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rainbowcrowley · 5 months ago
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nope'd out of school today bc i just wasn't feeling it. yay for setting boundaries i guess..?
i'm overworked and this 👌🏻 close to another burnout. i need vacation.....
2 weeks left......
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phoenxxcat · 2 years ago
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how do I stop feeling so guilty for taking the time my body needs to rest. how do I stop blaming myself for my limitations. why do I struggle so much with the little things? I’ve spent all day in bed for a week now, skipping classes and neglecting chores. the only thing that gets me up is feeding my cats. if it weren’t for them, I don’t know how I’d manage.
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breninarthur · 2 years ago
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i do ultimately write when darkness comes for me, but it's still really disheartening to work hard on it for so little payoff. the new chapter is nearly 4k and took over 3 months to get right... and it's had an extra four hits with no more kudos or comments 🙃
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fangirlwithasweettooth · 25 days ago
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so much annoying but very insignificant stuff has happened since I left work and I’m fighting off a meltdown about it hahhahaha this is so fun
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weirdmeal · 3 months ago
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i got a cpap machine ages ago and finally set it up but i hate it so much i feel like a science project like in a bad way
like there’s all this shit wrong with me and i find something new every day and i can’t even fucking Sleep normal
can i just have a break. like can i just wake up healthy or something. i think i would give almost anything to just have a normal fucking body again even for a day
like no pain no dizzy spells or weakness or fatigue. functioning correctly for the first time in years. could you imagine. if i didn’t need a fucking Breathing Machine to even sleep or a cane or 700000000 medications. if i didn’t have to fear my inevitable physical decline years before all my friends because my body is made of fucking wet paper
and i’ll be fine i’ve managed so far. but i see how my mom and sister are doing and i know what’s coming for me sooner rather than later
just. some days it’s enough to make me slip backwards a little bit
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resident-tomb-rat · 2 years ago
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bruh i hate myself so much lol
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angelpuns · 1 month ago
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Me looking at the super long definitely TMI diary-type vent post in my drafts: haha yeah you're gonna live there forever until I delete you <3
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fyodior · 3 months ago
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fuckyeah-bears · 2 years ago
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whhhhyyyyyyyyy is everything sooooo motherfucking expensive????? don’t they know I can’t afford all this shit???
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kaiserkisser · 2 months ago
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can someone nice (!!) please please please adopt me im begging you im requesting you (huge word vomit and vent in tags, pls dont read if u dont want to!! and if you don't want this stuff on this blog PLS lmk!! i dont wanna make anyone uncomfy! )
#tw vent#yes ik i have a vent blog#but idk why i dont wanna go there#ill prolly delete this in a while + if i vent here (which ill try not to) ill always tag it#but if any of yall aren't fine with it pls do lmk!!! ill stop <3#Anyways.#fucking hell i hate this.#dude#i very specifically told them to hurry the fuck up THEY were the ones making us late#i have told them a hundred times the minimum time i jeed to get ready#i told them this morning too that you guys make us late then put it all on me#nad she went like oh no dear dont worry that wont happen#WELL GUESS WHAT BITCH#and like the lecture and huge ass scolding and then cold shouldet ive been getting from BOTH of them before i left for coachinh#im just tired atp#idk its not even that big a deal this happens everyday#i dont know how to feel#idk if im even rly feeling anything atp#its just that i really fucking hate being here#I wanna get the fuck out#but thing is this makes me feel kinda guilty occasionally#for eg a few days ago i was rly sick and she took care of me kinda#and then that made me feel bad for hating her#but then things like this happen and i cant help it and i feel so conflicted#i dont want to stay here i know that for sure but i feel guilty for it#if i speak im being rude and backtalking#if i dont speak im being rude and ignoring#the fuck am i supposed to do????#she always tells me to 'stay silent and just hear it'#and when i do that she keeps shouting again and again and finally i say smth bc although its extremely fucking dumb of me to open my mouth
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wolfchans · 18 days ago
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I hate you sudden waves of sadness!!! We were doing soo good today!! What is it that sets you off every time 😞
Just feeling like curling up in bed and never waking up again but i have so much to do
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madolecence · 5 months ago
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Listen 99% of the time I’m fine being single bc there’s nothing wrong with it and relationships don’t always bring you peace but that 1% of the time I am FUCKING PISSED I’M SINGLE bc I feel so alone like c’mon. Logically it’s nothing about me but what is it about me why haven’t I even met anyone I’ve actually liked in years
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kexing · 21 days ago
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relating a little too hard to aioon on this gloomy day
i’ve always been the ugly/boring cousin, i didn’t have siblings while growing up but my father has a baby girl now who’s obviously the favorite, i’m just the older loser daughter which caught me completely off guard akdjskdjs i was never really included in friend groups but that didn’t bother me all that much cuz i don’t like groups. i had a very fulfilling friendship for more than ten years tho and now we don’t talk anymore which hurts me daily but i can’t even blame the other person
so where does all that grief go? where do i put it? or should i just let it live in my house like a roommate?
