#i just feel so strange
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i went off a bit ago about music directing for acappella. anyway long story short, someone else decided they wanted to run too, and we finally had the election today, like three weeks later. i didn't think i was going to win, but i did. i'm happy, but kind of confused, because honestly the other person was more qualified. but we talked and it was nice, and we decided that either way we were really happy for eachother, and she's going to run next year. i'm excited to work with her eventually. i just feel. really weird. idk. my sibling tells me that this is the anxiety speaking, that i should be proud and that i deserve it, but tbh rn i just feel like somehow i conned the whole group into voting me in, when it should have been the other person. i'm scared that i got excited and oversold myself, and everybody's going to realize as soon as i actually start directing. i don't know. it was also such a long discussion that the group had before final vote, and it was a hard decision apparently. which just makes me think, what were they talking about? like, i know how discussions about musical auditions go- we talk about tone and range and pitch accuracy. but how do you spend so long talking about a role like music director. like i thought it would be a quick confirmation of experience and qualifications, and then the other person would be picked immediately. like, what about us took literally a half an hour to talk about and decide on? it's just a weird thing to think about i guess.
#boink#acappella#i just feel so strange#the other md#who had been previously voted in#said he's excited to work with me#i think that's nice#i hope he was being genuine#like i hope he meant it#i am excited to work with him too#even if i kind of feel weird about it#it was just weird vibes#me and this girl had such a wild loud nervous conversation while the discussion was happening#we were both in such a heightened state of like anxiety and nerves#we were just like bouncing off eachother so fast and honestly#it was almost as fun as it was nerve wracking#which is what makes me so worried#because i want to be friends with her and i don't want her to be mad that she didn't get the position#and then when we went back into the rehearsal room#the vibes were just so weird#like. somber?#idk#i'll just see how the next rehearsal goes
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"If the original novel had given this thing more than ten words of description, there was no way he wouldn’t have remembered!"
#svsss#shen qingqiu#zhuzhi lang#sqq#zzl#is this a ship? do they have a ship tag?#anyway i'm just feeling slightly obsessed with the dynamic of:#ZZL: i am a strange hideous creature [derogatory] vs SQQ: that's a strange hideous creature [affectionate]#@mikkeneko thank you! i'm glad you like his design! bc man am i ever having fun drawing this snake boy#expect more in the future#my art#you know when it comes to mdzs/tgcf i'm pretty solidly ''yes i like the main ship no i refuse to entertain any variations on it''#whereas so far in svsss i'm team ''throw 'em all in a blender hit puree and see what comes flying out''#specifically i think sqq deserves an unwitting harem and i will rotate every bizarre dynamic that spins off that in my head#zhushen
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i think dan should get to be a little weird too. as a treat
#my art#re animator#herbert west#daniel cain#dan cain#danbert#no but srsly guys i get that hes the normal guy but you forget ... HES ALSO WEIRD !!! HES SO STRANGE !!!#if he was normal he would have called the cops on herbert ages ago#but guess what babey he ... well technically he did call the cops but he waited like 20 years to do it so .. !!#bro was an enabler dont forget that#sorry im like rlly crazy about dan...#which is unfortuante bc i feel kind of alone in that like YES herberts a baddie YES hes litterally me#but dan....... DAAAAAAAAAAAN (eagle screeching)#what the fuck am i saying!#edit hey guys its actually lucid dog that rant you see above you was written at likes 6am after an all nighter#we all know dan is weird i mainly meant i think he should get to be PORTRAYED as weird more#really im just weird about him (<3) and i need him to reflect that
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thinking about Nico adjusting to letting himself miss and long for the people he loves. based on these bits from the sun and the star:
" As Nico and Will followed the trogs, he thought about how much he missed Hazel. He was learning to make peace with that feeling. It was okay for him to miss people because that meant he wanted them around in his life. That idea was *very* new for him- he was used to either pushing people away or watching them recoil from his presence." *
" That was the most surreal thing of all... Was he happy? Nico wasn't very familiar with the sensation, but he couldn't deny that he felt wonderful in Will's presence. He even longed for the son of Apollo when they were apart. A funny thing had happened as the two grew closer: Nico suddenly understood all those cheesy, sappy love songs he'd always hated."
