#dpdr culture is

[disassociation-culture-is]

dpdr culture is WHO IS THAT- oh it’s a mirror… OH ITS A MIRROR?!??!!!

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[schizoid-culture-is]

Questioning schizoid culture is I have no sense of self but I know exactly who I am, I recognize myself in the mirror but I don't know who that person is, I feel the world around me something tangible and physical but I'm not touching anything, I'm alive but not real, I'm real but not alive, I'm a living contradiction and I don't know what to do

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[botanics-beats]

Sharing another song today!

We’re gonna share a radiohead song that reminds us a lot of experiencing dissociation in general.

Many of the lyrics repeat “I’m not here,” and he brings up “being gone” fairly frequently. Really great song!

[thegirlwholivesin-delusion]

Disassociation culture is " I am a stranger I know everything about "

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd and dpdr culture is not understanding when you have actually hurt people because you don't see them as real people and you also don't see them as on your level so you don't even make an effort to see them as real

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[selfdxculture]

Self-dxed DPDR culture is "Is this real?"

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[syscultureis]

tw dpdr? sort of

fictive culture is not feeling like I have the right to be real. just because I'm a fictive. which is bullshit bc of course I do. but idk I just feel like that sometimes

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[ndcultureis]

Suspected ocd culture is not going to sleep on purpose so I can be tired and hate myself the next day. So I have proof I’m mentally ill, and neurodivergent. So I know I’m struggling. And otherwise I lose. Idk who to but I lose. Before 12am? I lose. After 2am I win. Before 10 I’ve really lost.

the worst part is I hate that I do it, and that no one knows. It’s like I have an eating disorder but with sleep.

(I also have adhd, autism, depression, anxiety,m and maybe dpdr so that could also be causing it???)

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Intro post!!

Hiya! We’re the Salted Caves System! Pleasure to meet you ^^ we might not post here much since this isn’t our main blog but yeah!

Info under the cut for connivence :3

GENERAL INFO!

We’re an OSDD-1b system, and while we don’t experience blackout amnesia, don’t expect us to completely remember everything

We’re diagnosed with Autism, OCD, and GAD. While we don’t have a diagnosis for OSDD-1b, we have done MOUNTAINS of research and continue to question daily.

We are questioning NPD and DPDR.

We’re collectively transmasculine and use he/they pronouns

We’re also very fictive-heavy!

Along the lines of that, please do not treat our fictives as their source unless otherwise specified ^^

We are anti-endo.

We will usually put in sign offs at the end of our posts :]

BOUNDARIES

DNI

Basic DNI criteria

NSFW accounts

Endos/Pro-endos

Trans-ID/Radqueer

TERFs

No system accountability

People who throw around the term “anti-recovery”

Use the terms “sysmed” or “traumascum”

Fakeclaimers (people that post on systemscringe and FDC, looking at you. get off this blog.)

Anti-Xenogenders

Pro-Israel

OTHER BOUNDARIES

Neutral-endo traumagenics can interact as long as they’re respectful and understand that this is an anti-endo blog!

Same with people who have a complex/other/no opinion on syscourse! As long as you don’t actively support endos or are one you can interact, just respect our beliefs :]

Singlets, neurotypicals, and cis-hets can interact as long as they’re respectful ^^

We’d prefer if you didn’t bring syscourse into this blog, but we won’t like yell at you for it

You can send asks freely but pls don’t DM us (unless you’re one of our mutuals!!! mutuals ftw <33) ^^

While we do have SP, PK and Octocon, please do not ask for it! We only give those out to people we trust :]

Along those lines, please do not ask abt our headcount ^^ while we wouldn’t consider ourselves a large system, we’re still insecure abt how many alters we have!

Our syscourse code: 👎/💚/📗/🔻/🟠/🌑/🟦/🌳/🌦️/🥧/🐲/🐝/💭

SIDEBLOGS

@the-mushroomgarden

Ran by Riends and Theo, we do stimboards, userboxes, and templates for alters and systems!

@themoon-andstars

Ran by Luna. Vent about anything system related, I’ll always be here for you dear ❤️

@holder-culture-is

Ran by C (staying anonymous!). A culture blog specifically for alters that hold stuff! Emotions, memories, symptoms, etc etc!

