#so maybe i am fictoromantic??

[sophiethewitch1]

Mc is totally relatable with the cupioromantic/fictoromantic ideas cause I feel like I'm kind of the same way 😭😭 like, I find people attractive(esp. Famous people ofc) and all, but I'd rather like them from a distance??

Like I'd rather like them in my mind, in their own little bubble, rather than actually having to interact with them. Partially because I think if I were to interact with them irl it'd pop that bubble of preconceived personality/identity my brain assigned to them. I also don't want them to know I exist as well. (maybe because I'm introverted? Maybe because I find myself repulsive? Idk)

I'd rather appreciate them/ romanticize them from a distance and not have to burden them with my presence/knowing me. You're pretty, I think you'd be a great romantic partner in my mind, please dont touch or look or perceive me, lol

I don't get crushes on celebrities but I've often thought what if (insert character here) was real and immediately felt my stomach drop. I can provide relatability in my writing if anything lmao (has many many things deeply wrong with her). But like yeah this fic does have especially on a lot of themes about like, parasocial relationship and celebrity culture and how we don't really see creators as people a lot of the time and the idea of someone being a person or that glass we look through being something they can stare back... is discomforting! i love writing romance that makes you a bit uncomfortable!! i am, by all reasons, a freak!!! also dont worry dude i find myself repulsive too lmfao

[puppytirz]

Is anyone else, specifically speaking autistic people here, in a romantic relationship with a fictional character? I have maladaptive daydreaming disorder, so maybe I am different, but I am genuinely so infatuated with these characters. Moreso than any real people in my life... Is fictosexual/fictoromantic the proper term for this?

[daydream-the-demon]

Claustrophobia

I might be claustrophobic.

Maybe not in the general sense though...

I feel claustrophobic because of the skin, muscles, organs, and everything that's covering me. I think that's why I always have that feeling to throw up, because I want to throw my physical self up away because I always feel claustrophobic.

I keep talking about wanting to throw up. I now have the answer to why.

I think that's a reason I am part of the queer community by being AroAce (because I physically can't stand the physicality of people, and myself), but being Fictoromantic/sexual (because I tend to like the mind and not the physicality). And why I am Xenogender/Genderless because I don't identify with human norms.

I realized I'm scared, no, absolutely TERRIFIED of humans, human norms, human constructs, EVERYTHING.

Also, I realized I had a God Complex. And technically? I'm not wrong. From my perspective, NOTHING exists. I have no proof! I have no proof other people have the same mental capabilities as me. I have no proof ANYTHING exists! It's all fake!

If I were to kill myself, none of you, NONE OF YOU WOULD EXIST.

I realized this is why I'm suicidal. I don't want to mentally destroy myself, no! I want to live forever in that sense! I want to create art and stories and keep on living. I want my myself to be immortalized.

But what fears me, what destroys my whole image, the thing I want to get rid of, is my physical self. I can't stand being trapped like this, feeling so many things that I don't want to. Emotions are chemicals in the brain produced by the physical self, and I try my best not to feel them.

I just feel... wrong.

I dealt with a lot of derealization, depersonalization, and maladaptive daydreaming problems. And I may just have found the reason why. Because I CAN'T STAND my physical self, so I end up leaving, feeling detached and better off in the mental world.

I don't think it's "normal" to be claustrophobic about engaging in basic human functions such as eating, drinking, sleeping, speaking, and everything else.

A lot of things have been explained as soon as I realized my claustrophobia of the real realm.

I just don't belong here, not like this at least.

And I don't know how my Autism plays into this but I KNOW something about all of this is related in SOME SORT of way.

I remember from a young age I felt this.

Why must I have existential crises, every second?

I want to throw up.

I want to bash my skull against a wall.

Everything feels so... wrong.

Something's not right.

I feel insane.

[unablethethird]

once again

Same with you skip the weird ones

1: Name Robert [rob]

2: Age 14

3: 3 Fears 1- Friends dying/getting hurt 2-Going back to the last place i lived 3-Not being able to help/be there

4: 3 things I love 1-My frens 2-Laptop 3-headphones

7: My best friend You and yaya [irl]

8: Sexual orientation AroAce [fictoromantic/fictosexual, and kinda orchidromantic]

10: How tall am I 166cm [for now]

11: What do I miss

cant think of anything rn

12: What time were I born 4am

13: Favorite color red, orange, purple, black

15: Favorite quote "Light a man a fire and he'll be warm for the night, light a man *on* fire and he'll be warm for the rest of his life"

16: Favorite place Arcade

17: Favorite food Imjaderah [rice+yoghurt+beans]

18: Do I use sarcasm sometimes, not rlly tho

19: What am I listening to right now

20: First thing I notice in new person Not sure, maybe symptoms???? but not on purpose

21: Shoe size No idea

22: Eye color dark brown [almost black]

23: Hair color black

24: Favorite style of clothing 1920s men atire

25: Ever done a prank call? Not that i can remember

27: Meaning behind my URL I mean this is the 3rd acc

28: Favorite movie THE LORAX!!!!

29: Favorite song right now it's

30: Favorite band FamilyJules? LemonDemon? Will wood? Chonny jash?

31: How I feel right now My body's scared but im chilling

32: Someone I love You /p

33: My current relationship status AroAce, platonically married

34: My relationship with my parents lol

35: Favorite holiday Eid al adha, free money

36: Tattoos and piercing i have Ear

37: Tattoos and piercing i want Sleeve tattoo when i transition

38: The reason I joined Tumblr Needed to continue a fic/comic that was on tumblr

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? idk

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? thank you fren /gen

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? my dad? maybe when i was really young

42: When did I last hold hands? My little sister, i didnt want her to get run over when crossing the road

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? As long as i have, if u give me an hour i'll take an hour, if you give me 30 seconds i'll take 30 seconds

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Nope, i get gender dysphoria from shaving my legs/arms

45: Where am I right now? Bed

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? LOUD

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Mum, not dad

49: Am I excited for anything? Turning 18 and going uni and being a human person with a human life

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Im an oversharer

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Im autistic so not in a deppressed way

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Cant remember

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? H [irl]

55: What is something I disliked about today? My sister stealing money from my mum, i was this close to having smoke outta my ears, she should know better

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? God, im going to beat the shit out of him

57: What do I think about most? Cringe memories i guess?

58: What’s my strangest talent? I can bird whistle

59: Do I have any strange phobias? Touch might be strange?

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind fs

61: What was the last lie I told? "I don't know who they were talking about" [i didn't want to hurt her feelings]

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? voice, video is a nightmare

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yea because either i've seen them or im delusional [im delusional]. aliens are a given, even a bacteria could be one

64: Do I believe in magic? Kinda? idrk, maybe

65: Do I believe in luck? yea

66: What’s the weather like right now? cloudy n cold

67: What was the last book I’ve read? DnD rulebook

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? LVORE IT LOIF LVOE LOVE IT

69: Do I have any nicknames? I get called by my last name a lot

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? not sure

71: Do I spend money or save it? Save

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? Unfortunatly no

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? My sisters deoderant

74: Favorite animal?

FOXES!!!!!!

