#feels like im in the fucking trenches

[fraemlingg]

im just gonna freestyle this text so this is not gonna be very thought through or whatever but literally i am so incredibly sick of social media i am sooo sick of that ugly AI slop everywhere and algorithms and ads and everything being designed to keep us glued to our screens no matter the consequences

i am sick of monetarisation i am sick of posting my art online literally begging for people to like my posts in hopes of being able to make at least a lil money with my art one day it feels like im selling myself out and its so fucking far from authentic like im a tattoo artist and so i follow a bunch of other tattoo artists and although they all have such amazing unique styles everything feels so performative and i KNOW that every single one of them feels the same and its so fucking sad that we cant really do anything about it

and im not trying to sound pretentious but i?? kinda hate meme culture?? it pisses me off?? can we not have normal inside jokes anymore why are 10 people sending me funny little posts even though they know i will not look at them (and like rlly truly no offense bc i know they do it bc they love me and think of me and i love them for it and i appreciate it in one way or another im not being judgy rn thats not my point). i want to write letters not dms but i feel like if i were to say that i might be called "cringe" which yknow is a concern i already expressed in another post and might be a me-problem but as ethel cain said it so fantastically nothing is taken seriously anymore and i hugely blame social media and meme culture

and like pls keep enjoying ur memes im again not judging just speaking from my subjective experience and that experience is that it caused me brainrot im not sure i'll ever be able to fix and that SUUUUCKS dude we all got dragged into phone addiction without a fucking choice and it will just get worse and worse and worse

i watched LuvstarKeis youtube video on why you should make a website and i think they (i looked everywhere for their pronouns sry if i got it wrong ;w;) have such good points i rlly enjoy their youtube videos in general. so yea in the long run i think im gonna create a website (or two to separate tattoos n music), post it to instagram with a statement, and then im gonna "leave instagram". putting that in "" bc im gonna keep my instagram but only so people can dm me for appointments or other things bc i dont wanna give out my telegram and people these days are too damn lazy to write a single email (even dj bookers lol it pisses me off a bit like what do i have this mail for then). like why are people using AI to write emails pls make it stop sometimes we have to do things that are inconvenient and that is actually a GOOD thing my fucking god, same thing goes for physical media like dvds nd such like fuck streaming services but thats another topic for another day

im probably gonna keep posting on my priv instagram just bc like. theres so many photos on there from so many years ago that would probably be lost if i deleted that account nd like i go on there like every 3 months or so to dump my photos there and then i log off so whatever. i am mostly pissed off about sharing art on social media and feeling so unauthentic about it and being glued to my phone when i could do so many other much better things liKE UGHHHHHHH

i think dead internet theory is scary and depressing but lowkey i hope the internet is actually dying bc i am so sick of this internet society. i am so goddamn sick of everyone being addicted to their phones. remember when we had a life like?????? how did we end up like this

i also wanna get a flipphone one day but yea i gotta plan that shit

i just needed to vent i could probably go on for ages about this but imma choose to shut the fuck up now

[shrack]

loki doesnt want to be alone but he also wants his friends to be able to live their lives. he wants everyone to live so badly that he spends centuries learning high level science, repeats the end of the world over and over and watches his friends disappear constantly, refuses to let the world die because without the timeline, everyone would be alone. nobody would be anything. so he sacrifices living his life, he not only becomes the sacred timeline but turns it into something ever-growing, yggdrasil supports the universe and if he has to do it, if he has to be alone so that everyone can be together, than so be it. because, as mobius said: "most purpose is more burden than glory."

[nemotakeit]

hot take? i don't think blurryface is going to be "defeated" by the end of the lore. he might be the villain of the story but at the same time he's a living part of tyler as well. i think they'll win, but not completely eradicate the existence of blurryface. they might suppress him, or learn to peacefully coexist with him, or outgrow his influence or whatever - that's the "managing the tension" part. we also have to keep in mind that tyler is still struggling to some extent with his insecurities and vulnerabilities (though he's gotten much better ofc) and i think that aspect will be reflected in his art.

besides, they've said that some people might not like the ending, which insinuates we won't be getting a perfectly hunky-dory happy ending. i also don't think tyler is the type to give this kind of story a sunshines and rainbows type of closure.

the core message of twenty one pilots, although it has certainly evolved over the years, is that it's fine to be not okay, but you must fight for your survival. i think that the lore ending will leave us with the message that broken as we are, we have to stay alive AND push on through - and before you know it, you'll be in a much better place than when you first started.