#its just. i like that they included that in the book yk. the fact that he prepared a certain distance between everyone#and thus isnt used to missing anyone#so its strange for him#this is probably set somewhere pre tsats just because i like to think it was one of the times he found himself missing and longing.#but it was one of the first times he actually allowed himself to feel that way.#took the feeling and held it instead of banishing it away#also yes letting himself unmask a bit#i like to think he just gets wayyy more expressive with his hands the more he heals#that and he unmasks more!!! more openly stimming!! more special interest rambles!!#just oughh.#anyways this was a huge comic to colour#big fuck you to tumblr who made posting soooo much harder#fuck u and ur updates tumblr#solangelo#pjo#percy jackson and the olympians#percy jackon and the olympians#nico di angelo#will solace#the sun and the star#trials of apollo#they borrow clothes from eachother its real in my head okay#nico canonally bought will a stupid shirt as a joke tho and i love that for them
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max & daniel + eye contact
#aka maxiel ignoring everyone and living in their own little world#second one is giving renaissance#it's not much but it's honest work#it really isn't much and I have no reason for this; I just miss them#I feel like I've said this a million times already but it's true#and it started out as something completely different but I like this version#the amount of photos I saw from 2024 is painful#it wasn't the whole year and he was supposed to be wearing different colors in half of them but it is what it is#the more I look at it the more I hate it; it looks so silly#I was going to do it with less photos but I kept finding new ones and lost track of time editing them#because there was something strangely soothing about contouring daniel's nose :)#aaaahhhh whatever I spent hours on this#daniel ricciardo#max verstappen#maxiel#daniel#max#my work
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Love.
#And then nothing bad happened to them ever.#I hurt my arms rock climbing so they were shaking like hell for the first part of this so the proportions are a little strange#but it's about the FEELING!#Also look it was Ace's birthday just a few hours ago in my timezone this is still relavant#masked deuce#portgas d ace#monkey d luffy#sabo the revolutionary#revolutionary sabo#yamato one piece#one piece yamato#flame emperor sabo#my art#one piece#one piece fanart#yamato
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Peepaw Starlo struggles. Autism 2 autism communication struggles.
#undertale yellow#uty#uty au#lucky clover au#frisk ut#starlo uty#ceroba uty#martlet uty#dalv uty#feisty four uty#the cowboy hat draws#FALLS OVER. THIS TOOK OVER A MONTH.#Mostly because of being busy IRL but also because I decided on a new rendering method#Aaaand it was ten times as time consuming and I don't like the end result at all. LMAO. You live and learn I suppose#I hope this is comprehensible um. I think a lot about Starlo being so used to understanding Clover easily and being one of their favorites#And going to Frisk and 1. not really understanding how they communicate and 2. feeling like he isn't their favorite LOL#Idk how well that reads but! Peepaw Starlo musings#Starlo tries his best and doesn't always get it right but he's in a better place now#I know Clover's absence feels very strange here but I just couldn't find a place to put them oops.#Drawing this made me realize I really gotta practice my backgrounds. Hough. Definitely in the new year!#Also I haven't played poker in years so anything that's wrong? Uh monster poker is different. Yup. Thumbs up emoji
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HEY GUYS REMEMBER WHEN CHLOE WANTED MAX TO BE THE LAST THING SHE EVER SAW BEFORE DYING. BTW GUYS. REMEMBER WHEN CHLOE SAID “i’m never leaving you” AND “that’s okay we will, forever” AND “Max, i’ll always be with you”. GUYS GUYS GUYS HOLD ON REMEMBER WHEN CHLOE SPENT YEARS TALKING TO MAX IN HER DIARY BECAUSE SHE COULDN’T LET HER GO GUYS. AND WHEN SHE TOOK MAX BACK IN A HEARTBEAT BECAUSE SHE MISSED HER TOO MUCH. OH AND BTW REMEMBER HOW THEY WERE CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS AND GREW UP TOGETHER AND FELL IN LOVE AND ARE NOT LINKED ONLY BY A ‘trauma bond’. DO WE REMEMBER THAT. COLLECTIVELY.
#life is strange#lis#max caulfield#chloe price#pricefield#feeling like being mad today sorry#it’s just. you just don’t get them.#“max and chloe share a trauma bond” actually they didn’t bond over their trauma. btw#like they’re each other’s first ever friend#first ever best friend#first ever LOVE. (arguably)#like YES. it would make sense if they had only gotten close because they went thru the same trauma together#BUT THAT’S NOT WHAT HAPPENED.#and i need ppl to stop acting like it is#like how can you look at their relationship and not understand how DEEP it goes and just reduces it to#“they’re traumatized so it makes sense that they’d grow apart also chloe was a bad friend”#like just stop. you do not get it. gnawing at the bars of my enclosure.#ANYWAY I’M RAMBLING#life is strange double exposure spoilers
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Personal headcanon with tears being related to Time craft since it's a symbol of emotion anyways here's a Time craft Siffrin for a silly au idea I have in mind
#art#arthcore art#artwork#digital art#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat loop#loop#two hats spoilers#2hats spoilers#erm.#I didn't need to tag loop since this is just sif but the star symbols r kinda spoilies so like yaknow#basically au premise is that Siff wishes to be able to stop the timeloop and the way this wish works is that they make him all time crafty#now he's like time embodiment madoka magica style yknow#also an excuse for main character mirabelle and the whole gang having to deal with this strange emptiness they're feeling#teehee
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Hal bent down as the little girl approached him. Even then, he still managed to tower over her with how small she was.
