#bunny vents

[beenbaanbuun]

do you ever want to curl yourself up into a ball and let yourself be a child again? back when it was okay to get upset over the little things, and there was always a warm hug waiting for you on the other side of it. back when you got back rubs and endless love when you felt poorly. back before your siblings had all left and moved on with their lives?

i miss falling asleep in the car and getting carried into the house with my dad. i miss holidays with my big brother where we’d spend hours together free of responsibilities and arguments. i miss my mum cooking me dinner and trying to figure out some way not to eat my veg.

i didn’t feel guilty for cancelling plans to take care of myself and i didn’t feel guilty for saying no to people. i’d quite happily go back to being labelled the lonely weird kid in school if it meant i didn’t have to be the lonely adult at work. i’d take my gcse’s and a levels all over again provided i’d never have to push through that anxiety that comes hand in hand with walking to a lecture.

i just miss being small. i want to be fragile again in a way that’s acceptable. i want to go back and figure out what went wrong for me to end up this way. it would probably be something tiny; so inconsequential that it mattered to no one but myself.

it mattered to no one but that loud little girl who no one batted an eye at when one day she just… wasn’t so loud anymore.

[brazen-bunny]

Been doin everything right or at least to the best of my ability to try to move out and gain independence

But it doesn't matter! Things out of my control, or relying on others who pull out last minute, has left me at the choice of moving from the city to butt fuck nowhere with my parents in a few months, or homelessness.

So cool! I love feeling like I have no agency whatsoever within my own life.

Might be better for my mental health and my wallet to buy tickets back to Iceland and live with my husband's family instead of my own.

[bunnyhopkins]

Thank you to Airbuds for convincing me to finally delete my ex's contact from my phone !!

[innovatorbunny]

ive recently been feeling self-conscious about everything about me from my facial appearence to my body to my mental health to my life. ive even considered going to the gym even tho i hate working out because im uncomfortable with my body. it doesnt help that my mother is constantly comparing me to my more put together, successful and conventionally attractive brother, so internally i compare myself to him as well. i hate depression or whatever is causing this lol

[gray-aroace-place]

Vent Tw

I know I’m not technically old but man. I feel old.

I’m gonna be in college for the first time as a 25 year old medical assistant student. I’m glad I waited and went through 7 years of therapy first bc I absolutely would have dropped out if I went at 17/18.

I know I shouldn’t feel bad about having a later start than everybody else but when almost everyone in your class are younger than you it’s hard not to feel a certain way.

I tried reaching out to my schools equivalent of GSA but it’s full of people who aren’t my flavors of queer (gray aroace, transneutral, ambiamorous, etc). It’s hard not to stand out.

I wish I knew more people like me, you know??? It gets very lonely.

[leyleycraves]

It's so weird to see two Andrew's on simply. Or existing in the same house. I don't like it.

[bunny-luvs]

Chapped lips can ruin a girls life

[bernlcastel]

Ngl ive mostly just been using tumblr to look at my girlfriends' posts lately ive been incredibly insecure lately about my entire being so i havent been posting as much lol.

[moonchildreads]

guys i'm sorry i'm actually really upset about grace joining faze. i've been into esports since 2017 and faze is literally vile. i don't want to rain on anyone's parade but yeah, this isn't good and as a queer woman i can't respect this move. i hope she changes her mind and signs with a better org, i think 100t would be a great fit for her and she's already friends with valkyrae but this isn't right and i don't feel safe in that space anymore. just wanted to say it because i feel very strongly about misogyny, homophobia and transphobia, and it wasn't right for me to pretend like i'm happy when i'm not.

[therainbowbranch]

// political discourse, venting

💛 you have got to be fucking kidding.

please tell me this is just a sick joke

i'm so fucking scared. me and my friends' lives are at risk because of this shit

i know kamala hasn't conceded and they're calling for a recount, but if trump actually wins we are definitely packing our bags early.

i'm scared and i'm angry. i just want to live

[beenbaanbuun]

vent post

i’ve posted too many of these over the past two days and i can only apologise. i will get back to writing or you soon but right now trying to be okay and feel okay is my priority.

for now i just need to talk about how i’m feeling. the people in my real life have their own things going on and i love them, but when i try and talk to them or vent to them they don’t seem to care. i can’t keep letting my thoughts out only to be met with a shrug and a request for me to suck it up and do something else. it’s not fair to me, and it’s not fair to the people i’m dumping my emotions on because that’s not what they’re there for.

i feel very alone. i have one person i can rely on in real life and at the minute it seems like she has no time for me since she has issues of her own. it’s fine, i understand that sometimes she’s not going to emotionally available for my problems when i need her to be. it’s just a struggle when i have no one else to go to. the issue is, i have such an immense feeling of guilt all the time that i have a hard time reaching out for help. i shouldn’t burden others with my problems, especially when i don’t feel in an emotionally stable enough place to offer them help back? i shouldn’t ask for help when i can’t give it in return.

like i said, i’ll get back to writing soon! i’m sorry for putting this on your timeline rather than the usual bunny content, i know it’s not what you guys want and it’s not the content i’m here to provide. i was hoping i’d feel better by today, but arguably i feel worse and i’m not sure how soon it’ll be before i can get back to acting like my normal self. i can only offer a million apologies and whilst i know that doesn’t make up for content, it’s all i can offer right now.

i’m sorry

[bunnyhopkins]

Born to write the bitchiest emails you've ever seen, forced to codify them even further

[bunnysdoodles]

God I'm so tired. I absolutely despise switching mental health meds. And I despise no having my concerns listened too. And I especially despise being treated for something I don't have (I've been evaluated and proven I don't have it) just cuz my mother has it and it "might help" and we've gotta do that before actually focusing and treating the stuff i DO have. I am my own person with my own problems and I've been doing this shit long enough to know what has absolutely not worked for me and what has helped. I'm sick of it.

[bunnyluvr25]

Vent/Implications of death

I'm thinking of going back to school, but like I'm really scared because I still can't find a job, so idk how I'd be able to afford to pay it off when the time comes.... at this point, Imma just call it quits and 💀

[leyleycraves]

I haven't had to click off of my name in like months. It's nerve wracking. The thought of flipping the sign is scary. I don't want things to ever go back to before. I wish it was just me and Andy forever

[bunny-luvs]

Underrated: being able to literally lean on someone when you are physically tired