#and then still feeling upset about those events piss me off even more

[yukierree]

It’s so hard asking for reassurance because I don’t wanne be like: “please tell me you like me” but also please tell me you like me

[livvyandcaycaytakenselfies]

Come back to me…

A/N Heyo! This a request from my friend, well technically not friends yet but would like to be from @sagekiosk! This will be a Yandere! Jamil Viper x Fem! Darling reader!

prompt| He pushed you away but realized he loves your help and praise. He loves you.

Jamil hated you. He hated how you always tried and helped him, smiled at him, praised him for his hard work and good grades. He always felt as if you were mocking him.

But you just openly admired him and looked at him through heart glasses. You always helped him where you could in the kitchen. Helped him with laundry. Helped him with cleaning. Praised him for studying. You just openly admired him because.. well you liked him. Like a lot.

He was just… annoyed. It felt like you were mocking him. Thinking he was worthless like everyone else. And just flat out annoyed. So, he started to try and avoid you like the plague as much as he can.

You didn’t really understand why he seemed to be avoiding you, but you always ended up there somehow. Always with a familiar.. almost comforting smile. Always there.. until you weren’t..

One day you just, stopped.. Started avoiding him. Distancing away from him. And Jamil for some reason felt.. saddened by it?.. no! Of course not!..

Meanwhile how you felt.. you just.. lost those feelings for him. Those heart glasses you once looked at him with starting to crack.. your mood used to always sky rocket when you saw him, she always used to see every action he did as amazing for crying out loud! But now.. she just starts to realize something.

The heart glasses crack every single second she’s with him. His snarky comments and comebacks starting to make more sense now.. his snarls and eye rolls.. whenever she sees him, she just starts to hurt.. Jamil hates her..?….

It eventually lead to her stop coming around period. Avoiding Jamil, Kalim, and everything to do with Scarabia period. Not attending Kalim’s party’s, the invites to the dorm, avoiding going near the dorm, avoiding going near any Scarabia students unless necessary. Even avoiding him in classes, projects, hallways, lunch, courtyard, events, etc etc.

Meanwhile… Jamil starts to realize something. He.. he misses you..? No.. that can’t be right.. can it?.. but it definitely was.. He misses everything about you. Your smile, your voice, the way you both would accidentally touch hands in the kitchen.. when you would ask him about his day, The praise you would give him after long days and hard work, just.. everything..

Jamil starts to realize he can’t live without you. He needed you with him. By his side, in his arms, on his shoulders, just… near him.. but you’re avoiding him.. and everything having to do with Scarabia as well. He realizes you don’t have feelings for him anymore. And it hurts him.. because he knows he realized his a little to late…

And so about almost two months go by, and you had reluctantly went to a Scarabia party. Curtesy of, the first years. (Only cause Jamil threatened them with using Snake Whisper^^) You stood at a corner of the room, sipping whatever fruit drink Kalim had imported to Night Raven this time. A familiar pair of Silver eyes watching you.

It was driving Jamil mad honestly. Even more mad than Kalim. And that’s saying something. He couldn’t take it anymore, and so, he walked over to you and grabbed you by the wrist. Pulling you along to some s secluded area while you were still trying to process what was happening.

“J-Jamil-? What the hell are you doing?!-“ you questioned, surprised and confused as he cut you off. “No Y/N. What are YOU doing?! You’ve been avoiding me! Like I’m nothing!!” He shouted, he looked borderline pissed.

“You’re driving me mad Y/N! You’ve made me.. made me love you damnit! I miss you!! I miss your smile, your voice, your words, your touch, everything damnit! And you just threw me away like I’m trash just like everyone else!!” Jamil yelled. He was mad, upset, pissed, and hurt.

You just stared up at him as his grip tightened on your wrist. Taking both of your hands and placing them into his. Bringing your hands up as he kissed them. “Please Y/N.. come back to me…”

You just looked at him. Surprised for a moment but that expression morphed into one of pity. You had lost feelings for him, you didn’t feel the same anymore. “Jamil… I-“ You tried to speak but he just cut you off again. “You will come back to me…”

“Willingly or not.”

Those where the last audible words you heard before you started to feel dizzy for some reason.. It was so hard to keep your eyes open, and eventually you blacked out. Right into his tight viper like grip. You really should have heard those two oh so familiar words he mumbled under his breath while looking straight into your eyes…

Snake Whisper.

“I’ll never let you go, my Desert Blume.”

[thegratefulsouth]

TBOC: DDS2:04 My DEVELOPING Thoughts

This ramble is ten years long.

Those ten seconds of reunion, were 🙌

Everything else about this episode, is about adjusting expectations. So I'm going to spoilery share my process of adjusting my expectations of the content of this episode, in the midst of the narrative, the explanations, and the marketing surrounding this whole season.

The pretty and the not pretty.

And I will also again share some of my husbands responses, because I find his reaction interesting. He is completely spoiler free, he's not a Caryler (yet and more on that), and he loves flagship Daryl.

THE PRETTY:

Carol, Melissa, our silver haired beauty, as usual, was on fire and all parts compelling, heartbreaking, hilarious, and utterly captivating.

I really do love that brief little moment of reunion, I had seen it quite a few times already, so to see it in context was very interesting.

When Caryl do finally chat, there are some cute moments.

Didi and Theo really were wonderful, until Theo at the end.

Melissa's performance, and the time given to Carol, is actually so astounding. That it is accessible in this way, at this time, I feel helps some viewers possibly appreciate her in a way they hadn't before. She's carrying the story, she's an absolute joy to watch. For people to even consider Caryl, they must love Carol, and those who won't rewatch TWD, have an opportunity to fall in love with her here.

I know this episode is a favourite of the season for some people. So I hear that, and I am looking forward to having it grow on me.

There will be more pretty sprinkled throughout, but it's threaded in this confused attempt to reconcile my expectations.

THE NOT PRETTY:

My husband's overall comment regarding this episode and the reunion was, "well they couldn't have fucked that up anymore if they tried."

This is directly in response to the preceding and following scenes of the reunion.

I have had a few weeks to adjust to the spoilers and storyline in this episode, so I guess I was surprised to see so much emotion from him. He flips between trying not to care and not being able to help himself. He loves these characters. He was genuinely upset about the events surrounding the reunion and he was concerned about me.

He gave me a huge hug at the end of this episode, and asked if I was okay, highlighting that this reunion was long awaited, and it was overshadowed by Isabelle.

I'd already adjusted my expectations. The other thing I had time to adjust for, was my response to the 'old married couple bickering scene", as I'd seen the clip, but I was still hoping it didn't come across as harsh in context.

It was a little harsher still, because Carol has this beautiful, emotional moment with Didi, Daryl sees that, and then he's practically yelling at her in the next scene.

The bickering really upset my husband, he thought they were fighting for real and he asked, why would viewers want to see that after they just reunited? He maintained that if you have married couple bickering, you have married couple intimacy to balance it out. Which I found interesting.

There is no relief in this scene. I thought it would be more like their moment in Find Me, where Daryl is still a little pissed, but side eye smiling at her, Carol is angelic and laughs it off. Here she seems upset, he seems downright angry, she'd just been crying and he knew that, so even though I know many people love this scene, I was disappointed. I had to adjust my expectations.

The other thing is, my husband and I don't usually fight like that, but if we do, there is payoff, like he highlighted. A cuddle, a kiss, we're good. I also want to note that viewers who experienced or saw emotional abuse in childhood, are probably going to be more sensitive to this. It's jarring. Adjustments need to be made.

Flipping back to the scene after Isabelle's death, when Daryl was being a jerk to Carol for reasons, I had to adjust my expectations. There were a lot of things I had hoped for with this reunion:

- that Daryl acknowledge Carol's extraordinary efforts with his soul

- that Carol therefore feels wanted and appreciated

- that the focus, the story, stays with Caryl

- that there is a focused discussion about the gravity of this situation, their reunion, what they mean to each other

Those things not only didn't, happen, but it seemed like the exact opposite happened. To see the way Daryl spoke to Caryl after Isabelle's death, for reasons, was soul crushing.

My husband exclaimed, "He is being so rude to her!" Man was emotional.

So my response to this episode is really about adjusting my hopes and expectations for this significant, long awaited moment. It's a process.

Overall, I feel a disconnect between the narrative and what I see on-screen. I feel that it's all very fast, and it feels like scenes have been cut, or the timing in them, is off (earlier episodes particularly).

I also feel like the way things ended up with Isabelle, ruined a little of S1 for me. I felt that Norman downplayed any hint of shipbaiting in S1. So to see the ship hit, seemed out of sync, made me think that a little look or two from Daryl, as much as we would have hated it, in S1, might have made the 'experiment' more believable, more in character for Daryl. I don't know, there's probably no use trying to make sense of it.

