#doesn’t even feel real

[stephstars08]

The Football game I was at today played the Friends Theme Song and I couldn’t help but feel emotional when I was singing along to it. 😔

[aaronsinferno]

Rambling here but….

This has truly hit me harder than I expected it to. I feel completely blindsided by all of this. It’s as if the rug was just pulled out from under me. As a gay man, this was a hard punch to the gut and not just for me but for everyone who found representation in these characters. I hate this especially for Lou, though. After Oliver’s recent comments, it’s clear now more than ever that Lou was the one person who truly cared and was the most invested in the relationship and its potential. He believed in the story and wanted more for it. To think about how he endured so much vile, hateful, and disgusting attacks online for months on end and stayed silent through it all without a single cast member standing up to defend him sickens me. All for him and his character to be discarded like this…without any care at all. it’s upsetting. It’s unfair. And I’m sure Lou himself doesn’t take any of it personally, but still. it’s just all so….

I’ve never experienced anything like this in a fandom before.

I feel spat on.

[keferon]

*clasps your shoulders gently and looks you straight in the eye*

Keferon. Please read Ninth by Kyn on AO3. I think you would love it very much. It has a large chapter count, but don't be intimidated, it's very easy to get into. It is currently unfinished, but is being updated regularly.

You are the seventh person that recommended this fic to me so ahahahaha yeah

I’m doing great Help I hate some parts of it but I love the other parts I’m spinning in the blender

…..I made the moodboard….

[inumbrapugnabimus-maybe]

But not green.

You know the song Mr. Jones? Yeah.

[odetojupiter]

so, we know that abuse and victim responses to abuse are very central to aftg, but what i find interesting is how other characters respond to the victim’s reactions, especially when it comes to mourning their abuser. there’s something about kevin mourning riko, aaron mourning tilda, neil mourning mary, andrew mourning cass, thats so important to me because it really truly highlights how even when people are united through similar traumas, the differences in their situations makes it impossible to fully understand the relationship a person has to their abuser. neil, aaron, and andrew are united through the abuse, neglect, or - what the fuck is the word i’m thinking of? permit? condone? i mean, knowingly allowing it to happen and not intervening - stemming from a maternal figure. but neil can’t understand why andrew would hold on to cass for so long - he refused to let her go until aaron came into the picture. and andrew can’t understand why aaron would mourn for tilda, potentially viewing aaron’s grief as a betrayal of their promise. and they all ridicule kevin for his reactions to riko. of course, neil and andrew are also abused by riko, but they still can’t understand the complicated relationship between kevin and riko because, at the end of the day, they just weren’t there.

i mean this is primarily an observation but i really love how trauma and trauma response is depicted as nuanced, complex and overall just difficult to understand from an outsider perspective in the books. it reads as really real, and though it can be frustrating when a character doesn’t understand a different character’s response, you have to understand that their perception of said character’s response is warped by their own experience of abuse.

andrew bounced from home to home, never had stability, so obviously he held tight on to the first mother-figure that didn’t outright hurt him. his self-worth was probably low enough that he thought living with drake was a fine price to pay to keep cass.

neil only ever had his mother, and he’d willingly accept her harsh hands because he believed she was just keeping him safe from the very real dangers that were closing in on them.

aaron was dealing with an addiction, and so was his mother; he was equally dependent on her to avoid withdrawal as he was scared of her anger.

i don’t really have a point anymore but you get what i’m saying

[fairycosmos]

i just can’t believe everyone ive ever met is going to die

[quicksilversnails]

Feeling like the Wraith on this Pristine Cut Eve

[darlingod]

It’s just… it is everything that Cardan thought Jude would notice his “SO OBVIOUS” exile riddle and thinks Jude to not hesitate to come back. Beside his certainty of her cleverness to piece the riddle together, he believed he was that clear about his feelings toward her; he had thought she absolutely ought to know how he feels for her.

Like oh buddy. BUDDY. Your wife had thought of the answer to your little riddle like you thought she would. But guess what? She has detrimental TRUST ISSUES. (Like… Ur super mean and hot, I can’t blame her.) Anyway.. it’s SUPER adorable of him to so wholeheartedly believe she wouldn’t question his trust. It reveals so much about his pov of thier relationship.

