#health update!

[hungryyheart]

some of you may have noticed my activity has dropped off significantly across all of my blogs and i wanted to quickly explain why!

since the summer of 2023-ish i've been experiencing changes to my health that unfortunately worsened considerably last month. being a scottish person i elected to ignore it until i couldn't anymore. i'm in the process of getting diagnosed with what i'm presuming will be some kind of digestive disorder, but in the meantime, my energy levels are fucked because i'm very rarely getting to use any of the nutrients i consume. my last blood test also revealed that there's a possibility i might have a genetic disorder that would also contribute to the fatigue/tiredness.

good news is we ruled out all the scary stuff, bad news is we're not technically any further forward and probably won't be for a while. my case was reviewed by another doctor recently who has suggested loads more tests to be run, so we're being proactive but... because it's through the NHS... we are being proactive very slowly.

i also had my autism assessment denied by the first private clinic i reached out to because it was too complex lmao :( but as of today i'm on the waiting list for a clinic that i think will be a lot more supportive! that was a bit of a bummer though, ngl.

point is i'm having to use whatever energy i have left from working and living my life sparingly and recently i've been choosing to spend it on personal writing projects. i'm writing all the time, i'm just not doing a lot of writing here and i feel shite about that! because i love writing here! i love being part of this community!!! this hobby keeps me sane and as much as i love writing for myself there's nothing quite like the collaboration that rp offers. i would like to get back to being active here and i hope i can soon!

apologies to everyone i owe, i am NOT neglecting our dynamics on purpose and please know i am thinking about your muses Always. everyone has been so patient and i appreciate the fact that none of my moots have unfollowed me yet even though it would be justified 😭 i am clawing my way back to you.....

[sayruq]

Palestinian girls and women are forced to use tents as pads. People boost. Donate if you can

[tilbageidanmark]

Word on the street

[yrsonpurpose]

alex claremont-diaz + bi update x

[the-bar-sinister]

"You block people who disagree with you on your posts?"

Honey, people NOT doing that is what turned social media into the miserable, depressing PVP enabled zone it is today.

[bublines]

emergency headshot commissions!

my hours have been significantly reduced at work, and at the moment i can’t afford essentials, so i’m opening emergency commissions!

$40 USD

payment upfront via ko-fi

no nsfw, furry, mecha, hateful/offensive imagery

dm on here or send a message on ko-fi to request!

here are some examples of what i’ll draw:

[beescake]

this is the smallest i can draw him while still making him visible

[ningadudexx]

please support palestinian voices and organizations 🍉 - links and sources

hello, i hope everyone can take the time to read this and consider donating if possible!! ive recently had a few people in palestine reach out to me personally asking for donations, and i think that putting the resources here in a main central post would be a great benefit to these families in order to get them more donations. ive donated to a few of these families and organizations below, but i feel bad that i cant donate more amounts since im currently a full time college student juggling with a job at the moment. so if you can, please please please considering donating or reblogging their pages, so that they can get the help they need!!! i will keep this post pinned so that it is the first thing seen on my account

I hope this post can come across as helpful to someone, the last thing i want is to speak over palestinian voices that NEED to be heard, and i sincerely hope this post doesnt do that. so many people have lost everything in their lives: loved ones, work, school, food, their homes, the list is endless. PLEASE consider donating or speading the word or even just researching on your own time from current news sources. please let me know if i got anything in this post incorrect, i want to make sure this post is a good source for people to look at.

here are a few people who i have donated to that reached out to me for help (i will try my best to update this list as people comment below this post, but i urge you to check the comments section too):

@family1234567 - https://gofund.me/600330a0

@haifa823 - https://www.gofundme.com/f/xxxx-excape-xxxxx

@qaz-1998 - https://gofund.me/f4012f59

@aya-1993 - https://gofund.me/877bdefc

@mosabfmly - https://gofund.me/5ac9124f

@sondos-gaza01 - https://chuffed.org/project/help-sondos-family

@hananfamily11 - https://gofund.me/b905b50e

@alihelpmme - https://gofund.me/ed6e9cb6

here are a few organizations as well (please suggest more to add if you can!!!):

PLEASE support palestinian voices!!!!!

[the-kingshound]

It is with a heartfelt apology that I must delay the update. Unfortunately, due to health related issues, I have yet to give the update to the betas and I really don't want to make public a low quality work just to be disappointed in myself and guilty.

[kathaynesart]

Health Update

I don't want to make a big show of this, but I did want to thank everyone for the support and concern you've given me over these past arduous months of testing and waiting.

As of now I am relieved to announce that I am cancer free. Technically I still have a growth in my throat the size of a golf ball, BUT it is benign, stable, and not growing. I will have to keep an eye on it for the remainder of my life but at least for the immediate future, I am in the clear.