But obviously they just shouldn't have done it, and Isabelle was still not a great character, who could have been written better, and the whole thing was just hard work to watch.

Showing, not telling (echoing a few other posts I saw recently) is what we need.

And underneath all of this, I still hear Zabel saying "mature relationship."

This all affects my trust in this story. And there is a lot of noise and colour and shapes and EMOTIONs and lack of emotions in this story that do not reflect what is being said in interviews. That means I am filtering additional information in a non-organic way. That requires extra effort, and when things do not add up, the added suspension of disbelief.

To simply enjoy something I am invested in for the sake of it, because someone worked hard on it, because I am lucky it exists at all, would be to cease being who I am.

Another note from my husband, who is not a Caryler, but who is loving and adoring Carol, and Melissa's performance, and is warming more and more to her.

"You just like Carol because of that cute smile she does."

He's joking, he knows that's not all it is, we talk about Carol's brilliance and strength of character at great length. But he genuinely sees that there is something special in this woman.

Those who haven't been paying attention, need to see Carol as beautiful, desirable, and sexual. For some people to see that, they need to see Daryl see that.

There are hints of this with the intensity of their devotion to each other in that ten second hug, in the foreshadowing of Didi and Theo. But the "you loved her" scene is so ambiguous.

I'm adjusting to the ambiguity, the agitation, Carol's hurt and confusion, which was the absolute last thing I wanted to see.

I know there's more to come. I am extremely nervous about that.

I want no more ambiguity, I want to see on screen what is being said in interviews, and I want actual words to come out of mouths.

[evruss0]

My life would suck without you (Alesia Russo x reader)

Part 1

It was getting late and you couldn’t stop pacing in your kitchen. Alessia was supposed to meet you after her practice but she later texted you she had an interview and would see you after. That was 5 hours ago, it was now late in the evening and there was no sign of Alessia after the many texts and calls you tried. You eventually gave up pacing and waiting to try to relax on the couch. She has been doing this a lot more often, ever since she won the Euros in the summer, it’s like she doesn’t have time for us anymore.

You understand how much her popularity has increased but she could at least still take time out of her day for you. Most of your arguments for the past months have been over this, and everytime Alessia says she’ll make time… she never does. It feels like forever since we’ve been on a proper date that isn’t a media event.

Mixed in your thoughts, you heard a knock at your door. Quickly getting off the couch to look who it was, your guesses were correct when seeing the blonde hair. Sighing slightly as you open the door to Alessia. Once you do, she looks at you with a shy smile, “hey, I’m here” she said which caused you to scoff at her and proceed to walk towards your living room, leaving her at your doorstep. Alessia follows in and closes your door behind her.

“I’m sorry i’m a little late, the interview took longer than expected” she said casually, totally missing that you were upset until she sees you standing behind the kitchen counter, she doesn’t see your normal happy face.

“A little late? Less you are like a lot late, to the point where it is already nighttime.” you said with no emotion in your voice, trying to contain your anger at the blonde.

She gives you an arched eyebrow, “I have a job y/n/n you know that ,im sorry but i have to do those interviews and talks whether you or I like it”

Feeling more annoyed at Alessia not seeing the problem, you decided to more upfront. “Yes i do, but I hardly ever see you anymore less. I want to be able to see my girlfriend without having to chase an appointment time with her, it feels like you don’t care about this relationship anymore” you said with a bit more anger showing in your voice.

Feeling hurt at your words ,she responded back“I texted you didn’t I? I told you, and don’t you dare say I don’t care about us anymore because I do, i’m just more busy with things I have to attend to now.” she said with her voice getting more louder at defending herself.

“That’s exactly it, I understand you have new responsibilities but you can at least show that you still love me and not leave me in the dark for the whole day” now walking closer to her

Alessia shook her head, “now you're saying that I don’t love you anymore? Unbelievable. You just don’t understand what it is like, it’s exhausting, I want to be here with you but I can’t.” she was now pissed at your accusations, she loved you and wanted so badly to be with you every second but it became increasingly difficult the past months. Fueled by anger, every filter in her head was going out the window that she couldn’t help herself with what she said next.

You were taken aback by her words, she knew how sensitive the topic of your work was to you. After being fired from layoffs at the animation company you worked at, you were basically freelancing, sending your portfolio to any studio in the city. Alot of them told you they were already full staff and couldn’t hire you at this time. You felt like a washed up artist and Alessia before tried to reassure you but instead now it felt like she was pushing the knife deeper into you.

Staying silent for a moment, just staring at her intense blue eyes that held anger. “Are you seriously going there?” “you know very well how hard i’ve been trying to find a job to stay here in Manchester with you! “

“Oh so now you’re blaming me for being a failed artist?!” Alessia yelled.

You froze in your spot, you felt your eyes start to water, finally unable to contain your tears. You walked straight in front of Alessia, “get out” your voice sounding hoarse.

She looked down and finally seeing your face, she noticed the tears falling from your eyes and that seemed to snap her out of her range. She started stuttering ‘ii - - wait - i m sorry - im so “ you just ignored her and went to open your door, leaning on it not looking at her. Alessia was finally realizing the consequences of her actions.

Walking with her head hung low, she was about to walk out the doorway but she gave you one more plea. ‘Please amore i didn’t mean what i said i jus-” you cut her off “stop Alessia, Please leave” you said trying not to show her your face. Her heart broke at how you couldn’t even look at her, even more that you called her by her full name and not the nickname you always use. With guilty eyes she walks away and you slam the door behind her. Sliding down the door you began to release the sobs. Your heart was broken, the person you loved and claimed to love you just as much told you the one thing you were scared of being told…

Whispering under your breath, “i’m a failure’

[catbountry]

It has been 22 years since 9/11; I was 15 years old in second period art class when a kid, who'd been running down the hallway, opened the door and announced a plane had hit the World Trade Center, and then ran off down the hall, leaving everyone confused. The principal advised teachers not to turn on televisions for us when this was happening, leaving us in further confusion as he tried, feebly, to carry out the rest of the day. We were dismissed before lunch, before fourth period ended.

There are people who are able to legally drink that weren't born yet when this happened and let me tell you, the actual event was fucked up but what happened afterwards, the decisions made in the wake of this fucking event, are a big reason why everything is so fucked up now.

I remember the color-coded terror threat chart, explained by Tom DeLay, who would become a minor internet meme just because of a weird photo of his face. I remember the phrase "known unknowns" in regards to justifying the invasion of Iraq. The "yellow cake" uranium. Being assured that there were weapons of mass destruction. Shock and awe. Bush in a flight suit in front of that "MISSION ACCOMPLISHED" sign. The 2000's was the decade of neo-conservatism and 9/11 was a glorious and golden opportunity to have what America had lost with the fall of the Soviet Union; an ideological enemy that hated us because of how great we were. A perfect vessel to pump patriotic sentiment into the public. And it worked... kind of. Not so much for us younger people, those of us who were teenagers or in our 20's. You have to understand that we were at a point where Jon Stewart, the host of the Daily Show, was considered to be some sort of beacon of truth. We would rather get our news from a satirical news program than the actual news, because Stewart would at least recognize the absurdity of it all. A lot of artists did. Green Day's American Idiot is considered to be their most important album and the whole thing was a protest album. I've always had a soft spot for Radiohead's Hail to the Thief for the same reason. Counterculture was dark and bitter and cynical and brooding, and often incredibly edgy, flying directly in the face of the propaganda about how great America was. Counterculture was more queer, more atheist, dressed in black and online, making memes about 9/11. 9/11, this day that was supposed to be symbolic of the nation's greatest modern-day tragedy since the assassination of John F. Kennedy or the bombing of Pearl Harbor, was being photoshopped to make it look like Hulk Hogan was taking down the Twin Towers through sick wrestling moves. 4chan seems to have since been infected with reactionary brainworms over the course of the 2010's, but in the 2000's, counterculture wasn't conservative. It was making conservatives upset. We saw destruction and mass human death played on repeat over and over and we grew numb to it. Desensitized. We saw the obvious emotional ploy that was being used as an excuse to inflict even more violence and oppression on people on the other side of the globe. We reveled in shock sites, in edgy jokes, in transgression, in scaring the normies.

The young men who fall into the alt-right rabbit hole, who might not even be old enough to remember 9/11... I can't help but wonder what they think of it. Because they still want to be edgelords, but now to own the libs. To work in service of the very same people that we were trying to piss off 20 years ago. Trump spoke on 9/11 about how now, the Trump Tower, which had once been the tallest building in Manhattan, was now back to being the tallest building in Manhattan. He's a completely different breed from Bush, Cheney and company. Completely self-interested. Not even bothering with the pretext of things like conviction or truth. Truthiness incarnate. Embrace it. Feel it. Be it.

