#did frontstuck

[thecouncilofidiots]

I'm cold, bored, and people are noisy

I get why I'm here, not much to be done about that, but damn this all

-xSx

[magicbungelic]

Any tips on trying to improve communication between alters ? Or just trying to have any communication at all ? Especially as a p-did system host (which is what I believe is the case for me)

I can't access headspace (if we even have any), can't communicate with any of them at all, I just feel them when they're there with me and the changes they cause in my behaviour, but whenever I try to make any effort to acknowledge they're there they just retreat :(

I don't even know their names (besides an introject with a very strong presence), please send any tips if you have any !

DNI transharmful/transid and pro para

[host-culture-is]

frontstuck host culture is OH MY GOD GET ME OUT OF HERE

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[thesolarsyst3m]

New headmate: what are you doing in my house?/ref

Me: I want waffle fries

[greyheart]

Thinking back on that strange 21+ Server who's rules said that, if you're a system, then any and every alter who is Not above the age of 21 isn't allowed to view, let alone interact with the server, either, even if you're bodily 21+...

That's not how DID works, but it did get a laugh out of me.

[starrynightteam]

Gatekeeper, keeping the alter who needs to front stay in the front be like:

[angrysystems]

i've been fronting alone for exactly twenty eight days and i cannot do this shit anymore. our communication as a system is the fucking worst but there's usually a "sensation" of someone else being in my head, or at least i can feel their presence when i'm looking at something that interests them, but it's been radio silent for almost a month now and i'm going CRAZY!!!!!!!! i feel like a fucking singlet !!!!!! why would we have protectors if they're leaving me alone to deal with stuff i can't take !!!!!!!!!!!! i am so fucking afraid of splitting because that is triggering as shit for me !!

Ugh I’m so sorry!

Being front stuck is the absolute fucking worst. It’s stressful, lonely, and exhausting.

I really hope things start getting better for you! You’re definitely not a singlet, you’re still valid. This is just an extra rough patch. Maybe try positive triggers and see if anyone starts communicating? Journaling and SP helps us a lot!

Please keep us updated!

[the-firefly-jar-system]

more of my sillygoofiness

(we have an appointment to dye our hair in a few weeks now)

[petrichorvoices]

motherfucker threw me in front and told me not to leave for several days because my absence has been making us fatigued and blurry. anyway he might be right because i cannot get off of this damn couch like, tempted to just bring our laptop over here so we can lay down while we’re on it

[thecouncilofidiots]

__Echo__ (Shitty Prose pt 9 (May 7, 2024))

Tap

Tap

Tap

Where did you all go?

Echoing chambers

Footsteps

Water dripping from stalactites-

Is there any one else here?

Tap

Tap

Tap

The warmth is not warm

When you're not there.

The shadows of home

Tear at flesh and reek of decay.

I am tired.

I am afraid.

I am alone.

Please come back.

Please come back.

I am alone.

I am afraid.

I am so tired.

[semiferalstreetcoyote]

headmate from breaking bad call that alter white

[chaoticasystem]

I should be grateful and happy that there are people out here that are able to understand how much this disorder affects us but I’m unable to do that. I grew up tired of playing it all off as a joke, discard my own feelings and pretending that is okay. I’ve been frontstuck for a while and it’s driving me insane. No one is able to give me a reason why. We are having poor communication. Now all I can hear are whispers that I’m unable to distinguish and someone is praying. I’m not even a believer and this is extremely awkward

[thesoapbubblesystem]

frontstuck? more like frontsuck

[host-culture-is]

frontstuck/front bound (?) host culture is "wdym I'm the first host we've ever had to front for this long without going dormant"

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[starduzt-collective]

I JUST NOW REALIZED IVE BEEN FRONTSTUCK THIS ENTIRE TIME

- Ryv3r

[just-paradox-things]

"Oh wow, we had a night that was blurry and switchy. Maybe the system dead period is over!" Nope. Right back to just me and a vague puff of smoke that has Dave's vibes.