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you can probably tell who i am, and you can do whatever you want with that. but i have been so worried for you for so long that i can't keep it to myself anymore. ever since you've been on seroquel i've watched as your personality change into someone almost unrecognizable to who you were…

i know your dad was pressuring you into this, but at a certain point was it really worth it? it doesn't even seem like it truly did make you happier. you just seem like a shell of who you used to be.

if the people in your life irl really cared about you, they wouldn't watch you mentally and physically deteriorate like this and not say anything.

i don't know. i just hope that you can be truly happy someday and not be scared of your schizophrenia anymore, because this isn't worth it.

i'm still taking a break from tumblr for the foreseeable future, and i quite possibly might never return because i find i am feeling mentally better while not being on tumblr, but i saw this ask in my emails like last week, and it has straight up never left my head. i wanted to respond because i felt like u might appreciate knowing that i'm actually looking to get off the seroquel. it's starting to like really affect my quality of life like all i do since they increased it last year is sleep for 12+ hours, and then sit on the couch not doing jack shit for hours. i stopped doing my art, i stopped writing poetry, i stopped going for walks (although my paranoia also contributes to it as well), i don't care about things like i used to. idk if this is negative symptoms, but i don't think it is because even at the worst of my psychosis, i was still engaged with doing my art, i still wrote poetry, i still went for walks, i still watched movies. now all i do is just sit on the couch and do nothing. i'm not against medication, but i don't think seroquel is right for me. my dad and older brother are getting super concerned about my health and functionality as well. idk i just thought u would appreciate knowing this because u sent the ask out of like concern. this ask actually like really made me think about my quality of life this past year, so thanks for that!

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i'm taking a little break from tumblr for some personal reasons that i won't really get into, but it's been suggested by my mental health supports that maybe being online for like 10+ hours every day is not good for me, so i've decided to take a little break!! mutuals can ask for my discord or something, i'll check back a bit later in case anyone wants my discord information!! anyways i'll see u all later!!

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TUESDAY AGAIN NO PROBLEM

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the title of the last song you listened to is the epitaph on your tombstone

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The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974) dir. Tobe Hooper

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The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974) dir. Tobe Hooper

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If I ask nicely will people reblog this and tell me what their most common breakfast is? Not your favorite necessarily, just what you have for breakfast most frequently? 🙏🏽

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garf figures

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“There she is, the almost birthday girl. Oh, but, it seems I wore my Longlegs today. What happens if I…”

Longlegs (2024) | dir. Oz Perkins

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the best part about having a job is being able to go through doors other people aren’t allowed to use the worst part is everything else

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“horror movies of the 1970s reflect some of the grim social developments of the decade. fortunately, when society goes bad, horror films get good. in the 1970s horror makes its way back into the cultural spotlight. horror movies dealing with contemporary social issues and addressing genuine psychological fears were big hits during the decade.”

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I'm Nour Alanqar, and reaching out to you during a time of unimaginable hardship. I am 26 years old, married to Ashraf Ismail, who is 32, and together we have three beautiful children: Hussein, 6, Rajaa, 5, and Youssef, just 10 months old. Our lives have been turned upside down by the devastating war in Gaza, and we desperately need your help.

My daughter Rajaa is a radiant beam of sunshine, bringing boundless joy, warmth, and love to everyone she meets.

On a dark night at the beginning of the war, our area was subjected to massive bombing. The explosions reached our home, forcing us to flee into the night, running amidst periodic explosions and searching for survival. We made our way to southern Gaza by morning, seeking refuge in Rafah.

This is our home, filled with our memories and moments of joy and happiness, now reduced to rubble. Its destruction shattered our hearts.

In Rafah, we found shelter in a crowded warehouse filled with strangers, all of us struggling to find basic necessities like food, water, safety, and cleanliness. Despite these challenges, we were again hit by direct bombardment. My husband was injured in the shoulder, and the scene around us was filled with blood and corpses. The cries of my children in those moments still echo in my head.

A fragment of what it once was, and now, what it has become.

We moved several times to places described as safe, only to face new tragedies. During this period, my precious daughter Raja contracted hepatitis, adding to our suffering.