I think back to a few years ago, I posted a doge meme with the child doge in front of the Twin Towers, with a joke about how great the future was going to be in the coming decade. I had a teenager try and educate me on how insensitive this was. They hadn't even been born yet and I snapped at them that the meme was a real sentiment, that all of us who were old enough to remember essentially watched our futures explode on television, over and over, in a fireball of jet fuel.

This went stream of consciousness again. It always does. It's hard to summarize 9/11 and its aftermath in a cohesive way because we're still living in the shadow of it. COVID-19 is now the big historical event that traumatized us all that we will have to reckon with for decades to come, and how it affected young people growing up at the time. The new scar on our collective psyche. But 9/11 will continue to be that formative scar. Before that for me, it was Columbine, but only because the aftermath did directly affect me. Before that? Princess Diana's death, the Oklahoma City bombing, and the O.J. Simpson trial, and of all of those, the bombing was perhaps the most actually impactful on us. Before 9/11, it was the largest terrorist attack on the United States, carried out by a far-right racist retaliating against the FBI firebombing a compound because a pedophile cult leader with a bunch of guns refused to give up and used his child brides as human shields. That'd be Waco, by the way.

There was another bombing of the World Trade Center that happened in 1993. It was much smaller, using a bomb inside a van in a parking lot underneath; it's the reason Biggie rapped about "blowing up like the World Trade." Osama bin Laden was also behind that one but that wouldn't be fully realized by us until 1996. It only killed six people. It was considered a failed attempt; it was supposed to take down the entire North Tower. It didn't come out of nowhere. The CIA knew that this was in motion since Clinton was in office, and this ball got rolling because of training the United States offered to resistance fighters in Afghanistan against the Soviets in the 80's. I remember the shock I felt first seeing that photo of Donald Rumsfeld shaking Saddam Hussein's hand, knowing about the Gulf War and living through the War in Iraq. All these puzzle pieces are scattered on the floor and my brain is making connections between all of them as I try and fit them together. I'm looping red string around push pins and asking who Pepe Silvia is, except it's not a conspiracy, it's just me trying to fully grasp this event that happened in my lifetime, before I was an adult but after I'd started paying attention to the news regularly and had developed an interest in politics. Just as I was forming my own political beliefs. 9/11 and its aftermath has informed so much of who I am politically, and what my values are. George W. Bush is my Nixon, and yet, somehow, things got so much more cartoonishly worse as I entered my 30's that I was in denial about it until COVID. Trump's presidency felt like a clown show. How on earth was I supposed to take this man seriously? This motherfucker made the neoconservatives appear restrained and reasonable by comparison, and those motherfuckers are actual war criminals.

I can only really tell people who are too young to remember what this era was like what it was like. It's hard to explain if you weren't there in that moment. We're seeing Y2K nostalgia become a thing, which fits, because of the 20 year minimum big nostalgia cycle, as those whose childhood was 20 years ago are now young adults. And some of those adults were born after 9/11. They never knew the world before it. I knew, but I was a child and couldn't really fully grasp it. The 90's felt very distinct from the 2000's, with it's very open cynicism and even nihilism in the very first years of a society with no Soviet Union.

If only we knew how bad things really would become.

[d8nielaa]

omg we need more of baby curtis 🥹 she's so cute! maybe (in a perfect world, where johnny and sally are alive) she's 16 now and has her first boyfriend and he cheats on her. soda cries along with her i can feel it. and dally and darry agree for once this is needs to be taught a lesson

Authors Note: yesss we love babygirl curtisss!!! In a perfect world, dally and johnny are still alive and well 😍 i wanna call her babygirl curtis from now on cause..it’s just so cute and i love it 🥰

The Blonde

takes place 3-4 years after the events of the outsiders

curtis brothers (+ gang) x fem babygirl curtis!reader

Reader referred to as “Babygirl”

It was a nice and chilly tuesday afternoon, Darry had been given the day off, alongside Soda while babygirl and Ponyboy went to school. The rest of the gang came over, desperate to escape the cold of Tulsa.

3:00 rolled around and soon enough Ponyboy came home, but without babygirl . Which spiked concern in Darry and Soda.

“Where’s babygirl?” Soda asked Ponyboy, glancing back at the door, as if expecting her to arrive.

“I think she’s still back at school, she said she needed to talk to someone. Probably her boyfriend or something. She said she’d be right behind me though.”

“Damnit Ponyboy! You can’t just leave her out on her own! What if the Soc’s find her while she’s walking back? What are we gonna do then, huh?” Darry said, visibly upset at Ponyboy and concerned for you.

“Relax Darrel, she’ll be fine. I taught her how to handle it.” Dally said, his calm yet smug tone pissing Darry off even more.

“What do you mean ‘handle it’? Did you teach her how to fight?!” Darry said, now even more mad.

“Yes Darrel , i taught her how to fight, what’s the deal? She’s gonna need it at some point-“

“The point is, is that she’s 16! She’s a 16 year old girl who doesn’t need to know how to fight! For Gods sake-“ Darry mumbled, rubbing his head as Sodapop came up to him, holding Darry’s shoulders just to make sure he didn’t lunge out at Dallas or anything.

Before Dallas could even reply, Ace came to his aid.

“Superman relax, she’s gonna be okay. I never thought i need to know how to fight til i was her age, but I guess i did” Ace said, standing in between the two of them, reassuring one, while also satisfying the other.

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3:45 rolled around and ever seemed to have forgot about the whole situation until they heard the door slam. Babygirl stood in front of the door, trying her hardest not to break down in tears even those she had been crying on the way home. Two-Bit spoke up, relieved to see that she was okay.

“Hey babygirl, where have you been?” Johnny stood up as he heard Two-Bit speak. Sodapop opened his eyes since he was laying on the couch, and immediately sat up, also relieved to see his baby sister was okay. They just kind of stared at her, waiting for to say something.

Babygirl then broke down in tears, moving to the couch to hug Soda. This immediately prompted everyone to be concerned, and they moved closer to go comfort her. Ace sat on the side of the couch, gently rubbing the younger girls back as she cried. Johnny stood with Ponyboy, who felt guilty for leaving his baby sister alone. Darry started making hot chocolate, knowing you were gonna need it in the long run. Sodapop held you tight, rubbing your head gently. He started to get emotional at the sight of you so upset, so a few tears slipped down. Dallas was concerned, but also looked angry because he knew someone had to have made you cry, and Two-Bit just kind of stood there, not really knowing what to do.

“He-he cheated on me” the young girl said in between her breathless sobs. Soda started crying a little more at this because he knew how much you loved the guy, and how you talked about him like he put up the moon and stars.

“Your boyfriend?” Dallas said, now even more angry.

“Yes dipshit, who else?” Ace asked, also angry but keeping it inside for the sake of babygirl. Dallas rolled his eyes, crossing his arms as he did so.

“Yeah i knew that”

“No you didn’t”

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After getting you to calm down and confess what happened, Darrel and Dallas went to go sit and talk in the kitchen, while the others tried to cheer you up. They tried telling you jokes, watching tv with you. Ace had even offered to do your makeup and hair, overall just like stupid stuff. You said no to everything, clearly upset over the unexpected heartbreak. Nevertheless, they all persisted and tried to make you feel better.

“That stupid piece of shit, doesn’t deserve someone as good as her” Dallas said, clearly pissed off and willing to do anything so babygirl could get her revenge.

“I should have never let her date.” Darry replied, rubbing his face with his hands, feeling like this was his fault.

“Hey no-none of that shit Darrel, this ain’t any of our faults but his. Okay?” Darry nodded his head, still hesitant to believe Dallas. Dallas and Darrel really never got along, except for now. They knew what happened to babygirl was wrong, she was still so young and they didn’t want her to go through this. Ever.

“We just need to teach that little kid a lesson, show him that he fucked up.” Dally said, a small smirk on his face. Darrel looked at him, before nodding his head once more.

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Later on, after Darry and Dally had discussed what was gonna happen, the rest of the gang went home. Which left babygirl and her brothers alone.

The youngest girl sat on Soda’s lap, her head on his shoulder as he stroked her hair gently and whispered words of reassurance in her ear.

“Shhh, it’s okay babygirl. He’s just a stupid boy, you don’t need him.”

Ponyboy and Darry were there to. Darry sat there alongside you both, looking at babygirl as he held her hand. Ponyboy just sat there, watching tv. His presence was enough.

Soon enough, babygirl fell asleep. Darry bid the other boys a goodnight, before carrying his little sister back into their shared room. He laid her down on the bed, tucking her in gently before laying down beside her.

Ever since that day, her brothers and the gang had made a silent vow to stop protect the girl at all costs. Whether it be from physical harm or mental, they’d be there for her. Because she was family.