Jude thought Cardan’s (silly) trick was a (vile) trick, when it was simply a: “Im trying to impress/pay you back in kind with our romantic metaphorical sparring and eventually get you out of political drama for a bit,” trick.

I’m fucking laughing wow these delusional ass children I fucking love them.

[puppyeared]

A creature I got attached to

[passerinesoncaffeine]

headspace sunnflower is so funny to me.

You can send the silly flower gay boy hell and then kill the silly flower gay boy in several horrific ways OR you can go on a killing spree date and hold hands with him as you two murder everyone else in several horrific ways for sport.

[aardvaark]

i was thinking about how i wished leverage had a birthday episode for some of the characters cause that would be sweet, but then i realised something and basically…. okay here’s my thoughts in quotes form, just for fun

hardison: so when’s your birthday? i could plan something for us and the team to do and-

parker: i dont know

hardison: you don’t know… your own birthday?

parker: no, how would i know? pshh, cmon, you’re telling me you remember EXACTLY when you were born? watch this - hey, eliot, do you know your exact birth date?

eliot, innocently passing by, who was canonically anonymously dropped off at a hospital as an infant: no, how would i know?

parker: that’s what i said!

hardison: excuse me?? what is going on right now

sophie, walking into the apartment: whats wrong?

hardison: parker and eliot- well, okay, when’s your birthday? i just have to prove something.

sophie: …….july 12th

hardison: why did you pause? wait, is that your birthday or sophie devereaux’s birthday?

sophie: ………… (guilty silence)

parker: see, no one knows their real birthday! haha you’re so weird sometimes, hardison

hardison:

hardison: what the fuck guys

[stargirl-and-potts]

Stede couldn’t let Ed talk to him about Lowe’s death because he still thinks he needs to be able to handle the blood on his face! He still wants to prove he’s a man! He thinks that a man defends his crew, his love, his space, with his sword; and he can’t let Ed ask him about it so gently, because he’ll end up sobbing in a bathtub under a robe. And he’ll defend Ed’s right to do that any day, but he is not prepared to fall apart, not when he’s spent the whole season trying to be Ed’s pirate prince, with the beard and the sword and the ruthlessness. Ed’s telling him he doesn’t need that — that he wants the sparkly, golden Stede whose strength is in saving, not killing. But Stede isn’t ready to see what Ed sees — to give up his own dream yet.

[were-wolverine]

me: all vigilantes are inherently anti-cop because the whole point is they literally do what the cops can’t/won’t do

someone: but dick grayson-

me: IS NOT A FUCKING COP BECAUSE FUCK DC AND THEIR IDIOTIC MINDNUMBING IDEAS THERES NO WAY HE’D EVER BE A COP OKAY?

[dailyjevil]

Day 300 of posting Jevil every day

[diazheartsbuckley]

Okay so this is probably gonna turn into a whole rant ™️

You guys were so accepting with me exploring my pronouns and it feels so good and so loving to be in a community like this 💕

Here’s the thing -

For years, I’ve thought about changing my name because Caroline never really felt like my name, it didnt feel like it was me.

And then at work, I was helping out at another store and people thought my name was Maya because one of the guys got it wrong from the beginning. So it became a standing joke that they’d call me Maya.

And I started to respond to it and I just, I don’t know, I can’t explain it but it just felt like it was supposed to find me? Like that name was supposed to find me.

I’m not changing it legally just yet, I want to see how it feels. But I was hoping that you guys would (once again) help me out with figuring out a new thing about me, if it’s right or not 🥺

So for now, my preferred name is Maya 🫶🏻

If you made it thus far, you’re a real one 💕

Tagging some friends because id like to share it with yall 🩵

My angel @tizniz 🩵

@watchyourbuck @inell @underwaterninja13

@bidisasterevankinard @steadfastsaturnsrings @diazsdimples @eddiestummy @jeeyuns

@daffi-990 @wildlife4life @honestlydarkprincess

@spotsandsocks @exhuastedpigeon @hippolotamus

@actualalligator @giddyupbuck @pirrusstuff

@cal-daisies-and-briars @dangerpronebuddie @elvensorceress @slightlyobsessedwitheverything

@bucksbignaturals @bucks-daddy-issues @wikiangela @caroandcats @theotherbuckley

@devirnis @ronordmann @spagheddiediaz

[babsvibes]

New job starts tomorrow, I’m nauseous