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Itās so hard asking for reassurance because I donāt wanne be like: āplease tell me you like meā but also please tell me you like me
#cause Iām genuinely always convinced Iām just a bother to most in my life#and itās also just my pms being a bitch and making me extremely hormonal#I hate feeling like this#as if im completely alone#im remembering not so nice things at the moment which is just making me more upset and angry#and then still feeling upset about those events piss me off even more#I want to sleep#unfortunately nothing in my brain is letting me#ren.rants#tw pms mention
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I'm not the kind of person that's like "Here let me fix the canon" usually but like holy crap gen 5 implied a lot of messed up shit about our hero Twilight Sparkle lmao
#It almost says something about the dangers of undertakin responsabilities alone#the nuanced idea of putting heroes on a pedestal being inherently self destructive#hell its kind of funny that Sunny idolizing her is objectively wrong#her legacy was a house of cards!#but I digress#I hope this post isnt swinging a bat at a hornet's nest#but y'know#this is also related to my fics lmao#bc of course#twilight sparkle#sunset shimmer#gen 4#gen 5#pony posting#mlp gen 4#my little pony#friendship is magic#Also like. Celestia herslef regretted banishing luna#and shes happier ruling WITH a partner#meanwhile twilight is like āOk im not even on my thirties time to undertake all of thisā#bonkers! Nuts!#its almost like. entirely accurate#entirely purposefull that her rule would fail completely#Wouldn't it be fucking sick for sunset to try again#to give it another shot!!!#now that shes better#changed for the better by none other than twi#i wrote fics of this lmaooo#fanfiction#writing stuff
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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!
Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!
Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.
I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!
#im so frustrated that banner has been gone#and people think the comic is over because of that#which is reasonable to think#but it... idk#its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long#let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated#every day there is something new with them its so exhausting#this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration#i feel like they're not just being unhelpful#at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books#i can't make my links too big so no one can find me#people dont even know i have a patreon#i can't make any announcements on the comic#and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized#and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest#and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job#and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done#cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them#I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj#i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out#text post#update
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They made hyoga look so much cooler in the anime hes just standing there , in the manga theyre all dripping wet and bedraggled and senku is dying as usual
#Dr stone#isnt it cute that he was holding onto tsukasa for dear life for that whole sequence .....#after hearing his name called so weakly im sure he would not have let go of tsukasa come hell or high water ... he was covering his wound#with such a shaky hand like he was so fucking stressed out but he couldnt let tsukasa be swept away from him he had to keep both their head#afloat the whole time they were fighting against the current and tsukasa is also twice his size and complete dead weight#ALSO HANG ON WAIT I JUST REALISED SOMETHING#HYOGA... wanted to get senku alone to talk to him but he attacked tsuaksa ... and when hyoga wanted to hit tsukasa he attacked mirai#thats scary because he immediately identified that theyre ride or die together ... hyoga is the original tsukasen shipper#hes like oh you guys love each other ? Well that makes it easier for me#also this was the first time i noticed he wears short shorts and leather thigh high boots. omg slay queen where did you get your boots !#they wanted to make him a classic withdrawn coolguy with a samurai-esque work ethic but actually hes mega camp and a sweety (killed someone
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y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.
#chyanne speaks#house md#hilson#hate crimes md#gregory house#james wilson#i think his inability to be alone is such an interesting quality of his that isnt touched on enough#like yes we all haha at his long string of unsuccessful relationships but we dont talk abt it all stemming from his inability to be alone#his first wife leaves him and then he remarried quickly#he cheats on the second wife and remarries quickly#the third wife cheats on him and leaves him and he immediately moves in with house#and then starts dating a patient and immediately moves in with her#but!!! then he moves into the hotel and is alone for like almost a year! and honestly he NEEDED IT#bc GROWTH happened in that year and he meets someone who doesn't fit his M.O. who breaks away from the mold#although he does immediately move in with her too but still. amber was different. she was the step in the right direction#and then she dies.#and then wilson throws himself into the left field. everything needs to change. he's spent so long fearing being alone.#so he tries to leave so he is completely and totally alone without house to fall back on#but house needs him. he needs him too much. they need each other too much.#and he falls back to house again. and he's content that way. he's always the most content when he's with house. always feels the least alone#and then sam comes back into his life and ruins e v e r y t h i n g#he falls right back onto those old patterns. kicks house out and moves her in. and then what happens??? of course??? she leaves him. again.#and then he's alone again and it hurts. he gets a cat that we only hear about twice and then never gets brought up again#but wilson has his kitty. he has house. he's not alone. he can be content.#and then house fucks everything up. he goes to prison. wilson is alone again.#im honestly SHOCKED that wilson didnt remarry in that year they were apart but he was rly trying to change!#he was working on himself and trying to make changed he thought would be good for him#and then house comes back. and house won't LET wilson be alone. he wont leave him alone.#and it's exactly what wilson has been yearning for since the day he drove that car into cuddys house#and in the end. as long as he had house that was all that mattered. as long as he had house he wasn't alone.