"Hey there little lady," he said. "Anything I can help you with this fine evening?"
The little girl looked at him anxiously, fiddling with her hands. Ok so not a nervous fan. Hal immediately switched to serious mode, scanning the crowd for anyone who could be her parents. He didn't see anyone running up to the two of them or even so much as keeping a watchful eye from a distance.
"Is something the matter?" Hal questioned, making sure to keep his voice even and calm.
The girl continued fidgeting, her big blue eyes scanning from side to side. Finally she spoke. "You wiff da space po-eece yes? Not da am-ear-ree-ca one?"
Hal smiled at the girl. "Yes, I'm with the space police." Honestly that was oversimplifying the Corps a little but he had long since gotten to citizens calling him a space cop.
The girl offered up a small nervous smile of her own. "So you won't tell da gov-ment what I tell you wight?"
Hal was on high alert now. Just what was this little girl trying to tell him? "I won't tell. I promise," he said after a second.
The girl broke into a big smile at this. "Really? Dis way den." She started tugging Hal along and he began to follow.
"Where exactly are we going?" he asked.
"You see," was all she replied.
Hal was led down a couple different alleyways and was beginning to think he was walking into a trap when they reached an abandoned building. The girl dashed in and up the old rusted stairs, with Hal following closely behind her.
If this really is a trap, I'll never hear the end of it from Batman, he thought morbidly as he cleared the last step. Instead of finding himself facing an ambush however, he saw a boy curled up on an old mattress. The girl was already by his side as Hal approached.
"Don wowee Danny, I got help. Like I said I would," he caught the little girl whispering as he knelt down next to the boy. He had to have been older than the girl. Three years older maybe? Yet he was still so small. Hal took sight of his condition. He was in pain. That much was certain by his little face scrunched up in agony and his quiet moans. He was also sweating profusely. His raven black hair sticking to his forehead. Fever maybe?
Hal continued his observations as he scanned down the boy's body until he got to his stomach. The boy was clutching it and Hal could make out blood bleeding through from underneath. Oh no.
He quickly yet carefully removed the boy's arm to get a better look at the wound. The kid let out a groan as his arm was peeled away. Hal couldn't help but thank Oa for all his training that helped prevent him from letting out a gasp.
The boy's chest was covered in blood. Dark red mixed with flecks of green soaked through his shirt and there were bandages that had been amateurishly tied around the wound.
"How did this happen?" Hal asked, turning back to the girl. He did his best to keep his tone as gentle as possible.
Her smile was gone now, and her eyes welled up with tears. "He pwotected me," she said. "Dey wanted to huwrt us. Dey shot at us. Danny pwotected me."
Anger boiled within Hal. Who would shoot at these children? They were only little kids. If what the girl had said earlier was anything to go off of, the answer had something to do with the government. He would have to take care of that later though. For now, this boy needed medical attention.
"Let's get Danny to a hospital," Hal said resolutely, as he got up.
"No!" the little girl screeched. "No has-pee-tail. Too dan-er-us!"
"But he needs-" Hal started but then he met the girl's eyes. There was abject fear in them. As if going to the hospital would be a death sentence for both children. Where else were they supposed to go though? The boy- Danny needed medical attention stat. That much was certain.
Hal paused. There was one place. He sighed. Batman was going to kill him for this.
"Okay okay. No hospital. But what about space?"
"Space?" the girl repeated.
Hal nodded.
The little girl smiled. "Danny lobes space!"
"Well then. That's perfect."
Hal constructed a new bed for the boy, carefully easing him onto it before putting a protective dome around both children. The little girl giggled as he lifted them up. He then turned to the wall where he created a giant hammer to knock it down. Then they were off. Flying higher and higher, towards the atmosphere. As the Watchtower got closer in sight, Hal couldn't help but groan. Taking civilians to the Watchtower? Oh yeah, Batman was definitely going to kill him.
