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phoenxxcat · 2 years

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how do I stop feeling so guilty for taking the time my body needs to rest. how do I stop blaming myself for my limitations. why do I struggle so much with the little things? I’ve spent all day in bed for a week now, skipping classes and neglecting chores. the only thing that gets me up is feeding my cats. if it weren’t for them, I don’t know how I’d manage.

#just venting pls ignore #college is stressful and life sucks #I’m broker than broke and fafsa wants their money back cause my bastard history teacher dropped me halfway through last semester

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yesninathings · 5 months

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I HAVE 2 FINAL ORAL EXAMS and I am fucking done with my masters!!!!!! (??????)

And I booked them on the same day, tuesday 🤡

One at 9am, second at 10:30

I think I might die actually

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thinlyveiledinsults · 2 years

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Stumbles out of the examination hall covered in blood.

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thedaythealienscame · 4 months

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yeah, if you're really friends then a confession won't change anything whateverrr but. what if it does.

#it's past nine o'clock don't take any of this seriously #i'm not. relationship material i know that in my heart. though i've been accidentally ghosting people less and less with the reintroduction #of my meds and shit. i don't think anybody would ever actually want to kiss and love and hold me without expectation #it doesn't help that they don't live in my country and that isn't an option ANYWAY 😔 like. who gives a shit even at this point #my last (and only) relationship objectively sucked because we were the most 14 14y/os on the planet and i'm still #emotionally and socially stunted #and educationally too. yes am i starting college BUT i'll be a year late. and fucking stressed about it #i'm not. relationship material and YOU DON'T WANT ME and even if you did we're so far away that it doesn't FUCKING MATTER #and it's only ever really been you. it's only been you. for six years of my fucking life it's been you and i'm. not that good to you #even though i want you so bad it literally makes me stupid #vent #delete later #for the love of fuck delete later #just autistic greyromantic things 🤪

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myfriendtheghost · 1 year

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goodnight sweet baby :( <3

#I’m having a bad night :/#which is pretty par for the course at this point lol #but I just feel awful #my stomach hurts so bad (I consumed far too much dairy today so that’s on me)#and I’m stressing about going back to school #because I don’t want to do math #I can’t do math #even basic math #why do I need to take math to get a broadcasting/public relations/advertising degree 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲#college is a scam I don’t wanna go back ugh #but I want a job I have a passion for yk :/#life just sucks rn lmao I just want a break but I know I won’t get one #struggling with regret wbk wbk 🥲#on a brighter note I fought for my life to get oogie boogie bash tickets and SUCCEEDED #I waited 7 hours and experienced crazy glitches but I did ittttt #but yeah anyway I feel like shit I hope josh is having a good night tho <3

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princeanxious · 2 years

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#hi yes i cant be the only young adult that has no fucking clue what to do with their life right?#not even playing the ‘haha same’ card rn but genuinely actually no idea what interests me ‘career-wise’#‘i’m just worried about you. what to you want to do with your life?’ LIKE #FUCK I DONT KNOW I STILL GENUINELY NEVER EXPECTED GETTING THIS FAR #i dont like *anything* specifically enough to want to base a whole life on it.#i dont. *love* things #outside of art anyway. and we already know art aint a viable career in america unless u grind like hell-#-and let me tell u i do not love life enough to grind like hell just to live off the biggest thing that gives me joy #because then it would stop giving me joy #like once upon a time i thought i might do good as a baker and now that i know i cant eat gluten most food is ruined for me #i hate food and making food. eating is a chore and i do not enjoy it. i gave up baking.#like. there are more examples but every avenue i’ve tried to take that i like has failed me in a way that sucks all the joy out of it #having a career feels meaningless to me. going back to college just feels like a pointless and indebting endeavor.#am i just depressed? is my brain just still way off base chemically?#it’s pissing me off and stressing me out honestly.#luka vents #delete later

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aberooski · 9 months

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Every day I tell myself "all I have to do is make it through today" and I'm realizing that I don't know how I feel about the fact that I feel like I have to tell myself that every single day.