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? calming myself down

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I dont think he has one, idk im not religious

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Corny/cringe as hell but Honeypie by JAWNY

78: How can you win my heart? havent thought about it

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

I TOLD YOU MY FOOT WAS KILLING ME

80: What is my favorite word? supercalifragilisticexpialadocious

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr Moots

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? your god is the right one [chaos]

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not currently, but my dad and some uncles were

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Time manipulation

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? i dont think questions are scary

86: What is my current desktop picture? basic

90: Failed a class? classes

94: Had job? I have one now, dont always get paid though

95: Left the house without my wallet? Dont have a wallet

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no

98: Played on a sports team?

Unless school sport team counts

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no

104: Been overweight? No

105: Been underweight? yea

106: Been to a wedding? ye

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Duh

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? maybe i dont remember

109: Been outside my home country? Technically im from iran, and i live in australia, so, yeah

110: Gotten my heart broken? i guess

111: Been to a professional sports game? no

112: Broken a bone? no

113: Cut myself? yeah Im stopping though

114: Been to prom? we dont have that

115: Been in airplane?

Yeah

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? none

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? kinda

119: Learned another language? I know arabic and english

120: Wore make up? Forced to when i was younger but not anymore

123: Dyed my hair? Part of it purple, but its gone now

124: Voted in a presidential election? Cant vote, eitherway all of em suck

125: Rode in an ambulance? Yep

126: Had a surgery? not sure, memory bad

127: Met someone famous? Not that i know of

128: Stalked someone on a social network? mutuals tumblrs

129: Peed outside? Yea

130: Been fishing? nope

131: Helped with charity? yep

132: Been rejected by a crush? nope

133: Broken a mirror? Yep

134: What do I want for birthday? Wouldn't ever happen because it's expensive as fuck but a pump it up machine

i usually get a slice of cake tho

[genderstarbucks]

So here's something I don't understand about myself:

I am aroace and I have no sexual/romantic attraction to real people yet get arousal on both female and male cartoon/anime character (female depends but I mostly get attracted to male characters)

2. i label myself as genderfluid but lately I have been feeling uncomfortable with my gender no matter what (even gender non confirmed,amender and pangender makes me uncomfortable if i used it)

3. Non of pronouns makes me feel happy (I go by any/all but mostly he/it) it's like I don't mind using any pronouns and my prefered ones but at the same time hate it,it's like 'I get bored easily' if I used specific pronouns

4. I feel like I am not real otherkin but me seeing myself as human makes me cringe so hard,the reason why see myself as fake otherkin is because my kintype keep changing and i don't feel it unless I saw an image of a horse and get awakened and then later when I see a monkey I get awakened too

Wtf am I????

1.

Fictoromantic, also known as fictiromantic or fictionalromantic, is an umbrella term for anyone who experiences exclusive romantic attraction toward fictional characters, a general type of fictional characters, or whose romantic orientation is influenced by fictional characters.

Fictosexual, also known as fictisexual, fictonsexual, fictiosexual, fictionsexual or fictionalsexual, is a sexual orientation and an umbrella term on the asexual spectrum for anyone who experiences exclusive sexual attraction towards fictional characters, a general type of fictional characters, or whose sexuality is influenced by fictional characters.

Fictoaroace / Fictorose is a term for being both fictoromantic and fictosexual.

2.

You could be genderless (not necessarily agender tho) or maybe even gender apathetic (if you don't care what your gender is or what people perceive you as)

3.

You could use no pronouns (if that works for you) or just ask the people around you to switch up your pronouns

4.

That doesn't make you fake at all! Lots of people are fluid between their types, that doesn't mean you're faking being an otherkin / therian

[poet-slenderman]

For the Aromantics

It's the week after Valentine's,

The day for lovers to rejoice,

But to be honest what's on my mind,

Needs to be given an elaborate voice

There is hatred and erasure all about,

No matter what words or kindness is said,

That is something we cannot doubt,

And it's time for this to come to an end

You are valid, loveless aromantic in the back,

You are seen, partnering aromantic who's proud of that,

You are valid, confused aromantic, no take back,

You are seen, aroallo friend in that lovely hat

The world is cruel to what it doesn't understand,

And I do not know why we're so quick to oppress,

Even other minorities fight in this space so crammed,

Why is it that we do this, who are we trying to impress?

I'm sorry, dear friends, who have been pushed so hard,

Forced into a society forged in amatonormativity,

I'm sorry, aromantics who have a broken heart,

Broken not by romance, but by society

I am not aromantic, so I'm sure I don't understand,

But I will always support your cause,

For if we stand together, under a united plan,

Maybe there might be far less loss

To those on the aromantic spectrum that don't fit neatly in a box, I see you,

For the aegoromantics who enjoy romance without participating, I hear you,

To the apathoromantics with little preference either way, I stand with you,

For the apothiromantics who are repulsed by the idea, I respect you

For the aroflux whose feelings are inconsistent, variety is the spice of life isn't it,

To the orchidromantics who feel romantic attraction but don't wish for a romantic relationship, it's nice to meet you,

For the lithoromantics who don't want their attraction to be reciprocated at all, I think you're neat a little bit

To the cupioromantic who doesn't experience attraction but wants a relationship, you should be you

To the fictoromantics who are only attracted to fictional characters, I agree, fictional characters are beloved,

To the frayromantics who are attracted to those they don't know, you're not the only one, you're not alone

To the desinoromantics who experience a romantic like rather than love, from me you will not be judged,

To the greyromantics whose attraction isn't strictly defined but little to none, one day you'll find your throne.

I'm sure I missed a few, or more than that,

And I apologize if you aren't here,

Please don't fret, as a matter of fact,

This is for you even if it isn't stated clear.

If I have gotten any of these labels wrong, please inform me, and if I have done anything in this poem that is unintentionally insulting, let me know and I will fix it. If I missed your label, tell me and I'll try to add it. Happy aromantic awareness.

[theclowndoes-selfships]

Soooo...

Intros!

Name:

I go by Evan or Vinnie, but I also use the name Alex or Lex.

Pronouns:

he/they (well... he/him or they/them)

Stuff I do here:

Selfshipping, OCs x Canon, etc

( here will be only selfshipping and similar stuff to that. If you want other content. I recommend you check my main, which is @thedancingclowns !! )

Stuff about me:

I have ADHD, I like to at least attempt to create stuff and have for pretty much my whole life, I am trying to be a functional grown being, my birthday is April 22nd

Human Synopsis:

my name is Evan (I also go by Vinnie), I am a (ftm) man, I am here to like fanart and writing and cool people (and also memes sometimes) while posting the most random shit known to humankind, I am legally an adult, a polyam quoi demi and nebula pan or omni dude (dunno man, romance is weird), as well as fictoromantic, I have ADHD and GAD, my birthday is April 22nd.

But... yeah! I have a self shipping blog now, and... yay!

( Please be aware!! I am legally an adult! But any minor characters I mark as romantic f/o's are in relationships with YOUNGER s/i's!! I know that sounds weird, maybe, but I'm trying to explain that as clearly as I can. With those f/o's, I either make my s/i's younger/towards their age, or I do age ups! I'm not just like: "welp, I'm an adult, but one of my f/o's is this x years old character!" because to me that doesn't sit emotionally right. A similar thing for multiple characters of same fandom, sometimes I will use different s/i's for them because I like too many characters from some fandoms as romantic f/o's and it gets/feels awkward so times. I'm guess I'm kind of like a... f/o multishipper, if that makes sense lol...? :'> plus I still have them as f/o's because I technically considered them f/o's before I WAS an adult, so it felt less weird back then. )

f/o list and more below cut

f/o list!!