@corals-gender-ocean

Ran by Coral! I do xenogender coining, requests are open! <33

@ciphers-chaos-corner

Individual alter blog for Cipher, a Gravity Falls introject :]

FREQ. FRONTERS

Dylan (He/They)

Brainmade

Transmasculine, pansexual, polyamorous

Host

Sign off: -🚪 or -Dylan

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Adam (He/It)

Fictive (The Mandela Catalogue)

Male, gay

Co-host/caretaker/protector

Sign off: -🔦 or -Adam

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Dyn (She/They)

Brainmade

Demigirl, asexual panromantic

Co-host/Trauma holder

Sign off: -🏅 or -Dyn

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Natsuki (She/Her)

Fictive (Doki Doki Literature Club)

Female, questioning

Gatekeeper/Hygienist

Sign off: -🍰 or -Natsuki

[ghxst-system]

Welcome - We're the Forest Collective

This post contains our Do Not Follow , Before You Follow and some extra info about us bellow the cut

Collective Terms + Identities:

Forest , Xi/They/Wolf/Howl , Transmasculine

Therian + Otherkin (Primarily Wolfkin + Wolf theriotype , but we also identify with ragdoll cats, bunnies, and several others)

Punk , Cripplepunk / Cpunk

Collectively we are situational mute (do NOT call us selective mute) and predominantly semiverbal

(we have several masked verbal alters who communicate for us verbally when necessary, but we are considered semiverbal)

We interchangeably use parts , headmates and alter language and mainly use We/Us when talking about us.

We are intersex.

Get blocked (DNI):

Antisemitic, homophobic / transphobic, TERFs/SWERFs, racist, ableist, fatphobic, zionists etc

Non-traumagen "systems" + supporters/neutrals (endo, willo, etc) OR culturally appropriate closed practices

Pro/neu contact paras, radqueers and transIDs fuck off

If you reduce introjects to their source / blacklist certain sourced introjects (wtf is wrong with you)

If you don't know how to actually tag and TW things you're getting blocked

If you don't follow your own DNI

Anti contradictory labels - you are literally so intersexist and transphobic.

If you cannot tell the difference between real values and FICTION

Before You Follow:

If you stigmatise cluster B PDs by promoting the myth of "narcissist abuse"

Perisex but use Intergender or think you can transition to be intersex

Do not use complexity labels on us

We are physically disabled and use mobility aids

We often lose the ability to speak or communicate coherently as well as the ability to advocate for ourselves

We will block you if you actively post / reblog about our triggers

We are bodily intersex and will not tolerate intersexism of any kind.

Posts / reblogs tagged with: "dir post 🧂" or "dir reblog 🧂" are directed at our syspartner

Anons and asks will be tagged with:

"🌳 forest.chats"

Random rambles unrelated to our usual posts will be tagged with:

"🌳forest rambles.exe"

We have survived RAMCOA , Programming and TBMC and post about it (tagged with appropriate warnings)

Our Disorders:

AuDHD , Dyslexia , Speech disorders (stutter, situational mute, semiverbal), Tourettes

Agoraphobia, C-PTSD, Polyfrag DID

Cluster B PDs: BPD, HPD, NPD

Cluster C PD: DPD

OCD, DPDR, Pica, ARFID, Anxiety + Depression

We are visually impaired with VSS (currently looking for more Dx that may explain our vision)

POTS, FND, Hypermobile EDS, Fibro

Our Collective Pronouns page:

(this also contains links to other headmates pronouns pages)

[disassociation-culture-is]

dpdr + suspected ocd culture is not trusting headphones and needing to always ask people if they can hear what you’re listening to, not because what you’re doing is bad but otherwise you think it’s playing directly out of your device and feel awkward unless someone can tell you it’s fine

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[schizoid-culture-is]

schizoid and dpdr culture is being terrified of dying while driving because you constantly derealize but being too simultaneously apathetic towards the thought to do anything about it -🌀

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[three-eyed-elk]

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C-PTSD

HEDS I have eight pets I use mobility aids Likely (but undiagnosed) BPD

I am aware BPD is a very touchy thing to self diagnose. Please be aware this is in conjunction with my psychologists and psychiatrists thoughts, i do fit criteria, and have made this conclusion over the course of 5 years

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‘Reality checking’ me, unless you’re a very close friend i will be hostile to this.

