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I don’t think I’ve gone half an hour without thinking about her since last Monday. It doesn’t feel real, so I’ve cried less the last two days (thank god, because my nose was rubbed raw.)
I mentioned her a few minutes ago though and the tears came back. It’s strange what hits and what doesn’t. I was able to talk about it last night without crying, partially because it was in front of people and even with people I trust it’s like the tears just won’t come most of the time.
But today all it took was the empty spot where her water bowl should be.
#it doesn’t feel real#but at the same time it feels like a chunk of me is missing#or hollowed out#it’s easier for me to let my brain just believe it’s not real#because I only saw her once or twice a month these past four years#but my mom#my mom is a different story#every time I wake up Ginger is the first thing on my mind#but for my mom it’s worse#she still feels Ginger shift near her feet in the night#wakes up and notices Ginger weight isn’t there and goes to put on her robe to take her out because she must have moved to stand by the door#but she isn’t there#my mom was bringing back old family photo albums to her place#and she was worrying about where to put them (tiny home living)#and made a half-joke (gallows humour) that she’d have room now where Ginger’s bowls had been#and I broke down#and then she broke down#and we cried together on the stairs#it was the combined thought of the literal hole in our lives and the loneliness my mom would go home to that broke me#so I told her she could call or text me any time (even though I hate calls)#and that we should have a zoom movie night together soon#she left yesterday afternoon and made it home late last night#I’m tired of loss#personal
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robert understanding that jaime was basically still a child when he killed aerys, a child given this MASSIVE and RIDICULOUS duty of being the sole defender of like 60% of the royal family except one of those royals was INSANE and EVIL, and that he reacted the way a child might which was just killing aerys before he could do any more damage……like being able to see so clearly the exact catch-22 jaime was stuck in when he’s still a teenager…..but then being completely unable to apply that same understanding to his own family, or even to lyanna & why she might have not wanted to marry him……..
#not to be like ‘character of all time’ but man he’s a fascinating villain character.#villain loved by one our protags villain killed by another villain except SHE is only a villain bc of how ROBERT broke her down……..#no one is doing it like the baratheon boys!!!!!!!!!!!#valyrianscrolls#robert baratheon#jaime lannister#but also ‘SOMEONE had to kill aerys’ he is so fucking funny
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Skén:nen sá:sewh
as promised, here's Precious boy™ getting kissed by Precious wife™ because he deserves all the love in the world :cc
translation: Get home safe
#nobody translate the file name#nah but home girl is the strongest soldier let me tell you#imagine date/being married to an assassin fr I would loose my mind#I'm such a sucker for the friends to lovers trope ok hear me out#Girlie is an ally to the assassin's and that's how she meets Connor and they become friends because Ratonhnhaké:ton deserves more friends o#she is VERY smart knows how to stand her ground but also very sweet and funny he respects and admires her a lot and so does she#she's from another displaced kanien'kehá:ka clan they bond really close sooner than later the feeling just blooms everyone's knows but THEM#until prob the recruits and the people in the homestead get tired of these oblivious fools in love and plot to finally get them together#I headcanon Connor didn't settle down completely until they were expecting their first child like they both panicked when they realized#I mean they're already married and stuff but still our girl is all over the place bcs she's scared of something happening to him or the bby#and connor acts cool and leveled on the outside but he's just a whirpool of emotions on the inside as well it's really funny to watch#they probably broke down in tears from both laughter and fear but they are amazing parents we are certain of it :')#I want their dinamic to be like that mainly because Connor deserves some light and laugh in his life after all the things he went through#connor i'm in love with your wife#ratonhnhaké:ton#connor kenway#connor's mistery wife#ac 3#assassin's creed#oc#the way you can tell I almost never draw men just from this sketch 💀#my art