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Authors Note: hey guys!!! I’m feeling better!! The title is a little random but it had like a backstory. I based the title off the song “The Blonde” by TV Girl. It was supposed to be like babygirl was the “dumb blonde” who like trusted the guy who cheated on her.. i don’t really know i didn’t explain it. Anyway hope you enjoyed!!! Also new character alert! Which is just babygirl curtis but that’s you (the reader) 🥹

[polyamorouspunk]

Punkdate 9/19/24

Here’s my hot mess of a life rn let’s fucking go.

To recap: ⚡️ and I started seeing each other/in a situationship/whatever you want to call it in August. September rolls around, things happen on both our ends, we agree to mutually put it on hold until a later date, but agree we still like each other. Still seeing each other at events, still giving each other those looks. So I tell her I miss her and she tells me she missed me too. So I start trying to initiate us hanging out and she either blows me off or gets weird about it. Same way like when we had our last talk about ending things she looked scared, like someone was gonna “see” us, so I’m like okay I need to know what’s going on cause this shit don’t fly with me, but once again I’m not able to like talk to her. Then Sunday night she gets real drunk at a party and starts talking about how she looooooves situationships and being complicated/messy with people while also saying that someone who won’t outright date someone but wants to be exclusive with them is “having their cake and eating it too” so I’m like woah woah woah hypocrite, also she “likes” being messy and complicated and not outright dating people? That’s funny because to my face she’s telling me that we’re just on the back burner to go out “officially”.

So by this point I’m obviously pissed off. I’m talking shit (shocking) and a mutual friend of ours who we’ll call 🍓 checks in on me since I had already been venting to her in her room for hours the other week.

🍓 asks what’s going on and when I tell her she says “you and ⚡️ need to talk” and I’m like “I’ve been trying to!” And 🍓 says “then you need to put your foot down about it” and I’m like. Okay. Because if 🍓 is saying that as like the ONLY person who wants this to work out, and as someone who is really close to ⚡️, I am trusting her on it. If it was anyone else I would hesitate but I trust 🍓 implicitly.

🍓 said herself that she has a crush on ⚡️ but is currently polysaturated with her partner 🪄. 🪄 asked me out maybe a week or so ago and I put them off because I’m in love with ⚡️. However, 🪄 and I have still been spending more time together, sometimes in conjunction with 🍓 sometimes just the two of us, and I mean like yeah there’s something there, but I’m polysaturated with ⚡️ right now. 🍓 wants things to work out between me and ⚡️ even though 🍓 likes ⚡️ she’s just not looking for more partners. I think 🍓 is cute and I would be down for being like polyaffectionate with her in a cutesy way. 🪄, who is dating 🍓, does NOT want things to work out between ⚡️ and me, and wants me to move on from ⚡️ and date them instead.

So TOMORROW when I see ⚡️ I’m taking 🍓’s advice and being more forceful about having a conversation with ⚡️. Whatever happens from there, I already agreed to take a road trip with 🪄 over the weekend. There are things as someone who has BPD that I see ⚡️ do that make me think that ⚡️ might be jealous of me and 🪄, which 🍓 told me both her and ⚡️ also have. When I was at the party ⚡️’s cat was cuddling with me and it made her upset enough to literally come over to me and take her cat away, to which 🪄, who was sitting next to me, was like “that was a dick move. See, you should drop it” to which I just said “thinking about it” to. There were a good 15 of us there at the party, and when ⚡️ needed help she asked 🪄 of all people to help her, even though people she’s closer with was there, but 🪄 directly said “sorry, I’m helping Punk right now”. Also, at one point when everyone was in her room looking for a place to move the party to because we were overcrowding and 🪄 offered their dorm and I joked “I feel like I just live in your dorm at this point” and I saw ⚡️ look between 🪄 and me. And it’s like. Yeah! I hope you’re jealous! Little miss can’t-commit stringing-me-along! What are you going to do about it? It’s not like you’re giving me any attention! Suddenly one of your friends comes along and starts hitting on me and asking me out but you can’t do shit because you don’t want to get with me.

So anyway yeah that’s a lot of shit I need to sort out with ⚡️ and then see where that leaves me with 🪄. I do know that ⚡️ has a pattern of bad behavior, which she warned me about, but the fact that she warned me ahead of time doesn’t really absolve her of her behavior. I do still want things to work out with ⚡️, so like as shitty as she is being and I’m fine with people being like “damn that sucks I’m sorry to hear that” I don’t really want to hear that she’s awful/shitty etc.

[exocynraku]

thunder spoilers under the cut!!! read at your own risk!!! here are my opinions on the book!!! i wrote this right after reading originally on the 4th and planned 2 post it on the 7th. it's not the 7th exactly where i live but the wiki updated with spoilers since it's the 7th over there so whatever

okay, so, overall, i liked it. i didnt LOVE it, but i liked it. sunbeams chapters were all great, and with nightheart travelling with frostpaw, he finally had the chance to not be an ass, and he wasn't as bad! i actually read his chapters this time, and oh my god frostpaws chapters were INCREDIBLE!!!! i loved her interactions with whistlepaw and smoky, and wow. she did get spayed, LOL! got spoiled for that early (thanks, assholes!) i was NOT expecting to meet the new cats of the park! i totally thought we'd encounter warriorclan! i'm a little bummed about that, but the cats of the park were all super nice to read about which was super nice. especially bee! thought i'm upset she has the same name as another cat.. wails the reveal of splashtail i totally expected, but i'm a little surprised over curlfeather. i know that there's been suspect she was a villain, but damn! i wanted to hold onto hope! but hey, her being evil is super interesting. plus, wow! she's in the dark forest! i guess i shouldve expected that, but it's felt like forever since a cat got sent there. (which i dont think is rlly true? juniperclaw went i think that was tbc? whatever, still feels so long ago) also i didnt mind that it was a travelling book! i know a lot of ppl HATEEEE travelling books, but i think there was still enough substance to make it interesting! now, that ending... er, hard to explain my feelings. i like cliffhangers because they make me really excited for the next book, but man! this one hurt bad! i want frostpaw to jump out !!!! raugh!!! also, waffle and wasp are cute! i'm happy theyre coming to the clans! we NEED more genetic diversity SOBS and honestly, with frostpaws thoughts right before leaving the park, with the clans needing to become less harsh and fighty, and more open, especially to outsiders? that was incredible! genuinely, genuinely incredible! and i hope they go through with it, i really do! berryheart is also an interesting character. if i'm being honest, i hope she leaves. not becaues i dont like her (i think she's one of the most interesting characters we've had in the series for a long time, even if she sucks), but because like i said earlier we NEED more genetic diversity in the clans! more cats with long blood lines need to leave or die, and new cats w/o long blood lines, or none at all need to start existing. all of the incest is pissing me off. so i'm glad that somecat with not a particularly long bloodline, but a big one (berryheart has like 70 siblings) is leaving. plus those other cats. last misc things, finally, some tree action! it's a miracle! i also like how there were mentions of 1: thunderclan being overcrowded (please please please mass exctinction event GO) and 2: tree being mediator, but never really having the chance to shine. also, cherryfall sucks. jeez louise! i used to like her for gods sake! spotfur and her kits were adorable, i liked ivypool in this book, and oh my god, brambleclaw finally gets less of a spotlight! overall, i liked it. not the most amazing book to ever exist ever, but it definitely got my excited for the next books!!! really happy with ASC so far and i'm pumped to see what's going to happen with it in the future.

also, with the cats of the park cats being introduced, i'll have to draw them! oh boy more work for me to do

[ruinaimagines]

Kind Of a weird request, but could you write some headcanons Of LOR plot If roland and argalia switched places?

Sure can, here they are! This accidentally mainly follows Argalia’s experience so hope you don't mind but there are mentions of Roland.

Library of Ruina if Argalia and Roland Switched Places Headcanons:

I believe before we get into this it is first important to establish what occurred before Argalia came to the library. In this scenario, Roland was likely the one to have been influenced by the pianist and thus start to descend into an inability to hold rational thought.

That said, we’ve seen that even before the pianist Argalia wasn’t the most.. Stable to say. I could absolutely see him going on the same bloody rampages that Roland did when his sister passed, vowing to get revenge and strike down whoever was the cause of this.

The thing is that unlike Roland who ultimately had some sort of pity to those who he lashed out on, I don’t think Argalia would really care? He’s a man who is willing to do or exploit pretty much anyone should it aid his goal. Sure he isn’t totally heartless, and I believe he is capable of harboring care for people just not really strangers he doesn’t know.

He grew up with Angelica, her being basically his only constant in life, so it isn’t super surprising to me that he would risk it all out of some emotional impulse.

Iori is still the one to bring him to the library, though I don’t know if she would be as confident in her choice as she would have been with Roland. Of course, nothing is guaranteed, she can only see the most likely predicted train of events and outcomes, so this is a bit of a gamble.

Argalia is very charismatic, but he also comes off as a bit egocentric. Probably pisses off Angela a lot, but ultimately manages to convince her to let him stay through his amicable facade. As much as he’d like to impulsively get this over with, he is aware that she’s a bit indestructible at the moment so.. The long game it is.

