#im not in a very good place rip
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saw a post in the corporate clash tag that caused me to black out and make this
#toontown#corporate clash#ttcc#misty monsoon#rainmaker#misty is not even remotely closed to being a character like vriska but the discourse surrounding her is exactly the same n its crazy#misty is a rly fun character that is done dirty by the uninteresting format of toontasks inherented from toontown online#she has so much potential tbh but we just don't have enough content of her in game to rly matter#as far it is rn she's just a very awkwardly placed plot point cuz you dont rly know how to actually feel about her#barnacle bessie tried to rip her to shreds and its you're almost made to feel bad for misty cuz of it#but like she's still actively involved in a mega corporation trying to take over and pollute bessie's home#how can u blame her for that reaction#basically all im sayin is that misty could be so good but rn she's confined to a singular kinda awkward fight at the end of BB kudos#so maybe in the future she'll be a rly good part of the plotline of clash who knows#idk why i felt the need to rant in the tags sorry my autism
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he didn't want to be a half-blood..
#dont mind me just venting some feelings into art#im not in a very good place rip#percy jackson#pjo#vent art#this isnt supposed to be walker percy btw#ive always imagined him with curly hair#hes latino in my head#also if you have angsty pjo/hoo fic recs feel free to send those to me
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i’m so cool and strong!!!!!!
#i painted a wall today by myself!!!!! i was feeling very high spoons and capable partly bc i rly wanted it done#ive never done any house painting before!!!!!! all told it took 12 hours#including 2 hours for masking the edges#i learned halfway through that having a cutting brush makes. everything so much. easier. so i know that now#it’s for our living room in the place we are moving into asap#and it looks. so good!!!! got dark teal feature wall. mainly blue other walls. then a white one (as of today)#just makes things feel so much brighter and more open!!!!#we are probably going to have to rip up the carpet which will be fun but. very difficult#anyway im going to be in so much pain tomorrow. 12 hours was too long for me to work (has ehlers danlos)#but i Did It and now the task is done and i feel. accomplished#not magnus content
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how was playing hsr? was there anything that you liked in the game and the story?
ITS BEEN AMAZING AS EXPECTED!!!!!!!!! i actually havent played genshin in a while since starting it, i have no motivation to do the filler event while a perfectly good star rail is sitting there waiting to be played :')
but for mechanics, i love they have auto battle so you dont have to nessecarily sit there and invest in every little battle you gotta do....and i love that the resin (resin??) system is a lot more forgiving with a higher cap, lower cost, and allow for overflow...thats nice...i also love that the mc and starter units are very useful. im so emotionally attatched to the star rail crew so im glad they never have to leave my team !!!!
storywise im LOVING IT SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i started playing it at the beginning of spring break 2 weeks ago and im almost all caught up!!! i went through belabog and penacony and now im just doing those leftover intermission main quests which im only now realizing i shouldve done before going to penacony LMAO
and of course.....danmarch....im so soft for them......and also i love sampo i cant wait to see what they do with him
#besides the star rail crew and sampo im not too attatched to anyone else#im very much a (what would happen in canon) type of player so the only units i REALLY want are himeko welt and imbibitor lunae#(and sampo)#everyone else i can go without#so this game is probably gonna be a lot better for my wallet#overall it just like it better than genshin minus the open world part#i like the story and characters...i like that you can play as bad guys while theyre still bad guys???? like blade and kafka???#cuz in genshin you always gotta redeem them somehow first before theyre playable#not here hueheuhe#also i love that they actually kill off playable characters#(spoilers from here on out)#i know were supposed to be all sad for fireflys death but honestly.......i didnt care about her too much LMAO#i was actually a little annoyed for the secret base part because her base was SO FUCKING DEEP IN ENEMY TERRITORY#i was like (damn bitch how far away is this shit??!)#that by the time we got to the emotional part i was just mad#i never liked characters where the game tries to like....force you to care about them#and its implied you have some super close relationship ESPECIALLY when you havent known them long#now if march died that would be a whole different story#but firefly??? i mean rip but i didnt really know her#im loving the penacony quest so far though#any setting where its like a place of mind tricks and gambling and spending money and sin is always so scary to me#especially the dream within a dream within a dream shit#the mind fuck aspect is always a good plot that i enjoy#i also love that theyre not afraid to upgrade units#like we have dan heng and the dragon dan heng#so characters arnt stagnent forever#everyday i hope we one day get to see a 5-star secret power march#cuz that girl has some shit going on i swear#i just did her luofu memory quest#and those fuckers in the garden of recollection............