[olberic]

listen i know spirk is the big thing and i do get why. but you dont understand that when i was 12 my parents got me into scifi as a genre by getting me into tos space speed/movies 2 3 & 4. but 12 yr old me didnt have full context. 12 yr old me didnt know about spirk’s influence. 12 yr old me just saw spock and mccoy bicker before spock trusted his whole entire brain and memories with him before getting himself killed for (his) the crew’s sake. then in movie iii theres that scene when mccoy’s like whispering at him and admits “…i supposed i missed you. and i dont know if i could stand to lose you again.” then theres a big special ceremony just for the two of them where mccoy risks it all. what im saying is that spones awoke something in me

[meat-pvppet]

i scroll through mouthwashing twitter or tiktok and i realize that it shouldve been gatekept more

specifically about some of the people on the mouthwashing confessions twitter acc cuz dude. what.

not to be bitch but i think some of you should explode forever /lh

but yeah no the fandomification of mouthwashing has been atrocious chat can none of you appreciate the art and story of something and discuss things without consuming it like content slop in a trough to slurp up holy shit

these recent years online have been THE WORST years to be creating art outside of just AI bullshit cuz some of you cant help but woobify this and babygirlify that and "oh i cant hate jimmy cuz hes probably experienced trauma :[" when that is a literally RAPIST and ABUSER and "curly deserved what happened to him for being complacent in anyas abuse" when he was BRUTALLY BURNT AND MUTILATED AND HAD HIS AUTONOMY STRIPPED FROM HIM and on the complete flip side of that last thing "curly did his best and he did nothing wrong forever!!!" when he was complacent in anyas abuse and let it be perpetuated cuz it was his friend and "anya should have told swansea or daisuke!" when they wouldnt have done anything either and "anyas a pick-me" do you have no sympathy for rape victims or are you just a misogynist im being so so so real right now

every fandom has a side to it thats rancid but holy FUCK guys

[theokusgallery]

I hate that I have reoccurring themes in everything I make. YES this guy has a complex over the fact that everyone prefers his sibling AGAIN. YES he was ostracized by his peers since he was in primary school and never knew why until years later. URGH

[nickbutnodick]

dude im nearly two fucking grades ahead of average and my mon was so fucking disappointed and i dont know what she wants from me

[96percentdone]

I feel like it bears repeating on like a daily basis, but I do unironically think Nirvana Initiative is like. Demonstrably superior in craft and meaning than the first AI: The Somnium Files. Like I'm not doing a bit on this blog or anything I just actually think AINI is that good and deserves the world. This is the hill upon which I will die, I'm right, fuck you.

[angelstrawbabie420]

grief will have you saying shit like goddamn and fuck maybe the abuse was worth it

[okawarihappylife]

rsd feels like youre being gutted alive

[foxgloveinspace]

I’m kinda sad cause the Sleep Token obsession is ending on my end but not in a ‘I don’t love them’ kinda way, they are still my favorite band ever, I just……. Am not as obsessed.

[e8luhs]

finally getting to that stage where ive been away from my abuser for long enough that i can finally stop like... feeling bad for him or whatever even though he was ~saaaad~ when he was abusing me. i mean okay yeah i still feel bad for him sometimes i still feel guilty sometimes i still miss him sometimes because at one point we were friends jesus christ. but i dont feel so utterly plagued by it as much as before which is nice. unfortunately it does mean that my brain is stuck re-playing everything with a new light being shined over it for the several hundredth time but at least im not flagellating myself about it as much anymore. like im finally starting to think more about how i feel than about how he feels. that is something. kind of bare minimum but its something after ages of blaming myself for everything that happened

[transannabeth]

if we're being so for real, i was a goner on the winter soldier storyline in the mcu the second they cast sebastian stan as james "bucky" buchanan barnes because i was watching once upon a time season 1 episode 17 hat trick when it aired on march 25, 2012 and became deeply enamored with jefferson's tragic backstory, manic moments, fun little kidnapping habit, and deeply deeply sad eyes

[impossible-rat-babies]

back in the fuckin pits man………

[sophiethewitch1]

Mc is totally relatable with the cupioromantic/fictoromantic ideas cause I feel like I'm kind of the same way 😭😭 like, I find people attractive(esp. Famous people ofc) and all, but I'd rather like them from a distance??

Like I'd rather like them in my mind, in their own little bubble, rather than actually having to interact with them. Partially because I think if I were to interact with them irl it'd pop that bubble of preconceived personality/identity my brain assigned to them. I also don't want them to know I exist as well. (maybe because I'm introverted? Maybe because I find myself repulsive? Idk)

I'd rather appreciate them/ romanticize them from a distance and not have to burden them with my presence/knowing me. You're pretty, I think you'd be a great romantic partner in my mind, please dont touch or look or perceive me, lol

I don't get crushes on celebrities but I've often thought what if (insert character here) was real and immediately felt my stomach drop. I can provide relatability in my writing if anything lmao (has many many things deeply wrong with her). But like yeah this fic does have especially on a lot of themes about like, parasocial relationship and celebrity culture and how we don't really see creators as people a lot of the time and the idea of someone being a person or that glass we look through being something they can stare back... is discomforting! i love writing romance that makes you a bit uncomfortable!! i am, by all reasons, a freak!!! also dont worry dude i find myself repulsive too lmfao

[scalproie]

is sex still banned in helldivers 2