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gay-fordeath · 6 months ago

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#dont call anyone im safe im fine im just venting. tw for suicide/self harm/kind of intense language. ideally no ones reading this tho #bro i cant keep living like this #i dread waking up every day so much that i dread even falling asleep #i got insomnia medication in my system and my brain is still like nope absolutely not #i cant keep up at my job even when i am rested enough #i get headaches every other day #my instant mental reaction in the face of stress is to hurt myself (i have not)#like fuck. i work for the disability department of an insurance company #i know for a fact that (probably) every contract stipulates we wont cover disabilities as a result of self inflicted injuries #which is supposed to prevent ppl from taking advantage of the system or whatever #and im always like if someone goes to the lengths of actively injuring themselves to the point of disability #in the name of 'getting out of work'#that person is not 'taking advantage of the system' THAT PERSON IS FUCKING MENTALLY ILL #AND I WOULD KNOW BC I AM ONE OF THOSE PPL #do not come for me on some shit about wanting to disable yourself being morally questionable i cant be concerned abt that rn #i gotta focus on the fact that i hate my life so much id rather break my own right hand than continue it #its an improvement from the active suicidal ideation but its still a symptom of the passive ideation #fucking hell. im too self aware so i absolutely feel like im faking it or making shit up so i can be lazy and not work and whatever #but FUCKING CHRIST theres no way. if i had a choice i wouldnt let myself feel like this.#i just got to a point where i can live alone and support myself. i was so happy and so proud of myself. I don't want to lose that #but god every phone call i have to make for work makes me want to hurt myself. every early morning (and there arent many!!! i mostly work #from home!!!) makes me wish i was dead. i have to sleep for hours after work more often than not. i cant really maintain my living space #theres fucking. mold and discoloration and shit on a bunch of my clothes and some of my bags and shit!!#cause i cant fucking keep my room clean and my basement apartment got fucking humid over the summer and so much moisture got trapped #i constantly have dirty dishes getting moldy before i get to them #i just dont have the fucking energy. i want to take better care of my space. i want to be more social. i just want to go to sleep without #fucking dreading waking up. i wanna go a full week without a headache. i want my stress response to be something other than the intense and #overwhelming desire to cut myself. if i start again i dont know if ill be able to stop and i know i wont be able to keep it to my arms/legs/#easily hidden parts of my body. last breakdown i escalated to my face and i know ill pick up from there.#fuck

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oncominggstorm · 2 months ago

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My aunt decided a good way to wish me a happy birthday would be to text me a picture of me & my dead dad from my 22nd birthday.

Like yay thanks, I totally wanted to be sad and missing my dad on my birthday. I definitely wasn't trying to do the "out of sight out of mind don't think about sad things" thing to get through it without crying or anything 👍 Definitely wasn't already struggling missing not getting a happy birthday text from him 👍👍

#and like I get that her intentions were good but i find it SO rude #why would you bring up something heart wrenchingly sad to someone on their birthday? Unless they've indicated to you that they want that #it wasn't even like it was a new picture/one she could reasonably believe I hadn't seen before #we literally used a cropped version of that exact photo for his obituary #she has done something similar with EVERY SINGLE holiday since he died #fathers day & his birthday & thanksgiving & christmas all of them we got texts like “i know how hard today must be!”#like uh no i was doing fine til I got your text actually cuz I was blocking it all out & now your text has forced me to think about it #we're not even that close? Like she legit had never texted me before my dad died #and the last conversation I had with her was her telling me that me needing help with things was co-dependence #rather than a legit need because I am disabled #and that keeping my curtains closed all the time was unhealthy #and when I tried to explain sensory issues she said that she 'gets headaches from the sun sometimes too but you just have to power through'#as if that's the same thing as sensory issues from autism #(which she is apparently an expert on because she is a nurse and has worked with a few young boys with autism)#like literally she claimed she knew better than my actual doctor who diagnoses autism for a living #or my therapist who sees me twice a week (whereas i speak to my aunt MAYBE once a year)#oh also did you know that I should totally be able to hold down a full time job?#because the 18 year old autistic boy she knows whose parents do literally everything to support him and who has zero other responsibilities #and a huge support network trying to meet his needs #well HE'S able to work part time at the movie theater #so obviously that means that I should be able to work too because we're all the same #yeah anyway sorry rant over #it just really upset me #also because I was so upset I forgot I wanted to go to the park on my way home from the weed store 😔#beth posts