Key:

an orange source title means a platonic f/o, a pink source title means a romantic f/o, a purple source title means a familial f/o and a blue source title is a f/o outside those categories, like a qpr, or friends with benefits, etc. noncolored source titles are for uncategorized f/o's, likely new to the list.

(work in progress, give me some time, I'm slow and there are a lot. :'D)

Heavy Shvagenbagen (Metal Family)

Dee Shvagenbagen (Metal Family)

Lif (Metal Family *and familial because of a different oc / s/i*)

Lordy (Metal Family)

Bob (Metal Family)

Sebastian (Metal Family)

*like, ONLY the Younger version of Glam is a romantic f/o. Glam as an adult is a platonic f/o*

Sal Fisher (Sally Face)

Larry Johnson (Sally Face)

Todd Morrison (Sally Face)

Ashley Campbell (Sally Face)

Travis Phelps (Sally Face)

James (Pokémon)

Jessie (Pokémon)

Brock (Pokémon)

Catfeine (Frowning Critters AU)

Catnap (Poppy Playtime *Smiling Critters*)

N (Pokémon Black/White)

Brewster (Animal Crossing)

Eyeless Jack (Creepypasta)

Toby Rogers (Creepypasta)

Jeff the Killer (Creepypasta)

Ben Drowned (Creepypasta)

Tim Wright *Masky* (Creepypasta/Marble Hornets)

Alex Kralie (Marble Hornets)

(More Creepypastas I still need to add. The phase is returning :'D)

Bonnie/Withered Bonnie (FNAF 1/2)

Nightmare Bonnie (FNAF 4)

Foxy (FNAF 1)

Shamura (Cult of the Lamb)

Leshy (Cult of the Lamb)

Heket (Cult of the Lamb)

Kallamar (Cult of the Lamb)

Hvitur (Wings of Fire)

Riptide (Wings of Fire)

Flame (Wings of Fire)

HABIT (EverymanHYBRID)

Evan Myers (EverymanHYBRID)

Also, just in case...

NO, I am NOT possessive of any of my f/o's... that seems mildly odd to me...? People who also have any of my f/o's are allowed to interact, I don't care? Why are there people who are like:

"DNI IF YOU ALSO LIKE MY F/O'S THEY'RE MINE!"

Please don't interact if you're extremely like that... it doesn't make sense to me. It's like saying you OWN them, which you don't... like, they're fictional...? chances are you're not the only one who selfships with them.

The rest of my DNI is the same as my main.

ps.

to any fictives/introjects/etc of my f/o's, I am so, so sorry if this blog makes you uncomfortable. I get how selfshipping is seen as weird, and gets weirder under various perspectives... so... yeah. Sorry in advance.

[sixteenpinkroses]

➺ Hey, I'm Flower! I'm 17 years old. My pronouns are they/him and I'm a fictoromantic aroace. I am autistic and I need tone tags most of the time, so those would be very appreciated.

➺ I love Monster High & Ever After High, and my favorite characters are Draculara. Clawdeen, Apple and Maddy! Pink is my favorite color and my favorite food is donuts. I love anything caramel or chocolate (can you tell I like sweets) and I love to read! In fact, my favorite books are the Ever After High series. My favorite TV show is Sweet Tooth, I love Star Wars and my favorite play is the Newsies!! I listen to a lot of music but currently I'm obsessed with Chappel Roan and Yaelokre!

➺ I make headcanons most of the time, I write fanfics and drabbles, really any kind of writing. Maybe some art, but I don't draw Monster High or Ever After High that much. Maybe one day!

➺ My inbox is always open! I'll try to respond as quickly as I can- you can ask me just about anything as long as it's SFW! I don't usually accept ship requests, BUT I absolutely adore Toradeen and Appledarling so I will definitely take any asks for them. You can introduce me to your own ships too if you like, I'll hear them out as long as they aren't proships. And I may start making content for it if I like it enough!

➺ Anyone 13+ may interact, but anyone younger please DNI, sorry! Do not interact if you are transphobic, homophobic, racist, sexist, ableist, etc. I do not want any proshippers or darkshippers near this blog either!!

[jev-sweethearts-best-sprout-mole]

I just need to rant about how much I love sweetheart (and it'll be very messy because I'm not even gonna bother to make this post have a sense of order, I'm just gonna type how my thoughts come out). Be warned that this includes heavy self-ship thoughts, so there will be quite a bit of that insanity here.

Like holy shit. I love this fictional woman so much she is so pretty and so cute and so silly and so funny and so cool and oh my god I love her so so so much /r. I am in love with this fictional woman that were she to be real, she'd kill me on the spot. But that's okay! Anything for Sweetheart! I don't know if cis people can use the term gender envy but if not, I feel something similar to it towards Sweetheart specifically. I really want to dress like her so bad. I want to have a huge pink bow. I want to have long pink hair. I want a big puffy pink blouse and pink high heels. I want pink fingernails. I might not be opposed to dressing like some of her other outfits. Sweetheart is singlehandedly making me more feminine. And yes I am 100% certain I'm a cis male, she's lowering my masculinity anyways. I love her so much I want to be like her in some ways. If she were to be real and not kill me somehow I would want to be her greatest friend and do everything for her and if she'd let me, I would want to date and marry her too. Waaaaaaa I love her so fucking much how did a fictional woman who is an objectively bad person manage to do this to my brain who is aromantic. She singlehandedly turned me fictoromantic. I have so many thoughts about her being real and the things she would likely do to me and let's just say that despite what those Things would be I would Enjoy it. I am very very normal I promise I am so normal. And if both she and Molly were to be real. Well first and foremost I would love if they dated so my ship could be real because ahhhh they're so cute together but second of all if Sweetheart were to fit in my headcanon of her potentially being polyamorous, I would like to also date her. And since my fictoromantic crush only extends to Sweetheart, not Molly, and I also believe Molly to be a lesbian anyways, not bi, I would like to maybe just have our relationship (Molly and I) be best friends or qpr at best (I still really love Molly too but that's all platonic love. Not romantic like with Sweetheart) and we both date and marry Sweetheart maybe. And again I still do love Molly platonically, I would love to be her friend she's still my 3rd favorite fictional character of all time after all. Okay that's my crazy self-shipping rant over feel free to make fun of me because I am very aware that I am a bit insane about Sweetheart.

