#dont mind me im just. venting

[babyloniastreasure]

oh boy im stressed. gonna vent if you dont mind

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im stressed about money again

everything seems to be going wrong financially at the worst possible time, all at once

our rent was raised by two hundred bucks. we’re barely scraping by as it is, and this drained what little we had in the bank. there’s no money for food or gas for two weeks. we’ll be lucky to be able to afford next month. my graphics card is dying and i get blue screen errors DAILY. when it does kick the bucket, I wont be able to draw so theres no chance of even earning anything to get a new one, which is like another $200+ at best. I have a doctor’s appointment next week that costs $160 out of pocket, which again we don’t have gas money to get to, but if I don’t get to it I can’t get my hormones. not to mention i’m losing my EBT benefits until mid september because of an error in paperwork, so we dont even have that to fall back on.

im. ugh. ugh dude. its like $600. between the replacement part and gas and bills and medication and food for the family for two weeks. i don’t even have SIX dollars to spare, let alone six hundred!!!

fuck man. im so tired of this

[sketchy-tour]

A wilting flower is not always beyond healing. It'll just take time.

[oceanwithouthermoon]

maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying

[feralbeeast]

I wish I was attractive enough to be obsessed over

[bluegekk0]

I suppose at the end of the day all I really hope for is that what I do makes an impact on someone's life, big or small. That people think of my art after they see it, maybe feel inspired or touched. That they notice the details I put in it and perhaps piece together the intent of why they're there. That they feel encouraged to draw themselves, to improve and in turn to inspire others. I try to draw for myself, but there are days where I feel like I'm not worth the effort. It would be comforting to know that my work is more than just a self-indulgent thing that looks nice

[ronkeyroo]

Want to perish but hanging on 👍

[thelittlefirepup]

💜💜💜💖💖🎶

I want to make otherkin/therian (or alterhuman/nonhuman, whatever term y'all prefer) friends, but interacting with people is so scary and half the time I barely have the motivation to function, let alone socialize.

So...uh.........

Be my friend? Please? 🥹

(No pressure of course)

(Also, I've realized that I forgot to mention that I'm 19 since it was never relevant to this blog. So, keep that in mind before dming. <3)

[puppyeared]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

[jolivira]

he didn't want to be a half-blood..

[spunkykirby]

ugh look i love childe too but please for the love of god stop clogging the neuvili tag-

[narwhalandchill]

(certain genshin ships w ajax brief negativity lmao like this is gonna b real controversial im sorry. not an attack at anyone just my opinion here be gentle)

obviously disclaimer that if u like the pairings in question im not like canceling or attacking you personally or saying ur wrong for liking it or for not considering the more uhh iffy angle im abt to bring up in terms of how i personally always felt abt these ships, i have mutuals who rb stuff for these sometimes and its just a tag i have blocked its life it happens, im more so just overall commenting on the existence of the pairings to begin w, its not worth the drama its my opinionnn please keep that in mind but yeah

anyway ugh now w like capitano model preload stuff and some of the model comparisons being made (hes slightly bigger than the usual tall male apparently n childes model was used for the comparison) and the shippy comments being made abt it im gonna be honest chief. i do not. like. a single ajax x harbinger pairing like im sorry just how exactly is the age gap (and seniority. and experience. and power imbalance) not processing with ppl when it comes to these at all ??? 😭😭 hes the youngest appointed harbinger canonically and w perueres story we now know that was like. Literally 16 at most for him. and even if that wasnt the case and before it was confirmed. hes still been around the harbingers since he was a teenager bc of being pulcinellas protege idc if its like this convoluted argument of well he wouldnt really interact w them on an interpersonal relationship level before hes a bit older its just still so weird to me i just dont understand how any of these pairings became a thing 💀 like you think not being around him that frequently would stop the usual shipping suspects ppl favor with childe from seeing him as a literal kid either way???

arles literally the one exception here since theyre actually around the same age but those 2 have the ship chemistry of two noble gases JSKSKSLDOSOSKFL (= literally no reaction) . arle is a whole dyke that much is obvious.

like obviously its not like much can be done since pairings like scara are way too popular to be somehow halted on their tracks and the cap stuff will prolly have a resurgence as well now that hes getting a more tangible characterization in natlan but ughhhh. it also sucks bc i think ajax 100% has a crush on cap and its such a peak concept (the guy Absolutely played a part in childes bisexual awakening) but the idea of it being reciprocated on any level whatsoever just feels nasty to me im sorry 😭 my cap would Never its literally on the level of pairing him w skirk to me

also scara always felt strange to me solely based on the fact that he genuinely dislikes ajax lmao like. it feels ooc on principle afshsjsksidk but whens that ever stopped anyone i suppose. it lowkey feels like ppl just wanted a m/m harbinger pairing at any cost 💀 and i suppose scara being an immortal puppet wasnt like known early on so i suppose the ship becoming a thing in like 1.1 is fair enough? but still my current feelings wrt ajax age gap w the harbingers do stand

[tangledinink]

this is really stupid but like.

... is there anyone else in this fandom whose twin has died? am i the only one?

[solei-eclipse]

okay. hello guys. my bad for not responding to stuff or being as active recently, had a lot of work to be done and other stuff to focus on that took a lot of my time. I wanted to make more art, but I unfortunately had to put that energy into other things (which got to the point where I could not put them off any longer and had to stay working on it). I know I missed a lot of stuff and I'm sorry for it

[cancerian-woman]

you can really pinpoint where the plot stopped trying for BE to make Care the star and fan favorite. She really goes through the plot so easily and very blatant insertable in ways BE does not.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

yk if i didn't grow up in a constant state of emotional repression, id probably be a disaster right now

[diona-98]

I'm having some thoughts on making my own oc like not fandom related, yk?