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Some of our releases from Tropical Sludge, Ap Ducal and Mosaic Runes are featured on Grey Clay Radio, curated by musician and sound designer Thébru Čelet / Disorganism. Link below to check out their radio, news, affiliates and cool sonic obscurities.
#grey clay radio#weisskalt#weisskalt records#tropical sludge#ap ducal#mosaic runes#thebru celet#disorganism#experimental music
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Dick is probably the nicest civilian ever when he’s in Bludhaven and all the little old ladies who bring him baked goods and his coworkers at the station have no idea he spends the night beating criminals half to death with his escrima sticks, has the kind of insane family & family loyalty you can’t buy, and would have the entire Justice League at his side with just one phone call.
#disorganized dick grayson thkughts#just his secret identity#out of all of them#save maybe Clark /#dick grayson#bruce wayne#batman#nightwing#dc comics#dc#thoughts
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another abandoned wip/sketch dump
#my art#watch as i continue to post things just all over the place all disorganized oops#ok lets think how do i tag this#rung#primus#dratchet#starscream#bumblebee#rotb mirage#tfa soundwave#oplita#tfp ratchet#es prowl
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Shout out to people with Complex Dissociative Disorders (parents edition):
If your parents genuinely changed and improved overtime
If your parents were absent when you were a kid because they were sick / ill / working / otherwise indisposed
If your parents were not your abusers
If your parents would have acted differently if they knew you were being abused
If your parents didn't have the resources or knowledge to help / understand you
If your parents were loving and yet still neglectful
If your parents inadvertently invalidated / didn't believe you, but now do
If your parents weren't your primary caregivers when the abuse happend
If you weren't abused at all and your trauma was medical / environmental / etc
Had emotionally and physically present parents but you still had disorganized attachment with them as a kid because of your delusions / paranoia / etc.
If your parents regret how they treated you
If your parents loved and love you but acted the way they did because of substances / mental illness
If your parents are not completely bad people, or bad people at all
If you still get along with your parents regardless of what they did
If you ever invalidated your own traumatic childhood experiences because your parents were "too nice"
Your trauma is not less valid if you get along with your parents today. Sure, you needed disorganized attachment to your primary caregivers as a kid to develop a CDD. But that can take plenty of formes, and they don't all include your parents being monsters.
Edit: any other emotions regarding your parents are also valid and okay, and I couldn't mean that more. Childhood trauma survivors go through so many rough emotions, and self-invalidation is sadly way too common. Your feelings are a direct result of what happened and that makes them normal.
#i didn't see this be talked about much so take this shoutout list#disorganized attachment#actually did#did community#did system#dissociative identity disorder#traumagenic did#actual did#actually dissociative#did osdd#osddid#osdd#osdd system#actually osdd#pdid#pdid system#partial did#ddnos
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All the year of the dragon dragons that will be in this week's etsy drop!
#apologies#im a disorganized mess and should have posted them up sooner#also two of them were trying out the laguna gold luster since duncan discontinued theirs#form this very first initial test it seems legit?#hyydraworks#cute#ceramics#traditional art#pottery#handmade#fantasy#figurine#dragon#gold luster
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If you have speech issues due to brain fog or psychosis or schizophrenia spectrum or intellectual disability or aphasia or whatever reason love you forever. We are not stupid, we are not freaks, we are disabled (if you identify that way) and deserve to be normalized. Speak "strange" forever
-schizophrenic with somewhat constant disorganized speech and writing
#i didnt correct this post even though i normally do because i want to let people know some grammar#issues are not the end of the world or cause a lack of legitamacy#disorganized speech#brain fog#actuallypsychotic#actually schizophrenic#pseriouslyschizospectrum#aphasia#disordered speech#not tagging id because i dont wanna soeak over actually id people in the tag but you are thr most important
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there's a video on instagram of a man kicking his partner's door in. the top comment is (with over 4 thousand likes): "how about you tell us what you did to make him that angry?"
barring emergency, nobody should be kicking anybody's door in. many of us lived in houses where it was always, somehow, an emergency. there is a strange, almost hysterical calm that comes over you in that moment - everything feels muted, and you almost feel, however incongruently, like you should be laughing. you are living inside of "the emergency." oh my god, you think. i am now a fucking statistic.
there is another comment with 2.8 thousand likes: "if this was a woman doing it to a man, nobody would give a shit."
do people give a shit now, though?
barring emergency, the door should remain standing. the emergency should be panicked, desperate - "i'm coming in there to protect you." many of us know what it feels like when the emergency is instead "i'm coming in there to get you."
