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albedobeheading · 2 years ago

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#I’m gonna put this shit down here bc idk if it’ll be upsetting to other people #*says the person who just said they want to kms like four days ago*#anyway this is about weight and eating and shit #like I don’t have an eating disorder but I just don’t always have the best relationship with food #I will indulge in whatever I want most of the time #and I love hedonism I love pleasure I love doing stuff that feels good #however. when I’m having a tough time and feeling terrible I do kinda fixate on my body #I mean I already fixate on my body just like surface level all the time #but right now I’m feeling shitty abt my weight #I haven’t gone to the gym in a week ish and I’m 5 pounds heavier than I normally am #and I know a lot of it is water retention and bc I’m on my period #so idk I have to write something but I also want to go to the gym tomorrow and Friday #I also just am so sad with my planet fitness for not being 24 hours any more bc I would usually go after work #idk. I’m just not feeling great

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hunysckle · 17 days ago

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#this has been in my drafts for months #i know i already spoke about this recently but I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT PEOPLE'S WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEYS!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!#i even scroll away from recipes of dishes that look super yummy if the op emphasizes anything about the carbs or calories or keto or #any of that shit. i've had to skip segments of the podcast i've been listening to because they end up discussing eating habits and exercise #too much and in a very lightly fitness bro way. like shut up.#i grew up with self-hating fat parents who repeatedly told me i shouldn't end up like them. who talked shit about their bodies all the time #AND I'M TIRED OF IT!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!#anyways. rant over i guess #trixie talks

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em-b-sides · 7 months ago

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I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually

#like its so cute honestly but sometimes i wonder how hard it would actually be to like find the right color match #maybe one day... but for now probably expect oc art with this trend in it maybe 💀#the thing about it too is i have like dark eyes and idk if ive ever seen like a dark brown nail polish. beads or thread yeah but ya #oh nvm i googled. it exists i just dont pay attention ig #OH you know what i can do... i can paint pepperonis eye color on my nails.... my baby... my kitty......#dude it feels like 5 am why is it only 2 #amyways. 4 monsters was a big mistake i think... i feel quite icky...#it doesnt help i didnt eat for a majority of the day it was just monster. im really unhealthy. need water maybe #wait i was talking about nail polish how did i get here #i just want to actually do cute couple things. i must heal. im gonna be so healthy.#its fine. lmao. i just know im not ready #oh i did eat btw dont worry lmao i had. chicken nuggets #i actually have to eat more bc i need to gain back some weight or they wont let me donate plasma #my extra pokemon money..... nawr...#i dropped like 10 pounds. my current job is very physical. lots of scuttling around.#i thought about working out too? i had a short phase last year in like spring or something where i started doing workout type stuff #so like.. maybe. probably should. healtly mindset shit yk #i also maybe want some more clothes. like update my wardrobe a bit. really figure out my style.#like some cool shirts and maybe pants. cause i wear a lot of the same stuff #also again. dropped weight so. need better fitting pants.....#i want more mens pants. big pockets... gender....#anyways. nice chatting with you besties. love you guys my silly little tumblr besties.#some of you that follow this sideblog have supported me on here for a while. i see you. i appreciate you. thank you 💖#genuinely there are names that pop up and im like !! hello!!! its you!!!!!#you guys probably know who you are. go get yourself a little treat you deserve it. or like. idk what you enjoy.#play a good game. watch your favorite show. idk. be happy. love yourself.#this also goes out to those of you who are more passive on my blog. i appreciate you too!! thank you!#all my little tumblr followers.... my besties..... unles you are a bot i havent cleared out lmao #k i might have to go to bed idk im tired well see

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orcelito · 1 month ago

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This just in, local struggler severely overestimates how much they can eat yet again. Left with half a bowl of ramen and a sad, sad heart