Comes off as a bit suspicious to the sephirah he meets. Sure, he’s nice to them and knows how to make good conversation, but there’s just this sort of unspoken tension. 

Malkuth, though a bit weirded out at first, is mainly upset at Angela over anything and is probably relieved to have some efficient helping hands on her floor. She’s very action oriented as he is (though he is capable of complex planning, he enjoys feeling like he’s physically making progress than being cooped up in a room), so I feel like they would click in those regards. He’s overall from her experience a pretty calm and friendly guy so she doesn’t mind him.

Yesod didn’t like Roland at the start, and he came off as a pretty easy going guy. I imagine it would be a similar experience for Argalia who’s trying to fulfill a similarly cordial role. I think he’d find Yesod’s attitude a bit funny, not taking his stand-offish first impression seriously at all. Because of his indifference to the librarian’s remarks it honestly might be easier for them to get along than initially expected.

Hod is kind of unnerved by him at the start.. He just sort of gives the same feel as Binah from her experience. Still, she’s willing to give anyone a chance and he seems to be pretty warm to her so far! His calm voice is a bit easier on the ears, and I think that her genuine niceness is a point of slight interest to him.

He can most certainly work with Netzach, but at least from meeting him he wouldn’t really care?? Argalia is kind of apathetic to people, so seeing this librarian so downtrodden is just sort of not really something he bothers himself with. What does intrigue him however is his great dislike towards Angela.. That’s something that he would want to hear more about. I think the two are more similar than they realize with both being willing to sacrifice it all for what they believe would create a better world, it’s just difficult to actually get to that point of realization.

Tiphereth is an endless source of entertainment to him with her short temper.. But also one that brings him a sorrowful feeling to see. Sure she’s great to tease but there’s just something that vaguely reminds him of when he and Angelica were children. This feeling only increases by tenfold when he learns of her dead brother and own story. It’s a complicated mix of feelings because Argalia has an innate desire to make sure she is free from harm, but also doesn’t want to see her because it reminds him of his own sister.

Gebura knew from the start there was something more to him. The way he knows exactly what to say, his carefree and alluring personality seeming to morph perfectly to fit who he meets, it all screamed that he was not just your everyday fixer. She makes this fact known well, but nevertheless doesn’t really treat him super poorly because it’s not really her job to care about his intentions. Argalia would be pretty entertained in response to knowing his guise was so quickly seen through, and by none other than the old red mist herself. Despite this, I feel like his questions to her would center around genuine curiosity, wanting to know her better as she was a famous fixer in his youth.

Chesed is like him minus the manipulation and facades, he’s actually like that. Very casual and relaxing to be around, I feel like they oddly enough would have conversations about the strangest of things. We already have seen how Chesed has gone on rants about making coffee, but take that and pair it with the unpredictable thought process of Argalia, you will have absolutely no idea what information they would be deep diving into.

Binah knows. That’s all I have to say. Even with Argalia’s perfect responses it is no match for the master herself. Still, as someone who looks at the world from the outside I believe she would consider him very interesting. Like a specimen to be studied. Invites him to many tea parties, wanting to pick apart his mind and figure out what in the world is going on there.

Hokma is a man who has the ultimate goal of following the one he values’ dreams until the very end, desiring to make them a reality. He is willing to do whatever it takes and believes firmly that through hard work they will come to a fruition. Even if his stern and serious personality might be a bit boring to Argalia, his ambitious wishes for the betterment of humanity align with his own.

Now then! The floor realizations are really where things get pretty interesting. The true reality of Argalia is revealed more and more with each realization, as his impulsivity, callous nature, and fear of loneliness are put emphasis on. 

It’s going to be a long ride but I do genuinely believe that Argalia can find it to forgive Angela as Roland did, and come to become more in touch with his insecurities and personality outside of the fronts he puts up. 

This probably occurs when he gets a chance to reevaluate what he values much. Yes, he is very upset about the death of Angelica, but what she would likely want more is for him to help the world with their own feelings of isolation instead of creating destruction. It’s not an easy conclusion for him to come to, but it is one I believe is possible especially when he finds that there are some librarians who genuinely are willing to reach out and understand him as a person, including all his flaws.

He still doesn’t like Roland though, and this includes when he brings his own equivalent of the ensemble. Coming to the realization that violence isn’t really going to help him recover in this case, it only leads him to detest his brother-in-law more. 

I think watching the stories of the people who are invited has allowed him to garner some more respect to those he does not know in the city. Definitely won’t turn him into a pacifist, but watching some of them suffer in ways that remind him of his own childhood just stirs something uncomfortable inside him.

I believe he is capable of following the route Roland did where he and Angela both forgive each other. Would it take a lot of character development? Yes, it would. But that’s what the whole game is about, and I do believe that he has his own genuine good-hearted desires.. Even if they are deep down and clouded by whatever mess he has going on.

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Thoughts~

Bonnie being angry and disappointed at Freddy when Cassie helps bring him back only for him to see the destruction and decay of his family and home that Freddy allowed to happen because of Gregory, and breaks up with him.

Bonnie later slowly starts falling in love with Proto Freddy (maybe a bit of it is Bonnie projecting but he's def falling) instead.

And Freddy can see it happening from where he is.

Gay drama~

(Long post. I went off on one lmao and can't use read mores on my phone, sorry mobile users)

Ohhh that's a fun one! Bonnie rebounding onto Protobear and after a while those feelings become real... he deserves it honestly. He deserves a happy ending after everything, and so does Protobear! Bet that's an emotional rollercoaster to get through though... That party doesn't sound fun... For them anyway. Very fun for us though! Sucks to be them!

You know what else is fun for this? Bonnie falling for whoever Freddy believed deactivated him. Freddy treating someone differently before the events of SB, and side eying them all the time, not trusting them at all because of what the must have done to Bonnie... It must have been them! They're the only one the makes sense! They're the one that made him disappear and is trying to act like everything's normal! They must be to blame! They took his Bonnie from him and won't tell him what they did or where he is! Whether he's right or not is irrelevant, if he believes it's true, he's going to want nothing to do with them! They need to stay away from Bonnie!

And now here he is. Watching Bonnie flirt with that person. Be it Monty, Roxy, Moon, Chica, whoever. Freddy finally saying out loud what he's felt he's known for a long time now, that this animatronic killed him, how could Bonnie possibly even still look at them, never mind fall in love with them after that?!

Bonnie's face falls flat. He turns to Freddy and stares him right in the eyes. "They didn't do it, Freddy." or even, "They did it to save me, Freddy. What did you do?"

Absolutely devastating. The gay drama is so good

On another note, this is making me think of Protobear and Roxy being fucking hilarious. "Hey, you wanna really freak him out?" one of them asks and they start fake dating in front of Freddy to piss him off. Like they're the most over the top, mushy couple with the most insufferable nicknames, trying so hard not to laugh their asses off, and the first one to crack loses. Everyone gets in on it. Whaaaaat?? Roxy and Protobear?? Oh they're sooooo in love so so so in love, they're not pretending, they would never pretend!!

Jskdndk they get Cassie in on it and she starts calling them mum and dad 2 and Freddy is pointedly trying to leave the room as quickly as possible, but as usual, the fucking doors aren't letting him out again. They're always on the blink now, it's absolutely never Roxy using her security clearance to play Musical Doors with him. Nope. Never. Look at their fake mushy romance boy, you can't escape.

Freddy has never been more confused and sickened in his life. He's always hated Roxy and Roxy's always hated him, this is the worst thing to have to watch ever. He's even more upset if Bonnie pretends to be their partner as well, and even more so if Roxy was who he assumed deactivated him. This is a nightmare scenario and he's being so brave about it.

Sat there trying so hard not to say a word. He's so fine. Not glaring at all. No no no, he's not staring listlessly at them, he's just trying to contact maintenance via the network, obviously. He's not resisting the urge to grimace and not wishing the floor would swallow him up right now. Absolutely not. He would never. He's so so so happy for them. Yup. So so happy. Could not be happier. Why won't these fucking doors open?!

You could apply the fake dating to Protobear and Bonnie specifically too. Bonnie's going through a rebound, and he knows it, so he stays away from Protobear for a while. He tries to take care of himself and the others are right there to help him out the best they can. When he's feeling better, he starts gradually spending more time with Protobear (who has had the situation of Bonnie and Freddy explained to him and is very understanding about it) and the two start slowly building a friendship. Slowly, so as to not rush Bonnie through anything. Protobear himself has walked away from several hangouts because he can tell that Bonnie is struggling, even if he won't admit it, they're handling this with the utmost care...