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davemustaine · 6 months ago

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Throughout this afternoon I had ibuprofen, kraft mac n cheese, a snickers bar, pretzel combos + a baja blast and coincidentally I've been fighting the same splitting headache all day

#I must admit .. it is very satisfying to be able to fit a whole bottle of baja blast in the side pocket of my tripp pants #I hate getting headaches every day guys. if its not a headache its like stomach pain.. one or the other #not to be dramatic but I'm getting sick of being in pain like all the time LOL #feeling the need to be cradled .. where is my big beautiful boyfriend #woof

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downsteepy · 7 months ago

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i am very grateful that im not someone that has to deal with daily seizures but it is evil when it takes like a week and a half's worth of business days to recover from a seizure

#if i had them everyday or every other day i would be so fucked 😭#id like to say they dont bother me per se but the entire week after is laying in bed after 11 pm and wondering if jts going to happen again #bc my head feels like its about to explode #and then do not get me started on the fear of getting in the shower within the first few days of one happening .#reasonably i understand that my seizures happen from 11pm to maybe 3 am on average .#but ill have a seizure and then have to hype myself up for like 2 hours just to take one 3 days later st like 2 pm #my seizures do not interfere with my day to day life in extreme ways but existing knowing that i have them during a certain time frame is #like. Hey man can you grow up #also it is really funny being told theyre probably hormonal or stress related and should 'probably stop' as i get into my mid 20s .#Well im turning 25 next month and evidently i still have seizure activity in me #also also heres a fun fact: my epilepsy does not have an actual named diagnosis they just said i certainly have a Form of it ❤️#they dont know what causes them and i have no real warning signs (bc a headache =/= potential seizure)#they dont bother me but i do have to live with the knowledge that i could have one any day now and wake up to my mom asking me questions #hope everyone can tell i have a lot of feelings about my epilepsy despite not talking about it like ever ❤️#the only thing that really bothers me is the no warning signs. ive been perfectly fine and had them. ive had massive migraines when i was #unmedicated and didnt have one. very bizarre #and ofc all my brain scans come back normal all the time so they dgaf Lol

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milo-is-rambling · 10 months ago

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I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like.#what? am I missing something here?#my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know.#honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

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strewbi · 17 days ago

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I’ve been taking a lions mane tincture because it’s supposed to help with nerve regeneration and my sense of smell was merc’d by covid. and good news! it works! bad news! my room smells like a fucking DOG.

#I stripped my sheets and baking soda-ed my mattress to be vacuumed later and that really helped. I’m gonna baking soda my shoes too.#I gotta start leaving my window open but I’m freaked out because my window is a door and it doesn’t quite have a screen door to it.#and there’s cridders out there #anyone interested in taking lions mane careful some people who take it with anti depressants have headaches or a sense of fog.#I’m good so far. I started with a low dose every other day and worked my way up.#it also tastes INSANE. like bad.#the tincture contains alcohol so be aware of that. If you can get your hands on the mushroom itself that’s just as good. And it tastes #INCREDIBLE if you tempura it. It’s wonderful meal. People try to sell it as powdered supplements for smoothies or whatever? Disgusting.#I tried a smoothie with lions mane and I thought I was being poisoned by medicis

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wonder-worker · 1 year ago

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Thomas Penn writes about 500 year old dead historical figures like they're celebrities in a gossip column