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hello! it has been a long time since i've talked through my day! this one had such a big turnaround that i needed to document it, mostly for myself.
i had an appointment with a 'root canal specialist' today bc i had my first app with my new dentist a couple of weeks ago and his xray revealed an abscess wow how fun :) i couldn't feel it bc that tooth has a decade old root canal so there are no nerves to reveal there is anything going on!! fun!!!! he's a super nice dentist, i like him but he made me very panicked lol he was showing me how close it is to my sinuses on the xray. so he was like 'go see this guy asap' bc he wanted to know whether there was a chance my old root canal could be redone or if i'd have to get the whole tooth removed/an implant, all for the low low price of $5-6000 🙃 but obviously you can never see specialists asap!!! so i've been walking around for 2.5 weeks with dread/phantom pains that by the time i saw him the infection would've spread and idk had catastrophic consequences??? and then today when i went there was CONSTRUCTION at the turn i needed to make and the road was closed and i was like i don't know how to get there from another street??!?!?!??! i spent 10 minutes driving through suburban streets and my navigation kept trying to take me back to the original route with the closed road, and its the middle of town so there was nowhere i could just temporarily stop and look at the map, and i called them almost crying to let them know i'm coming but i might be late bc i just can't navigate these streets jegjkdgkjdkg
anyway i MADE it, i think i parked in another business's parking lot and just hoped they didn't care lol and then the lady at the desk was like 'our other specialist will have to see you bc the guy you're here for isn't here' so i was feeling uhhhh not good after my dentist talked him up so much. AND my dentist didn't send over my electronic referral and i had LITERALLY been stressed that he would forget to do exactly that for the whole 2.5 weeks oh my god, thankfully they didnt even seem to care. but then as i was filling out the paperwork in the waiting room 'no judgment' came on, and then 'wolves' right after??? and i was like this seems deliberate to try and calm me down 😂 and when the substitute specialist called me in he was so extremely calming and talked me through my options, one of which is indeed to try and redo the root canal bc he's confident he can, it would still cost a lot but wayyyyy less. he also said i could 'do nothing' (which is obv risky, and i would never do nothing, but that made me realise my infection is not about to bust through and spread across my sinuses any second, one fear down!). he was just softly spoken and super relaxed and he made me feel like this was not in fact a crisis and said i could go and think about what i wanted to do, and just call for an appointment when i decided. and then when i went out to pay 'i want to write you a song' was playing 😭 i asked the receptionists if there was a 1d fan in the house and one of them said it must just be a random playlist on spotify, so this was all a complete coincidence????? i told them i was enjoying it very much.
anyway long story short i had already taken the rest of the afternoon off work to go work in the garden, but figured there was a good chance i'd be so down about an unexpected and immiment $5000 hit that i wouldn't want to do anything, but i drove home feeling extremely reassured that i had options and i was not on the clock to decide, and also very relaxed by 1d playing in the background the entire time. i have also been extremely stressed that i would need to take the next step asap and this would be such a bad time as mum is working 50 hour weeks right now bc of the referendum, so i am on caring duty with nonna/nonno anytime we don't have carers here. but there's time! i had a v good afternoon in the garden after all!