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* I am a Sydney Sargent 'kin', I do not know how to describe it nor do I have the words for it entirely. At least 3 hours a day I feel like Sydney, as if I am him, and the rest of the time i just heavily relate to him. It's very shifty and depends on how i am feeling. I think this could maybe be a fictionflicker or a c-link thing. Sometimes I relate to his memories and all of that as if i am him. For this reason, firm Sydney haters please DNI, it makes me feel gross.

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[acorpsecalledcorva]

Ok last night's research was wild and I would genuinely appreciate input and other thoughts on these ideas, especially if you've come across these before as I don't think I've seen them discussed. I was actually just looking into the idea of DID being a disorder or multiple realities as highlighted by Kluft but then I ended up in a rabbit hole.

Functional Dissociation of the Self: The Psychological and Sociological Self

So first of all I was reading this paper

Which is really really good, it's massive, absolutely huge, but incredibly thorough and explores how different kinds of trauma are predictive of different disorders and presentations across PTSD, DPDR, Dissociative depression, and complex Dissociative disorders.

But quite early on it mentions the work of Sar and Ozturk and this concept of the Psychological and Sociological Self, so what's that?

(this is just an abstract but it also appears in Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders DSM V and Beyond so you might be able to read it in a Google books preview)

This paper kind of proposes a new idea, my initial thoughts are that the authors aren't exactly exploring new ground so much as redrawing the map, however, it does seem to be that their perspective has merit in application. The idea is that everyone has these two selves, the psychological self is that deeper true self, it's your creativity and your reason, all that behind the scenes good stuff that makes up you. The sociological self is much more influenced by culture, it's behaviour and social conditioning and belief, the things we project outwardly about ourselves.

If this sounds familiar it's because it absolutely is, it's all very Jungian and Freudian and the authors admit to this. Where they differ though is the amount of agency given to the selves. Neither is a passive observer but instead a duality of the self that works in parallel as a team. These guys are also not afraid to get political in their writing and highlight how a culture that is at odds with the psychological self can give rise to extremist behaviours through overelaboration of the sociological self. There's a great bit in one of their papers about the kind of person who swings politically from far right to far left, it's wild.

When it comes to trauma, they propose that dissociation arises when the Sociological Self attempts to bury the psychological self to protect it. For instance, in the example of betrayal trauma from a caregiver, the psychological self would be the part of you that is hardwired to remain attached to said caregiver, while the sociological self recognises the danger. The SS pushes the PS down to protect it from the external reality, however, the authors suggest that the SS is unequipped to deal with this effectively without the PS's help.

Interestingly, they also suggest that the SS attempts to deal with trauma by distorting the reality of it. It repeats a version of the trauma to try and solve, unsuccessfully, and everytime it repeats it changes so that the trauma becomes retraumatising. This is important because this is where the sociocognitive aspect comes in, because when we are unable to rely on the internal solutions of the PS we turn our attention outward. Fantasy proneness, then, would result in unreliable narration of traumatic events based on attempts by the SS to reconcile trauma from external sources. Pseudomemories. The trauma is real, and a hard copy is stored in the psychological self, but when the SS acts as a barrier to the PS then that core trauma is inaccessible. That's why it's important to focus on the feelings behind the trauma as those remain true.

In this model, alter identity formation arises from the discrete packaging of trauma that is set aside, and an attempt by the psychological self to connect with the external world and creates a new sociological self. This is very relevant to me as it pertains to how I experience alters, that there's a pool of fragments (discrete trauma packages) and, when required, an alter emerges from this pool and passes through my social conditioning to create the identity aspect of the alters sense of self. The biographical data of the alter is therefore formed from my sociological self's interpretation of external sources (be they archetypal or direct copies of media).

This disconnect of the PS and SS leads to an underdevelopment of the psychological self and an over development of the sociological self. This is what, in the authors opinion, leads to the paradoxical phenomena of a lack of neuroplasticity (no new solutions for trauma are found) and high adaptability (new alter identities in traumatic or stressful situations) found in CDD patients. It also means that the psychological self remains a child with a strong drive towards protection and nurturing, but therefore, retains it's sensitivity towards betrayal and therefore need for protection.

Now, this is the extra wild bit, because the authors propose that reconnection and engagement with the psychological self should be the primary goal of psychotherapy and if successful then the PS can rapidly develop and resolve trauma.

