#but. the things i get exhausted for. the things i just feel like i cant do anymore. theyre real

[ghoularaki]

honeymoon suite with our beloved nanaminnn 🥺😚

NOW ENTERING HEART'S DESIRE MOTEL

cw: riding, soft sex, slight nipple play

“Do you want bubbles?”

“Of course I want bubbles!” You giggled.

Both of you were still in the nude. Nanami stood by the facet of the heart-shaped tube big enough to fit three people. Your legs were still weak so you sat on the lip of the tub, waiting for it fill. As Nanami poured soap in the tub, you swirled your hand in the mixture.

The rushing water soothed you as you swung your legs to drop your body in the almost too hot water. You sighed as the warmth encompassed your aching body. Flipping the faucet off, Nanami followed you.

You watched as he stepped inside and the tub no longer felt so big. Tucking himself in one of the rounded edges of the heart, he opened his arms. With a smile, you shuffled your way into his embrace. Wrapping around you, he held you to his chest.

Bubbles surrounded you both. Cupping some of the foam, you looked at him and blew it at him. He wrinkled his nose it splattered against his face, but he made no complaint. Turning you around, he took some of the soap and washed your back.

You sagged forward, still playing with the bubbles. Nanami continued to thoroughly cleaned you. His hands crept forward and pushed you to rest your back against his chest. Scooping up more bubbles, Nanami paid extra attention to your breasts.

Boldly, he cupped the flesh and squeezed. You moaned and let your head lull into the crook of his shoulder. He continued to prod, pinching your nipples between his fingers. While he rubbed the fat of your tits, he tweaked your nipples.

Instinctively, your legs fell open. One of his hands dipping into the water and cupped your pussy. His two middle most fingers dragged up and down your slit. He petted you slowly. Plunging his digits inside, he scooped the last of his cum in you. Though it felt more like it was fucking it back in you.

“K-kento,” You sighed.

“Do you want more?”

“Yes, please.”

He smiled and kissed your temple, “Such good manners.”

Temporarily departing from you, Nanami spun you around. Straddling his thighs, you hovered his cock. The soapy water was too opaque to see so he guided you. Tilting your hips forward, his cockhead caught on the rim of your hole. Squirming, you slid further down. Your mouth dropped as he filled you once more.

Nanami groaned at your hips meeting. Gripping on your waist, he pushed upwards just to drop you back down. Little hiccups bubbled in your throat as he bobbed you up and down, using you like a toy. Wrapping your arms around his chest, you let him set the pace, just there for the ride.

Planting his feet on the slippery floor, Nanami canted his hips into yours with each descent. Despite his hard thrusts, the pace was slow. Nanami just wanted to feel you and you wanted the same.

Nuzzling into the side of his neck, you gave him tiny moans as he worked you over the edge. Rolling your hips, your cunt squeezed him as he bullied the spot deep in you. Digging your fingers into the muscles of shoulders, you came with a whimper.

“There ya go,” Nanami praised you.

Even though you were exhausted, you kept rocking your hips to get him closer. Nanami abandoned clutching on your waist and instead wrapped his arms around you once more. You couldn’t move as he came deep in you.

Nanami rubbed your back as he came down from his high. You kissed his neck, giggling.

“Good thing we are already in the tub.”

Nanami chuckled, “Yeah, good thing.”

[dayurno]

this is somewhat of a vent post & something i said i would not do again but has been plaguing me enough that i think getting it out might feel better. so. has anydoggy else been. Baffled and upset by nora sakavic’s refusal to speak on how terribly aftg has treated its characters of color? with the author of the series coming back with a new book and starting up on her online activity again, and questions of what she’d change about aftg bubbling up, it’s particularly glaring to me that we are all playing this very long game of pretend where we ignore how badly the non-white cast has been treated & her lack of thoughts on it

and i understand not wanting to bring up nicky and thea because people pick on her for it. i’m not trying to discredit nora sakavic’s terrible history of getting harrassed online by aftg fans. but i think it is very cynical, and it is very juvenile, and most of all very cruel, that she gets to ignore the very real ways the books have set up these characters to be hated. i think it’s obvious why the characters who get the most hate are the only canonical characters of color, and i think we do not get to treat this like a deliberate decision on the fandom’s part when the books have put these same characters in degrading and embarrassing and terrible positions in the first place. aftg is not a story about nice characters with clean pasts, but there is a very specific nastiness to the only characters of color being a brown man who sexually harasses and later assaults the main character, a black woman whose only scene is her lashing out at her love interest after being ignored for the first two books, and the japanese villain who gets maybe two lines of complexity before he goes back to being a terrible person. the white cast, in comparison, while not at all free from flaws, are never shown to commit mindless evil; all of their actions are ultimately justified. the book goes out of its way to give them concession after concession. we know exactly who to side with, because aftg tells us who these people are. does nicky’s assault ever get addressed in the books? does riko’s reasoning to be the way that he is ever gets more than briefly aluded to? is thea reserved even a shred of humanity or grace in her one scene?

anyway. it’s been years of talking about this and the fandom has been constantly hostile to criticism in this regard, and more recently any criticism at all, and it’s Grating to be on the other side of this discussion. it’s exhausting to know that in ten years we do not get even an acknowledgment besides the author saying she will not answer questions about nicky and thea anymore. it’s upsetting and it’s ugly and i wish no one had to talk about this again, but we do because what i thought was common sense has been washed away by a sudden influx of no-nuance adoration for the trilogy. basically i hope we all explode