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No I’m ok, it’s just the way that Jesper is probably one of the first men that Inej has felt safe with since the menagerie and Inej is one of the only people who loves Jesper fully and unconditionally regardless of his faults and now they have to leave each other for separate goals that got me for a second there
#I just need a second#maybe two seconds#that deleted scene really got me#the way Jesper broke down after she walked away#someone hug him#please#booksbooksbooks#bookstagram#books#six of crows#crooked kingdom#shadow and bone#jesper fahey#kit young#grishaverse#wesper#jesper surpremacy#jack wolfe#soc spinoff#shadow and bone season three
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my little sister got gonched in this year of our lord 2024 and when she brought it up i literally thought she was trying to trick me in some weird delayed goncharov shenanigans. she's devastated it's not a real movie we can watch lol
#comic#personal#goncharov#diary comic#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#i LOST MY MIND when she sent text posts and fanart and I was like ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW#also it was friday and i broke lent because my breakfast bagel came with bacon and i was so so hungry#i cannot believe she wasn't on the goncharov side of the internet when that was going down#and i was like I WORKED ON A GONCHAROV ZINE I GUARANTEE THIS IS A FAKE MOVIE BESTIE
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POV: Evil murder kitten tries to evil murder you in your sleep. She's desperate for a reason not to evil murder you because she does not want to.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#minthara#minthara baenre#evil murder kitten#i know i've posted this one before#but i just can't get over how cute and adorable she is right here - she really looks like a startled cat#regardless of whether you sleep with her or not#the prism still temporarily broke her connection to the absolute and then returned it to her right when she was about to kill you#and it sparked an immediate crisis of faith because everything about that night is all wrong - except for you#you having no connection to the absolute causes her to doubt the extent of the absolute's control#but she also begins to question the absolute as she found peace in the silence - peace in the absolute *not* controlling her for once#even with the absolute having returned to her - she still wants a reason *not* to kill you#in that moment she clocked you as a potential enemy of the absolute and by her oath - she would be obligated to kill you#which is why the only reason you can get her to stand down is by proving to her that you are not an enemy#and it is pretty easy to convince her that you're not an enemy because she is that desperate for any excuse from you#minthara is not the kind of person who would back off and run from a fight - and is definitely not spooked about assassinations#and she most certainly has stabbed someone in their sleep before and has killed a lover#but she does not like to engage in fights that she does not think are necessary nor to kill those she does not have a reason to kill#the fact that she pulled away when you caught her and she didn't immediately escalate the conflict into a full fight#is a pretty big indication that she has some pretty extreme doubts about the absolute - and *she* does not see you as an enemy
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queenly iterations
#artists on tumblr#fan art#star wars fanart#star wars: the clone wars#padme naberrie#character concept sketches#AU#Padme but if she broke down and became deadly-toothed in some way#mine
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a little thought to ruin your day: After Piper broke up with Jason, he had to deal with his heartache all by himself, isolated in a mortal boarding school with nobody to comfort him. No family. No friends.
#I hope your day is ruined#bc mine is#This man gives me a heartache it's not even funny anymore. Like it's just one after the other for him tumbling down.#I can imagine Jason looking out the windowsill all sad :( omgg#He loved piper so much :(#He basically died for her even after they became exes#I just wanna wrap him in a fluffy blanket#It's kinda hard for me to not resent Piper for this sorry.#I mean#I'm glad she didnt cheat on him or smth and just broke up w him to not play w his feelings#But yeah. Still pretty upset. They'd been dating for a year at that point. So Jason must've had it pretty bad.#pjo#jason grace#pjo hoo#pjo fandom#percy jackson#pjo series#pjo hoo toa#pjo toa#toa#piper mclean#hazel levesque#leo valdez#annabeth chase#frank zhang
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then... how much pink will eventually mask the blue?