#a lot of times it's because I hate my job and I'm miserable #I literally cried in the car on the way home today because I got so stressed during my shift #never work at a movie theater kids it's awful #I wish I didn't #I wish I could have a real job because I fucking went to college I got my fucking dgree #and yet this was the best I could do because I've never had a job in my life so no one would give me the time of day #I feel humiliated every single day I walk into the building #I feel like such a failure and an embarrassment #and that's not to say everyone who works at the theatre ahould feel that way that's now what I'm saying #but that's how I personally feel about myself and the situation that I am in #and we're entering the busiest week of the year so it sucks even more than usual #but also I'm just so tired from this year it's been a really bad one for me and my family #just abysmal in every way #so I have to remind myself I have to make it through the day every day right now #but you know what it's fine I have a chapter done and ready to go on Christmas and it's been almlst 4 years in the making #so in that case I have a present for some of you and I'm really excited about it #it's gonna be a sad Christmas for us because everyone in my family is broke but I hope you guys all have a better holiday than I will #and as someone who adores Christmas like it's my favorite day of the year type adore I'm just really down in the dumps right now #just feeling very sad #but anyway sorry rant over I have to go to bed #I don't get saturday's off and those are my lingest shifts so 🙃#I get christmas eve and christmas ofd tough 😊#but not the day after 🙃#anyway bedtime for me sorry to rant guys #abby's self deprecation hour #abby after dark

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napsaps-archive · 1 year

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#im 18 but i don't feel 18 . like ik it was really stupid of me but i assumed that like. i'd feel like an adult and i don't #and it sucks bc i don't want to be like . a child but i feel like one but im NOT one and it's like everyone is older and has their life tog #ther and then theres just me. :)#and even the kids my age have like a plan and their lives together and its like man wow ok then #and idk. it's just stressful ig. like i completely burnt myself out by the endof senior year and was having frequent anxiety attacks and wa #working so so hard and managed to do at least kind of well!! and now im just. lol. like idk what im gonna do with my life and im going to m #community college and im still with my parents and i dont even know if i want to go into pharmacy like i planned for literally my entire hi #h school career and i don't have a job and i screwed up the volunteer thing i was doing a few months ago so all that networking is fucked u #and like im so so ready for it to be 5 years from now where i hopefully have my life together i want to just skip ahead but i CANTTTT and #it's literally the worst thing in the world i freak out every time i thinkabout my future in any level of specificity . like . anyway

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vilelittlecritter · 1 year

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Me looking at people losing their shit at my art and my reaction being "WHAT IS BRO TALKING ABOUT🔥🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️"

#not to shit on the parade but like tf you guys on about that shit sucks ass #i barely draw and you can fuckijg tell #for an art student i dont actually do it enough lol #im sitting here looking at people three years younger than me put out actual passionate shit because they took the time to actually care #makes me feel wasteful almost #this is likely the depression talking but im just not feeling good. my art just feels so damn uninspired and dull #works been stressful and busy. i can't even go to college. ive had to move out of my house and dont get me started on my personal life #generally shit feels so fucked the now and it feels like i cant get a fucking break #again this is likely me just being emotional but im just dealing with alot the now and its getting to me #sorry for the ramble #vent #tw vent #cw vent #random rambles #delete later

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starlit-roses-ships · 2 years

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i just want my f/os to wrap me up and give me a hug and tell me everything's gonna be okay. is that so much to ask ;_;

#vent tag #hi things are ✨not great✨ currently #I cannot handle this stress from college rn I just fucking can’t #and on top of all that I’m getting fucked over in other ways from the ppl around me and it’s just like…ffs can you not?#can you not add to the immense amount of stress I’m already under right now??#I’m getting majorly screwed by some of my professors rn and you have to make my life even harder??? for real???#so uh anyway fuck everyone bc everyone sucks and is extremely incompetent actually.#this turned into a full on rant in the tags but idgaf. if someone has a problem with it they can go fuck themselves.#I’m not in the mood to play nice or play games with anyone and this is my blog and I can do whatever I damn well please #god my f/os are like the only thing keeping me afloat rn. everything sucks ass #and I know I should be sleeping but I have a stress headache and I’m just… ugh

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mayonakano-archive · 2 years

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i'm going to delete this later but i need to just. yell.