But then Bonnie, Roxy, Monty and Chica, the four that should never be trusted without supervision, get talking. Bonnie is laughing at these three clowns telling him all about how they're fucking with Freddy for fun, and let him in on some of their schemes. They're hilarious, and he would have thought so before everything happened too, even if he did think they were a bit mean at times. I mean, rallying a bunch of kids to gang up on Freddy in their Fazerblast game as a 'super secret mission' is a touch mean, right? Not anymore. He deserves it.

But then they get to thinking. Bonnie wants to try messing with him too. They bring him in on some of their dastardly plans, and come up with several new ones for him, and believe me, at this time, not a single one of them has the braincell, so you can imagine the bullshit they come up with lmao. He finds this weirdly cathartic. The ability to moderately inconvenience Freddy in funny ways is more fun than he thought it'd be. He was worried it would hurt, worried it would make him think about things too much, and while it does hurt to look at him sometimes... Well his heart is more with his friends than ever now. He feels no desire to be nice to him, or to go back to how things were anymore. He's okay now and this is what makes that real to him...

Then one day it hits him. His own plan to mess with Freddy. Completely his own, the three stooges had nothing to do with this one. It hit him when he was hanging out with Protobear and DJ. What if they were fake dating in front of Freddy? Bonnie and Protobear! Madly in love, with the most sickeningly sweet pet names and the worst pick up lines you've ever heard in your life! DJ thinks that would be pretty mean... But would get him so good, he's a surprisingly petty guy sometimes. Protobear agrees and is completely up for this, it sounds hilarious, but... is Bonnie sure he's ready for that? Is he sure he can handle that?

They think on it a bit and talk to the others about it, who think that's fucking genius but have the same concerns as Protobear. Sunny thinks it's a bit much (and he's probably right) but is very excited to play along with this. He loves playing pretend, he's where Cassie gets it from. When they decide they're gonna do it, they set a few boundaries just in case, make a safe word for if they feel they start going too far with it, and swear to eachother to call it off if it all starts getting too much... Or maybe too real.

Oh my god they have so much fucking fun with it. Protobear has never laughed so hard in his life. The others joining in, helping them pull this off, and building on the joke too make it even more fun! They're having a blast and Freddy is suffering greatly! Customer service mode can't save him now!

But after a while, things start to change. Some of the flirting becomes a little too heartfelt. The insistence that they're not actually a thing becomes less frequent. The act starts to spill over into their everyday lives. Suddenly, they're not so sure this is still a joke anymore. Suddenly, the overdramatic cuddles last until long after Freddy has left the room. Suddenly, they're starting to wonder what it be like to be together for real.

Realisation hits and oh god oh no oh fuck this was NOT the PLAN god DAMN IT

So much fun to be had here!

One more funny one: instead of just Roxy or Bonnie pretending to be with Protobear, what if it's everyone? Protobear has one giant polycule going on where everyone apparently adores him and he dotes on everyone cause he loves them all so so so much. Freddy is staring in disbelief at the 'romantic' cuddle pile Protobear is right in the centre of like this is the most normal thing in the world. It's a Plex wide competition to see who can be the most insufferable in a fake relationship and whoever cracks first loses. It's a team effort! A coordinated attack! And sometimes they actually do fluster Protobear and eachother they're all having fun!

I'd like to call this plan the Protocule :)

(Also, hi jellycreamjammedart! This is the first post I've made today so you may wanna check I've not reblogged with more additions later on. I know you get online kinda late in my timezone, or at least that's when I tend to see you around, so saying this is just in case!)

[rey-jake-therapist]

I don't if this is allowed but I kinda want to vent a bit after seeing all this drama today, and I've sent an ask before about theories. I'm hoping since they blocked me they won't see this I'm kind of neutral to all of this and there's some points on both sides that I agree, as well as disagree with. But the one thing that really kind of feels depressing is... seeing that those people in that discord are writers that I really liked. It's like, seeing someone I admired and a source of aspiration for me turn out to be unapproachable and not who I thought they were. I guess it's also my bad for putting people on a pedestal just because I admire what they do. In the end it hurt me in the end I think that more than anything made me sad. It's one of those kind of things where you saw something and you wish you never discovered it. I felt like Eve after she bit the apple and it's an awful feeling. Also for the record, when I saw that post about the 'antis' disguised as fake shippers, it never occurred to me that it is the people who's stories I was enjoying. That's why I was able to scroll past it without really thinking about it. I just thought it was one of those blogs that ship haladriel AND sauron with brimby/another male character (cause I've been in fandoms where a female character is absolutely hated because she 'got in the way'). I never even thought it had to do with her canon husband. I don't really care about him this way or another (hence why I didn't even know it was about him), I don't check his tag even though I don't have the word blocked (since it's not a trigger like bl00d or g0re). But I guess someone did see the post about antis and the one about him and it caused a visceral reaction? Usually when I see something like that that I feel 'ok i must say something i need to' i just make my own post. I already struggle with being assertive so it's eye-opening for me when I see other people have no problem going onto other blogs just to say something. In the end, I feel like the best course of action is to not interact with posts that trigger you. I don't feel like that's the right move. Even if you have something to say that is true and reasonable, it's very hard to change people's minds in their space. Also, I won't say that I think it's right to paint haladriels one way or another, or to assume something because they like x or y character, or are not opposed to it. <-- I'm not preaching just kind of typing out my own thoughts cause this is how I work out my feelings. I feel like the part that got some people upset is when the line is crossed between talking about a ship/character to the people behind it. I feel like that's what rubbed them the wrong way, and I do agree a bit. It makes me mad when I see poeple on reddit dismiss haladriels as 'teenage hormonal girls who just want the hot bad guy to screw them so they can project their fantasies onto tolkien's work' because that's def not what we are. Anyway, my vent got really long and I'm apologizing because I don't mean cry ugly on anyone's shoulder. I feel better now after typing all this. I hope I don't piss anyone off, and.. while I said what I said about the writers, I'm still choosing to read and review and show support for their stories as a fellow haladriel. I just wish we could all do better and find other outlets for frustration that doesn't involve talking about people and their opinions (this goes both ways). In the same vein, I'm still going to show support and like meta stuff that I find interesting and be supportive of haladriel content creators. Much love, peace! Thanks for listening to me an keeping your inbox open on anon! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

Hey ! Thank you for choosing me, anon, it means that you probably trust me not to be rude or judgemental, and it means a lot :) I must say I was a bit afraid to let my inbox opened for anon messages at the beginning, but except for a few bad apples it's nothing but a lovely experience so far.

Yeah today's events were... something. I usually stay away from fandom dramas, whenever I see a fight over fictional characters I look away and mind my own business tbh. It just seems very silly to me to attack someone over their opinion on fiction, when it's so easy to just block or mute.

Yesterday, I made an exception to my rule because I saw a fellow shipper, who happens to be one of my favorite Tumblr persons as well, getting ganged by people who attacked her like a bunch of hyenas. And it was happening because she said something about a character which made them feel personnally attacked, while it was (presumably) not about them. It was straight out bullying, and all this drama could have been avoided if they had just clicked on the "block" button. You don't like a person's tone ? Just block, it's not even worth spending more than 0.1 second on it ! Launching a bullying campaign over one person is not the way. At least, that's my personal opinion on this matter, I'm sure it's not that popular otherwise we wouldn't be having this conversation...

Now I'm not going to tell you or anyone else, "don't read their fics !", "don't talk to them !", "block them all !". I personally choose to do that, because they personnally attacked me as well in their little group chats, and I don't want to have anything to do with them anymore. But I'm not the fandom police, and I'm the mother of only one child who doesn't even grasp what a fandom and Tumblr are. I wouldn't even fathom telling anyone how they should feel about this whole thing.

In other words, you do you. At the end, it was just a silly drama over nothing. It makes me sad, because I blocked people who I know ship Haladriel. It's a small fandom already and since yesterday, it got even smaller for me :(

[wearelondonhq]

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MARVEL CINEMATIC UNIVERSE SENTENCE STARTERS: featuring quotes from deadpool, venom, ant-man & the wasp, thor: ragnarok, wandavision, doctor strange, ant-man & more. credit for some of these goes to @scotchymemes

Go back to whatever cave you ever crept out of!

What is grief, if not love persevering?

The world has taken too much from you for you to still be considered innocent.

I love you. I love you in every universe.

Where once you were nothing, now you are something.

Expect disappointment and you will never be disappointed.

We were good together, weren’t we? Maybe it’s time to reignite that flame...

I love you 3000.

You still owe me a dance.

Every good family film starts with a great murder.

Kiss me like you missed me.

You’re a lot smarter than I look. You can’t really live until you’ve died a little.

You are not judge, jury or executioner.

You’ve let me down for the last time. What did I do to piss off a grumpy old sucker with a Winter Soldier arm?

You shut your trashmouth!

Sorry, I tend to process traumatic events with dad jokes. 

The only thing that does make sense is that nothing makes sense.