#project sekai#pjsk#mizuki akiyama#mizu5#nightcord at 25:00#25 ji nightcord de#my art#hi guys i know i'm insanely late but i've been looping bake no hana and posting about mizu5 an insane amnt#and i finally got motivation to actually draw wowww wowww#anyways. as a trans person she makes me insanely depressed. i understand her struggles i get her so bad.#i broke down crying last night thinking about mizu5 too hard#also transphobes go kys if you find this don't say shit i will maul you fuck off
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Okay yes it's romantic and over the top and completely in character and very very impressive that odysseus made a bed out of living trees. However all I can think about is that every single day Penelope and odysseus would have woken up with olives and leaves covering them.
#The odyssey#Their secret living marriage bed#I think Penelope laughed in disbelief when she first saw it#I don't think she believed odysseus took her joking challenge seriously but he did#And the awe odysseus did this for her#Do you think Penelope woke up one morning during odysseus's 20 year absence with olive leaves stuck in her hair#And rotting olive juice on her face and just broke down crying and screaming#Because it's not cute anymore odysseus it was only cute when he was /there/ to pick the leaves out of her hair#And when he was /there/ to feed her the olives they found in their bed or mornings when odysseus threw his head in her lap and she fed him#And it's just just not the same it's not cute or romantic it's just fucking annoying odysseus#Penelope vowing to /burn it down/ if odysseus doesn't hurry up in her prayers that night.#It's a month of these break downs before Penelope moves rooms. She'll sleep in her marriage bed again when her husband is home or not again#Angst#Head canons#Penelope's odyessy#Odysseus#Penelope#Odypen#odysseus x penelope
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Karna, I get you’re doomed by the narrative and trying your best, but I think you need a little more than a skincare routine
#my art#the ravening war#dimension 20#karna solara#karna#d&d#d20#d20 the ravening war#d20 trw#portraits#artists on tumblr#fanart#god I love this rotting little pepper#the ravening war broke me i highly recommend watching#and to think she never got to slam it down big style 😔#also hey I’m back from hiatus how’s everyone doing?#art#my artstuff
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I woke up to find a squirrel in my apartment this morning
#They’d been in the floor for a few days#I could hear them scratching#And then today one of those little fuckers actually broke in#Can’t wait for my landlord to get here#I tried to catch the squirrel so I could bring him outside so he wouldn’t be poisoned#But he ran back down whatever hole he chewed through by the time I found a box#So now it’s just a waiting game#Also my dog is going fucking nuts#She won’t shut the fuck up#Ugh
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Jonas: So what are your hobbies, dude?
Jude: Oh, like, I don't know. Hanging out and stuff.
Jonas: Do you play sports?
Jude: I used to do rugby. Now I run, I guess.
Jonas: If you want, you can come with me to the gym. I go, twice a week, bouldering.
Jude: Yeah, sounds okay.
Jonas: I have been going since last year. Before that, I didn't think I was so much a sporty kind of guy, but as I began to improve, I thought that someday.... [he yammers on for several minutes]
...So! If it is something you would like to do, I think it would be quite fun.
It is against the rules to do that.
Jude: That's okay.
Jonas: Are things okay?
Jude: Yeah.
#lucky boy 2011#to that one reader I have who read my old work#that is Jolene Jones <3#fun fact#my first car looked almost exactly like Jonas' haha#a 1997 toyota starlet in green with lil racing stripes on the side#she broke down in a ditch in 2021 :(#and was crushed into a cube#I'm glad she was resurrected in the sims
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Every time someone writes anything re: the Arrows (esp Ollie) and treat it like they have these like Bat-level strict morals or just otherwise being really "strictly principled"???? it drives me crazy. Like I don't wanna be "you haven't read the comics" but... They haven't.
Ollie, very famously, killed not only Parallax (something which was very difficult for him bcs Hal was his friend, for all their fighting), but also the Electrocutioner (for killing Lian, maiming Roy, and destroying most of his city). There was that whole thing in Crossroads when he worked with Huntress, Catwoman, and Deathstroke, and was killing criminals with guns! Killed a man torturing Dinah! Hell, even further, at least once he helped someone who he considered to have been justified in killing someone escape the law!