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their swagless looks and autistic personalities have captivated me š„¹š«
#Hazbin Hotel#Lucifer Morningstar#Alastor#radioapple#appleradio#duckiedeer#my art#i binge watched hazbin and helluva in may and I WAS TRYING TO BE CASUAL ABOUT IT but the hyperfocus hit last month#i love them so much!!!!#and as an ace person it's been a wonderful experience seeing different takes on alastor's asexuality as well! makes me feel really warm š«š#i'm also deeply enamored by art/fanfic of characters sleeping together so yes!!!!!! i had too!!!!!!!!!!!!#which is funny because im a touch-averse person and i sleep alone on a queen(?) sized bed with 574849 plushies and a Zhongli dakimakura bUT#WHEN I SEE THE BLORBOS SLEEPING AND CUDDLING TOGETHER I COMPLETELY EXPLODE!!!! THEY'RE MY HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!#also i'm still with saw hyperfocus as well so I'M STILL MAKING SAW ART; I'M JUST SLOW I'M SORRY
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Look I know Lucifer isn't the best dad ever but I feel like people who say he's a bad dad are purposely ignoring the context of the show. It is very much implied that he thought Charlie wanted nothing to do with him, and Charlie thought he wanted nothing to do with her. Luciferās still dealing with trauma from Heaven and his fall and probably will for the rest of time plus he's dealing with what would probably qualify as clinical depression, and simultaneously dealing with trauma, clinical depression, and autistic traits (which Lucifer absolutely has; I do not say, as an autistic person, that Lucifer is a massive autistic mood for no reason) is a fucking NIGHTMARE.
I'm not saying Lucifer shouldn't take responsibility. He should. But he's already doing better than my dad frankly. Lucifer hits me in the daddy issues, I wish my dad made an effort to be more active in my life. Lucifer is fucking trying, and that's better than a lot of people can say about their dads.
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel lucifer#like i said hes definitely not the best dad but hes also not the worst. hes trying#thats both better than he was doing and better than a lot of people get#(i do think stolas is a better dad but his and lucifers circumstances are also completely different)#if lucifer hadnt bothered helping charlie then yeah id say hes a bad dad#but he put his instinct to avoid the thing that gave him trauma (heaven) at all costs aside for charlie#he was able to acknowledge that yes hes been a shit dad and could be doing better#he made an active effort TO DO BETTER#he actively made a change about himself for the sake of being there for charlie and that alone is better than most people can do#he wasnt a bad dad on purpose. he thought charlie didnt want to see him and acted accordingly which made his mental health problems worse#and his mental health problems being worse made it harder for him to function let alone be charlies dad#again im not saying he shouldnt take accountability just that people dont acknowledge why he was absent for so long#(me being me i blame lilith for making lucifer think charlie didnt want to see him and making charlie think lucifer didnt want to see her)#maybe this is littered with bad takes and my perspective is clouded by daddy issues. idk lol
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old ivylyn wip I don't think I'll ever finish
#its been open on my desktop for weeks#prob not going to complete so ig you guys can see it#love ivy and katelyn#i want them to be the most tragic sapphics in diaries im being so deadass#ivy thought katelyn was dead so she went fucking insane#turns out shes not dead and now ivy has to face her as someone she hates#she has to meet her lover again and she knows katelyn is disappointed in her#she has become what she feared what she had to be#ivy dies believing katelyn left her alone#that she abonded her#and katelyn will never get the chance to explain herself#shell have to live with the guilt that she abonded ivy and broke her heart#that shes the one who got her killed#aphmau#minecraft diaries#mcd#mcd rewrite#katelyn the firefist#ivy x katelyn#ivy the venom scythe#ivylyn#katevy
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Literally all of Faiths mommy issues could have been fixed if she literally just got to meet Jenny Calendar
#Iām only mostly joking on this#like I donāt think sheād necessarily stay on the āgoodā side but it would certainly be so much more complex#and it would be more to add into Buffy and Faith not getting along because of Buffy and Jennyās complex relationship#PLUS MORE JENNY CALENDAR LITERALLY CALL ME GILES CAUSE IM IN LOVE WITH HER#and you know Jenny would NEVER EVER let Faith live alone in that motel#clearly I am completely sane about this and barely even think about this#obviously#faith lehane#jenny calendar#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer
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tales from the watercooler was peak
#the pocket peppino ad fucking KILLED ME DUDe /POS#im pretty sure that vid alone completely destroyed my ability to see peppino with any other voice besides the one skully does for him#goofy ass voices scratching my brain in entirely new ways never seen before by mankind#my compliments to the chef. he really does eat#pizza tower#preparing with#oc#furry fandom#oc: nitri#pocket peppino#<- idk if theres a designated tag for this fucking critter (affectionate) but ehh whatev lol#art#digital art#doodle#shitpost
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I think we disregarded the fact that khoa has a sentient self sufficient ai mascot WAY too early. sad annoying old man literally had to program himself a friend š
#he had to program icon to make them as nice and understanding as possible because he knows heās unbearable to be around#im sobbing#but im also imagining a newly alone khoa who āparted waysā (broke up) with bruce. wishing he had someone positive there.#someone to keep him from going completely over the edge. someone who actually would understand him#and the only way he could even get to that was by fucking creating that himself as he just learned that bruce didnāt.#bruce wayne#ghostmaker#minhkhoa khan#dc icon#dc comics#ghostbat
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Don't be shy, Ko'jin. Tell him what it means.