1.5k likes: "and yet you post this for notes. glad to see being the victim has become your whole personality."
hysteria is a word connected to womb, from greek. what you're experiencing is so senseless and inhumane that you (a rational creature) try to find any ground within what is irrational and cannot be explained. one of the most frustrating things about staying in bad situations is that we also lie to ourselves. we also ask ourselves - wow. what did i do?
women can be, and often are, also abusers. abuse is not gendered. abuse is not just a "straight person" problem. abuse does not have a face or figure or sexuality. you cannot pick an abuser out of a crowd. an abuser could be actually anybody.
and then so many people rally behind the man kicking the door in. here is something nobody should be doing, right? you want to ask every person that liked that first comment: do you ask this because you side with him? do you ask this because it helps you feel safe from this ever happening?
in some ways, you're weirdly sympathetic to the top comment, because it is the same logic you see frequently. the idea is that the average, normal, sane person doesn't just break down a door. doesn't just shoot up a school. doesn't stalk and kill women. doesn't threaten sexual assault. doesn't run over protesters. doesn't shoot an unarmed black person. doesn't scream at underpaid walmart employees. doesn't just "lose it". something had to have happened, right? because the default (white. straight. cis.) - that is someone who is always, you know. "sane."
(right?)
on a podcast, you hear a sane, normal, rational person. "if you piss me off, i'm going to need to hit something. sorry but i'm not apologizing. that's just who i am that's how it is." his voice almost sounds like he's laughing.
you think of the door, and how you were almost laughing behind it, too. ironically, every real emergency in your life has almost felt peaceful in comparison. fire, car accident, flash flooding - these felt quiet, covenant to you. you'd stood in all of them, feeling them pass over and up to your chin, never actually overwhelming.
but when the door was coming down, you had felt - is there a word for that? there has to be, a word, right.
surely one of us has figured out the word for that, i mean. it's such a large fucking statistic.
#spilled ink#writeblr#warm up#this is so disorganized#i just saw that video and the comments made me want to vomit#it's actually like. in the way it's funny that you got into a car crash and got the flu within the same 24 hours#it's like.#it's funny#because certain people will blame everything on mental illness#even being transgender.#they will not#however#at any point - even vaguely suggest that a man should maybe get therapy.#like. a guy busting down a door isn't a danger-to-himself-and-others#(you just pushed him too far).#but a young adult looking for top surgery should be institutionalized for even wanting to change their body.
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wip of a request im trying to finish i’m gonna die painting this!!
#why did i decide to do a background…#i love pain and suffering#i have a big pile of stuff i started recently… i’m bad at planning what to finish first :(#so stuff just comes out done whenever…#this is the reason why i’ve never taken comms yet… i’m too disorganized sadly#my art#wip#mp100#serirei
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Sorry I havent stopped thinking about them since I saw this post
#AUAUUGSAJGLSDJGLSKJGDALKGDSALGKGDSAMLVADLJSLKGSM#I so funnay aha#uh. not much to say I'm so tired rn AHHAHA#enjoy my shitpost about my own ocs#time and time again#webtoon#webtoon originals#ttawebcomic#adam and steve#my art#comic art#comics#webcomics#meme#shitpost#not sure what I tag jokes as???#joke#I am so disorganized...
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it’s gaz who gives you the nickname wisp. and it sticks. you’re not exactly sure where it came from or what it means but it could’ve been much worse.
but the 141 know exactly why.
gaz notices first, of course. how different versions of you rotate throughout the day depending on who you're talking to. there are moments where he notices pieces of the real you coming out. telltale sign is your shoulders dropping back, not in the rigid stance usually saved for attention but in relief. like someone's snapped the string that was holding you up. those moments don't last and it's not long before your shoulder's are rigid and pinched the way someone on high alert keeps them.
in his head ghost calls you cam. short for chameleon. just like gaz he notices how you shape and mold yourself to appeal to others. you're not blending in, he realizes, you're mirroring them. reading them and reacting just how they'd like. a quip here, a smile there, a joke about some one-off thing that you'd noticed made their eyes light up. he wonders what it's like to see the real you, what you'd be like if you were in front of your own mirror. he doesn't get to ponder too long, he can see you fading as you morph
you escape out of soap's grasp so many times he thinks his nickname should be yours instead. he thinks to himself one day that it must be natural for the two of you to miss each other. to be lucky enough some days to occupy some square footage of space before you disappear through a doorway, leaving him wanting. even when you're on the same base, hell same missions sometimes, you're never close enough to him. just out of his reach.