I'm pretty sure literally all of his proteges have harder lines than he does (Jason criticizes Mia for limiting her angles to non-lethal in Seeing Red, Oliver being shown to use more brutal methods in a team up with Roy in comic I admittedly don't remember the exact name of & Connor disapproved of Ollie training with the guy who trained Deathstroke to learn the "killing arts" re: 1YL, tho idr if that was more of a killing disapproval or a "dad, really, this guy is awful tho???" kinda deal. Uhhh... Emiko might be an exception to this probably, at least inasmuch as you can consider those two his proteges given I don't think Ollie really trained them that much/they mostly came to him like that). Hell, when Mia killed someone he wasn't mad about her killing so much as that it was her (an innocent kid) that did it!
In the marriage comic, Dinah had apparently killed Ollie in self-defense! (Before concluding that it hadn't been him despite all evidence to the contrary, ect., ect., ect.)
Roy worked for the gov't and definitely killed for them when it was called for. Fell in love with an assassin and walked away instead of turning her in or killing her like he was probably supposed to do despite knowing she'd likely go on to keep killing more people (You could call this a statement on his love for her, which on some level, yeah, but on the other level shows that his lines aren't so well-defined.) The only reason he hadn't killed the Electrocutioner himself is bcs Ollie got there first. For all the complaints re: RHATO/RH&A they are still considered current canon (to an extent, I think some specific things around it might be retconned?) & he has killed in there too.
Emiko as a former assassin/being trained & raised to be a "perfect killer" by Shado I feel is rather self-explanatory.
There's probably more but I'm runnin' out of steam here. Anyways. My point is that while they're not exactly actively murderous vigilantes, they FAR from have some kind of no-kill rule. They'll typically try something else first, but when lines are crossed (like their family) or there doesn't appear to be a better solution that would actually work, they're plenty willing. They're not "Batfam 2.0 but lamer and not as powerful," which seems to be the predominant interpretation most of the time.
#dc#dc meta#oliver queen#green arrow#Roy Harper#Arsenal#Red Arrow#Speedy#arrowfam#Mashing Meta Bones With Axel#yes Ollie did also have a mental breakdown the first time he killed an animal as a child and again later when he first killed a criminal#Both of which were Accidents. & after Parallax bcs Hal. & felt that he didn't fit with the JL anymore bcs of Crossroads.#& IIRC he did get imprisoned for Electrocutioner & accepted it w/o remorse#Mia also broke down after her kill! She begged Ollie to tell her it had to be done bcs that was the only reason she did it!#Connor is probably the Most Hesitant to kill in the entire family I think. Him &/or Mia. Possibly Lian but she also is Baby and should Not.#I am so so so so sos sos os sos so so so tired of fanon (esp batfanon) giving them a no kill rule#I Might be CURRENTLY more fixated on bats rn but my love for the Arrows is eternal.#Yeah they're largely liberal hippie freaks (said as an affectionate Joke) but. Not so liberal they ain't got a very sharp stick for badguys#or the occasional bullet. Which both Ollie & Roy have used at various points of their history.
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wanted to say I appreciate your nuanced takes on MW and especially Curly. i don't get the claim that the fandom is full of Curly apologists when majority (esp yt and tiktok) say he's worse than Jimmy. Yes there's commentary about bro culture defending people, he def messed up in trying to placate Jimmy (tbh "we'll fix this" sounded more like trying to keep someone prone to outbursts like Jim calm and not hurt Anya/himself) but I don't think he did nothing to help Anya, since she continued to confide in him and he had less than a week to resolve it before the crash (I also don't get everyone saying he knew for ages when it seems like Anya told him that same week). I get Jimmy's a pos but saying stuff like Curly should've known he'd crash the ship or that Jim had a criminal record he ignored, reducing them to obviously horrible villain and willfully ignorant sidekick feels like a disservice to the game. If your best friend turned out to be horrible, what would you do in a confined space in the span of a few days to respond? I'd say some of the horror comes from trying to do good but ultimately failing, Curly's state after the crash is meant to be tragic horror not revenge/punishment
Thank you and this is what I want to get across.
