#cw calorie counting

[honorary-twat]

Diet culture is so fucking disgusting. I'm googling recommended calories intakes trying to figure out how short I'm falling and every fucking website I'd want to use to calculate how many calories I really need is all fucking "CALORIE DEFFICIANT!!! LOOSE WEIGHT FAST" "RECOMMENDED CALORIES TO LOSE WEIGHT" "CALORIE WEIGHT LOSS CALCULATOR"

If I lose any more, I'm gonna be having fainting spells and shit. I'm literally eating an 8th of what I should be. I love being a chef, but it doesn't leave much room to really enjoy any food.

My face is way too skinny, I'm all sunken and shit. I'm cold all the time, I'm bitchy and I'm constantly exhausted. And I'm so anxious about how little I eat it's stopping me from eating. My house is full of food, but there's no dishes, and im too tired to clean anything. And being that this is America all my food is fuckin garbage anyway, none of it has real nutrients or shit.

I'm literally crying cause ive lost so much weight and I don't know how to replace it. I'm gonna have to overhaul my entire lifestyle to accommodate more meals and build habits and it just sounds like so much fuckin work.

Everyone wants what they don't have, I guess.

[trash-but-trying]

Holy shit i just realized why diet culture people get so mad if you use like, ranch dressingor dip an apple in peanut butter. I was always confused cause i assumed too much good intention and im over here like "ok but like the ranch doesnt stop the veggies from having the vitamins and stuff" cause to me, thats why im eating green stuff. Tasty and like, good things for my brain and body. To them the point is a low calorie meal or snack. Its not about the nutrition, its about lack of "the bad thing". I was so confused for so long.

[libbyisleaving]

i hate that when i'm looking for healthy recipes all that i come across is weight loss and calorie counting. i just want to be creative with vegetables dude. i hate how the world has related healthy to weight loss, it is bullshit.

[thatguyrobin]

Sick sick SICK of my health getting worse. I’m so fucking fed up with finding out new stuff wrong with me that I just have to learn to live with.

Went for an emergency eye appointment today cause I’ve been getting new weird visual disturbances, most distressingly a bright white flash that covers most of my vision when it occurs. Immediately worried it was another possible retinal tear/detachment I made this appointment. Good news is, it’s not that. Bad news is, it’s just another part of the retinal/ocular migraines I seem to be getting pretty fucking consistently right now. Which is obviously way less bad that the alternative and I’m grateful BUT there’s nothing I can do about this sort from just learn to live with it, and any future fucked up visuals. Retinal migraine along with hemiplegic migraines cause so much anxiety cause they can replicate other very serious problems, and where I don’t actually get the headache part of the migraine, how am I ever going to know??? Again, glad I don’t get the headache part cause that sounds awful but it would also be a very obvious way to know it was ‘just’ a migraine. Instead of stressing whenever my arms go weak or my vision goes weird or I feel like I’m gonna fall over even when I’m literally just sitting down.

ALSO had a heart appointment (with an accompanying panic attack on the walk through the corridor - yay trauma ✨) only for it to be a complete waste of time cause they only did an ECG and not an echo like always, cause all the slots were taken up. Now have to go back in a few weeks for that too, and I’m soooo jazzed cause the hospital is my absolute FAV place to be /s

To top it off this last week has been full of nonstop nightmares and trauma-related nightmares and the amount of sleep I’m getting is shockingly bad because of it. Shit makes me scared to go to bed cause I don’t wanna wake up 2 hours later scared shitless and unable to get back to sleep. Get though the day with the inevitable (again, interrupted) nap and repeat.

ON A GOOD NOTE, however. I’ve been using my exercise bike which was SUCH a good investment because 1) I can’t really go out and 2) my bones hurt, but where this is low impact and literally in my flat I can do it whenever I want to, so I’m finally getting consistent exercise which is helping my weight loss alongside my calorie deficit (plus I’m actually cooking real food - granted, the most basic stuff, but gotta start somewhere!). Lost 6lb since I started 4 weeks ago and I’m so happy it’s actually working. There’s also the bonus of getting to do maths every day which is fun, and I can see the progress written down which helps keep me at it.

Life has its ups and downs and I’m so appreciative of all the good things that have been happening lately, but sometimes I get bummed out by the bad bits too, and that’s allowed.

[whis--ker]

I really have to start counting calories, not because I want to lose weight or anything, but because I just realized that I (entirely accidentally) starved myself today. Oops

[glitter-and-be-gay]

Having unreliable hunger signals is so frustrating. Trying to eat like a normal person results in either being ravenous at 1am, or extremely full from 4pm-10pm. I shouldn't have to weigh my food and log it in order to know if I've eaten enough/too much, but here we are

[rossithepixie]

Talk of past eating disorders under the cut and a bit of a rant from distress. Pls if you’re going talk about dieting tag the post (not directed at any moots or people I interact with any sort of frequency)

Cool cool cool ummmm. Just had to unfollow someone for talking about dieting and calorie counting because it’s huge trigger for me since i struggled really badly with a fun combination of eating disorders for years and have had to work hard to improve my relationship with food. Please please tag posts about dieting. They weren’t a mutual so I wasn’t going to talk to them about it. They can vibe how they want but i felt a lil blindsided by it. And calorie counting was a tool i used to hurt myself very effectively. Severe enough situation when i was blacking out and losing my hair in huge clumps.

Like yes dieting and calorie counting can be done safely by some people but for me personally and many others it can spiral out of control very quickly.

