#this is my diary

[babypowderdreams]

I think think that building a solid friendship with someone that slowly moves into like a romantic relationship is way way wayyyy more fulfilling than just instantly jumping into a relationship. The romantic part is literally the best on top of taking care of them. Very into the romantic aspects of a relationship.

Treat them with respect also respect their boundaries. Let them know that they don't have to do something they don't feel comfortable with, its a must.

For real adore someone that I trust and can hold hands with, cuddle, watch movies with, take on cute dates, and make sure she is feeling taken care of and knows she is in good hands.

(Been thinking about this for a long time now)

[mushed-kid]

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[calkale]

i love liveblogging my life for you guys

[sapphiclvrgrl]

jfc the way she would tell me to go to the gym and do something about it when i said i hated my appearance 😍😍😍😍

[ishouldbeinthewoods]

Me<3this

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[rat-clown420]

tumblrinas is this dress cute??? with a belt???? it was $3 from the goodwill what do we think

[neverchecking]

Guys. I hate my moots. pass it on. #CancelBailey

[avarkriss]

my father just sent me a photo, of him and i in a pumpkin patch. i'm a little over one and a half, and my hands are blur spots because i was so excited. i'm wearing the classic 90's puffer coat, because thirty years ago it still got cold in the fall.

and he sent me this because i sent him so many photos today, of his grandchild licking their first apple, straight off the tree in the orchard. and they'll get to see my photos someday, i hope, if i am so blessed.

maybe they'll cry like i am, because time is a thief and memories fade, and i know someday my mind may go and all i'll have are pictures. and i'll cling to them forever and the memories attached, the smell of fresh apples and hot cider donuts. not a cloud in the sky. the perfect weight of all our love held safe in our arms. and the sound of fully belly laughs dancing on the wind

[keyh0use]

i'm sick and so miserable lmao i've never known pain like this, it's so different since getting hurt. there's like this constant aching that is suddenly so sharp when i laugh or cough. idk I feel like I'm getting punished for not dying

[d3ad4ndg0ne]

[starplatinumnun]

my therapist asking me why i want to be a theologist if i'm so scared of it (religion) as if fear and obsession are not two sides of the same coin

[touchlikethesun]

since james and i were able to meet up today (!!!!!!!) that means there’s only one person in this country left that i wanted to see that i couldn’t, but i think all of the people i met up with by chance or by surprise more than makes up for one scheduling conflict omg i’m so so so happy with this week i have missed everyone so much, and yk what it does honestly seem like i might have been missed just a little bit too… okay this is my last post about being in the uk i’ll be back to (probably being miserable in) the us tomorrow lol

[nat-seal-well]

Sorry for sharing every single thought with all of you 😔

[theroundbartable]

After watching heartstopper season 2, I got reminder of how much society values romantic love above all other forms and how freeing it can be to set your own values up for yourself.

I am aro/ace and I have a girlfriend who is also on the spectrum. It's a queer platonic relationship and it's based on the idea that she knows exactly how she wants her life to go, but she couldn't do it alone. And I am the kind of person who doesn't want to be alone all the time and I like helping people. That's the dynamic. It helps that we have similar interests and share our fanfiction obsession.

The thing is, her original "emergency plan" was her best friend who is bisexual and very much interested in a romantic relationship, which is why she is constantly searching.

I talked about her little bouts of jealousy with another friend and that one told me to put my relationship over this friend. She asked me, when we realized our feelings were "different". And it kind of made me uncomfortable, because I don't think she understands what this relationship is.

It's a functional relationship. Based on mutual interests and sharing a future and having the same non-explicit expectations. Our feelings aren't "different" from before or from that of us with other friends. It's simply mutually benefitial. And I, as an ace person KNOW what it feels like to be left behind and told my feelings aren't enough. In the entire social world, my feelings aren't "enough" while they overwhelm me daily. I love all my friends and family and I work hard on every relationship and to be told that I should feel different about one person, make them special in some way, really hurts. They are special to me. Why do I need "more"?

My gf 's best friend is my brothers ex. And she always respected my wish to not be involved when they were together. She always remained my friend and never made it awkward, even when she was put in the spotlight for this by others. I value what we have. And I have no interest in standing between her and my gf. And if she decides that hey, she doesn't want a relationship after all, she wants to be with her best friend, then I will step aside without question, like she stepped aside for me. I love them both and I don't want to risk losing either of them. I'm not afraid of being alone anymore, because they made me feel loved. I cannot put a relationship over a friendship and I feel like people don't really get that. They are best friends. They've known each other since preschool.

My feelings matter. Breaking them apart would scar me for life. Breaking up with my gf wouldn't hurt either of us.

[rat-clown420]

boy in the sun