It was incredibly difficult for me to endure these disasters, especially as I was in the process of giving birth. Youssef was deprived of proper breastfeeding and the necessary nutrition for his age. Hussein's right to education and a safe childhood have been cruelly taken from him.

My baby Youssef, whom I clung to throughout the war, running with him through the rubble of shattered homes to escape.

At an age when Hussein should have been enjoying his childhood, all his rights were taken away from him.

Our situation is dire, and we need your support to rebuild our lives and provide a future for our children. Your kindness and generosity can make a profound difference. Your contributions will help us secure safe shelter, access to medical care, and the basic necessities of life.

Please, consider helping us during this critical time. Every donation, no matter the size, brings us one step closer to safety, stability, and a chance to rebuild our lives.

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Hello,👋🌹

I am Noor, a mother of three children from Gaza. The war has destroyed our home and our lives, and my children live in constant fear and deprivation. Every day is a struggle for survival.

I kindly ask you to share my story. Your help could restore our hope and open a new door to life for us.

Please, be our voice in this difficult time.

🙏 🇵🇸💔

hello noor!

i will reblog your post and i encourage others to do the same!! if anyone is able to, please consider donating to noor's family's campaign!!

my best wishes of health and safety to you and your family!!

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just cleaned my entire room.......it was rather overwhelming, but my dad helped me and now my entire room is clean!! in the next couple of days i'm going to set up my new shelf!!

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khartoum aid kitchen has 17 locations helping fight the catastrophic famine in sudan, pls consider supporting them!

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List of Palestinian GoFundMes

Below are a list of fundraisers that I have been sent. All of these have been vetted by either @/90-ghost, @/el-shab-hussein or @/nabulsi. If you see this, please help in anyway you can and if you can’t assist financially, please reblog this post.

Dated: 4th August 2024

rehamyasirr: GFM ($565 raised of $40,000)

wafaaresh: GFM (€11,749 raised of €100,000)

omarhilles2022: GFM (€8,829 raised of €23,000)

musababed: GFM (€2,344 raised of €10,000)

elbalawi: GFM (€30,313 raised of €50,000)

mohammedalanqer: GFM (€49,053 raised of €58,000)

mahmoudkhalafff: GFM (€17,570 raised of €30,000)

bisanalbalawi18: GFM (€30,533 raised of €50,000)

hadeelmekki: GFM (€10,047 raised of €35,000)

aymanayyad82: GFM ($30,492 USD raised of $35,000)

ahmed-mohammed1: GFM (€2,088 raised of €30,000)

abdelmutei: GFM (€4,945 raised of €50,000)

falestine-yousef: GFM ($6,143 USD raised of $40,000)

emanfamily: GFM (€3,637 raised of €38,000)

ahmed-ziad: GFM (£8,225 raised of £30,000)

salem-baker: GFM (€2,149 raised of €38,000)

lenarafat15: GFM (€3,270 raised of €30,000)

yahyaahmed5: GFM ($645 USD raised of $50,000)

musababd: GFM (€2,349 raised of €10,000)

abedalazeiz: GFM (€18,685 raised of €50,000)

amlanqar: GFM (€4,868 raised of €50,000)

kareemyounes10: GFM (€4,727 raised of €80,000)

hamouda-az: GFM (kr10,701 SEK raised of kr200,000)

ranin3344: GFM (€4,237 raised of €80,000)

helpfamily: GFM ($2,953 USD raised of $60,000)

girlquee: GFM (£7,294 raised of £20,000)

saveyouseffamily: GFM (£7,294 raised of £20,000)

aya2mohammed: GFM (€19,161 raised of €50,000)

mohamed-mikki: PP ($451 raised of $20,000)

ashraf-family2: GFM (€14,920 raised of €20,000)

as-maa-56: GFM ($1,186 USD raised of $50,000)

fatma93-gaza: GFM (€2,094 raised of €20,000)

heba-baker: GFM (€745 raised of €60,000)

ahmeadhilles: GFM (€1,820 raised of €80,000)

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People now in gaza strip are facing the danger of hunger again and displaced since the occupation invaded rafah please can you help this family is for my cousin they need money to survive in gaza to buy food and water since everything is so expensive

And my cousin family are close to me if you can't donate share it