#it's funny to an extent but after a point it gets very grating #he has a wealth of information but he's far too sensationalistic and florid #and tends to choose the most unsympathetic and/or colorful interpretation of every situation and historical figure #he also has a habit of ... narrativizing history which doesn't really work for me #also his fatphobia re Edward IV was absolutely revolting #I was planning on ordering the Winter King but after looking at the synopsis and first 2 chapters that were available online - no thanks #I'm definitely not interested in reading about Henry VII supposedly being 'sinister' and 'Machiavellian' because he...ruled successfully?#because he did what kings (unfortunately) did all the time? How was he any different from the others?#also imagine calling *Henry VII* ruthless & unscrupulous when his predecessor murdered his own kid-nephews and his successor was Henry VIII #like please be serious #I had the same issue with the way he described Edward IV's reign. His descriptions were so theatrical and emphatic but #at the end of the day the things he was describing were very normal lol #or they would be normal if Penn didn't choose the most critical (and mocking tbh) perspective for every single thing #the way he described Henry VI's reign was also annoying but it thankfully had far less pagetime and was not the focus of his work #so it was comparatively more tolerable #i'm glad that he acknowledged the propaganda against Margaret tho. I didn't like how he described her but at the very least he acknowledged #that she was being slandered #also calling Warwick 'the regime's biggest headache' lmfao #and ig some of his analyses on Richard III were interesting. It helps that R3 had a very short and very dramatic reign from start to finish #so Penn's flourishing tone doesn't really feel out of place for it

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seventh-district · 3 months ago

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tfw u finally go to make urself a dinner plate and some nasty ass man walks into the kitchen, picks up the entire serving bowl of creamed corn and puts his filthy mouth on the bowl like it’s a giant cup and tilts it straight in. multiple times. 🙃

#could you not wait long enough to get a fucking spoon and your own bowl like a civilized human respectful of other people #Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #food mention #yeah no it’s cool it’s fine it’s not like i wanted to eat some too or anything #it’s not like that’s one of the only vegan dishes here that i can therefore eat haha no it’s fine #i guess a normal person wouldn’t let it bother them but my OCD is having none of it. that corn is Tainted with your Mouth Germs now #oh what you want one of the last rolls that i was gonna eat? yeah no that’s cool man that’s fine eat as much as you want! :)#i hate the holidays more and more every year. nothing but stress and for what. i don’t even like these people #but whatever i guess i shouldn’t bitch about it when i choose to remain here #as if everyone with a shitty family has the power and ability to just Leave. i don’t think you realize the extent of my disability #but fucking whatever #someone put dirty plates in the cabinet with the clean ones #someone put the turkey in with a sink full of dishes #someone put the mashed potatoes in the bread box #i’m not even exaggerating #ahhh the joys of being the only sober person here. man what the actual hell. what level of intoxication must one reach to do this shit #whatever it’s fine i just have to learn to stop giving a fuck. let them be stupid and live with the consequences.#it’s late and i’m getting a stress headache. time to go brave the kitchen once more and actually get food this time #then i can be miserable in bed. but with food :) and eat myself sick as a shitty form of self-soothing #but it’s fine today bc it’s literally Eat Too Much day in the US so for once it’s kinda normal #then be too tired and depressed to make myself brush my teeth. and therefore contribute to my dental issues. two birds and all that #am i even making sense anymore. im so tired. of being a person. and like. existing #but im grateful to have food and running water and electricity and a place to sleep and everything else i take for granted #so i should just focus on that and try to ignore all the bad #ough i feel sick. okay Food Time fr this time. let’s hope no one’s in the kitchen now

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riotbeankai · 3 months ago

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I've only been on this dosage of testosterone gel for what, like, a year? how many times do I have to get it refilled before they figure out HOW MANY TO GIVE ME for a 30 DAY FUCKIN SUPPLY for FUCK'S SAKE

