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so im trying to figure out based off my ship tags how id make an ot3 tag

because the tag is basically your character 4 my character. (ie chris 4 josh. or waylon 4 miles.)

so by division, would the tag then be like for an ot3 for chris/ash/josh be something like

chris 2 ashley 2 josh. or ashley 2 chris 2 josh.

otter told me it's just basic division, but i also taught her long division 2 years ago

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Incorrect Until Dawn Quotes

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Joshington who I miss every day

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he’s always on my mind

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are you fucking insane?! i was EATING those BEANS

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ship exclusivity =/= general exclusivity is mostly my point to this post kinda (like most everyone does this to be respectful, why waste time building a ship with me that imma just ripoff and dupe — i do this for everyone lol ive written these ships with otter for years so they’re not out of nowhere, now im just building up new stuff with my cool mutuals, so i expect more ship exclusivity to come lol) — but also to not have this idea that i am “the fandom” or even really “part of the fandom”, does the fandom even truly exist anymore lbr it’s so scattered between personal tumblr and rp tumblr, the scene is small, etc — tbh the most fandom thing we do is watch the reddit fall apart and rebuild every single day.

also just to clarify bc i think there’s an idea out there that’s actually incorrect: i am not “the until dawn fandom” or “deeply involved”, i have no cliques (just a partner who is my wife, so that would be a couple not a clique), and even my exclusiveness to my wife is (and thus her to me) just ship exclusivity … which most people practice to keep things unique and personal. ill even write josh with other josh interpretations so idk 🤷‍♂️ my exclusiveness to my beth is literally a brother-sister canon dynamic that we have been building on and wanna keep unique to them, it’s not meant to be threatening to anyone nor is it meant to isolate anyone. i am very slow, currently very sick, and very patient. im not fast as an rper, never have been, but i do value my people and connections. im not here to make a clique or a fandom or whatever, i literally write so much crossover content so idk where this idea is coming from but it is an insecure fairytale.

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does anyone else go back in their threads and correct their typos bc it’s not even about it being perfect for anyone else, it’s just a treat for you 👯‍♀️

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Matthew Taylor and Emily Davis in Until Dawn (2024)

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🌸The 2025 Ottermelon show schedule is here!!🌸

These are all the shows we’re 100% confirmed for & paid-up on for in 2025!! I’m still waiting for lots of cons to get back to me and/or post their applications, so more will be added later! Feel free to let me know if there’s a show you’d like us to try for!! 🫶

Full transparency: tons of shows are changing their dates in 2025 to be on the weekends as other cons, so it’s making it a little more difficult to be everywhere (for example, 4 shows we did this year are now on the same one weekend in May so we could only pick one). We’ll be doing our best to come see everyone, but they’re not making it easy on us right now!!

We will be doing more to keep the store actually ACTIVE in 2025, so it’ll still be kind of like going to a show if we missed you!! We also have some plans to try running another “Ottermelon online con” so if you wanted a con-exclusive item you can still get them (like mini commissions)!

🌸Thank you guys for everything this year, let’s hope for a peaceful, fun and productive 2025!!🌸

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Maya C. Popa, from “Letters in Winter”, Wound Is the Origin of Wonder

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i think the idea of josh and the vortex club is that he was always on the fringes? he parties with them, but that's really it.

"josh and the vortex club: he's partied with them, was even at the party that kate marsh attended, but he isn't in the club. i imagine he's been offered? he's only allowed to come to the parties for what he can offer, as well as his status in the industry. josh is only popular because of his family's standing in hollywood. hooking up with josh is basically a guarantee into the industry. that's the rumor, anyway. it's not true."

but obviously, as i write with lis accounts and portrayals, these interactions will become more unique and less basic.

me wanting to talk about the nathan and josh parallels and why they don't get along but "have to" on the surface, where josh fits into the vortex club (he parties with him, but i don't think he was ever in the club), his potential with rachel amber (as everyone knew her, i imagine josh did, too, but he is more quiet on how close they are, inferring they "smoked together" a few times, but that was it, and that "rachel was cool, she was a cool girl"), how he views nathan and victoria (kind of like twins tbh), etc etc ... but i will refrain (for now)

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me wanting to talk about the nathan and josh parallels and why they don't get along but "have to" on the surface, where josh fits into the vortex club (he parties with him, but i don't think he was ever in the club), his potential with rachel amber (as everyone knew her, i imagine josh did, too, but he is more quiet on how close they are, inferring they "smoked together" a few times, but that was it, and that "rachel was cool, she was a cool girl"), how he views nathan and victoria (kind of like twins tbh), etc etc ... but i will refrain (for now)

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❝ with the way shit is going down, everything is about to be underwater here soon. tsk. ❞

with a secure set of several backup batteries, miles is now set to record. the night vision his camera provides will help him see what he's naturally blind to.

❝ art, huh? eh, well, i'm not an artist, just a wordsmith. pen and the sword and all that shit. ❞ her abrupt mannerisms are closer to miles style. he can be covert when he needs to be, but sometimes ... well, it's about making an entrance, isn't it? ❝ first stop? how many routes does this bus run, huh? ❞

but he's one foot after the other behind her, looking around and getting a few angle shots, trying to see further into the darkness.

❝ with you as the driver, i'm gonna have to yank hard to get you to stop, eh? ❞

"Oh?" The hum flees from her lips in an almost provocative manner, as if she had been hoping for her company to be, at least a little, scared. It had always been more fun this way, hadn't it? Though, his words do more than entertain her; They're quite intriguing. "I like your way of thinking." Snapping her fingers towards him before they disappear within the depths of her pocket, only to retrieve a flashlight. "I am! I am! A little bit more patience, eh? Art takes time." Though, even Jovie herself didn't know about what sort of art she had been talking about. Perhaps the art of kicking down a run-down, wooden door that led to a less than inviting-looking abandoned building . . .

