt my future i was like Im gonna marry a prince and then ill be able to afford to pay all of
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nomairuins · 3 months ago
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anyways sry its not srs eventually ill get it together . and be a person again. one day
#its just like atm everything that i need is like . not possible. which is oartially my brain being like We have to do this before we this#which sometimes isnt true but sometimes is#like i cant get medicated again or back seeing a psych or back on t until i get a job again#but i cant get a job again utnil i get my ged <- partially untrue but ged would make it a lot easier#but i cant get my ged until i have a job bc it costs money <- if i asked my parents they would probably help me If they had money 2 spare#since like. yk. they want ne to be able to work again so i have money again and ill be another source of income and they care abt me also .#affirmations . ppl donot just see me as a piggy bank they do see me as a person im not judt someone to squeeze money out of thats not how#ppl view me and its fine its fine its fine its fine . it feels so stupid being scared abt that i feel like a rich person whos like She only#likes me for my money 😭 like stfuuu annoying ass. i just ummmm. have a massive fear of debt and like. ppl demanding money from me#unexpectedly or expecting i am going to give them money. not in like a Ohhh fucking ppl want me to donate not it at all im happy to donate#but in like. god this is dumb. eveeytime i got birthday or christmas money as a kid i had to give it to my parents so they could buy food or#gas or whatever. and it never got paid bsck and it felt like shit. but i couldnt ever say no bc then itd be My fault we didnt have food that#week . yk. my first paycheck i had to give it all to my mom for groceries and we got in a fight in the store bc she was like Ok im gonna go#buy pop and my dumbass got upset abt it bc like. my mom told me itd be Necessities nd like. yk. wtvr. it was fucking stupid my entire family#r caffeine addicts so pop is a necessity i was just. rly upset and it felt like my parents saw my money as just. theirs but they had to ask#abt it so i wouldnt get pissy. yk. and they ask me for money a lot usually for food and i dont mind but it like. idk im rly paranoid abt#being a provider and ive got a Lot of guilt abt like. anytime we dont have enough food it feels like my fault bc it was my fault when i wasa#kid if i didnt give up my christmas money for pizza. or whatever. idk its so dramatic like i didnt need the money i was 8 it was selfish of#me to wanna buy fucking. toys or whatever that wasnt more important than My parents being able to get to work or my siblings being able to#fucking. literally eat. or paying bills. like its selfish that im like wahhh wahhh but i wanted to buy vibeo game wif my bday money i#shouldve judt been fucking grateful i was able to help my family. wtvr. I hate connor. wtvr#n then the shit with ugh last year like. yk. and stuff. and then the them stealing 1000 from me not getting into it b4 i get mad. idk.#and im just lazy now i need to get a job again but all the shit like. as i was saying earlier b4 i started whining. idk. i should be happy#that i get to help w bills and stuff that was my dream as a kid#like ever since i was 5 when i was fantasizing abt my future i was like Im gonna marry a prince and then ill be able to afford to pay all of#my families bills and my parents and siblings will be able to go to college and be happy and maybe never have to work bc ill be able to#handle it and ive always like. yk. when i was a dumbass kid i was like Ill go to college so i can get a good job and be useful. of course i#cant ever go to college bc im fucking. useless. and itd just be another burden on my family if i was in debt bc i couldnt help them as much#if i had debt and itd be selfish. and it doesnt matter bc im too stupid to go to college anyway. idk. i wish i could just fix everything#it just feels awful rn im literally just a drain and my family doesnt say it to me yk like. ik theyre happy imback i think they are
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hariosborn · 4 years ago
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james potter fic recs!!
lily evans, i see you, hear you, and i respect you... but we’re gonna forget about you for a hot minute
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no please don’t say that... by @hello-everyfandom tag yourself, i’m sappy james :(( i just want to attend at least one gryffindor party in my lifetime. thinking of shifting realities :// jkjk i have no free time on my hands :(( but if i ever did, i would for sure visit the marauders and hang out w them in the common room 🥰 hashtag gryffindor pride!