A lot of information we have to supplement when it comes to how long things have been happening on this current ship. I think people try to add on to the horror and negligence by making things more obvious so it can feel like it was easier to avoid when, true to life, its not. Jimmy clearly didn't deserve or appreciate what Curly did for him in getting him the job, but do you think if Jimmy was that big of a menace on Earth he would've given him a position where he could have that level of power over people's lives? There's something in the fact he specifically chose to pick a position so close to himself where he could watch Jimmy.
I hate the bro code argument because that is a whole can of worms people really don't get. That sort of mentality is born from the general respect and preference of male matter over female ones. Curly is clearly not that guy, he is absent minded about the issue and inadvertently dismissive but he clearly believes Anya, he just can't understand what she's going through. It's an onslaught of information that no one really reacts right to. Additonally, the entire discussion of her assualt plays to heavy into the idea that there is fault outside of the perpertratior when it comes to SA. It's too close if she only did this or if Curly had protected her better but the fact of the matter is Jimmy did what he did. He did it before any of the conversations with Anya about it and it's why her behavior seemed to change so drastically in those last two days.
He has other conflicting thought and while his role as a Captain should've taken over, people act like it's not a very human thing to have such a toxic presence cloud your judgement. It is never easy to separate friend from coworker once that connection is formed, you want to help them, especially if they were friend first and for a long while like in this case. It's not right, but people act like it would be easy when the game clearly points out that no choice is easy to make, especially when you have to make it for more than one person. You have the weigh the consequences, look at all the options and make a plan. People can headcanon and decide how long things where happening, but if we look at what we were presented through the characters eyes, the only person given time to do that was Jimmy.
He waited two months after the crash to appoint himself Captain. Every time a problem was brought up he immediately took action and refused to sit on it and find a better solution. I think it's important to look at the warped way Jimmy takes initiative where Curly didn't as it works as a good contrast of why you don't just run in to "fix" things. The quickest and easiest option may not be the safest or most beneficial. I think some thoughts on the game suffer from the black and white thinking the game doesn't operate on along with us being voyeurs. We see what exactly led to what but the characters don't. They don't have the hindsight and foresight we do and even ours is scrambled by the non-linear story telling.
Like it's hard to talk abuou those grey zones without sounding like an apologist because you're explaining why taking responsibility isn't easy. It's not and it's weird to act like it would be in a scenerio that led up to the events of the game knowing what we know. We see all these characters in such isolated moments with various things before, in between, after and even during we aren't privy too. The idea that Jimmy is worse than Curly heavily banks on the words Jimmy was saying to Jimmy before he crashed the ship. That whatever happened on the ship was his responsibility to bare, which is true due to his position. But, are they not still not responsible for taking the actions Curly then must bare?
Like i feel like people think that these are situation that become easier with age or when you are in a postion of authority and they aren't. You don't lose your biases or gain some sudden knowledge that makes it easier. It just becomes more tiring as you keep dealing with it. I would be first in line to say Curly fucked up and should've done more but the idea he knew how bad it could get or he really saw the worst in the people around him and ignored it pretty much ignores a huge aspect of his character and the game.
