#life sucks right now

[chrissy-kaos]

Awww my switch died.. looks like you gotta catch me instead of some Pokémon 😜

[eddiemunsonsrightnipple]

Guess who’s using Joe/Eddie to keep their mind occupied from the utter shitshow that is their life?

[spaceofentropy]

Last night, the first snow of this winter fell on us.

Last night, my friend Dave died in his sleep.

The more hours pass, the more I realize I've been mourning Dave for the past 10 months.

I've been mourning him since the moment his brother told us that he had been rushed straight from the ER to the ICU, and that there was a chance he wouldn't make it.

I can count on the fingers of one hand the number of times Dave and I were in the same room.

It's one of those Internet friendships that started on a blog around 2009-2010 and went beyond the screen, if only on so rare occasions.

Dave was… So many things!

He had a brilliant mind and an encyclopedic knowledge of music, books, movies, TV shows, RPG systems. He loved old pulp and new pulp, classic fantasy and hard sci-fi, most kinds of horror, noir movies and Hong Kong action, screwball comedies and adventure flics. He had three movie podcasts with as many friends, because he liked to talk about the things he loved, and he loved so many things, Jesus, so many things!

He wrote for his two blogs, plus novels, short stories, non fiction, rpg material, a whole setting for Savage Worlds. He paid all his bills through his writing, which anyone can tell you is fucking HARD AS FUCK, even more so as an Italian writing in English.

I think I owe some of my sanity during the 2020 lockdown in part to the fact he asked me if I wanted to play with him and his group via non-zoom.

I said yes, immediately.

It became a staple of my weeks, that Friday meeting to play one rpg or the other, and if too many people were not present, to just talk about books and politics and life and tv shows.

Until February 2024 and the first bad news.

And now this news.

I've tried being optimistic, these past 10 months, because he was beating the odds again and again and again.

He was a lucky GM, rolling that impossible roll was par for the course for him.

Until, last night, it wasn't anymore.

I don't know what life is gonna be like now that he's gone. Can the world even go on without Dave in it? Without his brilliant mind and his wit and his voice?

He was a micropaleontologist and a Zen practitioner. He'd be the first one to tell me that yes, the world will go on, Earth has been through several mass extinctions, what is one little death gonna matter to the whole of it? Everything is temporary.

He'd probably say something cool, right now, or quote someone even cooler. Or maybe just talk about the need to let go, even when it's someone as cool as him.

I don't know.

I really don't want to have to discover what the world will look like, now that he's not in it anymore.

I will have to.

It's a new world to explore and chart.

I'm just so incredibly angry that I'll have to do that without my friend by my side, recommending books, or delighting in my hate for obnoxious people, or asking what my character is gonna do next. Life feels emptier already.

[yoonqiful]

This has become my last resort.

I need help raising $700 to fix the heating and cooling blower motors in my car.

After 4 unsuccessful attempts going through banks to try to get a loan and being denied I have no other options.

It’s the middle of July and I have a 2 year old while also being 6 months pregnant with my second so I am in desperate need of fixing this. The windows down driving just simply doesn’t help in this heat and humidity. With fall coming in a few months my heat doesn’t blow either.

I appreciate any and all help that anyone is able to give. Even if you don’t want to help, could you please share this!?!?

Venmo: ashcash981

Paypal: https://www.paypal.me/jinxlittle

[strangegrapefruit]

feels like I'm having a mid-life crisis at 25

[make-me-imagine]

Life Update

Haven't been that active but I thought I'd make an update post for those who care lol.

I got pretty sick about a week ago, thought it was a cold but it turns out it was Covid. Went three years without ever getting it, but it finally got me, and unfortunately got my mom as well. She is now in the hospital being treated there (due to her COPD it affected her more). I am still positive but don't have any symptoms anymore besides a mild cough.

My dad s also sick, but not with Covid, but possible RSV or some type of infection/flu.

Things suck and I'm stressed, so there is that.

xx

[brindlestorm]

Objectively I know that I haven't done anything wrong and that some people just suck, but it seriously feels like the universe is out to get me and I don't understand what I've done to deserve all this crap I'm being put through

[rebka18]

I'll be in a mini hiatus for a while,thank You ❤️

[bloodypeachblog]

Life update: 4/18/2023

• Computer has slowed to a crawl and freezes constantly. Tried everything from chkdsk to updates, and nothing's fixed. I'll have to save up for a new laptop. So itll be a while til I can write again.

• house furnace is broken again. House is at 54 degrees Fahrenheit. Outside is 37 degrees Fahrenheit. It's been like this for 2 days. My mom is trying to get the electrician over. Currently in bed to stay warm.

• been making beanie hats in my spare time. Trying to sell em off. If you're interested, please message me and I can explain further.

• currently coming off of Prozac because of chronic migraines and nausea from the meds. I'm switching to Viibryd soon. Doc wants me to wait for a week or two so its fully out of my system. I'll update you on how I do.

• got ideas for fics and am currently gathering info for Trigun series (via ai character chats, wiki articles, episode clips, full episodes, etc)

• application for apartment is going smoothly. Havent been able to work on it further due to computer problems, unfortunately. But my boyfriend and I did look at houses on Zillow for ideas on what to have for a house.

So yeah, kinda hanging on to the edge of the crap shoot at the moment, but I'll get out of it soon. I'll still be active on my personal blog. Hope you guys have a good day and stay warm/cool!

[thatmermaidroozies5]

Pretty shitty when going for a long walk doesn’t fix you.

[batimathebat]

I hate how one of the worst possible things that could happen in my life just happened out of nowhere

[chrissy-kaos]

Tell me if I'm lost, and all the days it took

I gave it all I had, without a second look

And I need breathing room, if I don't see you soon

I think I'll die inside, I'll blame it all on you

I think I'm gone for good, it happened faster than it should

And now it's upside down, I must've misunderstood

[smolsaltypan]

It feels like every time life gets to be slightly okay everything goes wrong

[hannahthewannabeartist]

I forgot this thing existed again. My cousin is currently in a warzone right now can you blame me?

[daisies-n-sunflowers]

If there is any way that you can say some prayers for my Mom, I would really appreciate it. She may have bone cancer (lymphoma). I can't lose her, she is everything to me. 😭

[quinbi]

We talk about the signs of emotional neglect and abuse from childhood, but one of the greatest? Knowing that even when your brain is reduced to a 5 yo with a fever, you will take care of the basics. And why that makes alcohol such an easy crutch for all the other concurrent problems.