price happens to find you when you think you're alone. just like gaz he's privy to the relaxed state of your body, rigid lines becoming softer against the worn material of the couch. he watches the way your hand strokes the skin along your clavicle, thumb pressing down into the dip of your jugular notch. there's a cloudy look to your eyes as you continue to absentmindedly soothe yourself from whatever you're dissecting in your head. he watches for a while, trying to piece together what it is you're reliving. he knows it's time for him to take his leave when your shoulders straighten, even before your eyes blink away the clouds.
you're there for a moment, before you disappear, evading their grasp.
a/n: i got crazy writers block and was trying to force myself to write my wips but instead my brain cooked this up. everyone say thank you to @buttdumplin for making me brave enough to post <3
#huge shout out to nena for being my cheerleader#inspired by my true nickname >:)#in spanish my family called me ‘mechas’ which translate to wisps afaik#wisps for candles specifically#and it was because when i was little nobody really knew how to handle my curly hair so i had a lot of disorganized pieces#endings not my fave but whatevers#.cod#.mine#.tf141#.price#.ghost#.gaz#.soap#kyle 'gaz' garrick#kyle garrick x reader#john price x reader#john price#john soap mctavish x reader#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley x reader#simon ghost riley
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It's dark Arthur, pull out your lighter.
(practically I know john is most easily portrayed as a normal hooded guy with a mask but deep down my heart of hearts still belongs to mergo's wet nurse)
#can you tell i think mergo's wet nurse had the coolest design in bloodborne?#descriptions and author's notes in the image captions#i feel like that's the funniest way to stick those in there tbh lol#flashing image#hopefully not too flashing but idk how gifs get crunched on tumblr#malevolent#malevolent podcast#arthur lester#john doe#mp#my art#doodles#animation#kinda#lots of opacity filters that are suuuper disorganized lol#at some point i'm just gonna do a character sheet for john/KiY but it will actually just be a dozen designs i think are cool#but then will not draw in a practical setting because they're too wonky#i do think the masked guy design is quite charming and is objectively the right way to draw him interacting with anything#i just think fucked up creatures are cool#man i still love drawing profiles#idk why but they're soo much easier than drawing faces straight on#they're just Nice
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I just know he holds the pen with like his entire hand
#chicken scratch handwriting#he prob never took notes in school#and if he did they were disorganized but it works for him#hobie atsv#hobie brown#hobart brown#hobie brown headcanons#spider punk#spiderverse#across the spider verse#marvel#mcu#marvel cinematic universe#across the spiderverse#spiderman across the spiderverse#spiderman#gwen stacy#ghost spider#hobie and gwen
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#Those of you voting disorganized are gonna have to be so fr#I WILL gatekeep it if I have to I refuse to believe this many of u suffer as I do
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I hide the part of me that needs to be loved the most and then crave to be loved as a whole.
#tw depressing stuff#actually mentally ill#emotional neglect#vent#tw vent#avoidant attachment#actually traumatized#disorganized attachment
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The bell shuro gives laios is such an elegant piece of symbolism. Laios immediatly stows it away but it's jingling at the bottom of his bag (and mind) the whole time as the crew enters the most isolated section of the story.
Rescuing Falin was the first thing shuros ever wanted or asked for and Laios return pushes him to be more and more proactive abt his desires. On Shuros side, its constantly ringing, out of his control, and annoying to him and everyone around him. Despite being mortified w intruding on other people, he keeps it on him even when he sleeps. They both almost throw it away several times.
Thru the story its a little ambiguous what shuro feels about laios. IMO the dead giveaway is where he puts that bell:
At his heart!
#honestly kinda romantic TBH#dungeon meshi spoilers#shuro#i probs should use his full name hes probs like me where ur like if the vowels that come out of ur mouth can be tangentally related to#my name thats fine ill respond to that#toshiro nakamoto#he uses it to call laios back and confirm hes human#but it serves to remind laios of his inability to connect w others#because subtle and slightly gay symbolism isnt enough to convey how much shuro cares abt laios#he communicates thru the ways laios understands-earnest praise + physical affection#now back to that long namari post thats disorganized and scattered RIP
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same old story
#uploads#typography#graphic design#disorganized girlies it's our time to shine#attachment styles#disorganized attachment#healing#writers on tumblr
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