#bpd episode stuff

[leyleycraves]

He got mad at me, validly so, and instead of apologizing immediately, i just got defensive/mad back at him and now I can't sleep because I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to do when he leaves me

[tear-stained-lenses]

*No reply*

Oh so you want me to kill myself?

[gonexinsane]

I’m a burden to everyone in my life

[clovelie]

i am nowhere near a good person, actually.

[blownawayy]

every time i think “all will be alright”, something bad happens

[insaneinpink]

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[dollincage]

whenever i’m depressed or hypomanic, suicide is always and will always be an option. and i hate myself for it.

[saddevilsworld]

i have officially given up

[sad-empty-lost]

I should have been dead by now……

[floralgraveyard]

"you have borderline personality disorder?" yeah it's called that cause I'm on the borderline of killing myself.

[wish-i-could-tell-u]

But you said you’d understand

[tear-stained-lenses]

“I love you.”

No you don't.

[gonexinsane]

I genuinely don’t want to be here anymore

[clovelie]

not now honey, i'm busy thinking about what someone said to me 10 years ago that i'm still not over yet

[blownawayy]

[pigeonwinnin]

Is it pathetic of me to just want someone interested enough to ask me questions? About myself, about life, about things I’m interested in that bring me joy?

I find that I like asking a lot of questions about people I care about. I think they’re so amazing and I want to listen to them and figure them out like a speciality puzzle.

But the reciprocation of this is nonexistent and it makes me miss my last friendship that I had this dynamic with that’s almost been gone for ten years.

I don’t want to be tolerated anymore- I want to be cared about.