#speculation nation #it's homemade at least so im not wasting money on fancy ramen #but i Hate this man it sucks 😭😭😭😭#i keep losing weight bc i can never eat enough #and i was like 'ok lets make a ramen thats a good sized meal' but then i cant FINISH it #forced myself to finish all the eggs at least and now im just picking at the peas. ugh.#at this rate im gonna have to start drinking ensures more regularly again #bc i havent gotten to the underweight phase yet but if it keeps going like this then i will #like it was. excuse me talking about my weight for a bit but im a tad bit concerned about it #but back before i started adderall back in uhh. september?? i think?? or october???#fuck if i remember. been a few months tho. but also not That long.#anyways i was at like. 140lbs at the doctor and like 137lbs at home (relevant bc clothes weight. rest of this will be at home weights)#and ive had such shit appetite that ive been watching it go down and down. like at least a pound a week. sometimes two pounds.#and now im at 123lbs. which is a solid almost 15 lbs lost in like 3 ish months. which is kind of a lot when ur small to begin with.#also a little alarming when u see this happen like a pound lower between every shower. bc i tend to check before i shower.#& i often shower every 4 days or so. when im in the Rotting Era and all. aka i dont rly go outside much.#and like 123lbs still isnt bad for 5'3“ but i think 107lbs is the cutoff for underweight. and im halfway there.#and now see i was about this weight a few years back so in one respect it's nice to fit into some of my older pants again #but at the same time..thats too quick!!! thats not healthy!!!! but when i try to eat more i Cant!!! it makes me nauseous!!!!!#so back in early 2020 when i was dipping under 110lbs bc of meds stuff i got onto ensure and it did help. so maybe i need to again.#just..blegh. i just kinda feel empty all the time. like stomach-wise. but not Hungry. it's a problem.#gotta come up with ways to eat that dont rely on my stomach to tell me when to eat. bc it's definitely not doing a good job at that.#weight mention/#and like see ive been eating 2 meals a day on average but i was doing that before too!!!!!!#but i think it's bc i cant Finish my meals half the time that's really causing problems.#staring at my half eaten bowl of ramen very grumpily. it has now been long enough that it's kind of gross.#and my arms hurt. just bc my bone aches have decided to flare up again. very grumpy.#negative/#i guess lol

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gregmarriage · 5 months ago

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my period app being like ‘late for 38 days!!’

baby girl, i haven’t had a period, since this time in may, but alright <3

#surprise i’m pregnant!!!#imaoooooon nahhhh #but my body is weird and i don’t get super regular periods bc my weight is constantly up and down and for probably a whole host of other #reasons #i’ve never been regular in general #but like missing a month is considered pretty normal #i swear i didn’t have a period for like a year once #and it’s been like nearly four months(?) now soooo 🤷🏻‍♀️#like i’m fine otherwise #idk what my current weight is but like i don’t think it’s like dangerously bad rn #i don’t like to think about it too much bc my brain LOVES to latch on to that shit and not let go and make me feel like shit #just in general i have a hard time keeping weight on #and like it’s not that eat too little (except sometimes i do oops)#bc like half the time i eat the same as my brother and he’s like 10 stone or something #i have been flip flopping between 8 and 9 for the last couple years #but it’s not like all my problems would immediately be solved if i were heavier (using that term lightly)#but like not eating does my symptoms worse bc like obviously not eating = lack of energy #but like eating doesn’t make my body magically fixed and function like a able bodied person’s is what i mean #but anyways i don’t think i’ve had a normal menstrual cycle in like 5+ years #so hehe x #gwen rambles #gwenposting

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maraeffect · 2 months ago

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hi everyone, this is my monthly check-in <3

#not feeling so great lately...there's a lesion on my other knee now #and it most likely is cancer.#they want me to wait another 10 days for an mri???? like ur crazy #if u think i can wait that long.#sighhhhhhhhh.#anyway.#some cool things have happened #like spending all day in nyc with my partner on friday <3333 #and um. i did wnt to vent about smth so uh.#ED tw #lately #my energy has been too low for me to wanna cook. which in turn made my stomach shrink a LOT #since i've been surviving by grazing on snacks.#and i didnt even realize i lost weight until i went to the doctor.#i didnt realize though that it would be even MORE lost when i weighed myself without my winter clothes #and uhhhh. i currently weigh what i weighed in my senior year of high school #which is the FIRST time i've been under a certain number in over SIX YEARS.#and i havent struggled at all w body negativity or ED thoughts in over a couple years. but.#now that my ideal gender expression has shifted more to the feminine side. and now that ive lost weight.#my brain INSTANTLY latched onto that #and was like omg YES do more of that #and it feels nice. this time im FINALLY not struggling to suppress my appetite!!! my body is doing that for me!#and obviously im still eating enough to live on #but still a huge caloric deficit. and rn my wheelchair shit keeps breaking on me. my mobility company is INCOMPETENT.#and my insurance might tell me i have to wait FIVE MORE YEARS for another type of chair......I WILL DIE BY THEN.#ugh everything is so complicated now. and im ALWAYS exhausted bc the sun sets at 4:30. i've just stopped binging and i replaced it with+#a LOT. of retail therapy. i've easily spent probably 1500 of my credit limit in the last 2 months. but you know.#that and not eating are 2 of the ONLY things i can control rn. out of all the fucking bullshit these useless people and my body put me thru #anyway. i'm sure you can tell how i feel rn. i'm just going to try doing anything else today.#vent