#i am extremely comfortable at the dentist (i had the kindest dentist all through childhood/adolescence/early adulthood)#(who put lots of time into making us comfortable/safe in his chair when we were tiny)#but i have a lot of dental fear bc you only get one go#(i have v regular dreams of my teeth falling out lol)#i also have v weak teeth rip my mouth is a filling factory#i do eat a lot of sugar lol but my teeth clearly suffer more than other ppl i know who eat just as much#anyways the point is everything was monumentally stressful/scary until i stepped inside that place#im very thankful with how the entire appointment played out#for the substitute specialist and also for the soothing tunes lol#im not sure what i will do yet but i will think about it. bc i can!#i am crediting god for this one 😂 he took good care of me today#tp
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i don't think i can be normal about Sunday guys
#hsr#hsr spoilers#i haven't even FINISHED it yet but his ideology is so warped. i cheered when i thought Gallagher had killed him for real#im not upset he's alive though i do think it's a bit of a cop-out . but. ouhghhhh something is so wrong with his mind (/positive.)#it's successfully looped back around to loving his character though. when there's a fucked up guy in a story i either#1) get very hostile towards them because i feel like they aren't being portrayed enough like the villain i see them as#or 2) become Obsessed with them forever because they are just so fucking . Wrong. like .#ayato genshin impact falls into both of these categories simultaneously like a fucking electron.#but sunday. he has wholeheartedly landed himself in the second category. i need to dissect him and maybe like. idk. give him a cake (?)??#Come Experience The Joys. Idiot. and also maybe listen to your sister.#honestly i REALLY like robin i think she's super super great and has good ideas#i really really love the like. the.#the contrast between his like. his horrible pessimistic nihilistic ideology. and robins optimistic harmonious one.#like robin seems to kind of... not be able to understand that sometimes nihilism is the only way to survive and that it's a balance#survival is good but hard to break out of... you need to survive enough to be ABLE to live. she seems to idealize living in opposition to it#whereas sunday is like. there are people who can ONLY survive. sometimes living isn't an option because the world is cruel and we don't all#get that choice. sometimes surviving is all you can do. why not embrace that? why not build a place where people can postpone death?#if fulfillment isn't possible... then why not accept placation even if it is a poison to the soul? surely joyful prison is better than death#if all that awaits in the world is suffering then why not let the bird live the rest of its days in its cage... even if it is unfulfilling?#HE'S SO . RHGHHGHGHFHGHHVGJF#he feels like he's on the brink of a misanthropic suicidal breakdown to me. someone fucking help him (but not really)#(i don't think anyone should be subjected to his brain. but i would like to see him get better. actually i think robin is trying for sure)#anyway. very curious how this quest is going to end. i want to rip him limb from limb and then stitch him back together again after#my posts
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Also while Jack and religion posting these lyrics from Belle's Palsy by Reverend Glasseye just felt so him.
#luly talks#dsaf#dsaf jack#jack kennedy#him in the good ending to be fucking honest. ykwifm.#sorry im dropping so many fucks maybe that afterlife post i made was foreshadowing for how mad im gonna be when im send to hazbin hotel#sorry it was a long day today. im very tired. it was rough.#anyway I've become less of a man is so . him. bc if the title of the song doesn't tell you enough GO LISTEN TO IT 🫵👁️👁️ but also like#it's about a man falling apart bc illness like he's dying and talking to his god#and expressing how eager he is to meet his end#and by 3 jack really is so fucking done with being alive he's so tired AND. sorry. sorry this is no place for.me.to rip my hair off#he makes me just so sad it's unreal. I'd fix him. anyway um. like yeah#yeah he's all fucking rotten and tired and just wants to finally fucking die#also i like that the song talks of storm bc he does go up in flames so it's like. a silly contrast y'know :)
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hehehe got tickets to jodie whittaker play the day after gallifrey cabaret in october..... life could be dream
#planning far too many london trips for someone who no longer has a place to crash in london rip#very much in a spend money now worry about it later mindset atm which is not good#but hey im Young and Free and need to live life to the fullest. by going to see jodie whittaker in the duchess of malfi.