[aro-culture-is]

hi! a question:

i'm not sure if i might be aro?

i'm obsessed with romance, i constantly daydream about having a partner and i wish i could date somebody (i never have).

but i recently realised that i've never actually met anyone i would genuinely feel romantic feelings for. i've had crushes, but those were only based on looks and usually disappeared once i got to know the person better and realised i didn't even want to be friends with them. but i never felt attracted to any of my actual friends either.

all of the romance i feel is for imaginary lovers. i know that being fictoromantic is a thing, but i actually really want to be in love with a real person, in real life.

maybe i just haven't met the right person yet? but then again i'm almost eighteen and at this age, almost everyone has at least tried to date somebody, even if for a short time.

i'm also kind of introverted and socially awkward, so maybe that could play a role?

i'm just wondering whether this could mean that i can't feel romantically towards anyone and that i will never get the love i've always so desperately wanted. i honestly don't want to be aro. but the more i learn about aro people the more i seem to relate to some of them. i never thought i could be aro so this confuses me. i hope i'm wrong. but i wanted a second opinion. i know you don't know me but what do you think, could i be aro?

sorry for the long post. and thank you if you choose to answer. :)

this definitely sounds like a possible aro experience. you may want to look into cupioromantic, romo aro, romance favorable aromantic, and/or lovequeer aro as terms that could help you to better conceptualize your experience. you can find definitions for all of those here, at AUREA, with the exception of lovequeer.

i'd like to invite others to post their definitions of lovequeer in the reblogs/comments for this post, since I am not lovequeer and due to disability lost track of what definitions ended up being decided on. further, one of y'all should see if AUREA's terms can be updated to include lovequeer :)

[cogbreath]

its stuff like that that makes aromanticism so hard for ppl to understand i think. even for aromantic ppl. like. i only honestly gathered what i think people feel due to me being fictoromantic by definition. but at the same time ita always like. hm maybe its just the people i considered in romantic terms just sucked. but honestly it doesnt even matter to me i dont care at all if i just havent met "the one" yet. i have 0 urge to. sometimes think maybe in doing something wrong by not ans i can pretend to have the urge but its just performance. also i did think i found the one but honestly the feelings were no different than how i am abt all my friends. except that we can do sex stuff too. i dont personally care at all for the term queerplatonic. its whatever. hes just my guy. my fella. acrually he agrees with me in terms of romance. he questioned aromanticism before. things did start out being romantically intended but that felt weird to ke and kind of tiring. so its judt devolved into two gorgeous people with some sort of thing going on. but one of them acts a fool over a fictional character most of the time.

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hi! My name is Shiri (Hebrew name for My Melody / Song of My Soul)

and I Wish for : Romantic Obey Me + My Hero Academia matchup

Physical description : I’m a 5’2 girl. I’m autistic and I am slightly chubby. I have curly brown hair and matching dark brown eyes. I have fair, smooth and milky skin. I love wearing kawaii, pastel and casual clothing that is quite childish and feminine. I am most insecure about my slightly soft tummy and small chest. I love my slender neck, beautiful hands and bright smile.

Zodiac sign : Capricorn Sun, Libra Moon, Scorpio Rising

MBTI & Enneagram : INFP 9w1

Sexuality : Fictoromantic Asexual (before And even more deeply ace after the r*pe trauma I’ve been through)

Pronouns & Age : she/her & 25

Personality :

I am a socially awkward autistic and I have fluctuating empathy - sometimes hyper empathetic and sometimes hypo empathetic.

I survived sexual abuse (mention of rape trauma ahead tw). I’m usually aloof, quiet, timid yet peaceful and mysterious.

But once you get to know me I’m quirky, childish, just and passionate!

I age regress to keep my heart soft and sweet (without romance and magical girl anime my heart would’ve been hidden under a wall of stoicism).

I’m a timid, shy yet sarcastic girl who loves singing and is pretty bad at sports. Once you get to know me I’m a romantic, childish girl who loves k-pop love songs and goth jpop.

Sometimes I’m stoic and emotionless due to how I repress my own trauma on bad days when I’m suffering from flashbacks of the sexual abuse I’ve been through.. On those days I’m mourning and empty. Sometimes devastated with grief over the loss of who I was - The innocent and pure me.

While on other days I’m singing with happiness and warmth - Days when I feel free and filled with light. On those days I can love deeply and am very affectionate, despite being more cat-like than dog-like.

Feeling protected, accepted and cherished is very important to me; otherwise I feel neglected and unloved. I often felt unsafe in my own body due to having been raped and still suffer from panic attacks and hallucinations every now and then and I need someone who’d accept me and love me for all of who I am.

Cause there are days I’ll be numb and empty, or snarky and upset. Days when it’ll feel like the world is suffering from chaotic storms of rage and grief.

Sadly, I’ve already experienced my worst fears; being raped, having been controlled and gaslighted. There are days when I wish he was dead, when I fantasize about killing him and have it all over with but mostly I just want to be happy again. To be surrounded by kind people who love me dearly and have him meet his own desolate karma, leaving him desperate and broken hearted.

My ideal date would be the amusement park and volunteering at an animal shelter or going to an animal cafe.

I am very idealistic and romantic, and filled with so much light and happiness but also have days when the rape trauma haunt me and make me feel depressed and chaotic inside.

Sometimes I have trouble controlling my deep emotions and I can get, as I said, very chaotic while on other days I’m an emotionless brick, filled with wrath towards abusers and depression due to the past haunting me.

My love languages are words of affirmation, acts of service and physical touch.

My ideal date would be going to a cat cafe or volunteering at an animal shelter. Maybe going through a mirror maze/ haunted house / rollercoaster at the amusement park! Or binge watching romance/psychological anime while laying on a blanket fort as we eat sweets!

I wish to be doted on, loved and protected with passion. I wish for someone I can feel free to be bad with, but also someone who adores me no matter which day I’m going through ; angel or devil days and accepts me for all in-between.

Likes : cats, bunnies, ducklings, the moon, music, romance, cottagecore, sanrio, lolita fashion, angels, mythology, my family, love, joy, being treated like a princess, being wooed, respected, loved and admired, sleeping, hugging. love love, happiness, romantic songs, animals , plushies, festivals, sweets and magic! I love singing, writing love letters and poetry. I also love k-dramas, anime, otome games and cuddling.

Dislikes : rape, abusive people, people who force their opinions on others, people who invade others’ boundaries and refuse to respect them, danger, horror shows/movies, watching the news, sad movies.

Hobbies & Passions : Singing, Writing, Poetry, Watching Romantic Anime/Dramas, Listening to Music (jpop/kpop/disco/electro swing), dressing up, putting on make up and feeling like a fairy/angel/kitty/bunny/duckling/ballerina/princess. I love daydreaming x’).

I hope I didn’t write too much >x<. Thank you so much for writing for all of us! 💗

Hi Shiri! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took a while. I hope you like your matchups!

In Obey Me, I match you with...

Simeon is the perfect person for you. He’s just the right balance of outgoing and quiet and somehow always knows the right thing to say or do.

Has nothing but sympathy for you regarding your trauma. He wants you to know that he’s there for you if you want to talk it out. Even if you don’t want to talk and you just want to feel safe in someone’s presence, Simeon is there for you.

He’s also really understanding when your mood switches from day to day. It’s in his nature to be understanding but that is only increased when it’s relating to someone he cares about so deeply.

Amazing with words of affirmation, acts of service, and physical touch. He will show you as much affection as you want without getting sick of it and accepts you wholeheartedly.

Prepare to receive a love letter every day as soon as Simeon finds out you like them. Please also write love letters to him; he keeps every single one safe in a box under his bed.

He’s more than happy to take you to cat cafes and animal shelters. Simeon likes animals as well so it’s a win-win in his eyes.

In My Hero Academia, I match you with...

While Aizawa gives off uncaring vibes at first glance, he really cares deeply about those he loves; and you certainly fall into that category.

You’ll be hard pressed to find a more caring pro hero than Aizawa. He’s seen his fair share of bad situations due to his hero work late at night so he knows how to interact with people who have trauma.

He’s surprisingly understanding of your mood swings. While you may think they would annoy him, he works with teenagers and mood swings are part of his everyday life with them so he’s more than equipped to help you through low times and support you during high moments.