match made by @slytherinquill who is y/n and why does she get all the guys 😔i would hate to have to choose between two boys who like me, but lucky for me no one likes me! as much as it squeezes my heart, i love the fake dating trope with all my heart bc of all the emotions it puts me through - and this one was so well written! love that for the writer, could not be me, i suck at writing <3
too late for love by @futurewriter2000 just the right amount of steam and heartbreak ;( fun fact: i used to only read and write on w**tpad and that was where i read my first hp fanfic after 2 years of being on the app (i had promised myself hp was off limits) and like i was looking on google to see the marauders fancasts and i saw a gif of aaron taylor johnson and i accidentally clicked on it and it took me to a oneshot on this writers page, and i was like “oh well, might as well” and i read it and i was crying and then for a month i was going on incognito tabs to try and read everything on her masterlist and then i caved and got a tumblr and here we are! so shoutout to @futurewriter2000 for being the writer to suck me into this lovely whirlpool that is harry potter fanfiction heehee
numb love by @heloisedaphnebrightmore i love non-cannon stuff because lets face it, my existence is not cannon. but this! this right here! wow! yes! it hurt, but it was worth it! i love how i could still have my own harry potter uni fantasy, but still have it line up with the cannon timeline 🥺
jealous by @writingfortoomanyfandoms short and sweet but dang! my heart did that little b***rflies thingy 😳i think best friend!remus is the best thing ever, and sirius’ little jabs at lovesick james were *muah*
nightmare by @marauder-exe more butterflies! i won’t spoil it - but when the prompt was mentioned (like james used it) i melted onto the floor. i became a puddle of puddy on the floor. i went so soft. i felt like i was in my natural soft girl state. romantic hari was activated :0
summer revelations by @pregnant-piggy YESSS!!! YAAAASSSS!!! SUMMATIIIIME!!! i live in ~la~ and its that kind of nasty hot rn (and during the summer) bc we’re having a heat wave, and i just wish with my entire being, that i could instead spend my summers in the english countryside in a cute french style house with cute boys dancing around their feelings for me. thats the dream right there. y/n has it lucky. i bet she takes that sh*t for granted 😒 jkjk love her! i am her! also i had in mind the exact dress i would be wearing, and bc of the humidity, i’m imagining my curls would be ~activated~ and so my messy bun would just be at peak cuteness <3
pushing the right buttons by @heloisedaphnebrightmore i don’t know why (actually i do) but the word “waist” and the action of “wrapping his arm around your waist” makes me feel something amazing. i’ve learned that my love language is physical touch + affection and this fic has that, and then paired with the idea of someone appreciating my waist just makes my brain go into overdrive. and then shirtless james is obviously a plus as well. 5+ points for that alone. 
uncontrollable wandless magic by @heloisedaphnebrightmore ooo imagine having powers 😏eleven typa beat. (OMG WAIT THE CHARACTER FROM STRANGER THINGS, NOT THE AGE AJKABVKJ)
schemes series!masterlist by @futurewriter2000 OOOO YESSS! this series broke my heart, but like in the best way possible, so its all good. also this fic introduced me to the idea of fantasizing abt mulciber, so i am not complaining. love me some remusxreaderxjamesxreaderxsiriusxreaderxmulciuberxreaderxplatonic!regulusxreader
potter by @mellifluousmalfoy relative of ernie mcmillan??? james potter??? soulmates??? the answer to all of those questions is yes. yes i do. yes i am. yes i is.
a golden lion and the pale blue bird by @remusishotterthansirius im not saying i agree with this authors user, but i a*ree with this authors user. back to the scheduled programming - i love study buddy!remus. like period bestfriend. introduce me to my future mans. you go do that remus. you play matchmaker. go ahead, i give you full permission 😌 
just go by @jamesmydeer i don’t even - i just - when - AGHHH. maybe its like a disease, but i love putting myself through pain via heartbreak stories on tumblr. it gives me a rush. pretending i’m actually in love. its nice ya know? its definitely an obsession, but i think its a healthy one! 
Y’ALL I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOING MY HOMEWORK BUT I PROCRASTINATED AND MADE THIS LIST! AHHHH
but its okay bc its been a looong time since i made my first post - which also, ty for the nice messages from all the writers mentioned 🥺
hope you liked these recommendations! i’m sorry if you’re a writer and get tagged in like ever single fic rec list i post, i just really like your stuff 🥺
ANYWAYS I HAVE TO GO, I HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK TO DO AND SO LITTLE TIME BYEEEEE
happy reading! 