"Right this way!" She points the flashlight through the ( now ) opened door, though, it seemed more like an incrompehensible void beyond than an actual opening. "This will only be the first stop on our trip! It's the only way to get into the mall . . . Heard it's totally underwater, too, for the most part! Isn't that awesome?"

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@pavlovianpanic prompted: music note for yk who

Obedear was used in the remake, which means I have to say Begin Again by Purity Ring. Especially since they’re in a game and every time you replay, you restart their fate… you know what I mean. let me make a playlist.

Begin Again:

You’ll be the moon, I’ll be the earth / and when we burst / start over, oh darling / begin again, begin again, begin again

Deep Stone Lullaby by Michael Salvatori, which always makes me cry of course. Memory by Toby Fox. 

Keep You Safe by the Crane Wives

Time is not your friend / time is not your remedy / no amount of waiting will make you, make you brave / no amount of fear will keep you / no amount of fear will keep you safe

Digital Silence by Peter McPoland

Something you love turns to something you miss / something you say turns to something you mean / this is the way that I know / this is the way and it makes me sick / I feel it inside me like a pulse / it’s starting to slow and the meter dips

Dear Arkansas Daughter by Lady Lamb

And in your dreams, we are shooting at snakes / and while you were asleep, I was surely awake / I was talking at a cigarette, there’s nothing left to say / but he should have been there anyway / for I didn’t sing a single song all day

Beth and Josh’s mental health if they’d been a little more honest with one another:

Brave as a Noun by AJJ

I could go off the deep end / I could kill all my best friends / I could follow stylish trends / and God knows I could make amends / but I’ve got an angry heart / filled with cancers and poppy tarts / If this is how you folks make art, it’s fucking depressing

Sweet Hibiscus Tea by Penelope Scott, for when Beth is dead & Josh is by himself, or Josh is dead and Beth is by herself:

And I am not your protagonist / I’m not even my own / I don’t know anything / I don’t even know what I don’t know

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Send a 👫and I’ll write four headcanons I have about our muse’s relationship

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✧ — ⋆  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 .

from  the  2007  film .   please  modify  prompts  where  required !

“ you’ve  just  brought  yourself  a  death  wish . ” “ but  no  man  can  live  forever ,  except  he  who  possesses  the  heart  of  a  star . ” “ yeah ,  i  have  a  bubbling  candle . ” “ did  you  really  mean  what  you  said ? ” “ but …  you  were  a  mouse !  you  were  a  mouse !  you  wanted  cheese ! ” “ i  asked  you  to  give  me  a  sign . ” “ and  risk  you  being  too  embarrassed  to  keep  saying  such  lovely  things ? ” “ are  we  human  because  we  gaze  at  the  stars ,   or  do  we  gaze  at  them  because  we  are  human ? ” “ do  the  stars  gaze  back ?  now  that’s  a  question . ” “ you  know  when  i  said  i  knew  little  about  love ?  well  that  wasn’t  true . ” “ i  know  a  lot  about  love . ” “ i’ve  seen  centuries  and  centuries  of  it . ” “ it  was  the  only  thing  that  made  watching  your  world  bearable . ” “ you  could  search  the  furthest  reaches  of  the  universe  and  never  find  anything  more  beautiful . ” “ what  i’m  trying  to  say ,  ( name ) ,  is  that  i  think  i  love  you . ” “ my  heart ,  it  feels  like  my  chest  can  barely  contain  it .   like  it  doesn’t  belong  to  me  anymore . ”  “ it  belongs  to  you .  and  if  you  wanted  it ,  i’d  wish  for  nothing  in  exchange .  no  gifts ,  no  goods ,  no  demonstrations  of  devotion .  nothing  but  knowing  that  you  love  me  too .  just  your  heart  in  exchange  for  mine . ” “ you’re  very  close . ” “ you  speak  as  if  this  is  good  news . ” “ do  i  need  to  remind  you  that  wall  is  not  part  of  our  universe ? ” “ if  she  crosses  that  threshold  into  the  human  realm ,  our  star  becomes  nothing  more  than  a  pitted  lump  of  metallic  rock . ” “ then  i  suggest  you  hurry  up ! ” “ would  i  be  correct  in  thinking  that  you  can  neither  see  nor  hear  me ? ” “ i’d  like  to  tell  you  that  you  smell  of  pee . ” “ i  swear ,  if  i  don’t  get  my   ( name )  back  as  he  was ,  i’ll  be  your  personal  poltergeist ! ” “ that’s  my  flower ! ” “ eighteen  years  i’ve  been  looking  for  that !  give  it  to  me  now . ” “ how  dare  you ! ” “ what  the  hell  did  you  do ? ” “ what  did  i  do ?  what  did  you  do ?! ” “ has  your  mind  become  as  decrepit  as  your  face ? ” “ you  dare  steal  truth  from  my  lips  by  feeding  me  limbus  grass ?! ” “ do  you  have  any  idea  what  a  big  mistake  you’ve  made ? ” “ what  is  it  to  be ,  prince  charming ?  frog  or  tadpole ? ” “ seek  all  you  like .  you  shall  not  see  the  star ,  touch ,  smell ,  or  hear  it .  you  will  not  even  perceive  her  if  she  stands  before  you . ” “ what  do  stars  do ?  they  shine . ”

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Send 💬 + a rumor and my muse will react to it.