#ate like a pig

[glittery-phantom]

Ugh I just hope I can recover from those 2 days at least y'know? I had 3 pretty good days at least

[growmybelly]

I thought I heard something rip when I sat down with my third plate of Christmas dinner it didn’t think much about till I got home and saw the damage. I probably should’ve skipped dessert but that definitely didn’t happen 🐷

[hersurvival]

he tells me his birthday is just another day but he doesn't realize that it's the passcode combination i've been using for my entire life and this moment was destined.

so i cut cold butter into flour and delicately slice variations of apples for a pie, steal a gold candle from my mother's junk drawer so he may make a wish, deliver it all still steaming, and we eat the entire thing silently, sweetly across the table from one another.

when i tell him i'm shy after he asks me to read to him a poem, nervous and embarrassed, he closes the curtains and learns i snort when i laugh.

and i learn that he's so much more than just a boy.

@nosebleedclub September 14th - Porcine

[ultineeet]

Daily Nagoriyuki 26122023

[yvmoveon]

[ibetittering]

We were talking about Peru in class for some reason today and that just made me remember when I went there and this guy begged me to take a picture with his daughter because I was so white

[uraandri]

having a balkan father should qualify you for whatever benefits staunch conservatives think us veterans deserve

[sunkty]

can u tell when i gave up on drawing

I need to touch paper again I hate digital jdjdhdjd

[skriekie]

A spidersona! Divided up her doodle page like a fool because i cannot be bothered to try planning my art specifically for posting on social media!!

[skeletalheartattack]

do you have any pets in your life (don't have to be yours i just wanna see aminals..) :0

hi jack :) can you watch this while i go smoke

[glittery-phantom]

I am actually so ashamed of myself guys I'm gonna stay off ana-blr for a while and stop responding to people except maybe some ana coaches I'm sorry in advance today has just royally sucked ass how dare I go on ana-blr and then have the AUDACITY

To eat the way I have today literally earlier I may have overreacted honestly because perhaps I didn't actually binge a 1000 calories like I thought I did? I was still so exhausted, I couldn't completely think straight, my vision was still giving me problems and I wanted to pass out, i was still hungry, BUT NOW?

Ugh I fucking made it worse I was advised to eat like a small snack in 18 hours and then try to fast for 26 - 28 hours and I couldn't even make it to the 18 mark I only made it to 16 hours which is 2 hours before my goal and there's literally NO snacks here you wanna know what was here though?! Fucking taco bell! My stupid dumbaas friend got I hate that shit but for some reason I went like "eh it's okay if I eat some of it I'll just purg3 it plus I've already fucked up today why not? AAANNDD literally I kinda did a good job technically it's 2 hours until I gotta eat anyways so whatever"

And what did I fucking do?! Did I wait the 2 hours and eat a snack and then misuse cough syrup to black out like I should've? Did I say yes to ana and NO to food? Haha well you'd be surprised to find out that

NO THE FUCK I DIDN'T!

MY FUCKING FATASS PROBABLY ATE LIKE A 1000 CALORIES IT PROBABLY WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN THAT IF I HADN'T OF "binged" EARLIER!!

now I have to spend maybe 3 - 4 hours puk3ing everything up! Alongside hating myself, water fasting, and exercising, GOSH DAMNIT! I wish I could rewind this day or maybe died in my sleep before I ate something because DEAD PEOPLE CAN'T EAT!

Somebody fucking shoot me istg put a gun up to the back of my skull and threaten to blow my brains out if I eat one more damn calorie!

I'd just like to take a moment before I end this post and give a personal FUCK YOU! to all the culprits I hold responsible in me eating like a slob today ahem so here we go then

B1ng3 eating d1sord3r you have been nothing but a pain in my ass and I just wanna say FUCK YOU! I'll be dammed if I continue to let you ruin my life, my body, and my mind, If you was a physical entity I'd tell you to jump off a bridge and die but YOUR. NOT!!!

Ahem bul1m14 you have been very helpful in me chasing the relief and Euphoria from horrible decisions I have made throughout my life during b1ing3ing however you have also served as a safety net making me feel too comfortable making bad decisions and for that FUCK YOU! but thank you for the Euphoria pookie ily

My friend buying taco bell ahem listen darling thank you and all but I was TRYING to create a severe calorie deficit why would you buy FAST FOOD?! IT'S SO HIGH IN CALORIES I CAN'T EVEN COUNT IT! ugh fuck you man what do you have against me being skinny and pretty?!

Restriction and Fasting listen y'all you have all been like so helpful in many ways but you also make me so sick and hungry and for that I hold you responsible for me eating like a pig for that FUCK YOU! But also like thank you darlings fr

A lack of healthy snacks in this house is also to blame so FUCK THAT!

and lastly we move to the mastermind behind this entire terrible day the one truly responsible for sabotaging me who deserves the biggest "fuck you" of them all and that person is?

MYSELF! HOW DARE YOU NOT ADHERE TO YOUR STRICT ANA D13T HOW DARE YOU SABOTAGE THIS ENTIRE DAY WITH YOUR EXCESSIVE CRAVINGS AND LIES

FUUUCCCCKKK MEEEE!!!!!

[thegenderfluidace]

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nauseoussssss

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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Hating the icky

Life is hate crimeing me rn

And during pride month as well smh

Can’t believe this snxjanxjnsksjs

[23sanguinity]

We all have that one friend we’re eternally grateful to for making us a little less gullible

[jamiemaybeme]

creating a twitch account just to follow bears in trees feels like a Lore Moment

@bearsintreesofficial

[thatrandomartistjavi]

People will literally make shit up about Cheshire to make him look more scarier and malicious all because they can’t comprehend a fictional cat not being the literal devil

[caestusvulpes]

hikari did lean into the 'vegetarian vampire' trope during her time as one. After the whole 'initial bloodlust' took her over and left her both terrified and horrified at what she's done and become, she focused pretty much on consuming pig's blood instead. She'd go to butchers and ask for some and she'd store it by freezing it, and she would even cook it into meals ( paired with a starch, typically ). It tasted better than food she wanted to eat or was accustomed to and that pissed her off hard.

first thing she did after exiting soft cell and doing stone mask research was eat fresh caught fish at a nice restaurant and it was so good she started crying.