#'it says we gave you a 90 day supply'#no you gave my 90 packets i use 3 packets per day so thats a 30 day supply #'it says we dispensed 225'#that's 225 grams because each packet is 2.5 grams so 90 packets is 225 #'one moment let me put you on hold'#'okay youre right the day supply was wrong woops we'll get that refill submitted today'#IT'S BEEN NEARLY A WEEK SINCE I PUT IN THE REFILL REQUEST AND I USED MY LAST DOSE TODAY IM SO TIRED OF PHARMACIES AND CONTROLLED SUBSTANCES #i didnt yell at the pharmacist i just said 'cool thank you 😊' but that last tag is what i was internally screaming #this is why i desperately wish i could go back to injections #and other reasons but this is a big one #im genuinely this close to risking anaphylaxis to just give it another try and see if my body will tolerate it properly this time #im so tired of allergy specialists being useless and doctors not giving a shit about what im asking for or what i need #all this headache to get my medication and take it every fucking day and its NOT EVEN AS EFFECTIVE AS INJECTIONS #im slathering a full 3 packets of goop equivalent to like 5 big pumps of hand sanitizer on my legs every fucking morning #and it's NOT EVEN AS CONSISTENT OR EFFECTIVE AS THE ALTERNATIVE #and i cant fucking increase the dose!!#not only will the pharmacy shit its pants even worse every single month #but i literally dont have enough skin surface area to effectively absorb that much fucking gel #im so tired #when are they gonna invent like a testicle transplant so i can make my own fuckin testosterone #i dont even want balls for like dysphoria or aesthetic reasons i literally just want the hormone to naturally occur in my body #im so fucking tired of workarounds

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ambersky0319 · 4 months ago

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I love and hate getting hit with big project ideas (both of the writing and art variety)

love it bc they seem so fun!! i would like to do them for various reasons! i know finishing would leave me feeling accomplished, id learn some new stuff and practice some skills

hate it cause i have no time to finish and i eventually lose motivation to keep up

#like. id love to start a project kinda like justin veneema(?)'s photography project on insta #but with doing strangers' portraits for free and in a variety of styles #would love to do self portraits and do some hand portraits especially of fingerspelled words/names #would love to do stippling and combine stippling and digital art!#id love to write more of eternal. remaster my old nnt soulmate/soul bond series #write more of notw! get further in the story or write some other starting points #and i want big game projects! wanna collect every item in sdv. fill the botw compendium. restart smash bros and collect all the characters #but timeeeeeeeeeee #i have so much school work. im actually pretty behind in *all* my classes. i still have a couple months left. i need to get my gpa up #i work part time over weekends. in the mornings. im exhausted by noon & my legs are tired and its hot and deli employees can be so annoying #i have an internship. weekly 1 on 1s on zoom that i gotta rush to cause theyre right after my class. only JUST NOW getting #placed at sites and my contract expires in december. takes up middle of two days at least each week #by the time i do get a chance to do whatever i want im tired or have a headache or my brain is fried so i do nothing #this became more venty than i expected but gist is im scrambing #and my early new years resolution (aka starting in mid december) is to manage my time better. and plan time explicitly for myself #amber's shit you can ignore

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tittyinfinity · 6 months ago

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My mother confuses the fuck out of me

#i guess she's getting severance checks from her old job?#i mean fuck that's the least they could do after she worked there for 40 years #she only gets 900 a month from my dad's SSI survivor benefits #she went from saying we're struggling financially to suddenly offering to pay for shit i need #that kinda scares me because i think that means she's impulsively spending her savings. which could mean she thinks she's gonna die soon #she's 64 and my dad died at almost 63 #like she helped my sister buy my niece a car. it's a 24 year old vehicle and only costed 4k and she paid 2k but 2k is a LOT to us #she said she's been saving my rent money to fix my car for the past couple of months on top of me saving for it #which means we definitely have the money to fix everything by now #but that's not happening all my tires still need to be replaced my ac doesn't work it's making clinking sounds #it stalled while i was driving the other day but turning it off and restarting it fixes it #anyway. the thing is I'm always sus about my mom offering shit.#she likes to hold shit over your head.#I'm very worried that she's gonna fix my car and then use that to control me in some way. because that's how it is every time.#but like.....it's better than not having the help. fuck.#i feel so privileged despite how broke and disabled i am. bc most disabled people dont have this to fall back on #the craziest thing is that the only reason we have this house is bc of my grandparents' inheritance #and neither of them went to college my grandpa was in the army #and my grandma only temporarily worked for jc penney as a bookkeeper #side note my 80 year old grandma was better with computers than most elderly people are today #just from that job? from what i know #when she died my family sold the family house and that's how we put the down payment on this house #which btw only costed 64k in 2012 apparently it's worth 175k now according to zillow #but like. how. i feel like my family being white and christian is the only reason we have all this privilege #i have a headache bye #.bdo

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valewritessss · 6 months ago

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Something about me is that I’m always dehydrated.

