#BPD Life

[chokemeyogi]

reassurance kink bc my brain makes me feel unlovable

[professionallyunstable]

the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere.

[unknowinglydeceasedlol]

I genuinely mourn the person I could have been.

[bitter-intestines]

[succubunniii]

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

omg maybe life is worth living [i had a decent day] —> i cannot be saved [the slightest inconvenience occurs] —> i am a fucking god and everyone loves me [someone laughed at my joke] —> i am going to kill myself [i feel a little bit unwanted because of someone’s reaction]

and this shit just goes on and on and NEVER stops

[mirroringshards]

cute bpd things!!

paranoia

*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP

yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D

paranoia

mood depending on them

every text hurts or feels way too good

intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH

the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive

paranoia

fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3

"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"

becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention

never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back

cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME

oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself

"just leave. everyone does anyways"

5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever

*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?

dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had

paranoia

[crookeddoll]

i started isolating myself and ignoring people as always, great to know I'll never get better

[la1npilledg1rl]

[nemosopenletters-blog]

I just want to be important, too.

[depressiv]

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[professionallyunstable]

so i started to think about some stuff. never doing that again.

[rainywhispersblog]

[unknowinglydeceasedlol]

wanting to kys to prove a point but also wanting to get better and be the best person you can be to prove a point

[lifeonkylesfarm]

trying to have healthy relationships with bpd just feels like trying to be tactful and respectful while holding back your emotions with a brick wall that feels like it's about to snap like a twig

hiding. it feels like hiding.

yet I must hide, so it seems.