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why did dio even do all that
#iwas trying to give my mom the gist of pt1 earlier and i was like uh. i dont actually know why he did what he did#like the killing dario thing absolutely i get. but then he went to the joestars and is just like? an asshole for no reason#Like why did he do that shit. he was clearly very good at decieving people & he literally went to school to be a lawyer#surely if he wanted money or power-- which i think was his goal(?)-- he couldve just lied to the joestars and played nice the whole time#& then when old man george kicks the bucket he gets half the inheritence. even if he was gonna poison mr joestar#if he was really nice to everyone else? i think he wouldve gotten away with it. come ON dio!!!!#its not even like hes a bad liar or anything. hes a very good actor he couldve 100% pulled this off. he couldve gotten the mask too like!!!#if you wanted political power just wait for mr joestar to die (or speed up the process) & you inherit that.#hes a wealthy man in victorian england. like thats already pretty damn good#and if he played nice he couldve taken that damn mask and nobody wouldve batted an eye. like he could easily get the vampire power too#IDK. if i was in his place i would simply not do all that. rip to dio but im different#muffin mumbles#jjba
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the thing about growing up with a gay parent in the 2000s is that there was a point where it went from "Very Deviant and something that you shouldn't talk about with classmates lest you confuse them or corrupt their Good Christian Morals and you can't invite friends over to spend the night at the Lesbian House because there are obviously Bad Things happening there" to "mildly interesting fact about your family" and i'm not really sure when that transition period was or why it seemed to change overnight.
#people i meet nowadays: wow youre so lucky to grow up with gay family members! your childhood must have been so nice!#me: yeah i could never invite any of my friends to my house or have any support systems when dealing with my mom's absuive gf#because homophobia was so pervasive that the response would have been “yeah of course gay people are abusive to their kids.#you need to go to a good christian home“. and it definitely didnt fuck me up#like dont get me wrong. im privileged to not have to deal with homophobia in my own family but like.#growing up with queer family structures was rough even just 15 years ago#and now i talk about the structual and societal homophobia i dealt with and people look at me like im from another planet#(not to mention that its still present in most places! and trans people are still very much dealing with it in my relatively liberal city!)#personal#queer stuff#rip i cant sleep so guess its time to think about the horrors of the past
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As you can see, this race is off to a good start
#nah bcs why did trulli and sutil fighting compell me#idk kinda obsessed with it#like the way jarno is shorter than adrian and keeps coming at him#and adrian keeps trying to placate him and apologize by grabbing his arm#i will gif it :D i like it and idk why#but my god the pitlane incident#its funny cause i actually do really like the pre-2010 fuel strat even tho it feels a bit dangerous#they def made is safer since Jos' accident#but then moments like these remind me of why it doesnt exist anymore#to clarify:#Kovalinen was trying to get out ahead of Kimi and thus accidentally ripped out the fuel hose#thus spraying a bunch of fuel at kimi's car and into the cockpit among other places#and kimis exhaust made the fuel momentarily burst into flames#and i find the fuel strat way more interesting than modern tire strar#but i saw that and im like ah yes perhaps a good thing that it doesnt exist anymore#bur bro that first lap was absolutely insane like just so much shit going on#incident btwn kovalainen and fisi that im still not sure about. and during that i think heikki hit Seb a bit#and then the crash btwn sutil and trulli was very crazy like the way sutil's car slid across the track#and not only it slide across the track but he also accidentally ended up taking out Nano as well 😭😭#and the the girls were fighting(compelling)#and then the fuel hose incident#OH WAIT YEAH and also kimi's wing got clipped by mark#so much going on. so i hope the rest of the race isnt too boring in comparison#catie.rambling.txt
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Oh my god, I was like, hey lets read that silly webcomics with the funny penis anatomy and then I ended up sinking it like 3 hrs and its 4am