I make grave mistakes all the time. It all seems to work out.

You are my sadness and my hope. But mostly, you’re my love.

Good morning! Are you ready for your hot fresh cup of bodily harm?

You’re not seriously thinking of going back, are you?

Piss off, ghost! I have to get off this planet.

It’s an honor to meet you, officially. I sort of met you, I mean, I watched you while you were sleeping.

We never lose our demons. We only learn to live above them.

I’m expendable. That’s why I’m here.

Some of the best love stories begin with a murder.

You ever feel lost? Just look into the eyes of the people you love.

Do I have to figure out my whole future before lunch, or is there, like…?”

He’d rather lose this fight than lose you.

I’m gonna have to rain check that dance. 

Don’t do anything I would do, and don’t do anything I wouldn’t do. There’s a little gray area in there. That’s where you operate.”

Love is a dagger. It’s a weapon to be wielded far away or up close. You can see yourself in it. It’s beautiful until it makes you bleed.

Someday I’m gonna make great machines that fly. And me and my friends are gonna go flying together, into the forever and beautiful sky.

There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t regret having said yes.

I just want a chance to prove myself. Because that’s what heroes do!

You know what I like about being upset? The blame.

You’re just using me to get to (...). That’s so gross, you’re not even my friend.

You don’t have to fight anyone, but we’re in danger so we have to move.

Your hair looks nice. What did you do to it? Did you change it, maybe wash it?

He is as dishonourable as he is attractive.

Where do you store all this useless information?

Good is not a thing you are. It's a thing you do.

You know you didn’t have to humiliate him in front of everyone.

House blowing up builds character.

I’m just a bad guy who gets paid to fuck up even worse guys.

Motherfucker, you’re the world’s worst friend.

Less talking, more kissing.

Do you kiss your mother with that mouth?

I know what you’re going to say, but this guy/girl/person is all the way bad.

You are so pathologically self-observed

Love the optimism, but in my experience, when it looks bad, it’s usually worse.

I do not understand the intricacies of social interaction.

What master do I serve? What am I supposed to say, Jesus?

I told you that when I was drunk, why are you bringing this up?

Please tell me nobody just kissed me.

There’s a shawarma place two blocks from here. I don’t know what it is, but I want to try it.

If he ends up being evil, we’ll just kill him.

Trying to get you to stop has been one of the few failures of my entire life.

! Do you ever feel like your life is one monumental screw-up?

You people have no shame! What does the FBI even stand for? Forever Bothering Individuals?

Ninja Turtle, you better stop poking me.

I get emails from a raccoon, so nothing sounds crazy.

I just keep imagining you waking up in the morning, sir, looking in the mirror and then in all seriousness saying to yourself, ‘You know what would be a really kickass name? ______!’

I told you, I don’t want to join your super-secret boy band.

Look, I’m going to be totally honest with you:

I forgot you’re here. Well, I was in the neighborhood so I thought I’d save you the hassle.

So are you two…do you…fondue?

You call me _______ again, I’ll shove my foot up somewhere it’s not supposed to be.

Don’t drink fountain water, you idiot.

That’s disgusting.

We'll be okay. You can rest now.

I do some dumb things and it ends up hurting the people I love the most.

Maybe you need a partner, someone to watch your back.

You can do it. You can do anything.

Together, we’ll figure something out.

Missed me, missed me, now you gotta- You know what, forget I said anything.

I’m not one to be judgemental, but you, sir, are an extremely disturbed man.

Lie is such an ugly word. I prefer misdirection

I just conned the hell out of you and here you are trying to save me. How can you be so damn nice all the time?

[mainfaggot]

aug. 19th '24

last night i had the strangest series of dreams. i realise that i tend to overuse the word "strange"... anyway.

in one of the dreams, i was standing in front of a group of alternate selves—there were all these versions of myself sitting in a line—i was sobbing about how i only had one life and one chance to figure out which self i wanted to become. i was crying and telling my mother that i needed to be more and that i needed lead a fuller life, and she said i was being stupid. then, a group of artists, writers, and singers that i envy in real life (specifically due to their passion and strong sense of purpose) walked past me, and i felt even more despair.

in the next dream, my friend who i was supposed to have over for breakfast this morning cancelled on me. the weird part was that she said she wasn't sorry and that she preferred making me think that she'd stick around when she really wouldn't. when i woke up to make coffee, i shattered one of my nice drink glasses. then i checked my messages and she really had texted me to cancel. she apologised though, unlike in the dream. it pissed me off regardless because she's always apologising to me and making time for other people. i know half of those people are work friends, but it still bothers me how little space i occupy in her list of priorities. i think more than anything, im bothered by how easily my irritation is momentarily appeased. she sent me a string of apologies and sad faces, and suddenly i felt guilty for getting upset at her at all. suddenly, i felt like i was in the wrong and that she was so nice and considerate for apologising. i think im a little stupid. god.

in conclusion:

I) i am afraid of living when everything feels pointless, and i am afraid of living when everything means so much that i can't decide what it is in particular that i desire the most. a lack of will is almost equivalent to a strong will with a muddied sense of purpose.

and

II) i can predict unfortunate events because my subconscious catastrophises even when i should be resting and regaining my energy. my anxious mind likes saying, "i told you so!" when nothing works out the way it should have.

[flower-sunflower-blog]

What s!Cherry did to the gods, and the true reason why they want her near the tree

What did s!Cherry that made the gods upset ? We don’t know yet, because we didn’t see it. Yeah, that’s the theory. 

We could have thought that we saw all the moments that explained why the gods were angry, but we didn’t. It wasn’t just because she insulted them - at least not only xD Or maybe it is, but even if it is, we didn’t see it happening. At this point, what s!Cherry did to them could’ve been literally anything, we don’t have clues. That’s where you have to follow my track, you need to have all the elements in mind to understand, and you’ll see what I mean and why I think this is important to know.

First, she appeared in a box far away from her house. Why was she this far away to begin with ? And in a box ?  She told the fruities she lost her waypoint and had to walk back home. But again, how did she find herself in this situation ?  But she quickly brushed off the topic, and at this point the fruities didn’t notice anything weird with the situation. On her way, she was distracted a lot, especially by flowers. Looking back at it, it’s like she didn’t really want to go deep down, at any occasion collecting flowers and looking at cute mobs was more interesting to her. At some moments she said she wanted to go home, especially when hostile mobs were around her. But she also said she FELT like she needed to go home, more on that later. 

But she found out where the waypoint of her home actually was. And when she did, she stopped, and she stayed really silent for a while. It was like she was having some kind of realization ? But she still moved forward soon after, and once she was very close, the weather started changing and a storm arose. What she said afterwards seemed to have provoked more thunder, the fact that this place wasn’t her home for instance. And once she insulted them, she got struck by lightning. But, keep it in mind, the storm was here JUST BECAUSE she was near the tree to begin with, before she did anything else. At that moment, she also said that she has been struck a lot recently. After she got angry with them and they struck her with lightning, they kinda “pressured” her to go “home” which was the tree. 

She describes the “magic” as “awful” near the tree. It was really clear that she doesn’t like this place, but didn't have a choice. She went on about how she hated the place, how she "didn’t want to call it her home” but when she made those statements, the gods got even more angry at her. After this event, a few incidents happened where the gods got angry, she got threatened etc. She told s!Ana she did “something” to upset them, and s!Lea told her "whatever you did, don't ever do it again". At this point I just assumed they referred to how she insulted the gods back then. Another interesting scene during the third gods occurrence : she told s!Ana she shouldn’t have built her home close to the tree. Ana replied she wasn’t sure the tree was the problem but s!Cherry said “yeah not so sure about that”. And once both of them arrived near the island, the storm started rising. And s!Cherry said "that's why I don't...really go here. I don't think they like me on this island"

Something was strange for me for a while, and seemed contradictory. First, it is implied that s!Cherry didn’t seem to have a problem being near the tree at first, since she built her house near it (because the tree has been there since the beginning, remember). It shows that her strong feelings about the tree didn't get in the way of being close to it at first. But after she pissed off the gods, it seemed like s!Cherry clearly didn’t want to go to the tree, but was pressured to. But at the same time, the gods were angry when s!Cherry was near tree, with how s!Cherry said “I don’t think they like me on this island”, “that’s why I don’t go here”. Why force her to go near the tree, and then get angry at her when she does it ? That’s where I had a realization piecing all the elements together : I really think the gods actually have more power and influence near the tree. And that’s the whole reason why they want her near the tree. 

So, let’s go back in time with all these elements in mind : 

- Far away from her home, in a the box

- Realizing what was her home in the middle of the way

- The thunder rising as soon as she stepped near the tree

- Pushing her to go near the tree when she didn’t want to

- Her saying she shouldn’t have made her house close to the tree

- The storm rising when she's near the tree again afterward

s!Cherry did something bad, something that really upsetted the gods, when she was near the tree/her house. Whatever this “something was” - it still could have been insults, it just means she did it sooner than we thought, or something else - it was probably the whole reason why she appeared in the box in the first place. She was far away, hidden, to avoid being punished by the gods. Because she probably knew the god won't have influence over her this far from the tree. But things didn’t go according to her plan.