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four-for-fidelity · 4 months ago

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coworker mentioned girl math and when i refused to even humour the concept she was like "it's true!!!! that's how girls justify buying another new purse even though we don't need it!!!!!" exploding tiktok in my mind

#like you are a grown ass woman with teenage children #you cannot be buying into this kind of shit #i shut this kind of shit down so fast at work i will not play along with it and i will not tolerate it #same with when theyre all talking about weight loss and not being allowed to eat things because they go on and on about it #and *i* don't like to hear about it and im thin. i can't imagine the guilt other people must feel listening to it #im not going to validate their bullshit. i want them to stop and think about it.#and the fact that i am generally lovable really helps bc none of them get mad at me for it and they all respect my opinions <3 #anyways all my hashtag woke friends make me ill prepared for tolerating this kind of garbage from coworkers

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whatevertheywant · 6 months ago

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I really really really really really fucking wish that I didn't hang on to petty bull shit that my parents say despite being nearly 30 years old

#and it's usually shit they mean nothing by #but those little digs and remarks are still fuxkibg irksome af #my struggles with eating are not known to very many people because i rarely talk about it outside of my very tight circle of like 4 people #and no one thinks the fat girl struggles with thqt #even if they don't say it out loud i can tell when certain people don't see it as a problem since I'm losing weight #or just don't believe me #anyway i bought a 2 piece from kfc yesterday and got 2 extra sides bc i was very hungry and high af #my dad just HAD to be like dAmN lAuRen #and i know he meant how much i spent on everything #which also not his business but i digress #it's hard to make myself spend money on food sometimes because I'm painfully aware of how fucking poor i am #fast food like 1-2 times a week special groceries and my thc vape are usually the only luxuries i get outside like streaming #sometimes i don't have the executive function to make food or i have sleep for dinner bc that or poverty #so comments like that do piss me off #and whether i agree or disagree isn't the point #you don't get to pick what does and doesn’t stick #I'm just over everything idk #personal

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ionlycareaboutyou · 7 months ago

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i wish food didn’t control me as much as it did :(

#i just ate a salad but i feel like it was too much bc the dressing was olive oil based so…. :(#and i put cheese and other fattening things on it #and then i got a package from my mom for my birthday and she sent me chocolate and it just made me sad #i feel so alone :( i can’t find a way to talk to anyone about this #i’ve had friends express concern but i’m not underweight actually i gained weight since i started dating someone #and i’m not gonna cry about it to HER all the time this is my own shit to deal with #i just have such an unhealthy relationship with food and it always gets worse in the summer #i just feel really alone and i wish i could talk to someone without making them uncomfortable or putting too much on them #the obvious answer is to go to therapy but i live in a rural area in a country where i am not fluent in the language #and thinness is very highly valued here anyway so :(#what’s the point of anything….#i’m sorry i should be happy and grateful my parents sent me some birthday stuff but it just made me sad. i can’t even eat it

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acoyote · 1 year ago

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the most annoying people on earth are the ones who act you’re completely obliterating any nutritional value of vegetables by cooking them with something “too fatty” like cheese or “too much” oil. fuck you. part of the reason i still struggle with motivation to improve my shitty diet is because so many people even my own damn doctors make it sound futile like ok i might as well just continue eating nothing but chicken nuggets if making a veggie palatable to me is going to sap all of its nutritional value and it's not any different