#dp x dc#dc x dp#dcxdp#dpxdc#winter's tales#sorry if the baby speech is annoying#really wanted to emphasize that ellie is just a tiny tot is all#side note it was strange writing “thank oa”#because on one hand it's pretty much the equivalent of saying “thank earth”#but on the other hand i felt like a natural thing for him to say?#*it#though i guess there are some people who say “thank gaia”#which is just another name for earth#but that's probably in reference to the actual greek personification so....#idk#anyways i'm getting off into a random tangent#feel free to ignore this
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does anyone ever feel that they’re like. too neurodivergent to fit into normal society but not neurodivergent enough to relate to other neurodivergent people or is that just me
#neurodivergent#adhd#autism#this post is actually ab adhd#i just saw a post that was like “ive tried everything#and i went. oh wait#do i even rlly have adhd??#i have attention problems#i have trouble reading social cues#but i dont hyperfixtate so heavily anymore and i dont struggle academically besides remembering to study and do homework#but you wouldn’t think i have adhd -ppl assume im just slow or weird because i dont visibly struggle and im not hyperactive at all#i feel so normal yet so strange compared to everyone else#im formally diagnosed with adhd but i feel like im not adhd enough for my struggles to matter#i hate talking about this because it feels like such a pity party#ohhhh woe is meeee my neurodivergence is manageable so i feel left out ohhhh the agonyyy ohhh#just some thoughts
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manifesting unapologetic weirdness for myself for 2025🙏🙏🙏🙏
#one piece#opfanart#one piece fanart#mr 2 bon clay#bon clay#bentham#I'm still alive just had like 4 mental breakdowns and also i was rly busy and didnt feel like drawing and also deleted procreate accidental#looks wonky af bc i havent held a tablet pen in 4 months and im juiced up on coffee and ibuprofen and my eyes feel weird <33#originally i wanted to draw this with mouse 100% but it felt kinda strange so i only did the sketch and like 1/4 lines or whatever w/ mouse#not that it matters#anyway this one goes out to kazuki yao i hope he recovers as much as possible!!!
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ghost!ghost wip
#wip#ghost!ghost#ghostsoap#soapghost#ghoap#soap x ghost#ghost x soap#cod fanart#fucking finally#my bad ghost!ghost enjoyer lol#wanna ramble here no need to read#big depressed for the past few weeks and busy as heckkk#had to socialized with people a lot#and be sad#the negative energy was strong bc someone died#also i know i said i'm gonna disappear but it's just a mindset thing really#as if mybody is not gonna do that just to spite my own self#like oh you wanna rest??? NUH UH#it's strange but it worked so here i am#and i did some jounaling??? writing a diary thingy??? pouring my heart out into it kinda#good for my mental bc it's relieving and made me forget of my woes#i'm sad still but it's manageable now#the tired feeling won't go away though#sorry for complaining and being the way i am#thank god for ghostsoap my sun and my moon
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the psychological horror created by Hasbro’s desire to sell more toys rather than honour the desires of the original creator resulting in an immortal alicorn princess of friendship doomed to watch her friends grow old and die without her is so interesting to me. by trying to cater to children more you have accidentally created a reality in which death of the main characters friends as she lives on for centuries is not just implied but confirmed. idk it’s fascinating to think about
#EVEN MORESO BY G5#with discord in the comics clearly descended into misery without fluttershy#their absence speaks volumes#and I know kids are able to handle mature topics like death earlier than we often assume#but still it’s so strange to think about death of the main characters being canon and confirmed in the colourful pony cartoon#wild#mlp#major character death#character death#DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVED THE LAST EPISODE SO MUCH#it’s just !!!!! I wish twilight was growing old alongside them#I don’t like how much she looks like celestia too#she’s grown so apart from her roots it feels like it undoes much of her growth#at the same time it’s the best ending we could’ve hoped for all things considered#I JUST MISS HER ICONIC FRINGE
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unfortunately for me i don’t agree with the headcanon that lily was insecure and thought james was asking her out as a joke but now people just think that’s what’s up. lily evans knew her WORTH sorry to disappoint
#she called james an arrogant toerag and said she’d rather go out with a squid than him#lily evans was a lot of things. insecure is not one of them#jily#lily evans#james potter#the marauders#marauders#also people making her plus size just to make her insecure about it feels strange i’m sorry#not saying she can’t be plus size btw i think it’s so cute when handled right
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this thing. this thing is fucking insane. how do i even quantify this thing. this is, EASILY, the wildest design for a main gundam i think we've ever had. the gunpla of this shit is ABSOLUTELY coming with a stand for free
#also using an orange instead of a yellow might be the best idea i've ever seen#it feels so distinct and unique#it just feels so unfinished and strange and experimental#i fell in love with this overdesigned piece of shit instantly#it reminds me a lot of xenoblade x's designs#gundam
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