While he may not naturally be the most open with his affection, as soon as Aizawa finds out you like words of affirmation and physical affection, he will do his best.

He’s still not great at those things, but he’s trying for you. Expect at least one hug every day and compliments on things you do throughout the day.

Cat cafe dates are an absolute must! You’re not sure whether Aizawa is going because you want to go or because he likes cats so much. Regardless, you’re both going to have a great time.

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

I Wish Those Who Are Anti-Nonbinary Would Please Shut The Heck Up...Because They Are Offending This Enbirl...

[Note: This Might Talk A Little Bit Of Religious Talk, So If You Don’t Want To Read Those Parts, Feel Free To Skip....Also Reading This Is Optional, It’s just some jerk had really peeved me off when I saw their video....

also it’s okay if some ignore this post, this is....I just really needed to get some feelings out, and it’s okay that some ignore this post...and maybe wait until I post maybe a theory post about either a video game or show or movie or book series.

also, Don’t Reblog This Without Permission]    

of course even after finding out about a certain man who is obviously Anti-LGBTQ, I of course have to end up finding out about a video that once again, talks about “woke”....you know what would be so “woke” if people like that, would shut the heck up....

if anyone is “indoctrinating” it’s dirty shisno like that disgusting inhuman filth of a man who I had found out about who I’m still not going to say the name of, and is a different person from the one who was talking in a video that got me really REALLY mad..........

but yeah, the video that got me really mad, has to do with someone talking about how the new transformers movie is and about earthspark is.

I just can’t stand that person who made that video, plus it should be a child’s choice and own discovery if they are nonbinary or not, and no one on either side should decide that for them, and not be told they shouldn’t be if that is how they feel on the inside, and so stop using “woke” in a toxic way, cause that is what some humans are doing...

and FYI, there can be some cases when even assigned gendering can be misgendering, because there are different types of Intersex.

I’m not really 100% sure if I’m Intersex or not, but I have my reasons as to suspect I might be, but right now I’m not sure anymore.

I mean I know that biologically, I’m female....but one of the reasons why I suspect that I might be intersex, was because one time, I had a really dangerous time of the month, and well that is only half the reason I suspect it.

plus something I had read about one of the types of Intersex, made me wonder if I might be that type I had read about, but right now I’m not really sure.

I mean it would be nice if there was a home blood test that can tell you if your Intersex or not, and I don’t think I can talk to my family about it.

I mean it’s good that they have the home blood test that tells you what blood type you are, and once again I’m still procrastinating in the whole checking to see if my blood type comes out O RH D Negative for a third time...

I will try to get around to it when I am able to.

another thing I can’t tell my family, besides suspecting that I might be Intersex, but I’m still not 100% sure if that is true or not....

is that one, I can’t tell them I am Aroaceflux, I know I’m Fictoromantic as well.

I know that I didn’t start out as Aromantic or Aromantic flux, at least I don’t think I have....

I know I had bad luck with online boyfriends, and I have no interest in trying to get another boyfriend, because it’s like even if you do get lucky to talk about some of your feelings to them, and they will listen.

but unlucky for you if you end up talking about your feelings to them, and they end up ignoring it, I mean ya could just say ya don’t want to listen to it right now...

I mean whats the point of falling love if your just going to end up falling for the wrong person who either wont try to listen to you when you feel a little or a lot down...

oh and if it isn’t that, some are bit too h*rny and might not understand you might not be in the mood or don’t want to be touched right now.

and of course some humans put the whole needing to “do it” as something that is more important, well excuse me if my Ace is more dominate at the moment...

do not touch, do not pass go, do not collect 200 hearts.

this heart is on the lockdown, so baby, I got my love lockdown. XP

of course that has nothing to do with Lockdown from Transformers Animated...

but I guess I did kind of reference the song “Love Lockdown” by Kanye West.

of course the whole “love lockdown” isn’t 100% how the lyrics go...

it’s “your love locked down”, wonder what would be like if Lockdown from TFA heard that song...?

of course certain two men are not the only ones that really peeved me off with their toxic stupidity, that have of course crossed the line...

even a third man has peeved me off...

guess that makes those men, this Earth Angel Princess’s enemies.

[feel free to skip the part where it goes back to talking about the jerks who seem to have a problem with nonbinary....it will be in bold.]  

yeah “Earth Angel Princess” isn’t a official thing, but with the whole weird thought pop into my head, because of the whole one, finding out I’m a Defective Earth Angel, who once again doesn’t work 100% correctly like other Earth Angels....and two, I had found out about the whole being a descendant of a few royal families, and that I’m a descendant of King David, as well as King Solomon and Rehoboam.

which once again, not a curse, cause to me it is a blessing, cause I ain’t touching that throne. 

another reason I know I can’t, is because of the whole Cain being my ancestor as well, so that might be a blessing in disguise, but I’m also a descendant of Seth as well...

and yeah, I do have trust issues now that has to do with Masculine Angels, both Fallen and Non-Fallen....and I can’t help but think I might only be able to trust some Masculine Angels.

I don’t trust the three angels that were suppose to get Lilith to return to Adam.

some info says that they shouldn’t force her to return against her will, while another info says to force her if she isn’t willing to go back to him.

and trying to force her to return to Adam, against her will and even the possibility of threat, isn’t right.

Lilith could of gotten emotionally and spiritually better, but the harassment wasn’t helping, perhaps they could of worked things out and talked about their feelings, but with how immature Adam was during his youth, it is unlikely he would of listen or understood what was wrong with their relationship.

if it is true that Adam did mature during his marriage with Eve, that is good.

but it still doesn’t excuse him for how he treated Lilith, he is half the reason she fell, and in theory, I still it might be possible she was a Earth Angel.

and it could be possible that she might of had a childhood before she became Adam’s wife, and she was that girl called “Onya” in a book I have that talks about “Confessions Of A Rebel Angel” by Timothy Wyllie.

another theory I have, is that she might have some form of amnesia.

that she had forgot the bond she had formed with some really big birds, I think they were called fonders or founders...?

not everyone has to agree with me on that theory, but it could still be possible.

just try to respect my different point of view, and why I don’t really trust all Masculine Angels now....even if I might able to trust a few, but that doesn’t mean I will trust all of them....

to put it in another way, I can say that I don’t trust all “Male Angels”....

I know that there are some guys that can be trusted in this world, and same can be said for some gals, but I just hope some can understand why I don’t feel like I can fully trust Masculine Angels anymore.

even if there can be a few I can trust, who would be the acceptation.

I might not agree with what Cain had did to his brother, but I believe now that both brothers were in the wrong.

and if it is true that Adam did try to stop Abel from the kind of offering and sacrifice he was doing, then that might of one of the times that Adam had tried to do something good and had matured.

because once again, his time being married to Lilith, he was very immature...

but even if Adam did try to reason with Abel, it might be true that Abel didn’t want to listen and he believed he was doing a good thing and pleasing the Heavenly Father, but really he wasn’t....

it also doesn’t help that Cain was going through a very bad depression, while it might be true he could of been jealous, but there is more to it than just that.

