#i get it because ive been dealing with it for years by now and i know that the last thing you want when u feel that low

[katoobee]

aw shit here we go again

i AGAIN watched @randomalistic 's turbo video. this is like my 5th time watching it. or 10th? idk i lost count

(AND IT TAUGHT ME TO NEVER LEAVE A VIDEO EARLY I HAD NO IDEA ABOUT THE CABINET MAN EDIT AT THE END I FELT MY WHOLE SOUL LIGHT UP WATCHING THAT)

its been fueling my brainrot (/pos) and i wanted to try my hand on making the turbotime twins (right now only twin #1)

this is Won!! (pronounced like bon-bon)

middle aged short kingTM

he's grumpy and pissy, straightforward and closed off. he's a tough nut to crack despite being a bit sensitive, and isnt an easy friend to make. when he IS friendly, he's a lot more laid back and endearing. he works as a janitor to clean up after busy days in Tappers.

you push Won's buttons and you're going home soaking wet and smelling like dirty water! (or getting smacked in the face by a mop)

dont mess with the janitor! he's here to clean up YOUR mess!

ive got aome extra doodles im planning to post after this smiles

(more stuff about him under here if one is interested!)

BACKSTORY STUFF

Won managed to escape before Turbotime was unplugged, went with his gut on "hey Turbo looks pissed something very bad is about to happen".

he was homeless for a while, very scared and traumatized from the whole incident, and it didn't help that no one wanted to help him because of the fact he was from Turbotime. walking bad omen, basically.

after some point he couldn't deal with it anymore, and as a last resort, begged Tapper to let him stay in his game in exchange for work. he would do anything to not sleep out in the station again, anything to avoid the constant glares, and ANYTHING to not hear that strange shuffling sound under the floor again

Tapper didnt let him at first, under the (reasonable) impression of "Won=Turbotime=Turbo=Bad", but gave in after a while. after years of working with Won and getting to know him, he's one of Won's closest supporters.

he still wears his racer outfit, but he hasnt gone anywhere near another racing game or vehicle in a long, long time. he still has his helmet too, but he has it stashed away somewhere to where he doesnt need to look at it all the time.

the king character of that new game that was plugged in gave Won quite a fright

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[autisticlee]

"good people are out there you just need to get out and find them"

cool thanks. but i'm too tired to keep ~going out and looking for them~ i'm too tired to keep trying, using up all my energy, getting super overwhelmed and burnt out after just a couple weeks of trying as hard as I can, met with other people barely trying back or not being very responsive, and needing to recover from it for a year or more each time because it overwhelms and burns me out so bad. I get nowhere no matter how hard I try, all i get is uselesss advice from people i try to befriend who dont want the responsibility of friending me. i'm tired of trying beyond my limits and causing more issues for myself. or dealing with issues I get from meeting the "wrong" people. if the "right" people exist, why can't they find me? why does it have to be only my job? i'm too tired and overwhelmed and burnt out to do it!!!!! the right people will just easily help and be there for me right? so I guess i just have to keep waiting for them for all eternity????? i'm tired of waiting. give me more than "just wait/keep trying/don't give up" because those instructions unclear and my useless attempts are very discouraging and exhausting and i'm so overwhelmed that i'm losing the ability to even socialize at a minimum at all now!!!!

if humans are meant to be social creatures and we require positive interactions with each other to stay healthy, then why do humans ostracize their own? why do some of us struggle so much and are denied any help and instead blamed? why can't I be given advice on how to live a lonely life without anyone else by my side instead of being told "one day! keep trying! you need people because it's essential to being human!" even though i've been waiting for "one day" for 25 years and could wait 25 more, or even longer? I don't know what i'm doing wrong or how to improve it so waiting is all I have. what if I wait forever?

[xxplastic-cubexx]

hello!! i just want to tell you that your art is so goddamn scrumptious, you are literally feeding my xmen brainrot and I find myself smiling when i see your art come across my feed. I love how you draw charles, pretty privilege and post (lets be fr he's serving every time)

i hope you always have fantastic brainrot and id kiss your blessed hands for giving us the gift of cherik and charles xavier, you are literally an icon

hope you have a great day ahead of you and more!! you deserve it !!

well i'ma absolutely have a wonderful mornin after readin this AWWWW thank you so so much !!!! i haven't been postin xmen long, so it's been really heartwarmin seein the warm reception to my work in the wonderful tags people have been leavin on my posts- and especially gettin to answer the lovely asks y'all've been sendin in (❁´ ▽ `❁) !! im glad people also like my goofy text posts and esp quotes from my brother he really has no right being so funny at the most random times

i hope to be xmen posting a while: ive got at least 60 years worth of stuff to look through and ongoing, so i dont imagine my interest'll wane anytime soon :]] !!

[butnotbubblegum]

using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.

[bucephaly]

I know I've said this before but what do we have to do to get people to stop believing their grannies when they tell them that their great grandmother's were fullblood cherokee Indians that ran away from the trail of tears. I'm so tired of all the 'I'm 1/8 - 1/16 cherokee can I get benefits?' bullshit from people who have never even mentioned it except as a novelty or when it might benefit them. People who swear they know for sure that their great granny was traded to a white family for a keg of whiskey and yet don't know her name. Family stories aren't proof of anything pleeeease stop taking them at face value.

You can find out so easily with an ancestry.com free trial or on wikitree or smth. Find the ancestors names who were alive around 1900, see if they lived in OK and then search the dawes rolls, or search the guion Miller rolls. It's that easy. Those rolls are publicly available. But everyone has an excuse for why Their ancestors aren't documented and They're actually More cherokee than anyone who is documented somehow blah blah blah and we're all so sick of it

[anotherpapercut]

working with children really will make you examine your thought processes and emotional reactions like nothing else. I've found myself being so much more thoughtful in my daily life about how I respond to my emotions and environment, as well as the reasoning behind why others behave the way they do

[yanderespamton78]

hhngngggg why must i be doomed to forever be the Weird Kid who constantly needs things to be changed around so i dont have a meltdown and is terrified of most people and cant work in any loud or busy environments and has to be with someone i know all day or i will have a panic attack and hnnhnnghnghngggg

[klbzplb]

honestly still the biggest personal tragedy of session 5 is that when grian joined gem in the tower building. in gems episode, there were almost a solid 10 minutes of just that. them hanging out, calm, peaceful, no danger, away from people that could hurt them . and guess what ? grian left LESS THAN 3 MINUTES OF THAT IN HIS EPISODE dbjksffejw

[thediktatortot]

Don't mind me, I'm just fucking depressed

[bmpmp3]

IA 2.0 voisona test with a short version of drag on dragoon's ending B song tsukiru/exhausted :) now i can hear Lia's beautiful dulcet tones sing scary scary songs

[strawbrains]

Why do so many psychiatrists love to gaslight. Okay, Hannibal Lecture.

If I had a nickel for every time a psychiatrist straight up told me lies I would have too fucking many and that's a problem.

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

I've been reminded that Hard Time is an episode that exists and I'm spiraling a little because of it

[ghostbonetv]

I think one of the most frustrating things to me about living with my parents right now is when i get in from a long day at college I need like 20-60 minutes to be a person again and they immediately try to talk to me and get me to do things. I woke up 12 hours ago and spent the day doing work give me a second istg

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[pepprs]

hi update things are fucking terrible and my eyes hurt from sobbing. lol