#its not even a necessarily good comic 💀💀💀#the author is drawing the comic like storyboards#theres so much dialogue i just skip and i end up getting by just by flying thru#this was like homestuck all over again#and so much sex and transhuman and trans allegories#very cool concepts just the execution is all over the place#now im at the point where they keep doing flashbacks and hwuh the sexy rabbit lady is the og cyclops rabbit#i came for the funny penis but admittedly the sex was good bc god#something about the pseudo cannibalism becoming one is so fucking hot#its feast for a king#ieueegagshfhguvig#i havent stayed up this late in a long time#i usually fucking hate gore and intestines but since thsyre always described as tentacles and worms#i was able to avoid a lot of that disgust#they fuck nasty man!! almost all the characters try to fuck nasty#except for the cool marshmallow junji ito dude who literally ripped his face off bc he did NOT want to particpate in sex#the plot is kinda like doom eternal where humanity fucked up trying to get energy#but instead of mars its the moon and oh they fucked up earth too#.txt
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Really trying to get better at buying things on sale and with coupons but I have almost zero idea how much these things cost when compared to other things and I just can not retain this knowledge no matter how hard I try rip
#like i can compare when theyre shelved next to each other in the store but after that nothing#even people commenting about prices of things in convo i cant tell if theyre saying its a good or bad price rip#why cant i just trust that a coupon or sale is gonna net me the best deal and go on from there#liek obvs i know a lot of place raise prices before sales but im talking like every day items where thats harder (? i think) to do that reg#the only prices ive somewhat retained are things i regularly buy by themselves which isnt actually much#like i know water bottles at cons or other Events are $3 and at little craft shows or city festivals theyre like $1 but i dont know much#between and then redbull at gas stations is like 2.75#and i sorta know the price for the little toys i buy but even then theres so many now and they used to be like $5 so even though i know#theyre more i still get a bit of a surprise sometimes when i blindly grab them#and yes i know this makes me sound snotty and privileged and that i am/have been very privileged to not Have to know this info#dont mind me#tag rambles
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#sometimes i feel very normal and then i interact with ppl lol#i had an in person meeting with my boss for the 1st time in ages and i usually talk to ppl while theyre driving or were walking somewhere#so i forgot how much im like obviously not making eye contact when ppl talk to me while hunched over and fidgeting lol#and when im trying to explain ideas to ppl abt like data stuff im like: i dont understand how what im saying doesnt make sense???#also with a healthy dose of wtf is this person trying to say to me? u r saying words and i dont kno what theyre directed at#we had a lab party and im like v awkward at those things. idk how to interact in groups#ppl r interacting and im watching like u r clearly getting something out of this that i am not#i did maybe secure a place as a patient for one of our undergrads who is in the dental school lol#she was like yea i need 8 patients and i was like lol u can look in my mouth and then proceeded to tell her all the weird teeth problems#ive had. maybe that was weird but she seemed interested so 🤷#i hope she follows up bc i havent been to the dentist in like 3 years#and i still habe my wisdome teeth#lol me at any party: i am waiting patiently until i can leave.#like its weird bc those r the time when ppl bond and make memories and all that but everytime someone calls back to events that ive been#there fore it baffles me bc im like. yea that was a thing that happened. i dont really have any feelings abt it so idk y u r recalling it#fondly??? plus my ears r kinda fucked so it was hard to focus on individual conversations#ay im so scatterbrained. thats what happens when u get little sleep and dont allow ur self to chill. ill just crunch myself into a lil ball#at least my boss tried to reassure me that id get accepted somewhere phd wise. but i will not relax until its official so rip#i just really want 2 specific schools to work out bc one is close to home and the other i can prob get good classes and opportunities#ugh i need to sleep. but im not tired :-P#unrelated
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i have a headache but also i dont want to go to sleep just yet dkjnfjds i want me-time
(warning: as i was writing the tags of this post this turned into another kinda-heavy rant about the situation my group of friends and i are. so keep that in mind)