I can’t help but want to give Cain a hug now, but if he doesn’t want a hug from me, that I can understand....

but besides the fact I think he needs a hug, I think he might need therapy as well....

and Abel’s Toxic-Positivity and Ego, was perhaps half the reason it was becoming worse, and even if no one has to agree with me on this...

but it is still possible.

what Cain did to Abel was still wrong, but it isn’t just him who is at fault.

plus there is still a possibly, that Abel might of ended up doing far worse in the future, with his offerings.

and that thought had just came to me this year, even if there could be a good chance it might not happen, like the possibility that he could of tried to, but is stop in time by either Cain or his father, Adam....

Abel isn’t fully innocent himself, and it’s high time we admit to that because of the facts, yes he was good in a way, but I believe now he was in the gray.

some people can have their own dark side, either in a small way or a very bad way...and yes, that would mean Abel as well.

both Cain and Abel aren’t truly innocent, they both have did wrong in their life.

and if Abel so much as tried to use any of my fluffy babies in his “offerings”...

I would probably of punched him in his face....or punched him in the groin.

even if I never done that before, and once again, the first guy I had thoughts of wanting to punch in the groin, was Mammon...

and that was because of the price on the coca-cola was raised, but it is back to normal I think.....and well because the price was raised before.

I had the thoughts of wanting to punch Mammon in the groin....

even if I know it’s impossible....and even if I know I wont be able to...

I should make a list on some jerky guys who I wish I could groin punch...

I can think of three guys so far I want to groin punch, and of course the fourth being Mammon...

don’t care if he is the embodiment of greed, his butt his mine....>:(

but not in the same way Moxxie’s Butt is Millie’s....

that was one of the best scenes in that Helluva Boss episode, lol XD  

of course the show is for a mature audience only, as in 18+....

at least I know that it isn’t a man on Tv’s fault that I said the son of a b**** word when I was just a baby.......I think it was close to being a toddler.

yeah, surprisingly I did say that word when I was a baby.

but when that happens, parents shouldn’t scapegoat the show or movie that has a character who say that, because it’s the parents responsibility, not the ones who made a movie or show that is for a mature audience only, and the parents or guardians should be watching the child and making sure they don’t hear or see something they shouldn’t until they are the proper age.

and yeah, I had figured out there were some things I was early exposed to, but lucky not the really heavy stuff....

was because of my family, who of course should of told me “No” you can’t see that until your maybe 15 or 16 years old...

I like the Cool World Movie, I mean I do have the DVD now, and I can watch it once in a while.

but I had figured out that I shouldn’t of watched it back when we had first rented at this old video place.

because I wasn’t the proper age for it, and I can’t remember much during that time, but I guess maybe my eyes were covered in some parts....?

I’m not sure....but I know that it isn’t the movie’s fault.

parents should try to not scapegoat, or say “they are trying to corrupt our children” or keep using the whole “woke” word in a toxic way.

there are some shows, movies, video games and books that will be for everyone, and some that wont be for everyone, and will only be for a mature audience, and it will NOT BE FOR KIDS.

plus you can’t force a child to think what you think...

the choice of if they are nonbinary or not (and by the way it isn’t really a choice that you just decide, but it’s a feeling and well toxic-humans should stop saying it is trying to be forced, when the choice of it isn’t really just you decide, but the feeling that is deep inside your very core of your being...I’m not sure if many will truly get what I’m saying...I don’t want my words to be misinterpreted), or if they end up being heteroromantic in the future, that is something that they would have to figure out themselves, and both sides can’t try to make them choose.

even some parents have more sense than that.

I mean if you have two Dads, but you might be Heteroromantic & Ace, you might need a little encouragement to come out to them about it.

and even if you have two Moms, but you might be Aroace, but also need some encouragement to come out to them, because you had heard about how some people on both sides feel about Aroace....and none of it was very positive.

or if you have a Mom and Dad, and you don’t know how to come out of the closet, like either it be if your bi, pan or queer.

or maybe even ace or aroace or aroaceflux.

not everyone can come out of the different closets we put our self in.

I am in different closets, I’m in the Aroaceflux Closet, The New Religious Belief Closet and the Nonbinary Closet....and that is with my family.

like I said before, I wanted to tell my Mom about me being Asexual Flux.

but I had to change my mind and act like the talk wasn’t about me, and once I got back to my room, I ended up crying in heart break...

I wanted to get the thoughts of my family first, before I came out as Aceflux.

but after getting their thoughts, which seems just like some of the straight and some of the LGBT who seem to think some Aces are all straight or all gay...

(an it being that some percent of those in LGBT who think all Aces are all straight, while there is some percent of straight people who think all Aces are gay, and some people but not all of them from both sides, have a problem with Aces........at least not all of them have a problem with Aces and don’t misinterpret...like assuming their romantic identity for one.)    

I had decided it was best not to come out to my family about being Aceflux.

I can’t even tell them that I had figured out that I had been picking up s*xual and lustful energy, and I think my wearing my gem bracelets has helped with that.

it’s like, for some reason, out of the blue, you start to feel “in heat”...

and I don’t think many have had that kind of problem, no matter what their sexuality or asexuality is.....so far I’m the only one who is both Aroaceflux and had figured out that I am that kind of empath, or was that type of empath...

is it possible to build up a immunity to it once you get the right gems to protect you from it, but might still need to be careful of that type of energy...?

and yes I still have my V-Card, and I still think some people get some things wrong about that kind of empath ability, that you have to “do it” in order for it to happen....

but you can be in a different room and still pick it up, and not know it.

that is until you figure out that half the time you were feeling that way, it was because you were picking up that energy that was flying around the house and was coming from someone....

and one of the other worse things, is that you can get misdiagnosed by doctors, who don’t know the type of seizure you really have.                

I still believe that the doctors who first gave me some medicine for my seizures, might of had misdiagnosed me, even if some might think that isn’t true.

but I believe it could be true, because I believe that my seizures was because of energies, from both people and a place.

I think it could be possible at first, you might not be able to fight back those outside energies, especially when your a baby...

my first seizure happen when I was a baby, I think I was told I was almost a year old during that time.

plus besides the whole place having some bad stuff in it, that could of been the cause of half of my seizures.

if the energy of a person is what had caused them half the time, then there might be a reason....

even if you are in a very big room with a lot of people in it, it is possible that even that can be dangerous if you let your guard down, at least letting it down without knowing about it.

because all of that energy that flies around the room, will end up being absorbed into your body, just like any of the other times that has happen.

and your body will go through a energy overload and it will come out as a seizure.

not all seizures are like that, there will be some that aren’t energy based.

and there can become some seizures that will need those pill medicines.

but some doctors might not understand that not all seizures can be helped with that kind of medicine, and it might only end up making the person’s body become addicted, and if you try to get them off of it, they are likely to go through withdrawal.

but that might could happen even if you are truly meant to take the medicine.

I think I should take a piece of paper, and write down the names of the men that I wish I could groin punch, because of their stereotyping, their crossing the line and even their problem with nonbinary.

okay I have decided, I am going to do that....

even if it might not be possible, one can only dream.

I think because Mammon The Embodiment of Greed, was the first guy I ever had thoughts about punching in the groin, he will be at the top of the list...

of course him being on tat list, will be different than the other three.

but the list might grow from just being the four of them.

also even if one of the tags for this, is “humans suck” I should point out, it is only the Toxic-Humans I find to be that way.....so yeah, only toxic-humans suck.

once again, I know it wouldn’t be possible and I know I might not bring myself to physically do it....but I can still make the list that has the names of the jerks that I wish I could groin punch.

and Mammon will still be at the top of the list....but for different reasons from the other three.