#loz au#fierce deity#link#Ko'jin (Kheprriverse)#Ballad (Kheprriverse)#kheprriverse#kheprriart#Just a silly thing Ive had in my brain for a couple months#two words that sound very similar but mean completely different things. one happens to be a nickname Kojin calls Ballad sometimes#hes flustered Ballad leave him alone#(wanted to practice drawing food. took the opportunity to draw tha bois)#its props getting sooo tiring seeing these two being silly in the FD tag im so sorry bjkdajkcdav#ignore my laziness in terms of poses and coloring. im very tired
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Okay challenge mode. You are a therapist and Eridan Ampora from Homestuck has just walked right out of his intro page into your office. How do you fix him?
put him and karkat in a room with a pile of stuff and tell them they can't leave until they've jumped into it and talked about their feelings
#realtalk therapy doesnt work unless the person getting the therapy puts in the effort to make it work#eridan starts the comic in complete and utter denial that he's in need of help#so there's really nothing i nor any stranger could do about that#HOWEVER he does talk to karkat often about his feelings (and vice versa) and#the reason they didnt hang out during the game seems to be#1) they were on separate teams and didnt realize the teams were the same team until later on#2) by then it was too late and eridan had aggro'd all his angels#3) gamzee was deliberately keeping eridan away from karkat and vice versa (likely bc gamzee had a palecrush on kk)#4) karkat was too busy falling victim to his own insecurities abt being a leader to pay attention to his actual friendships#4a) eg. it shouldve been the time player doing the frog hunt with kanaya & not the blood player#like im not saying moirallegiance with karkat would have fixed all of eridans problems but i am saying#what eridan really needed was a friend who took his problems seriously and could see past his bullshitting#and karkat already WAS that friend - they just never hung out#so by the time the meteor rolls around eridan has spent WEEKS feeling abandoned anxious and alone on his death planet#and karkat has gotten used to not thinking about eridan too much#so karkat - who is basically eridans only actual friend at that point - isnt able to get through to him & eridan snaps#like the thing about sburb/homestuck is that it really stresses the importance of friendship and working together#letting each other help with each others' problems#thats why the smallest viable game is still two people by necessity#so when we see things like gamzee snapping or eridan snapping or vriska snapping#as much as these are the 'fault' of the person snapping they also need to be viewed as comprehensive team failures#the people who should have spent the game together didnt and the people who shouldnt have spent the game together did#vriska was allowed to bully tf outta tavros and nobody intervened#eridan was left all alone and nobody tried to help him#and everybody was mean to gamzee and nobody tried to connect with him#and you know whose job it is to make sure the right people are hanging out together? the blood player#and unfortunately our blood player was so insecure that he was doing jobs that werent his to do#im not saying pale erikar would fix homestuck but i am saying pale erikar is a symptom of things being fixed in homestuck
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ā THE ELECTRIC-FEVER REMEDY.
#my posts.#lackadaisy#my art.#thinking about ā¦ rocky āwinningā#in the sense that mitzi ends up completely alone and can only rely on his help to keep lackadaisy afloat ā¦#making him irreplaceable ā finally! and wick is nowhere to be seen to save the day anymore ā¦ so itās just him#and maybe mitziās miserable and heās miserable but he doesnāt care about it really ā¦ heās just happy to be important ā¦ essential ā¦ etc#mitzi has shrunk and sheās become blurry and faceless because rocky is indulging in his victory#is too busy internally celebrating to really. notice her. so sheās small and disproportionate ā¦ murky ā¦#AHEM! since i canāt write about my mitzi/rocky feelings iāll art about it ( very quickly lmfao )#i just think rockyās obsession with mitzi and being the person she relies on most is something he takes to extremes#and will continue to do so the way his arc is going. thereās not much left for him outside of āthisā anyway ā¦ or so he believes#i also think they will continue to drag each other down ā¦#rocky doomed by the narrative and mitzi IS that narrative. theyāre fucked but at least they have each other i suppose!!!#i have so many more thoughts and ofc this is more metaphorical ā¦#but i do think. about the darkness around the corner for the two of them ā¦ hm! anyway! yeah!#rocky rickaby#mitzi may#wrote up these tags and drew this at like 3am to 5am so thats why i sound crazy#OH and the lines are from the bunnybox page in the comic <3 where he compares her to drugs twice <3#totally NOT a really bad sign im sure!! that would be silly :3
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Posting in this blog after an eternity because I feel like I'm going insane here and my friends are asleep so I need to dump my brainstorm SOMEWHERE (SPOILERS FOR ARLECCHINO'S BACKSTORY/SHORT ANIMATION!!)