#i wish i liked raw or steamed veggies but right now i simply don't i've been picky my whole life and my parents just let me eat whatever #i will NOT eat them like that yet let me have them crispy and oily #i'm not necessarily trying to lose weight here i'm just trying to get some damn nutrience in my body #but all anyone cares about is the calorie count #anyway i'm eating a shit ton of kale chips because they're TASTY with OIL and SALT #food

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running-in-the-dark · 1 year ago

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oh - when my nephew was here he also told me that my mother said medication doesn't have any effect on hunger.

hahaha that's so fucking funny, I'm gonna scream :)

(was just reminded of this because I feel like I'm starving. because of my new meds. when without them... I don't really feel hungry until many hours after I should have eaten.)

#literally how can you say something so fucking stupid when you have zero experience with it yourself #I mean that's just what she does. always and about everything. but this one is particularly infuriating #I bet it came up because they were talking about my weight. and it wouldn't have been nice :) so that's just. awesome to know.#anyway yeah I literally feel COMPLETELY different when I'm on certain antidepressants. they make me hungry ALL THE TIME. and not slightly #hungry like hm I could eat. nope. so hungry that it feels like I'm starving only a few hours after I've had a meal #but sure! you know better! totally!#and it's LITERALLY in the damn information leaflet as a common side effect. for like three different meds I'm on. but no it's just because #I'm stupid :)#(for context. my mother is the most openly and proudly fatphobic person ever. she will very loudly talk about a fat person's body when they #are only a couple meters away. she hates fat people. so. this isn't a neutral statement coming from her. it's filled with hate and disgust #and I'm fucking sick of this shit. literally I'd feel so much more comfortable in my body if she were dead. it's the biggest hurdle to #getting over my own internalised fatphobia. my first thought is usually something she would say. it fucking sucks.)#tw fatphobia

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hobisexually · 9 months ago

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long winded rant in the tags coming that’s partly about weight but in a very unfiltered sad way so if that triggers you do Not read on

#on holiday I was like oHHHHH this is what living in the moment is! What listening to your body is! what not worrying about how you look is #but doing what makes you happy #and then ��… I came home and got sent the pictures #+ my friend being. unintentionally fatphobic as fuck #while hurtful as fuck too #and it’s all just been piling up too since I got home because I’ve been having a lot of conversations and seeing a lot of people that #confront me with who I used to be and who I am now and how I’m really not happy with that #and it feels like it’s not gonna get better #like I’m destined to be in a job I like but isn’t what I want because I’m not capable enough and I’ll never know what romantic requited love #feels like. I’ll never cure my vaginismus I’ll never be able to let someone in or they won’t want me this is just it for me #and SOMEHOW the way I look has become the ultimate culmination of all those things?#my face is suddenly a woman in her thirties face #I keep gaining weight despite not even eating all that much because FUCKING PCOS makes it impossible #my hair in my face grew back. my stomach is hairy and that plus the added beer belly just makes it look like I’m a 50 year old man #I am soooooooo tired of the dysphoria #and the way pcos ruins fucking everything because I can restrict calories all I want and move all I want but will it help ? No !#and of the fact that it impacts the way I feel about myself so much because I’m convinced now I’ll never find anyone #should have tried harder when I was 21 because that was the only time in my life I reasonably fit society’s standards like That was my shot #I’ve been taking supplements everyone says will help but I’m not sure I noticed anything in the past six months and I can’t take berberine #because it fucks with my heart medication. which. That too. I have that too #and I’m in pain! All the time now! ALL THE TIME so I can’t even work out to keep the weight stable because guess what ?#just after a normal day at the office I come home and have to lie down because everhthing hurts so much !#today I got an impromptu massage in an attempt to feel better but it didn’t fix shit and I had to buy clothes for kings day after #and I didn’t try them on just quickly grabbed some orange shit to try on at home and at what I saw in the mirror I genuinely got nauseous #I just don’t know who that is in the mirror but it’s not me and I can’t accept it. I’ve been trying so hard but I can’t #it genuinely makes me so sad and I keep telling myself that a reduction will help in feeling more like myself and it will help with the pain #but what if it doesn’t? what if my pain doesn’t go away after af all and my stomach just juts out and I feel like a gremlin all the time #what then. what the fuck do we do then. also I’m so fucking scared of that surgery anyway that I don’t fucking want to do it anymore #I want so many things and all of them feel out of reach and I know my own brain is my worst enemy and it’s not rooted in anything real but.#Isn’t it? really — isn’t it???????