#i do believe Anya was a victum to Jimmy more than once before the crash but the game plays wit the sort of fear of waiting and stagnation#i believe the reason she decided to tell him was becasuse she finally broke down and tested to see if she was pregnant after one too many#signs and its why she went to hide the gun because she knew now that there was proof of what Jimmy did and was he would do anything to#cover it up and while she also didn't want the baby there was no sure fire way to safely induce a miscarriage or abortion cause shes smart#enough to know that hence her reading the illusion of choice and taking measures to protect herself#but in the hypothetical it was a one time occurence I think Jimmy would act like one single mistake shouldn't define him and Anya thinks#that if she did something sooner or said something sooner than she or Curly could've stopped all of it but that the hard thing taking actio#its so hard to be preventative to a person like they also have the autonomy to do things and no one on the ship is okay with actively takin#that away outside of Jimmy that its just a delicate issue and people act like it was a conscious choice not to help when he just helped#wrong he did wrong by not immediately punishing Jimmy but at the same time did he even fully get it yet? Jimmy immediately got into his hea#after like the sound design right before he confront him is telling like every track sort of gives you the feeling of the characters where#we cant see their thoughts because again the only two characters pov we get are Jimmy's and Curly's and even then we only get Curly's thru#the responsibilites he has to take like he is always tasked with something because thats his role but we rarely see him do something off hi#own volition cause hes a metaphorical cog in many of the machines the games comments on but he's not actively pulling a switch#also i think people latch on to the we can both be heros things too much when analyzing Curly because Curly very much is not happy being th#leader and current “hero” of the Tulpar he just wants out in a way that doesn't hurt and while he is still responsible for not doing more#the idea he could've easily nipped this in the butt acts like Jimmy was not a beast of his own and that he made Jimmy into the person he wa#vs the fact that Jimmy is a person on his own right that makes these choices others are forced to take responsibility for when he simply c#couldve not done evil shit like at the end of the day Curly is not perfect but not nearly or remotely as bad as Jimmy because for that hed#have to not care hed have to not have tried hed have to not try to take responsibility and he did just not in the right way but thats#subjective to the person and you can only realize you did fuck up after the results are before you and its tragic like this game is a#a tragedy no matter how you try and spin it. There's lessosn to be learnt but at the end of the day it telling the worst moments of peoples#lives and the certain inevitabilities that come with it#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#nurse anya#anya mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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Just before
[Image Description: a full-color drawing, depicting the moment before Lyanna Stark is discovered to be the Knight of tihe Laughing Tree by Rhaegar Targaryen.
In the foreground, Lyanna Stark stands on a large grey stone at the edge of some water. She is barefoot and her shirt’s ties are undone so it falls open, revealing linen chest wrappings. Her shirt is white with red details and a silvery-grey lining. She also wears strips of light-colored fabric like her chest wrappings around her wrists. She wears dark grey stirrup pants. Her hair is in two braids, one still piled up on her head, the other falling down. Her hair ribbons are blue. Her bangs are plastered to her forehead. A necklace with a silver pendant with a wolf emblem on it is tucked into her chest wrappings. In her left hand, she holds her plain, wooden jousting lance straight up. Her helmet is propped between her left elbow and hip. She looks downward, towards the water in front of her, smiling, looking breathless and excited.
Also in the foreground is water, lots of grass, reeds, cattails, and more grey stones. A sapphire sits in the water. A pair of steel-toed leather boots is nearby. A little behind Lyanna, a crumpled grey dress is lying in the grass. A frog sits on the stump of a tree. There are a few purple flowers and red weirwood leaves scattered here and there.
In the midground is a massive weirwood tree, its foliage taking up much of the top half of the drawing. Lyanna’s shield, painted with the image of a laughing weirwood, is propped beneath its face. A raven perches on one of its boughs, in profile. A figure in profile wearing red and black, Rhaegar, is just coming around the tree, sword extended in front. The background is mostly blue, with an attempt to convey more trees and forest behind the subjects. / End ID.]
#asoiaf#valyrianscrolls#my art#lyanna stark#the knight of the laughing tree#tkotlt#the tourney at harrenhal#the tourney of harrenhal#rhaegar targaryen#asoiaf fashion hour#rhaegar x lyanna#really broke out my markers again for the first time in a while for this one!#I kind of hate the top left corner but i didn’t want to crop my beautiful beautiful weirwood 🥰 isnt he lovely?#me putting a frog and a raven in the picture: … absolutely NO skinchangers watching THIS go down#anyways. lyanna can experience a little gender euphoria before she gets publicly assigned woman again for the rest of her too-short life.
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