#hpd splitting

[hamilton-ventblog]

fuck. found myself /neg splitting on a friend and my god i forgot his bad it feels. i love them so much and it's breaking my heart how much i hate them rn

[loveshickk]

[cluster-b-culture-is]

cluster b culture is realizing your partner did something bad, splitting, resolve the issue, then 2 hours later sob and sob about how much of a horrible person you are for being mad at your partner

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[the-label-sanctuary]

・₊✧𝘈 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘺｡｡｡ -`♡´-

♡Anchored Person♡

✧Anchored Person (AP): A term for people with any personality disorder used to describe someone who can anchor you during a splitting episode.✧

✧This can also be attached to other "-person" terms by adding Anchored- to them. Ex: Anchored Worthy Person (Credits to the Weeping System for making the flag)✧

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[tator---tot]

Am I sometimes attracted to people romantically or am I just histrionic?

Do I like them romantically or am I just splitting/excited by a new person?

Do I want to be *with* them or do I just want to be them?

[unlovablecreatureofsin]

Someone: *slights me in a very minor way* Me: *thinks of the most hellacious, out of pocket insult that is very specific to them and would hurt them in ways words cannot describe but does not say it bc I am nice..*

[ontheoutside-lookingin]

Honestly haven’t felt this dark or dead or numb in a long time. I had a huge fight with my partner last night that resulted in a pretty violent meltdown, smacked my head against a wall and now have a huge gash in my forehead. I lost a lot of blood and haven’t eaten in 24 hours (technically have but can never keep food down when there’s serious unresolved conflict in my life)(same w sleep, technically a few 15 minute intervals but effectively no food or sleep in over a day) anyway this is not to lament about how horrible my life is I have a lot to be grateful for this is just transparency about how bad mental health conditions can get. This is what a bpd meltdown can look like for me. It’s comorbid with other conditions that definitely play a huge part. There’s a lot of splitting and emotional dysfunction and fight or flight trauma response and dissociative amnesia involved.

For a long time I was a huge advocate for removing stigma but would also always hide and mask my struggles with mental health. I understand now that transparency is required to tackle stigma so that’s what I’m doing.

Mental health is not cute sexy coquette delulu romanticized effy stonem manic pixie dream girl whatever whatever, it’s fucking dark and ugly and scary and it’s really hard to be face to face with the worst of it. It absolutely sucks and there is not a single nice or romantic thing about it.

[that-rabid-lemur]

Wouldn’t it be nice to have a non-toxic cluster-B discord server??

I feel like every single one I join is like,,, yikes. /gen

I would love to make a safe place for people to talk about how our disorders make us feel and act in a safe way!! If I get enough votes in the poll I’ll make a server :D

[hamilton-ventblog]

blew up at a friend over something really small and i feel really bad idk how to make it up to them, don't want to seem like im lovebombing

[loveshickk]

ILL DIE WITHOUT ATTENTION !!!

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

jealousy is going to kill every relationship i have i swear to god. not just jealousy over who my FP hangs out with but i’m also horribly jealous OF my FP and it absolutely WRECKS my logical empathy towards their struggles and i actually hate myself.

[catz-brainz1234]

Something really traumatic happened last night and it's caused us to split our agere cg.

I'm just so tired, man.

I just wanna give up,,

-⭐️🌊

[honeyhpd]

i really be reliving my childhood rn. hiding in the bathroom because it’s the only place with a lock and privacy. sharing a room with someone who no longer seems to care about helping or working with me. not having any friends i trust to tell everything. family members seem to be ignoring me and i literally can’t tell if they’re doing it on purpose or if i’m warping simple misunderstandings.

[hamilton-ventblog]

oh god yeah im also bitches help

Bitches be having horrid self esteem issues over one (1) person’s post on the interwebs. (I’m bitches)

[hamilton-ventblog]

need art advice but ive been very susceptible to splitting on the only person who gives me art advice today. let's see how this goes

[olivedreampuppy]

You have to realize how insane it looks to casually talk about and normalize all of the fucked up anti cluster b personality disorder posts and articles. “crushing the narcissist” “get rid of the narcissist in your life” “bpd is toxic manipulative” “I swear I saw my bpd ex’s eyes turn all black when they started splitting..” like what the fuck

People often only support the neurodivergence they palatable. Those with personality disorders are also neurodivergent, they are not people who decided to become evil stereotypes. A narcissist is a wounded person, a borderline person is a wounded person, a sociopath is a wounded person. Stigmatization runs rampant, implicit bias only deepening in the damage.

Yes, some cluster b people have maladaptive coping mechanisms, or are not self aware, and can be difficult or hurt someone. But honestly, tell me someone, cluster b or not, who HASN’T hurt someone. Tell me how constant neurotypical conversational platitudes and casual lying is different than “cluster b manipulation.” It’s just more fun to dog pile onto someone that’s mentally ill, I suppose.

I am quiet bpd, vivacious hpd, and grandiose npd and additionally can occasionally dip into aspd traits. Cluster B as fuck. I am self aware and *constantly* work to manage myself, balancing my flaring emotions and cold logic to reach a healthy (wise) middle. Imagine spending all that time working on yourself but people can’t see past the stigma.

Try and overcome bias. Anyone from any background has the potential to be a bad person, don’t let someone’s illness automatically paint them as a demon.