When she woke up, she seemed kinda confused, the way she talked made it feel like she didn’t remember. Maybe she only half remembered ? Other option, she knew what was going on but wasn’t willing to admit what really happened to the fruities. But she still started walking her way home. But if everything I said is right, why tho ? This whole question could uncover a lot about the reality of the Shelter, why even getting far away from the gods couldn’t prevent her from falling under their authority ? When she stopped half way and stopped at the waypoint, she likely remembered - or just realized - what was awaiting her back there. But she still continued. Maybe the fact she was in a vulnerable position being far away, with hostile mobs and no one near who would rescue her, made her go back by herself. At these moments, she said she wanted to go home. But also said she FELT like she had to go home at other moments. That’s really where we can think of a driving force she just couldn’t escape, way beyond her. Or maybe it was the mix of both of these elements ?

And when she was near the tree, that’s probably where the god could punish her for what she did. So the reason why she storm arose immediatly at that moment, and everytime she went back here afterwards. They force her to go near the tree, because that’s where they can exercise their power onto her without being limited, and make her pay the consequences of her actions. s!Cherry really seems forcefully submitted to the gods, and this whole event proved that even going far away where they don’t have influence over her doesn’t work. But she also wants to live a peaceful life, so that’s why she eventually get an agreement with s!Ana to stop opposing them. Well, at least for now. Let me tell you this, I think this opposition that s!Cherry has with the gods will be a key element of the whole Shelter lore once they’ll get started. 

[tana-draws]

imagine wasting all your energy hating on angel when you can spend that energy on characters you love.

ok

The “who hates Angel the most” poll was not done out of personal hate for angel, but curiosity of what other fans of the show think other characters think about him.

A lot of my posts involving Angel have to do with me thinking the dynamic (or at least, potential one) between him and Giles in s3 was interesting. For example, recently I reblogged a post and tagged it “Giles with angel.” This has nothing to do with my own feelings towards angel, more so a statement towards how I feel another character feels about him.

i don’t really hate angel as a character, my criticisms are about the narrative treatment of him (amends reminding us of how he murdered people, including a character we knew, just as an attempt to make us feel bad for him, s3 trying to acknowledge the events of s2 but rarely acknowledging how it effected anyone other than Buffy and angel, etc) and how fans treat him (acting as though characters are in the wrong for not liking him in s3/being upset about his resurrection/being upset about the resurrection being hidden from them)

Angel can piss me off at times (amends, also his crimes in s2 but I’ll exclude those cause soul or whatever) but I also find him funny sometimes. I also haven’t seen ATS so I’m not going to say I HATE him until I’ve seen the show he’s the protagonist of.

Most scenes I’ve reblogged seeming anti-Angel are scenes between Giles and Angel (because, as I mentioned earlier, I find their dynamic interesting,) specifically referring to three scenes I’ve reblogged: -reblogged the arson scene in passion and cheered Giles on in the tags (angel/us is currently soulless and also just murdered Jenny). -reblogged the scene between them from amends encouraging Giles to hurt angel (if angel has the nerve to ask Giles for help with an existential crisis after everything that happened I think Giles should have been allowed to respond by stabbing him a little. He’s a vampire he’ll be fine. Besides it’s not like he’s doing it unprompted angel if you’re going to seek out someone who hates you because you murdered their partner and tortured them, hoping they’ll help you, you have to expect that you might lose a bit of blood). -reblogged the scene right before angel/us tortures Giles and said I was going to stab angel/us (again, still soulless and about to commit torture). In none of these cases did I, to my memory, reblog a random gif set talking about how much I hate angel, because not only is that a dick move, I myself would not want people reblogging, say Fanart, of a character yapping about how much they hate them, but I’m also mostly nuetral on him in general, except when he pisses me off. (I have criticized the godawful take that people were “too mean to poor innocent angel” in s3 but pointing out that the other characters are allowed to have negative feelings towards him when someone claims otherwise is different than reblogging a random post about how they like him as a character that doesn’t use their opinion to villainize characters for having emotions, or a gifset of scenes where he doesn’t do anything wrong posted by someone who likes him, and going “actually you’re wrong he’s awful and I hate him”) I only reblogged gifsets and commented hyper-negatively when he’s doing/has done/will do something shitty, two of which, depending on how you interpret soul lore, weren’t even technically him.

I talk way more about characters I like than I shittalk angel. The last post I made on this blog about Buffy, if I remember correctly, was about how I had rewatched some assembly required and how Giles had no game. Look through the Buffy tags on my account and I think most of the posts will be about Jenny and Giles, and then some that aren’t about them but also aren’t about angel.

most of my issues are related to characters I like. I know it wasn’t technically him cause soul or whatever, but he killed Jenny, tortured Giles, tried to kill a bunch of other major characters, probably would have killed them if not stopped, made Buffy’s life hell, and tried to end the world (not really a character but still kind of a big deal.) even if it wasn’t technically him, it effects my view of him (AND AGAIN: most of my issues aren’t even because of the events, but because, in s3, those events were rarely acknowledged outside of “you should feel sad that angel is guilty for murdering a bunch of people” or “it’s so sad Angel and Buffy can’t be together (cause he murdered a bunch of people).” Which is more of a writing issue than a character issue.)

I can do what I want

[galactic-pirates]

Ok so it’s a day ending in Y and so I am thinking about Star Trek.

What keeps echoing in my head right now is the “all men are born equal but some are more equal than others.”

I’m newly pissed because at its core Trek is that frustrating, maddening dichotomy of hope for the future vs. the reality and inability to really break away or imagine something truly different.

The thought of a post-scarcity sort of utopia especially given the current political hellscape is such a comfort. The future can be better if we let it.

Where the maddening dichotomy comes in is something that has always threaded through Trek. In that people are people, they are imperfect and so while they always try, they sometimes fail. But the characters we root for, they are ultimately supposed to be the good guys. The Federation might make a misstep, but our hero, is supposed to call them on it or wryly accept the hypocrisy and that they still have work to do, or something along that lines. That doesn’t always happen obviously because people are writing the show, and those people have biases and prejudices and those blinkers come through. There have been some damn uncomfortable Trek episodes that went wide of the mark.

I’m rambling and I’m not sure I’m making my point. Narrative framing. Once Upon a Time was absolutely awful for this. The objective facts of the events said one thing like a certain character was a bad guy, but the writers made the characters say what a hero he was. Evidence didn’t match. There was a real dissonance. It made for bizarre viewing.

Picard has the same kind of shit going on. Jack Crusher got upset, and threw one hell of a tantrum. Hours went by in which he stole a shuttle and of his own free will went to the Borg cube. Yes he was then assimilated, and yes I would usually argue that the assimilated are the Borgs first victims and are not responsible for what they do as drones. They aren’t in control of their own actions. Except Jack broke his own link to the collective so how deeply assimilated was he? Seems like a lot of free choice here. And his “fire fire fire, kill the unassimilated” killed a lot of people. They aren’t specific how many but with 50 ships, and space dock, and planetary defense etc. I’m thinking a few hundred bare minimum, probably more like a few thousand.

What happened next? Was there any justice? No. Daddy is a human Admiral. So fast-tracked through StarFleet, assigned to the Flagship as a special officer.

Brings back an old sore point of Picard and his legacy vineyard estate. The events of Romulus happened, Picard was on the right side of history in terms of wanting to help the Romulans but when he failed to convince StarFleet he just fucked off to his large country estate, and what was sad? 15 years, nice comfortable life, staff to take care of everything. Raffi had a small broken down trailer in the desert. Maybe that was partly her choice, maybe she could have had an apartment in the city or whatever, but not everyone can have huge legacy country estates.

So much privilege and yeah that’s the unfortunate nature of reality. But it makes me so damn frustrated. The Federation is an ideal, principles and hope, and the best of Trek shows how they try but people are flawed, so they make their best effort. Power corrupts and institutions can be rotten but our heroes are supposed to be better. To try.

The changelings might have infiltrated StarFleet but they wouldn’t have replaced all the top brass. Some but not all. Which even if I am generous and say the changelings suggested some things, the rest of them agreed. It’s like The Winter Soldier where Hydra won because Shield sleep walked down the road to trading freedom for security. Our heroes are supposed to call that out but Picard at least is leveraging his position of privilege and benefiting from it. If the narrative framed that as a mistake, I would find it compelling, but that’s not what’s happening, and it feels bad.

I’m all for the struggle that Trek embodies of reality vs dreams of something better but the narrative needs to frame it that way. And it’s not.