#delete later #vent in tags #anyway uhhhhh any time i even so much as think in the direction of college i start crying so thats a good sign /s #given that i. almost never cry :)#i am. terrified. in the optimal world i'd just drop out and live under my bed or something because my issues are. frankly overwhelming #at this point. i can barely sleep properly despite trying to keep a proper schedule (i woke up at THREE this morning.)#im constantly flipping between being almost suicidally depressed and feeling nothing at all and it's terrible. i don't have any real #desire to hurt myself and most of my intrusive thoughts go the way of 'you should break stuff/hurt others/etc' but man #sometimes i have to step away from stuff just because i see a knife or a fork and wonder what i can do with it.#college makes me terrified and i know my parents fucking suck because otherwise they'd care a little more about the fact #that i can barely do anything or function but nah. all they want is the perfect little child. and now i'm paralyzed #i don't trust my ability to work because of my exhaustion and i know once i go to uni i can't count on any support from my parents #whatsoever so i'm just... stuck. uni's meant to be less grueling in terms of hours than HS but...#stacking work and school sounds like fucking HELL but i don't have the money or support to NOT work...#so all i can do is stress and stress and stress and stress and struggle to even start my essay and feel everything slipping away #because god? do i even remember half of the days i live through anymore? do i even care about the work i'm doing?#no. i'm dogshit at programming to the point where i've been stuck for a month. i can barely do work without spacing out or ignoring class #entirely just to talk to my brother because at least THERE's a little joy in my life. everything else feels so bleak and pointless #i can't do anything meaningful with this godawful life of mine. but all i can do is keep muddling through. because nothing scares me more #than the idea of dying. so that's off the table. so i'll just keep stressing and crying and wondering if it's even worth it.#ugh... if anyone actually read all this just pretend you didn't...

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itisthevelaness · 2 years

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Finally I sat down to study which btw I told myself that I'd do a week ago. Oof how time flies!

#chaotic academia #chaotic thoughts #dead poets society #dark academia #musings #alone and stressed #anxious mess #law student #student life #international law #law school #studystudystudy #studygram #college student #everything sucks

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introvertedeviant · 5 months

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Yall life is so CRAZYY, I’m going back to school this summer lmaooo

#speech is not my field after all 🥲#deep down I always knew I was never gonna apply to grad school #I knew it in my heart #like I could still apply but I don’t think I would be motivated enough to go through with it #it would be a disservice to me and to the kids I would help #rn I am so stressed with trying my very best to be at least a decent therapist for them but I know I suck #I’m new and I’m struggling a lot #eventually I know I will get better but it’s gonna be an uphill battle #but I don’t think I could do this for the rest of my life #I’m not passionate enough #currently having a mid life crises but not really bc I know what I’m gonna do now :)#I’m finally doing what I’ve been thinking about for years !! since I was in college #but it was always some fleeting thought that i would never actually get to do #but it was always interesting to me #and I know it will be hard but im willing to do it bc it’s genuinely something I want to do #yall I hope everything goes alright cuz it’s gonna be a whole ass new journey #late night rambles

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birbtails · 6 months

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#gods #im .. in trouble this semester #which sucks bc i was doing so much better last semester #i stopped going to therapy!!#which i think i knew at the time was a Problem #but my therapist suggested it and i didn't want to but i couldn't come up with a better reason than im worried ill nosedive next semester #to be fair to me while i was feeling so much better i knew i wasnt .. stable i guess?#in her defense i can't tell anyone the whole truth even if my life was on the line #and by cant i mean some combination of wont dont want to and its instinctive #but the problem is im failing one of my classes and im at least a little bit suicidal and i havent told anyone really and gods i feel lonely #(and by a little bit suicidal i mean thinking of ways to kill myself 2 days ago. im feeling better now but i don't trust it)#(by feeling better i mean im not Actively thinking of methods but it definitely crosses my mind as a Possibility)#(although i guess its a bit less i want to die and a bit more i want someone to find me before i die and help me)#so anyways this semester might be replacing 10th grade as the worst year of my life #im just.. so tired #i don't want to keep living like this #and im sucking it up and making myself do better but i Hate this #and ive got to think about summer plans bc i don't want to go back to my parents house but i also Really want to bc i can see my brother and #maybe i can see my friends(?) and maybe if i tell my parents everything that's been going on theyll take care of me?#but i Really want to stay here bc i always regret going home and bc ive gotten used to living on my own and i really like all the freedom it #gives me?? but i need to get an internship or a job or something if i want to stay here but its So Late and now that im thinking about it im #worried that ill be so isolated here that ill feel worse? but if i get a therapist here then maybe itll be okay??#i don't know #and im almost done with my junior year and i don't know what i want to do with my future and #i just never thought id get this far yknow? i honestly thought i wasnt going to make it to 18 or college and now im almost 21 and so close #to graduating?? and i don't know how to face the rest of my life #im just tired and stressed and depressed #i just want a hug and a friend that i can tell everything to #ne ways im just tired and whiny and i need to suck it up and get groceries and do my hw

