#bpd episode stuff

[leyleycraves]

He got mad at me, validly so, and instead of apologizing immediately, i just got defensive/mad back at him and now I can't sleep because I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to do when he leaves me

[succubunniii]

[clovelie]

i am nowhere near a good person, actually.

[gonexinsane]

I’m a burden to everyone in my life

[insaneinpink]

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[blownawayy]

every time i think “all will be alright”, something bad happens

[sad-empty-lost]

I should have been dead by now……

[skinnyr4t]

[saddevilsworld]

i have officially given up

[wish-i-could-tell-u]

But you said you’d understand

[pigeonwinnin]

Is it pathetic of me to just want someone interested enough to ask me questions? About myself, about life, about things I’m interested in that bring me joy?

I find that I like asking a lot of questions about people I care about. I think they’re so amazing and I want to listen to them and figure them out like a speciality puzzle.

But the reciprocation of this is nonexistent and it makes me miss my last friendship that I had this dynamic with that’s almost been gone for ten years.

I don’t want to be tolerated anymore- I want to be cared about.

[succubunniii]

[clovelie]

not now honey, i'm busy thinking about what someone said to me 10 years ago that i'm still not over yet

[raincamp]

splitting on someone and then splitting back but loathing yourself because how dare you think any thoughts even implying that theyre not an amazing perfect human being what were you thinking they can't do anything wrong!! its shameful that you would have thoughts like that. oh they cant read your mind?? oh well they might as well have, they don't deserve to have to deal with your bullshit mental illness you should block them you shouldn't be in their life anymore you're a constant burden on them no wonder they abandoned you. why were you even mad at them in the first place?? its totally reasonable that they would leave you. with your issues?? pfft yeah you're basically destined to be alone forever.

[gonexinsane]

I need it to stop

[blownawayy]