I always have been. I went to the ER in first grade because I didn’t drink water all day during summer camp.

I feel thirsty but for some reason I can just ignore it and I forget I’m thirsty.

I get constipated because I never drink water. I have so much water retention because I never drink water. My skin is suffering because I never drink water. I’m low on energy because I never drink water. My hair falls a lot because I never drink water.

Part of the reason I forget to drink it is because two years or so ago, I hated that I would get bloated after taking a sip of anything (I also hated the way I looked I thought I was fat but this was why) so I decided to just not drink water until I got home from school. I also started skipping meals which made things worse but this is about water right now. Obviously, this made the matter worse because I was already dehydrated to begin with so I started to get even more bloated, more tired, I felt like shit all the time, and my anxiety levels skyrocketed. Then I went to the doctor and told her about it in hopes that she would give me some magical solution. She just told me to drink water and I was like oh…

Long story short, drink water. I started drinking a lot more water and my skin sighed in relief, my hair is try thriving, and I get less bloated now. I overall feel more confident and energized, I would definitely recommend.

I still forget to drink water a lot since it kind of became a habit to ignore my thirst but I’m working on it and it’s helped a lot

#idk #random post #tw mentions of eating disorder #yes I had one but I’m scared of people telling me I didn’t because I don’t ‘look’ like people with eds so idek if it is one #ts is confusing ppl are always invalidating others for not experiencing things the same way #anyways #I thought this would be a funny(?) rant but it lowkey turned into a vent #oops #dehydration #rant #snippet of my life #I just need to share the benefits of water bc although everyone knows you need it to survive ppl don’t realize just how important it is #I almost shit myself in first grade because I thought I was gonna die #it wasn’t that serious but going to the emergency room sounded so scary #and it is but like I don’t want ppl to think I was on my death bed #drink water #I forgot to mention that it calmed my severe headaches #I would get headaches every day from not eating or drinking I started doing worse in school bc of it #once again drinking water saves the day #ofc this isn’t the solution for everyone but drinking water is very good for you #and it’s not that I dislike water in fact I love it I only ever drink water #I don’t like sodas #hydration #stay hydrated #pjo #kotlc #those are just the fandoms again don’t freak out at me pls

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mlmshark · 7 months ago

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Oh boy I’m back in the “Do I have bpd?” crisis again

#I’m having a lot of mental health issues basically #I’m getting angry and depressed really quickly over small things #like I’ll be having a good day and then suddenly I don’t feel acknowledged enough and am extremely depressed #to the point where I have to lie in bed all day #to the point where it gives me physical reactions like headaches and nausea #and I’m having panic attacks on if everyone heated me and if I’m an awful person #like every five minutes #and I get angry like that too #extremely angry #like the smallest things are setting me off #and then other times I think I’m god #what the hell is wrong with me #bpd #mental illness #mental health #depression #anxiety #neurodivergent

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sunspinecity · 2 years ago

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i havent wanted to comment on the sandsurge drama bc i think it's insane but like. anyone who says that staff "isn't very communicative" has never played another petsite in their life. Turn back time spend 3 years on neopets and then we'll talk about communication bro..

like there is literally an entire Dev Status Sidebar that shows you what they're saying about whats going on that they update pretty regularly and they do dev updates + stay in contact with their playerbase and closely watch their reactions to updates to see where they messed up and what can be improved on. Like what on planet earth are you talking about. genuinely

the only agreement i will give to communication issue is that the wording on aeq's post regarding the fact that it would be a gem breed took me 7 tries and i still dont get it bc it reads to me as "2nd breed will be treasure, 3rd will be gems"?? which is obv not true. I genuinely can't see what ppl mean by this being a confirmation. but thats not a communication issue it is a Confusing Wording issue. don't complain about communication unless you've played literally any other petsite bc i guarantee you this level of transparency and care you will find in very few other places.