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nappingpaperclip · 8 months

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does anyone else feel like they’ve never been not stressed out??

like idk…I’ve been chronically stressed since I became conscious. I grew up in an incredibly stressful environment. ever since I moved out I’ve been stressed about school or work or housing or just finding food . There is always something. I’ve never had a break from stress that lasted longer than a day or two. does anyone else relate? what am I supposed to do about this

#not to trauma dump [voice of a guy who’s abt to trauma dump in the tags] but #growing up under incredible stress has probably fucked me up forever so idk what to do anymore #constant screaming/fighting and like not a lot but sometimes domestic violence #also like. being incredibly poor. and living in a hoarder house #animal hoarding #being incredibly medically and emotionally and otherwiseneglected #alongside neglected animals. dealing with unresolved flea infestations #forcibly enrolled into advanced academic stuff and unable to drop out even when my mental health could not take it #like it literally took an emergency room visit to convince my mom to let me drop out and even then I had to spend months playing catch up b #something they don’t tell you about trying to kys and going to a ward is most of your teachers won’t excuse ur missing work or care at all #also got outed to my mom by the mental hospital #sorry to trauma dump I just idk. my life sucks lol and no therapist I’ve ever gone to has actually cared or listened to everything I’ve bee #thruough #oh and I got groomed. awesomesauce #then graduated hs during 2020 right at the beginning of the pandemic 💔#a couple years go by bc I’m too busy with my coworkers raging psychological warfare on me lol and my ex roommate trying to kick us out #then just starting college while working thank god I was able to move out and my mom moved back to Kentucky #but now I am just starving and I no longer have food stamps and idk I just 💔 working and going to college is so hard and I’m not even full #time if either rn #but I also fell out with literally my only close friend recently so yea.#life just feels like one big test that I keep failing over and over again #like idk how am I supposed to be normal or live a normal life after all I’ve been through. I’ve seen enough!!#the world just has always and continues to look so bleak and cruel to me #idk. idk.#maybe I’m just doomed by the narrative #trauma dumping #vent #.txt #typing it all out and reading it like this makes me idk. it doesn’t look so bad when I reread it like I think I’m just being dramatic idk #ripping out mt hair I just want to be normal

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pigaletta · 11 months

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#Being in vet med is so damn bleak all the time because whenever you get hope there's always some drawback that basically nullifies it.#looking for a clinical pg with rank 183 in the country but whoops can't go to your own state #and other states universities will put you in a college in buttfuck nowhere rather than their best ones #like...I am so fucking tired. Every time I try to fight my depression something comes back and reinforces it harder.#it's things like this that make me want to leave the field and do something less heavy even if the hours are longer #whenever. WHENEVER I talk to a vet it's just bleak. Everything sucks everywhere. It's a matter of choosing your hell.#EVEN THE HAPPIER VETS #And there's no promise that if I try to go abroad I won't get crippling depression there too.#like. why do I try? why didn't I choose to go to NISER when I had the chance?#Why didn't I pick a job where I can just sit at a computer all day and not have to talk to anyone #how much do airport ground staff earn? maybe I could be a tug driver. Maybe I could have done some degree to become a flight mechanic.#why didn't I know when I finished school that my mental health is fragile as fuck and I need a job that doesn't make it this much worse #I'll run a photostat shop. I'll learn to fix laptops. Anything.#People raise families with that kind of income. Surely I can look after myself with it.#Why is everything bleak all over the world all the time in veterinary medicine? why is there no silver lining anywhere?#I'm sick of this. I'm sick of being decent at my job but not being able to handle the reality of how stressful it is.#I'll do any manual labour job day in and day out six and a half days a week for my whole life but this is just killing me #rant #I'm unrealistic and ungrateful and addicted to quick dopamine #but god I wish I wasn't suffering from depression of varying degrees since 2015.#vent #personal

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