Thank you so much everyone. So many of you have reached out with concern and stressed to me the importance of placing my health over my comic/art and that has meant a lot. You're all wonderful and these projects have been a wonderful distraction during this really unstable time. <3

[avoidghost]

OCs Commission for @/metztli 💖

[huellitaa]

⋅˚₊‧ ୨ feeling uncomfy in ur own skin

ok so this is something ive been struggling with for years. like i wake up some days and just feel Eugh way more than id like to. SO i decided i'd make a little guide on this! for me and for you 🩷✨

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 reasons why we could be feeling uncomfortable with ourselves and who we are

♡ having a shitty mental diet and consuming media and things that make you feel bad abt urself

♡ being in an environment where we're constantly being judged or put down, even over the most basic things

♡ hanging around negative people or negative places

♡ not giving urself enough credit for ur own achievements and accomplishments

♡ changing urself constantly for others and not having a clear sense of self to hold on to

♡ not having boundaries on how you and others treat you

♡ staying stagnant in the same place in your life and not changing (🎀🗒️also read: get comfy being uncomfy ♡)

♡ not paying enough attention to yourself and avoiding your genuine thoughts, feelings and emotions

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 1. be gentle with yourself!

pleasepleaseplease its ok to have bad days its ok to not feel great every day. treat yourself as you would someone you love. if you just aren't feeling good today, then you aren't feeling good! honour that and respect that and deal with that accordingly. even if you are uncomfortable with yourself right now or you don't like yourself right now, please try and treat yourself with care regardless, because no matter what stage you are in in your life right now you are and always will be the most important person in ur life, so TREAT URSELF LIKE IT🫶💖

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 2. inspiration, not comparison!

i know its often told not to go looking at people who are ahead of you in these times but hear me out. i think looking at and observing people you admire who are further ahead of you is very motivating to build yourself up and *become more like them* in your own way. you look up to them because of ___? what can you do to become your own version of that? thinking like this gets me more inspired to just get out of bed because i want to be more like them.

two words for this one - NO. COMPARISON. gaining inspiration from others to better yourself and comparing yourself to others are two completely different things. 🫶 (shameless self promo, but i have a post on this here! 🩷✨)

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 3. analysis: detective work chapter!

journal and think and think to urself why u might feel like this or what caused this. when did it start? has anything happened lately that may have caused this? how does it feel, in depth? what can you do to combat this? how can you make it through the day & make it so you do even better tomorrow?

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 4. channeling the mindset!

back to my point on our idols, thinking like them & thinking what they'd do in this situation helps me a lot. personally one of my idols is ada lovelace so whenever im really tired and unmotivated or insecure on my abilities or appearance or anything else i think to myself "what would she do?" and 9 times out of 10 im up at my desk in my cutest outfit hard at work. this is def one of my favourite points and something i use on the daily for like literally everything and 100% recommend 🩷✨

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 5. what would i do?

similarly, ask urself what the best version of yourself or the version of urself youre working towards would do in this situation. be your own inspiration. be ur own muse. would they stay in bed and rot all day? if the answer is no then ur up. out. immediately. ask urself what they would do. if ur feeling drained, would they take a day off to do some self care and recharge? if ur feeling sad, would they be gentle with themselves and let themselves feel sad for a little while & try to work to the root of the problem?

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 6. understanding yourself!

make a list of the things that make you the happiest and most comfortable & productive and the things that make you the unhappiest and the opposite of those things. i mentioned this in my recharge day post, but figuring out these will help you find out which negative behaviours or habits are lowering ur vibrations and making u feel like this, and help u to engage more in the things that make you happy with yourself and everything around you 💗✨

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 7. pay attention!

pay close attention to ur internal landscape and your self talk throughout the day. note down every little thing you notice, even if you think it won't be helpful; for example, do you find yourself indulging in negative talk abt urself, negative talk abt others, constantly being pessimistic and expecting the worst, indulging in judgement and criticism of urself and everyone around you, getting distracted easily, and so on.

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 8. what would i do, part 2

like i mentioned earlier, you should be your own inspiration. you should be your own muse. as much as it's nice to have idols, when ur trying to change something about urself and adjust and improve ur own behaviours, you should be mainly focusing on what you want to achieve by changing said behaviours. do you know who you're working towards being? do you know how you want to feel? do you know what you are changing these things you feel into? think about whether or not the person you are now lines up with the person you want to be in all aspects of ur life. if you feel like you aren't even trying to meet these standards then of course ur gonna feel bad about urself. of course don't be too hard on urself, but keep this in mind. 💓✨

finally, remember that these things are temporary and it wont be like this forever. ur beautiful and perfect no matter what and in these times u gotta show up for yourself even more and never give up! i believe in u 🫶🩷

all my love 💗💬✨🎀

[sayruq]

[dyl-z]

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you were right it was Lyall

cw: light disassociation, emotional neglect