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boy-above · 10 months ago

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i decided im gonna try to cut back on soda bc usually i drink two or three cans a day and that's too much, esp since i'm gaining weight and i have a very bad relationship with my weight so if i can stop that it would be beneficial for my brain health lol. i want to cut down to one can of soda a day, so i went out and got some flavored water instead also sparkling flavored water for when i want fizz. hopefully i can do it, i set it as one of my goals with my therapist so if i can do it i'll feel like such a big boy. so if you see me making posts like "i only had one can today!" i am congratulating myself.

#talking abt my weight is hard because i'm very much skinny. i'm 106 right now and im used to being 100 at the most #i've always hovered between like 96 at the lowest and 101 at the highest for like my whole life. so 106 is a bit concerning #PLEASE note that i'm only 4'9 and 1/2 so i'm not underweight i prommy. it's a healthy weight for someone as short as i am #it just makes it hard to talk abt my weight because i KNOW i'm skinny i understand this #i KNOW that 106 is not 'fat' and also being fat is not a Bad Thing i don't think that #i feel like i always have to put a disclaimer whenever i talk about it :I im not starving myself or anything i have three meals a day #and survive mostly on unhealthy shit like fast food lol #i'm autistic so i'm very particular about what i eat and fast food is like some of the only shite i can stomach #ANYWAY i would just like to get back to like 100 pounds because that's always where i've been for like my whole life #and i know it's because of the soda cause i didn't used to drink this much #if anyone would like 2 support me in my journey i would love u guys

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psychicpinenut · 2 years ago

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when people realize they don't have to starve themselves to lose weight is when we will know peace

#and don't rb this with some shit like 'you don't need to lose weight at all' cause I'll hunt you down #anyways this is about my coworker who thinks if she eats some biscuits for lunch #boiled eggs for dinner it's gonna help her in the long run #it's hard to watch honestly like girl you are literally dumb as fuck #pine rambles #tw weightloss #tw diet

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catboyolli · 2 years ago

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another day of feeling like i don't belong anywhere ✌

#cheers!#i love my friends and i love knowing that i will have to see one of their friends whom i massively dislike in a month and a half!#i can't control my friends' friendships of course but my god why do some of them have to be friends with especially these two people??? fuc #i don't usually dislike people that easily and it takes me a lot of time to form some sort of judgement but i've known one of these fuckers #for about 10 years already and there's a long list of fucked up stuff that he did and it's enough to not want to see him anymore. ever #i would've treated myself to some new clothes to drown this feeling but i feel so out of place that i won't buy shit until i lose weight #which also means no going out to eat with my s/o and crying all afternoon. amazing!!!!#i love these days where how i value myself is very tied to my body!!! why bother about my personality (awful) and my skills (also awful)+#where there is something even worse to focus on! very fun!!!#anyway there's no way to avoid that meeting with my friends and their friends. bye

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buck-yyyy · 1 year ago

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no because it’s been a day and i’m still not over it. how the fuck did i tell my parents “hey, i used to starve myself, and while i don’t do that anymore i have no appetite and am actively losing weight, please help” and have them respond with “WE SHOULD TRY EXERCISE AND EATING BETTER. CUT OUT JUNK FOOD!” like what the actual fuck is wrong with them actually CUTTING SHIT OUT WAS THE PROBLEM TO BEGIN WITH YOU FUCKS

#anyways now they’ve moved on to thinking that i’m perfectly fine and that everyone who’s worried about me is worried for nothing #because god forbid their child be fucked up and broken #jesus #‘i think people just don’t understand that you’ve always been very small and your family small’ THE WEIGHT LOSS WOULDNT BE A PROBLEM EXCEPT #FOR THE FACT THAT IT’S VERY CLEARLY HAPPENED DUE TO A LITERAL FUCKING EATING DISORDER WHAT THE SHIT #ahem. anyways #tw ed #tw vent

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