The TLDR is basically I think that the whole story with Arlecchino and Clervie is foreshadowing for Lyney and Lynette's future
I think the parallels between Lyney and Arle don't need to be too explained for the most part. Pyro Visions, Arle wants him to be the next "king" while he doesn't seem to be too into that idea just like her younger self didn't want it, both are associated with Rainbow Roses (they both use them as ascension materials)
Plus, I'd argue they look kinda similar here. I'm not sure exactly what is that makes the resemblance, maybe a bit of the hair, bowtie and shorts and you could say it's something she has with the others too (her kid design resembles Freminet, current one Lynette) but I thought it was good to mention anyways
Meanwhile, Lynette and Clervie are the two closest companions to their respective pair
Lynette's has Lumidouce Bells as an ascension material. Clervie is very clearly represented with the same flower (if her necklace wasn't enough, there's this)
Plus, a bit of a smaller connection, but they both have clear sweet tooths
(Lyney saying "we talked about this" implies this is a frequent event. The animation showing Clervie with cake twice while it only had 7 minutes to tell the whole story has a similar effect)
So, if Lyney is a parallel to Arle while Lynette is a parallel to Clervie, where does this leave us?
Well... Not exactly in a good spot-
To be fair, I don't think Genshin would actually kill a playable character (or at least, so I hope), but it's very possible Lynette gets really hurt, either directly by Lyney or by being close to him
Arlecchino swore to be nothing like her mother, but in the end, the way she's acting towards Lyney by wanting to make him the next king may be very similar to it
Once upon a story quest, Lyney said similar words to a woman who claimed he'd end up all alone. I can only pray that the writers will have mercy at my soul and that they wouldn't go that low with a playable character
If I were to make a mildly self indulgent guess, as the Freminet main I am, I'd say that he may be the key that's going to make things turn out different for the twins. His presence is the biggest difference between the twins vs Arle and Clervie, who seemed to have no one else that was even mildly close to them. From the 4.6 trailer we know that he's the one that has been hiding stuff and we do see him blocking out Arle's attack, so I don't think it's a stretch to say he'll have a really important role in this whole thing
So yeah! If you read all my rambling, thanks I guess, hope you enjoyed it. In the end, all I can hope is that the Fontaine siblings all turn out fine for the sake of my own mental wellness because God knows these 3 stay all day spinning in my head as if it was a microwave
Also, for the record: No, I don't have a clue about what the hell is going on with Freminet apparently finding "Clervie" (ghost?? Illusion??) and hiding her from Arle. Until this short my best shot was that she was some sort of mermaid creature, but that idea is out the window so it could be anything really
#I don't know how right I am with any of this#I may end up deleting this after I sleep#i just think too much about characters I like#I know a lot of people interpret Arle and Clervie as something completely different but I just cant ignore the parallels in my mind#all i hope is that I'm not alone in going insane connecting dots that may not even exist lol#genshin impact#genshin#arlecchino#the knave#clervie#peruere#lyney#lynette#freminet if you squint#rambling#theory#genshin theory#my posts#!Small edit from a few months later! Even though this was made for Arle's quest I still believe most of this stuff#I'm not sure if/when it may become relevant but I still believe its too much to be a coincidence#so im leaving it up. who knows maybe one day when things go insane again I'll get to repost and add more to this
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#honkai star rail#hsr#honkai star rail spoilers#hsr spoilers#hsr 2.5#trailblaze continuance#hsr moze#shout out his complete and immediate 180 on the jiaoqiu situation#as soon as he didnāt have to prioritize getting a bunch of strangers out of jail alive#moze in part 1: umm we canāt confront hoolay weād lose and that would be dumb and we should give upš#moze in part 2: confronting hoolay ALONE to save jiaoqiu#yaoqing trio annoy the hell out of me like stfu STOP loving each other so much#im shaking all three of them around in my brain SO much#so ill about them rn so in love with them#CANNOT get over them#hsr 2.5 spoilers
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