[rosekasa]

there is something so. intensely frustrating about feeling incapable of showing up for people the way that they want you to

[amrv-5]

Going to walk into the fucking water 🙏👍🚶➡️🌊

[sevenyeargap]

i am in pain i am tired of everything and most of all i am tired of being nice and just want to go apeshit

[ganondoodle]

in light of the news that riot games is letting go 11% of their workers (over 500 people), including long time workers responsible for big parts of the best lore in the entire league ip, AND cutting down LoR AND abandoning Riot Forge (the best idea they had in years lol)-

i stopped playing league a long time ago for multiple reasons, but one of the big ones were my annoyance with the increasingly shit ass monetization (thats only getting WORSE and MORE exploitative) and my frustration with its constant boring ass design decisions (like every new champ being either sexy girly girl that looks like all of the rest of them or sexy guy thats also starting to have the same problem plus all skins putting female champs in just another dress no matter how monsterfied the male champs were-) with my only interest in it being the lore and the attachment i felt to certain characters

im not even really interested in arcane anymore .. i was looking forward to it bc i like fortiches work alot but given how riot immedaitely wanted to make it canon (a dumb and stupid idea) after the first season was successful, which already made it less enjoyable for me, this is just ... idk, what does it matter

these news together with how bafflingly badly written totk was and its subpar quality (especialyl for that PRICE) that made me fear the future of loz yet it was still wildly sucessful (we deserve better than this!!), the recent commercial success of the plagiarism pokemon slavery/trafficking game and the general situation of the games industry, with AI rampant and CEOs sucking it up to shareholders only, constant massive lay offs everywhere in every studio

i have little hope left there will be new, good, games from big studios .. what an exhausting shitty world we live in

[icewindandboringhorror]

"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"

I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming

[bulbabutt]

i sure hope as a second mass exodus from twitter occurs (along with the overwhelming conservative nature of the world right now) we dont keep getting more people demanding purity culture. you cant demand every pervert on the internet 'kys' or else there will eventually be no one left on the internet. that window of acceptability will always swing back further and further until the idea of sharing a bed as a married couple is taboo once again.

this is one of the last bastions of peace we have where you can post queer or diverse or maybe just weird art without getting spotted by bigoted grifters trying to make money off outrage culture calling you a pervert or worse. and its entirely imperfect as a website with its own fucking problems, but i really hope the people on it dont start getting worse.

i dont care what you do so long as youre kind to others and respect their rights to exist, and their boundaries. that shouldnt be a controversial statement but i bet i lose followers over it again.

it should also go without question that this does not include people who celebrate fascism. those are the people you need to make clear do not belong in your spaces, people who wilfully wish harm on the more marginalized.

and i understand that i keep bringing this up, that i sound like a broken record and perhaps thats annoying, but im honestly worried about it. i think modern social media and the nature of needing to network to be found by an algorithm that doesnt like anything controversial makes everyone worse. makes you try to be as broadly acceptable as possible. but thats always going to be a losing battle as more and more things become less acceptable.

i think a lot of you just might not have been alive before 2008, but anonymity on the internet is so important. it keeps you safe. we lost that at some point, as the socials with your full name and phone number started forcibly adding your boss to your friends list. made everyone start locking down their shit, as a random meme about 'boss makes a dollar i make a dime' can get you fired.

theres a lot of outing and doxxing culture thats so fucking normalized, and as the world grows more hostile to people who make a stink about things, i hope you dont find any excuse to get them hurt just so you can separate yourselves from them. i want you to think about things like the hayes code, where being gay could get you labelled a pervert. so you might think 'its okay ive never done anything inappropriate on the internet' (which, i dont believe you about) maybe not yet, but as the ideals of whats socially acceptable turn back to the 1950s you will have. keeping at a witch hunt looking for anyone with immoral art is only feeding the fire that will eat you later.

[thewickerking]

3 year old messages cannot be having me giggling out loud it is three am. Sighs. I think more than anything I just miss having the energy to text as many people as often as I used to. I miss late night conversations while barely awake and memorizing timezones and inside jokes and well okay maybe I do miss specific people. I miss the groupchats and servers and communities i was a part of... especially now when I feel such a lack of community around me.... :/

[professionaljester]

love my bad mental health, love being suicidal all the time

[mitamicah]

I guess I could only live so long on the high from the concerts before falling down a negative spiral again - I hate it

[ayyponine]

not to be a milennial but harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban really is that bitch....

[famewolf]

for so long all I wanted to do was die but now that I'm older, all I worry about is dying too soon. too soon to experience all the things I didn't give myself time for when I was young. I don't want to spend these years overthinking what time I have left

[immortalsins]

the end of exams has been the biggest goal for me to get to for a couple of months but now it's here i'm realising everything is still awful even if i don't have to study for hours on end

[softshuji]

eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

[ganondoodle]

struggling again with extreme artblock and general demotivation (as in nothing seems fun or appealing and you sit around staring at nothing doing nothing bc apparently no matter what i do whether drawing or not drawing i end up like this now)

i started to watch skitties totk video (again) and wrote a big post about how much i hate how the gorons are treated there but saved it as a draft like i have been doing with several rants now in order to not spam people with it over and over

but it does end up feeling like talking to a wall and just kinda .. increasing this looming feeling of extreme loneliness i have been fighting with for .... since i left school really..