In this paper

The authors highlight the main barrier to access of the psychological self, the trauma self. The TS is an aspect of the over developed sociological self. It contains a distorted sense of reality, one of hopelessness and helplessness, and projects this reality internally. Think of it like a recursive version of Plato's allegory of the cave. The trauma self sits inside the cave, miserable, but afraid of the shadows on the wall and therefore unable to leave. Those shadows are then projected inwards to internal parts onto their own cave wall. This creates a bidirectional phobia of the internal and external world. Internal protector parts are hyper vigilant against a distorted view of the external world, and the host alter becomes phobic of the internal parts which they view as irrational, frightening, and dangerous (hello, this is me).

Now, this is the bit that seems insane to me and what I would love others opinion on, because the authors seem to suggest that persecutory parts hold the resolution skills for processing trauma, and if the host would only stop being prejudiced against them (like, actually, not like liberal white women who support BLM but lock their car doors when they see someone looking a little too urban) and let the persecutors do what they were originally designed for then recovery is incredibly swift and effective. One case study took 6 sessions. They also claim that patients have had no relapses up to 7 years after treatment.

So, this to me seems way to good to be true (or maybe that's my treatment resistant trauma self talking 😅). There must surely be counter arguments to this model on limitations or impracticalities. The first paper I linked seems quite thoroughly in support of this model, but I'm pretty sure that it's the first time I've come across it. Does anyone else know more about this? Has it been done to death and thoroughly debunked? Are there discussions by other big names in the field? Help a sister out

[adhbabey]

I think it should be stated that crazy conspiracy theories, while dangerous in their own right, and is probably littered with dog whistles, that many of the people spouting out these conspiracy theories are likely experiencing delusions or hallucinations, and that cannot be stated enough.

So I highly recommend people notice the signs of whether or not someone is experiencing a delusion or break in reality, instead of immediately trying to go off on someone in this mindset.

Here are some common red flags that I notice, that sounds suspiciously like a delusion:

Fearing the government or think the government is secretly out to get them. While our governments can do horrible things to us, all in the name of national security, I see this as a red flag because its often random people in question. It's usually not someone who has done anything to warrant such fear. Just some guy in his basement or a random person online. You don't know these people, but I doubt a secret spy would be this paranoid or neurotic about something like this. It's a big red flag if they mention that the government is secretly out to get them.

That this world is a simulation or somehow fake. If this doesn't trigger you and you experience DPDR, you are a strong one. Unreality is a common trigger for many delusions. The idea that we're in a simulation or it's just like the matrix is just false information, and something spoke about for fun, like science fiction. But if someone is seriously telling you that we're all in a simulation, I'd see that as a red flag of a delusion. It's triggering, even for me.

The idea that pigeons aren't real and are drones of some kind, or that the government is planning to microchip us through vaccines or something. The idea that you're being spied on through secret cameras or that it's like you're in the truman show, or you're going to be experimented on because vaccines give you microchips.. These are all signs of paranoid delusions, and one of them is called Capgras syndrome. It is the delusion that your loved ones are all somehow replaced by imposters and it's pretty damn severe. I would take the idea that everyone is somehow spying on you, a pretty good sign that it's a delusion.

And there's so much more, but I recommend people just researching into other symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia, and be aware of what that looks like. It's important to be educated on this stuff.

And please, don't go out of your way to reality check them or to argue with them, that can often exacerbate or worsen the symptoms, sending them spiraling down into an even deeper delusional headspace. I know the idea that I'm somehow lying or delusional tends to send me into a paranoid headspace, so don't do it. Don't argue with these people, just stay away from them.

And yes, it's common that a lot these things are jokes or memes or just a part of popular science fiction culture, but be aware regardless. You don't know if someone's actually being serious or not. And whatever you do, don't call a stranger you don't know, "delusional", these are just red flags and signs, not automatic reasons that someone is experiencing a break in reality. You don't know them, so just be cautious.

And yeah, a lot of conspiracy theories are anti-semitic, or racist, or ableist, or whatever. But that doesn't cancel out the fact that many of the people in question are also likely mentally ill. It doesn't erase the fact that normal every day people are also mentally ill. Negative or problematic behavior doesn't erase the fact that someone can experience delusions. I'm not excusing that behavior, but I am saying to be more cautious and critical of the fact that half of this stuff sounds like a mental illness.

TLDR; It is important to be aware that several common conspiracy theory buzzwords are red flags of paranoid delusions, and this post lists out some of those red flags in details. Don't reality check anyone, or you could make it worse, just be cautious and disengage.