I just couldn’t help but feel really mad when I found that video, I mean I was trying to find some more info about the new Transformers Movie, but then I found that video that of course ended up triggering me and ended up making me peeved off, and not in the same way that guy was, but I was peeved at the guy who seem to be one of those people....

and it might be possible some people might give some who are descendants of Cain, a complex....I don’t know, I mean that could be possible.

I already know about certain info about it....

I already know that I was a accident, I mean I know my parents in this life, had me on purpose, but as for....you know, my soul-parents...I know I was there little accident, man I don’t know why but just now I started to cry a little when thinking and talking about that....but it isn’t like it isn’t true.

and yeah as weird as it might sound, I view myself as Cain and Seth’s little accident as well, and I guess I shouldn’t think like that.

but then there is that whole “well Cain is the son of Samael or the Devil”

and how do you think that makes me freaking feel...?

cause ya if it is true, I already know what it means....

no one has to tell me that, and if it is true, and it isn’t just something that some toxic-priests made up, that would possibly mean that I was Archangel Samael’s little accident as well, his little mistake....

don’t know how many Cain Descendants there are, that are a mix of being both his and Seth’s descendants, but maybe not all of them were little accidents.

maybe the reason why I started to cry a little, when talking about it, might because it is true and I know it.

I know that the video that seem to scapegoat and talk some bull, that had got me really peeved, didn’t make me cry, it only made me really mad.

I guess we all have Daddy Issues, but I know that Samael isn’t the boss of me.

and if my ethereal wings color has anything to go by, it would mean that technically Archangel Zadkiel and Archeia Amethystia/Holy Amethyst, would be the boss of me....I mean, if depending the color of ethereal wings your soul is born with, you will be placed with one of the different angels that are in charge of the different color flames or whatever...

I know I can’t see my ethereal wings, all I know is that when I get really mad, they apparently go into flame mode, and when I’m upset or nervous, they hug around me....which apparently is a habit, and for all I know, might of even happen when I was really little, maybe even when I was a baby, of course I’m not sure if it happen when I was a baby...

I think I am feeling a bit better now, so I’m no longer crying....

but for some reason, I did start to cry when letting all that out, you know, saying that I was Cain and Seth’s little accident.

and I know that it is possible, even if I do point out that while I still can believe in Jesus, but don’t think he should cross certain lines....like if certain info I read that has to do with him turns out to be true, and if it is...

it really doesn’t really help my view on Masculine Angels.

and yeah there is that whole if he did cross those lines, and if the Antichrist tries to pull that whole Antichrist shenanigans.

there is those new thoughts that had started to pop into my head, of wanting to grab those two by their ears....even if I know I might not be allowed to do so, and they are just thoughts....and I would probably have to ask permission to do so....

it’s like, you can think it, but you can’t really do it.

and some of the info I had read before that has to do with those two, and how I realized how the masculine energy has been in a toxic way for some time, and I guess it is getting a bit better, but the toxic energy might still be there, and yeah we got the toxic feminine energy to deal with too, but lucky it isn’t as high as the masculine one...

and I guess how some of those three jerks who I’m still going to put on the list of those I wish I could groin punch, but know I really can’t....

might be injected by toxic-masculine energy...

I wouldn’t be surprised if the one who was talking that bull about the new Transformers Movie, is one of those Toxic-Religious people.

it’s good to be religious, but you got to watch out for toxic-religious types.

there are different types of toxic-religious, and some of them being the type that don’t freaking listen to you when you try to tell them that they are hurting your feelings when they keep throwing the whole “may the lord have mercy on you” or “may god have mercy on you”, just because you believe in a Goddess now too, and yeah I had figured out that the toxic-religious jerk that did that to me, was misusing those words, and even if they thought they were “helping”, they were doing more harm than good and were making me feel really bad.

I can only hope I don’t run into them here or any of the other places I go to.

I had to block that person, because they wouldn’t freaking listen to me when I pointed out how their throwing those words at me, were hurting my feelings and making me feel bad.

if someone has to use those words, don’t misuse it and actually listen when someone tells you that you are making them feel bad and cry.

and I don’t see the problem with me believing in both Divine Parents (Heavenly Father & Earthly Mother), but apparently that toxic-religious person is all about the patriarchy...

I think what happen can count as toxic-religious trauma. 

and some people can have different toxic-religious traumas, and some being from bad experiences that come from past lives as well.

and excuse me, but those jerks who seem to have a problem with nonbinary, they are the ones who can’t indoctrinate me....

and I suppose that it is the stupidity of those three men that had really peeved me off, well that and the fact that one of them had crossed a line they shouldn’t of, that is even more stupid and gross than one of them that had pointed out their problem with nonbinary....

after I post this, I’m going to get a piece of paper, and right down the names of those three jerks, that I wish I could groin punch...

I am still not going to say their names, but I’m still gonna put Mammon at the top of the list, but him being on that list for a different reason than those three.

one guy had bad mouthed nonbinary and was talked bull slag, the other seems to have a very dangerous line with his Anti-LGBT ways, and the last one who seems to have a problem with his child being transgender.

so yeah, those three are going on the list, along with Mammon....

even if I know it isn’t possible for me to really punch them in the groin, but it is like a wish I could but I know I can’t type of list.

like I said, it’s like you wish you could and you feel like you want to, but you know you can’t and might not be able to bring yourself to do it...

but then again, I suppose if I got really REALLY super peeved off, and if it were possible....I would so punch Mammon in the groin.

I think it is possible that not many will end up reading this, I mean I did say it is optional and that some parts can be skip.

and I know some of this was a bit off topic, and there was a reason I had to put down that if some want to skip some parts, they should look for the bold letters.

I don’t want to say the names of those three men that had peeved me off.

but they are still going on the list, which once again I will make after I post this.

I will have it say “Those I Wish I Could Punch In The Groin”

and then place their names on the paper....of course Mammon will be at the top of the list....so I’m going to write his name first before writing the other three’s names...

I don’t want to say which video is called that had ended up well, triggering me.

it’s better this way, because of certain reasons.

maybe before I make that list, I can check out a few art on here, and then go watch some RWBY, I was able to watch all the episodes of Volume 9, and I loved it and I hope it comes on DVD and Blu-Ray soon...

it was thanks to my family I was finally about to get Red Vs Blue Season 15, which lucky wasn’t on bid or only sold from Australia.

it would of been nice if I could of got the ones that weren’t on bid over at Australia, but it just wasn’t possible, but at least we were able to get the Season 15 that was being sold somewhere around the U.S.A...

it felt like I was never going to get that season, or I was going to wait a lot longer to get it...

and I’m not going to repeat all that the guy who peeved me off, had said in his video....the best I can do is to just let a little feelings out, and just hope that he and those like him, will not ruin the new transformers movie or earthspark for me or anyone else....because if they try to, I and others are just gonna be peeved.

anyway even if this does talk about other stuff too, even some stuff that did end up making me cry, but once again I am okay now, I do feel better.

it is kind of stupid how some humans on this planet seem to have a problem with those who are nonbinary, I mean there will be a chance that you wont be reborn as the bio-gender you are now, and you are likely to be reborn as the opposite from what you are currently.