#and before anyone thinks im sucking up to staff. i dont like staff. i will never let myself have anything more than #respect for people i dont know on a day to day basis. they run a company. not my friends. esp not after how the eye genes were treated #fr #flight rising #chimechatter #this is the only thing ill be saying on this or reblogging btw i just got irritated<3 #my only opinions on every other issue ppl have is 1. i think modern gem breeds should be 1200 and ancients should be 600g #i cant put apparel on them why thr hell am i paying yhat much. i have to pay 1kg and then a shitton for a skin if i want one and then pay fo #r gem genes too can you get real with me. but its fine i can grind bc if im not gonna pay up im gonna god damn do it right #its literally fine. and 2. was initially disappointed we didnt get at least an egg bc i love getting eggs but w/e ill jus grind. 2 weeks of #g&g gets u a breed change scroll lmao its whatecer #they gotta make money. it is what it is. i use adblocker because the changing ads are distracting n give me a headache #so i better either put my money where my mouth is or grind it out yk. Whateval #such a nothing burger drama honestly

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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it’s yom kippur now and im not supposed to eat anything until sunset tomorrow but ive had a headache all day and rn its fucking SPLITTING but im 5 hours into the fast and i don’t know what to do. eating something would probably make me feel better but it’s yom kippur and i don’t have a longstanding ailment that would prohibit me from fasting or whatever it’s just i woke up with a headache that has gotten worse throughout the day and now the fast has started but it’s the worst it’s been all day. idk what to do. i need to eat something but i can’t

#purrs #i feel bad having any other thoughts other than like. atonement on this day but imso stressed i didn’t do my homework all weekend bc #yesterday i had horrible cramps and today i had a horrible headache and i was holding out for it to get better and it didn’t and now im #going to be in HELL fasting tomorrow bc not eating or drinking already *gives* me a headache idk what it’s going to be like when I already #have one and i can’t just take pain meds bc we don’t have any 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻 im absolutely fucking miserable #food #definitely not getting written in the book of life for saying this 😻✌️ but im so tired of there being a struggle every day. like every day s #something happens and i can’t make a decision that i know will be best for me because im scared of what others who are more powerful will #think. and in this specific instance it’s god and my mom. most of the time it’s just my mom. and im just so tired. i can never do what i #know is best for me because the timing is never right. lol #like can i please not have a horrible headache on the holiest day of the year when im not supposed to eat anything. can i please have a win.#anyway my homework is due tomorrow at 4:30 and ive done nothing to work on it at all whatsoever so i won’t even be able to observe the h #holiday anyway bc i’ll be doing that homework stressed and hungry and dealing with a horrible headache. can’t wait!

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clowngremlin · 11 months ago

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ordered a really big water bottle that comes with like a special case that has a strap on it so i can go for my walks without having to either carry my water bottle in my hands (heavy and often times annoying because i only have one free hand to do stuff with) or bring my backpack with me (often times overheats me when it's warm out and like if i'm just going for a walk around my grandma's neighbourhood or the area around my house, it's overkill because i don't need an entire backpack when most of my things fit in my fanny pack) and i am very excited about it......

#the water bottle can hold like 2 litres of water.....#it's so funny like 9 years ago when i was in residential treatment the dietitian was always getting on my case #about never drinking enough water like i used to be super dehydrated all the time and often times would get nauseous and have bad headaches #and get really bad muscle cramps #and now i'm like I HAVE TO BRING A BIG WATER BOTTLE WHEREVER I GO!!!! I NEED TO HAVE MY WATER!!!!!#and i will not leave my house without a big water bottle #but also when i was younger i like didn't take my health seriously and now i like care a lot about my health #like i eat a lot of fruit as a snack and i try to exercise every day if the weather is ok like it's not pissing rain or snowing #and i try to stay hydrated cause when i was younger i used to feel sick a lot cause of dehydration and like the other stuff i mention #idk sorry i'm rambling i am just like so excited about my new water bottle like the case is really cute and comes with little charms!!#it's like a spooky sort of pattern like it's feminine but idc i'm secure enough in my masculinity to have a purple water bottle #with like a cute spooky case #i'm thinking of getting my sister one for christmas if i like it!#we'll see....#anyways this is like what being 27 is like for me i'm excited about getting a big water bottle and carrying case and i sit outside and read

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