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skimblyshanks · 3 years ago
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For the Unusual otp ask game for Alonzo/Misto!
4. After a bad day, what would each member of your otp do to cheer the other up?
5. What's your otp's ideal vision of the future? What would they want to happen? Where would they want to live?
18.What are the small gestures with which your otp says 'I love you'? Are those daily rituals? Is the other aware of the intention behind those gestures?
Unusual OTP Asks!
4.) I don't think Alonzo is really one to articulate his feelings, at least not in the immediate aftermath of something distressing to him, but he's also not one to distract with other topics in the immediate aftermath, so when shit happens and he's had a bad day, Misto's usual course of action is to just sit with him (couch, bed, floor, anywhere) and like. Hold him/cuddle. this method is only effective when it's Misto or when it's Munk bc they're the ppl Alonzo feels most comfortable being so touchy Feely around, and it has to be a really bad day to keep him from immediately cuddling back.
Misto, on the other hand, finds full-on cuddling when he's had a bad day to feel claustrophobic. Sometimes he'll want to rip off the band-aid (or, plaster, I guess. They're bri'ish lol) and start ranting right away, but other times(most times) he just wants to stop thinking about it for the moment. Alonzo's still a tactile kinda guy tho, so the usual course of action for him is to switch on the TV, ask if it's ok for him to touch (it usually is) and then he'll gently massage Misto's neck+shoulders and listen as he talks, either abt the problem itself or about anything else, occasionally sneaking kisses from Misto's jaw to his cheek throughout. If Misto's not feeling a massage that day, Alonzo will sit next to him and either rub his back occasionally, or else have one of Misto's hands rest on one of his own.
5.) I think Misto was the first to have the most defined vision of an ideal future. Alonzo didn't (and still doesn't) like planning out hypotheticals beyond "we're still together and we're still happy," meanwhile Misto was already thinking abt grandkids and old age ghvvdgjb. In fairness to Misto, he was going to want kids regardless of who he ended up with, and, accompanying that, he was always going to fantasize abt living somewhere with enough open space for said kids to play and worry about breaking or dirtying things; they were just ideas misto had since he was old enough to recognize how a family structure was generally built + that one day he could start his own family. On the other hand, it's not that Alonzo didn't ever want or think abt having kids, so much as he didn't want to get his hopes up only for it to never end up happening. Once it became a near-certainty that they would have kids he was 100% on board; his outline for an ideal future stretched to include that their kids were raised well.
In my anthro and human aus Bustopher sets them up with an old family property a bit of a ways out from the city (Meaning Misto p effectively fulfills his main future family goals), while in my more feline aus it's more of a balancing act btwn Misto's humans' home, Alonzo's home in the Vicarage, and the Junkyard (It's a not insubstantial disappointment for Misto that they and the kittens have so much back-and-forth, but he gets used to it even if he doesn't love it).
Those 2 new cryptid babies Ichabod and Pooka were 1000% surprise kids for everyone but once they're there, neither misto nor alonzo could even believe they weren't planned-for ahead of time.
18.) It's cliche but Misto will absolutely come up from behind with a hug and a nuzzle into Alonzo's neck. If not that a passing peck on the cheek, nose, or lips. They're small reassurances in Alonzo's love language to make sure he picks up on that. They can have just had a fight, Misto still upset at Alonzo, and he will still be sure to kiss his forehead or at the very least squeeze his shoulder before storming out.
Alonzo's everyday gestures stem from knowing Misto's schedule (especially when it changes), and preparing things to make it go smoothly. Quietly starting the coffee so it's ready once Misto's up, organizing his things without digging too deep into Misto's personal belongings, prepping the table, leaving out reminders for sudden changes, and generally staying out of the way while Misto goes about his mornings. Misto can struggle with getting his days started, so he absolutely notices once the wheels are suddenly greased without him doing anything.
I also think they both hold/squeeze each other's hands out of habit. If one or both is excited/stressed/sad/annoyed/scared/mad/anything at all, there's going to be a moment of grabbing and squeezing hands.
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