#hpd splitting

[hamilton-ventblog]

fuck. found myself /neg splitting on a friend and my god i forgot his bad it feels. i love them so much and it's breaking my heart how much i hate them rn

[loveshickk]

[k9emote]

Would you do some BPD emojis by any chance? Love your art, the white & blue shading looks so sterile /pos

Cluster B emojis lets go

BPD

BORDERLINE

NPD

NARC

HPD

HISTRONIC

ASPD

SOCIOPATH

SPLIT

FP/PARTNER RAMBLING

Put in details to each disorder design! Psychology special interest :)

[unlovablecreatureofsin]

Someone: *slights me in a very minor way* Me: *thinks of the most hellacious, out of pocket insult that is very specific to them and would hurt them in ways words cannot describe but does not say it bc I am nice..*

[ontheoutside-lookingin]

Honestly haven’t felt this dark or dead or numb in a long time. I had a huge fight with my partner last night that resulted in a pretty violent meltdown, smacked my head against a wall and now have a huge gash in my forehead. I lost a lot of blood and haven’t eaten in 24 hours (technically have but can never keep food down when there’s serious unresolved conflict in my life)(same w sleep, technically a few 15 minute intervals but effectively no food or sleep in over a day) anyway this is not to lament about how horrible my life is I have a lot to be grateful for this is just transparency about how bad mental health conditions can get. This is what a bpd meltdown can look like for me. It’s comorbid with other conditions that definitely play a huge part. There’s a lot of splitting and emotional dysfunction and fight or flight trauma response and dissociative amnesia involved.

For a long time I was a huge advocate for removing stigma but would also always hide and mask my struggles with mental health. I understand now that transparency is required to tackle stigma so that’s what I’m doing.

Mental health is not cute sexy coquette delulu romanticized effy stonem manic pixie dream girl whatever whatever, it’s fucking dark and ugly and scary and it’s really hard to be face to face with the worst of it. It absolutely sucks and there is not a single nice or romantic thing about it.

[that-rabid-lemur]

Wouldn’t it be nice to have a non-toxic cluster-B discord server??

I feel like every single one I join is like,,, yikes. /gen

I would love to make a safe place for people to talk about how our disorders make us feel and act in a safe way!! If I get enough votes in the poll I’ll make a server :D

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

jealousy is going to kill every relationship i have i swear to god. not just jealousy over who my FP hangs out with but i’m also horribly jealous OF my FP and it absolutely WRECKS my logical empathy towards their struggles and i actually hate myself.

[hamilton-ventblog]

blew up at a friend over something really small and i feel really bad idk how to make it up to them, don't want to seem like im lovebombing

[loveshickk]

ILL DIE WITHOUT ATTENTION !!!

[cdmilky]

Splitting is portrayed better in Jealous Gumball from The Flower episode than any yandere bullshit out there

[catz-brainz1234]

Something really traumatic happened last night and it's caused us to split our agere cg.

I'm just so tired, man.

I just wanna give up,,

-⭐️🌊

[tmeadvnture]

ur fp picking someone u hate over u actually feels like someone is clawing out ur heart with their barehands

[twinkdrama]

feels like my life is an amusement park and im riding a new rollercoaster each day

[machinegrrl777]

im so tired

and i cant sleep.

[hamilton-ventblog]

need art advice but ive been very susceptible to splitting on the only person who gives me art advice today. let's see how this goes

[honeyhpd]

I’ve split on one of my friends but I feel bad because she doesn’t deserve it. But I can’t change how I feel. I’ve got so much built up resentment and anger and it’s spilling out the sides but if I knew how to express it healthily I wouldn’t be in this situation so it’s all my fault. And she doesn’t deserve it. But it’s how I feel.

This is my current thought loop I can’t escape.