but i know i also don’t make things easier. people try to include me in their circles sometimes yet i still feel like an outsider no matter where i go. no i don’t have kids, no i will NOT marry a man and women don’t want me so i’ll die alone, no i can’t keep a job anymore cuz i’m too depressed and my therapist thinks i’m a danger to myself. what’s that? oh you don’t believe i’m autistic? typical
and you know what, it’s fine. it’s all fine. except that i’m so touch starved, love starved, attention starved that sometimes i don’t even feel human. like i’m losing touch with humanity, with reality and then i feel so fucking empty
feeling emotions can be hella uncomfortable but nothing’s worse than just feeling completely empty. like a massive void, like i’m going to swallow myself and everything else around me at any given moment.
it feels so all consuming it scares me sometimes, the thought that maybe i’m doomed to only cause harm. but i don’t want to, i don’t want to be a bad presence in people’s lives but maybe i’ve always been
maybe that’s why i’m alone. it’s safer for everyone this way
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fic-dumpster · 22 days ago
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The problem when you think you won’t be writing anymore so you left your WIPs everywhere and your memory equals to Dory is that you depend so much on notes and documents. AND WHEN YOU CANT FIND NEITHER AND YOUR LIFE ENDS? WHAT THEN?
I have searched through all my drives and notes apps and old phones and computers… why am I so messy 🧍🏻‍♀️.
So…
This is all I could compile. Notion is so much better😫🤲🏻. Aaaaamd I’ll get one or two chapters posted this weekend (tomorrow and Sunday).
Then I might re-read TR and the fanbook and wikis hahahahaahjaa gosh… I’m invested. I hate leaving unfinished projects… but it’s a curse that I carry.
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minediamonds · 1 month ago
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Okay so I have tons of drafts, but not tons of muse. TLDR version: I will possibly drop some drafts after I do some today, muse and energy depending. <3
Also, still insecure RP-wise, so if anyone can spare some positivity, I'd appreciate it <3
The longer version is: I have 100+ drafts and don't know when or if my muse for some of them will return. So...what I'm going to do is I'm going to go through my drafts and queue some responses. Then, when I'm done, I will go through my drafts and drop some that I don't know when the muse will return. However, me dropping a draft does NOT equal dropping the relationship/connection between our muses. It just means I no longer have inspiration for that particular interaction.
Also, I'm still feeling insecure RP-wise, and I'm trying not to worry about it too much, as that tends to make the insecurities worse. I just feel really blah tbh, and don't know what will improve these blah feelings. I keep losing mutuals, and never having a clue as to why. That, and I genuinely have threads with so many people who are no longer following and so I'm just like "to reply or not to reply? That is the question." I guess I'll just reply when I have the muse (if I have the muse) and see what happens. But it's hard.
Not gonna lie, I'm probably going to go lower activity on this blog, at least once I get my drafts to a more manageable level. I don't want anyone to feel obligated to follow me or anything, of course not. I just...do people not want to follow me? And if so, why? These are the questions that have been haunting me. And the worst part is, I'll probably never have satisfactory answers to either of these questions. So I just need to find a way of moving on.
I really don't want to dwell on this, honestly. But sometimes my insecurities get to me and I feel like I'm a bad RPer and writer and that everyone could easily replace me with someone better. Idk how to get rid of these feelings, but I want to. I don't want them to ruin my experience in the RPC.
Obviously, I can't control what others do, only what I do. And some may say "just stop overthinking it" , "don't worry about it you're fine" etcetera. But to me, the more people unfollow, the more I'm convinced that my insecurities are right. And this is NOT me saying people don't have the right to unfollow me, of course they do. Everyone has to curate their dash in the way that's best for them. I get it. I bear them no ill will, really. I just wish there was a way I could feel more secure in the mutuals and followers I do have, because I do genuinely appreciate every single one. But ever since I moved, I've been feeling this way (and before the move too). I genuinely want to move on but then....I lose another follower/mutual and the insecurities rear their ugly head again.
I guess, what I'm saying is that I just want to feel more secure in my place in the RPC. That people genuinely want to write with me, etcetera. And I don't know how that's going to happen. I don't have all the answers, as much as I wish I did.
Also, obviously there are plenty of reasons for people to unfollow that don't equal "me sucking at RPing". But because of my insecurities, I tend to assume that the worst case scenario is the truth, even if I know it's likely more complex than I'm giving it credit for. I don't know why I have these insecurities on my RP blog, as I genuinely don't care when someone unfollows my personal. I just do whatever I want on there. But somehow, I have myself convinced that if people unfollow me in the RPC, it can only mean that I'm a terrible RP partner and not...you know....1000000000000000 other things it could mean.
If anyone can spare any positive energy or thoughts my way, I would appreciate it. Truly. <3
And just know, that if we're mutuals, ILY and want to write with you and am just waiting for my drafts to get more under control if we haven't written yet. <3 But still, feel free to send memes. I'm always accepting them <3
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bird1e-painty · 3 months ago
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sorry guys idk why has my posts become increasingly more sad i swear im trying not to project all my sadness onto here
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