I’m going to hope that I never get reborn as a boy....I just wouldn’t feel comfortable, I don’t mind that my body is bio-female, and I still am not sure if I am Intersex or not, and once again, the info on one of the types of intersex, had made me suspect that I might be that, but I’m not 100% sure...

but I rather not be reborn as a boy, cause I don’t think I would be comfortable in that type of body, cause it’s like it wouldn’t be me, it wouldn’t be my true self.

some can be comfortable either way when being reborn, but some might want to be reborn in the same type of body.

I don’t know if many get what I am trying to say and I don’t want my feelings or thoughts or what I’m trying to say be misunderstood.

but it’s like, while I am a Enbirl, I would still feel more comfortable not having a bio-male body, I guess some might understand while some might not get it.

and I have been thinking about praying that if I do end up being reborn again, like some distant future from now, is that I never get reborn as a boy....and only get reborn as biologically a girl, even if I might end up being intersex, which I don’t mind that....but I’m still confused if I might be Intersex in this life.

I wonder if there might be some Cybertronians who are Intersex as well, I mean we know that Nightshade is Nonbinary, and they are a precious enby that needs to be protected.

it might make sense if there could be some Cybertronians that are Intersex, like there could be some stuff in a Mech and Femme that are unique to them.

I’m not sure if there will be Cybertronians who are Intersex in the canon, but there could be in the fanon, but as for the canon, I’m not sure if that would happen or not.

but they ended up having their first canon nonbinary cybertronian, so maybe anything is possible, even the whole possible Ruby Rose x Penny Polendina.

which once again, I believe the other reason Ruby was really upset, might have to do with how she is not able to form a romantic relationship with Penny, who I believe she might of had developed feelings for.

and I started to view the Ruby x Penny ship, as a Nonbinary Ship, I mean, in fan headcanon, Penny could be a Enbirl, and maybe Ruby could be a Enbirl as well.

but it could just be Penny who is a Enbirl, and even if Ruby was a Nonbinary-Girl, she might of not realized it yet.

the Curious Cat, would be the Nonbinary that only goes by They/Them.

while Penny, so far as we know, does go by She/Her pronouns, but that doesn’t make her any less Nonbinary (in my fan headcanon, I see her as a Nonbinary-Girl now...), as there are different types of Nonbinary.

some are Enby, Enboy and Enbirl....

and only some will only use They/Them, while others can use both They/Them and even He/Him or She/Her.

I’m not sure if Enby. Enboy and Enbirl will be even mention in Earthspark.

I wonder if that one guy who really peeved me off with their video, even knows about the different types of nonbinary, well it might be possible he doesn’t.

same goes for others who don’t know about that fact, but still have a problem with nonbinary.

I think I will wait until later to watch RWBY, I think I want to watch Earthspark first.

but before that, I’m going to check out some art on here first, and I will watch Earthspark, and maybe sign back on later and talk about theories about Sonic Prime, I do have a theory about it that I am writing that has to do with Eggman, but I will wait until later either today or maybe tomorrow to post it.

I also hope some understand why I became peeved at some men and one of them had crossed a more dangerous line than the other two.

but just because one of them had crossed a even bigger line than the one who seems to have a problem with their child being transgender and the other having a problem with nonbinary, doesn’t mean they aren’t still going to end up on that “those I wish to punch in the groin” list....

cause all three of them are still going on that list, even if I know it might not be possible to really do that to them, but a person can dream...

anyway it’s fine that not many read this, and I can only hope some understand some of the feelings and thoughts I wrote in this, even if it did get off topic and also talked about other stuff more than the jerk that talked bull slag in that video....which once again I’m not going to say what the name of the video is or the guy either.....cause once again, it’s better that way...

also it’s okay if some ignore the parts that has to do with what had made me cry when writing this post, it might be best to not think or talk about it right now.

anyway besides that guy who has a problem with nonbinary, I’m probably not the only one he ended up peeving off.

I can try not to think about what happen, and maybe I can take my mind off of it. but I am still going to write those three guys (as well as Mammon’s) names on a list....

and I can keep the list in a safe place, and whenever there is another toxic-person who ends up crossing a line that they shouldn’t, I can add them to the list.......then again, come to think of it, I can think of two more men who should be added to that list, but I will think that over....

I’m just going to relax, and check out a few more fan art on here, and then go watch Earthspark and then later RWBY...                                  

[urfaveisaqueerdo]

You already got an anon like this but i think its worth it to have many people spreading positivity... I dont really fully understand contradictory labels yet because ive only recently realized i shouldnt be caring about other peoples identities, BUT i respect you and what youre doing because i am also shunned by my own community (fictoromantic xenogender user </3). So keep it up and have fun! hearts. Ive personally been wondering if maybe im gay and lesbian because i feel happy with both labels but im just not sure and i think i might lose my friends for it. Sawry ill stop rambling in ur inbox now but i do like your blog

when it comes 2 ur own identity & labels it will never matter what ur friends think !! let urself be free & happy & i guarantee there will always be ppl out there who will still love u :3 mwah

[sweetlovingfictionals]

I really look at a lot of my Fictional Others, I really see a lot of interesting storylines that I write for them. Some problematic. Some more tame. Some more on the adventurous side. I just… when I look at a lot of my F/O’s, I see healing and I see them cheering me on a lot. Even in my day to day life that I… find peace in that at least they have me covered and at least they’ll care for me. They won’t abuse me or hurt me or use me like people have done in the past. They show me that I don’t need my body to be wanted. Sure, I am still hyper sexual, but, that just stems from past childhood things.

When I think of my F/O’s, I think of confidence. I think of cockiness to be more alive and myself. Like Rocket Raccoon for example. Or even General grevious. They have no fear to be themselves when I wish I could be like them. To be fearless. To stand up for myself. But due to my living situation, I don’t really believe I am able to be myself, so, I really am thankful that this community exists. That fictoromantic / Fictosexual / fictophilia exists. Because… I truthfully don’t think I CAN really be attracted to human beings. Or at the least be attracted to ‘normal’ people. Guess my standards are too high?

Maybe I’m just looking too much into it. I want to be able to have sex with real people, but, my fantasies sometimes can be a lot. Especially if it comes to Fursuiting with sex or cosplaying with sex. Hhhhhh. Again, I just… I can’t find that human relations attractive. I just am not attracted to real people. Maybe one day when the right person comes to me. Though I really do doubt that day will come. I am WAY too clingy, too romantically and emotionally needy and I am not afraid to admit that. Those are my flaws. That’s what happens when you have years of shit tied to your life and hope people will accept you sexually or at the very least tolerate you.

[ieatsoupwithcookies]

Wait... It seems like I might be aroace. Or to be exact I guess I am fictosexual. Maybe there's also something called fictoromantic, but I am not sure so I won't call myself that. Like, uh, aegosexual and fictosexual. But in general I am aroace. I don't think I ever felt romantic attraction to anyone in real life. I feel confused. Because I am totally fine with sex, I must say I really like watching or reading that type of content. But not when real people. I can watch hentai and read smut, but when it comes to real people having sex... It just feels different, kinda wrong ig? It's really hard for me to explain my feelings on that topic. I can say that some people are hot or cute, and I will mean it. But when I try to imagine myself having sex with them, or being in relationship with them... It just feels weird and wrong. But it's not like that if we are talking about fictional characters. So, uh, yeah. I just really needed to write my feelings somewhere lol. Sorry if you had to read this.