#things were weird today when She(tm) was there but when she left things were normal again#but these hours were kinda stressful rip or more like... there was an inherent discomfort and tension in the air#with some ugly commentaries and actions on her part. like its your (supposed) best friend's birthday at least try to hide your disgust 👍#birthday you ~apparently~ forgot until it the day before. also you didnt had a single penny to spend on the gift for him#but you sure as hell had it to go eat with your college friends to expensive places! girl at least dont post about it on insta#and just in case; this wasnt a '*goes to expensive places before* -oh i dont have money sowwy :(('#this was a '-oh i dont have money sowwy :(( *goes to expensive places after it*'#what we were asking for collaboration was way less than what she spent on those places. it was AT THE VERY LEAST 3000 ars per food#and you know what she wanted to give for the gift? 500 ars!!! you cant buy shit with it; let alone if we only collaborated with 500 each#like she wanted. we're 4; genuine question what kinda shit can you buy for $2000. maybe a good quality cup but we already gave him that#but even then the point is not the money; the thing is the attitude. you cant spend more than $500 on us#but you can spend at least $6000 on your other friends; given you went to eat with them two days in a row. priorities i guess?#OH! and talking about it!! can you fucking believe she INVESTIGATED the phone of our ~new~ friend (the one shes jealous of)#and DEADASS said 'oh i see. my mom has an A51'. our friend has an A20 if im not wrong; which might not be an A51 but its. still expensive??#also your mom has an A51 but you have an iPhone 5 since you were on high school. but hey; apple i am right?? inherently better than an A20#sorry i have less than that; i have an A10s (that i got on the start of 2020). can i still breathe the same air as you and your mom /s#once again the problem is not the money or the phone or WHATEVER. its the fucking attitude shes having. you want to pretend you have money#and act like youre superior to people who 'dont'; when in reality YOU ARE MIDDLE CLASS. YOU ARENT UPPER CLASS; NOT EVEN UPPER-MIDDLE CLASS#YOURE MIDDLE CLASS. MIDDLE CLASS LIKE THE REST OF US; NOT LIKE YOUR COLLEGE FRIENDS YOU LOVE SO MUCH AND WANT TO IMPRESS#YOU SPEND MONEY YOU DEFINITELY DONT HAVE BECAUSE YOU WANT TO APPEAR UPPER-MIDDLE AT THE VERY LEAST. but thats a lie#a lie that if these beloved friends bothered to ACTUALLY know even the slightest about you; like we do; would fall apart. but they wouldnt!#because they dont care about you as much as we care(d). do you think they will tolerate this fucking attitude youre having towards us?#no they wouldnt. trust me; they WOULDNT. they will tell you to fuck off and leave you completely alone. go cry a river.#god fucking dammit why are you like this. WHY you turned like this. or rather; why we were SO GODDAMN blind we didnt noticed this before#negative
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There's a crossover fic where Luffy asks Sera to send him down after deciding that heaven has too many rules (he ends up just jumping down into hell after she refuses)
For some reason he wants Alastor to join his crew forgot why, gonna reread it now
Just wanna put Alastor (Hazbin Hotel) and Luffy (One Piece) in a jar and shake them. Just imaging these two chaotic aro ace in the same room brings me so much joy.
I feel like they would viscerally hate each other if they ever had to meet ahah :'D I drew them reacting to their flag instead! I haven't drawn Luffy in a hot minute damn I missed my boi
Now that I think about it, it's funny how similar yet completely different they are. Luffy's whole deal is about smiling, laughing and make people around him happy, while Alastor's whole deal is also about smiling, but he uses it for control, to hide his true emotions and make people around him uncomfortable/second guessing him all the the time.
Luffy is aroace, but still full of love for everyone, he cares so much and shows so much affection, while Alastor is aroace and mostly touch averse, takes a long time to get attached to people and shows very little affection (or maybe has his own definition of affection idk)
And they both have a weird moral code and hate people in power who uses it to exploit the weak?? Not to the same extend ofc but still, that's an interesting trait they share .
My two favourite aroaces I love them so much 💖
#ham bin hotel#there is no ham#chopper reindeer and alastor just deer#or radio deer#Luffy ends up doing an interview in the mystery (radio) tower with Alastor that they broadcast#mystery paper got torn rip#oh ye Alastor kept trying to argue against Luffy with the crew recruitment thing#it has 12 chapters so far so everyone who decides to start reading now has a bunch of words/chapters to munch on#idk how to summarize or pitch things very well#its pretty fun but i read it while staying up for days and falling asleep at my table#= i forgot a lot of it#so ye thats why i cant give a good summary besides the fact that I just dont give good summaries in the first place#just#...summaries#but ye its fun#Are we allowed to link fics#I guess it depends on who wrote it#i should ask for perms right?#or can I just share it#idk#good thing im forgetful so i can just reread it like i found a new fic again#lets goooo#anyway theyre like me frfr#LETS GOOOOOOO#thank you for the art
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