Sorry i was not mentally prepared today

[synonym-bonadea]

cw counting calories, purging

Tuesday, 15th Oct.

eating was shit. i was worried today might trigger me, and it really did. i am mentoring the new students at university and today we went to the university canteen. i did bring my own food which only contained 150kcal but I did get a side salat and 2 potatoes there and additionally a small dessert. so way too much. but - against my effort so far to not purge at university/work - i did do that today after having lunch there. i tried being fast so i only got out little but I felt way better afterwards and my belly aching got better.

but then we held another event in which we handed out snacks and stuff and i ate a lot. like unconscious eating stuff. i opted for the ones with the smallest amount of calories but.. well i suppose i don't have to explain why that made me feel disgusting.

at home I made myself a salad with 150kcal, instant ramen with two eggs. then I couldn't stop eating and ate a yoghurt. I'm very relived I've been able to get out all the yoghurt, all the noodles, and even part of the salad. but frankly that one is fine to keep inside.

but soon only acid started coming up. but it looked like some of the snacks were yet being disposed by the acid and i could still get some up. so I kept throwing up acid (which is really disgusting, i usually stop purging as soon as I hit the acid) wishing to reduce the calorie intake further but knowing the snacks i ate this afternoon are already inside with the calories they have. i have no idea what my intake today has been. all I know is, it was way too much and even though purging was great cause I really hit the sweet spot in my throat, there's no way it made up for all i ate today.

[growingboi]

I genuinely have no idea what came over me yesterday 😭 I just woke up so horny and hungry & couldn't resist spending almost literally the whole day stuffing my face and obsessing over how fat I've gotten...

Made a little timeline of my gluttony 🙃 Mid lunch break, post lunch break, post dinner, post dessert

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

So I (25afab, with autism and adhd [sorry if redundant it felt needed]) am 5'7" and 160lbs and have issues with remembering to eat leftovers and have a small appetite bc of my meds so I keep some easy snacks around to eat instead of a meal (usually breakfast).

Crackers with cheese and Greek yogurt are the healthy snacks; single serving pringles and cheezits are the unhealthy ones. I will eat one of the healthy ones and one of the unhealthy ones. (I don't know if it's relevant info but these are less than 300 calorie ordeals)

I'm still eating 1-2 meals outside of the snacks. If my husband is working it's one, if he isn't it's two. I'm not gaining or losing weight nor am I just eating them because I'm bored.

I'm usually only hungry between doses of my medication (for example right after waking up I'm ravenous). On days he does work this isnt a problem because then I can just eat my snacks, walk the dog and go about my day; but on days he doesn't is the issue.

It has happend a few times that I've woken up at 8-9am eaten one of my "breakfasts" and walked the dog. Then my husband and I make food at 10-11am and he gets frustrated at me for not being hungry(I take the medication that messes with my appitite at 10am 2pm and 6pm every day). I will eat about half of my food, put it in the fridge for later and then forget about it because it is a never ending cycle with me forgetting.

So AITA for forgetting breakfast/lunch/brunch making with my husband multiple times and forgetting leftovers and for having a small appetite?

(I understand if I am, if you have any solutions I am very open to them)

What are these acronyms?

[vent-account00]

⚠️weight stuff⚠️

I was on my break at work and for about a whole hour I walked around

This is prob the most I’ve willingly walked like without being forced to bc we I was walking somewhere or whatever lolll I’m actually really happy with myself. Hopefully I can do it more often

[notskinnyleeyuh]

school is in a week and i hit my gw!! sounds great doesnt it?? well no, im being admitted to the hospital and will have to stay here for weeks. ana sucks

[habitual-creatures]

Hey Mx. H, question:

What’s your favourite part of the human body to eat? I’m very curious :p

(Also OOC- you’re cool have this 🫴🏻🌹)

IT DEPENDS...

FOR ACTUAL FOOD, FOR MEANINGFUL NUTRITIONAL QUALITY... I FIND THE THIGHS, UPPER ARMS, OR ORGANS (ESPECIALLY THE LIVER OR LUNGS) TO BE BEST...

HOWEVER, I LIKE TO THINK OF MYSELF AS A ROMANTIC...

SO I READILY ADMIT THAT MY FAVORITE PART FOR A... PERSONAL DINING EXPERIENCE IS PROBABLY THE HEART.

IT CAN BE SO BEAUTIFULLY CARVED OUT TOO... WHERE YOU CAN KEEP THEM ALIVE LONG ENOUGH TO WATCH THEM REALIZE WHAT YOUR GOAL IS... YOU CAN FEEL THEIR PULSE SPEED UP AS YOU GET CLOSER TO REMOVING IT FROM ITS CAGE...

IT'S INTOXICATING.

[ REGARDS, HABIT ]

(( gwahhh- thank you for saying you think I'm cool!!!! :'DDD I'm really not, I'm just a goober. And thank you for the digital rose!!! *I left a rose. /ref* sorry btw if this ask is really triggering in any ways to anyone... cannibalism is bad but so fascinating to hear about. :']] I'm weird so I know a lot about it. ))

[cyberspacebear]

this is the hardest i have laughed in months the way their screaming gets cut off is so fucking beautiful

[glittery-phantom]

Ugh I just hope I can recover from those 2 days at least y'know? I had 3 pretty good days at least

[t00r111]

does anyone know how to distract yourself from food or eliminate your appetite? I used to eat like 500cals a day or could fast for like up to 2-3 days but now on my period I literally cannot stop eating💀💀 I feel so disgusting ong. Summer’s soon and I still need to loose weight yet I can’t stop eating