#and knowing if i eat something with sugar in it im going to put myself at risk for these diseases

[cirillafionaelenriannon]

how are we all living in todays diet culture...literally unachievable beauty and body ideals. me being told by a doctor at 16 that i have pcos and ill have to diet my whole life if i dont want to gain weight. and that dieting means giving up half the foods i love so much (bread) cutting out all sugar, and eating plain boring vegetables. and then theres people saying oh but dieting doesnt mean eating boring food! like actually it does when u have pcos and the recommended diet is fucking keto. 

[dinodaydreams]

Having kinda a meltdown/mental breakdown about my chronic illness and disabilities and how much they actually disable me and how much of the pain and trauma from it I keep inside.

I'm 17 years old and I can't eat gluten, tapioca, most she'll fish besides shrimp, and sugar but medicine let's me eat sugar again so that's good.

Everytime I leave the house I use my wheelchair cause even tho I'm not paralyzed my leg hurt so terribly even just to stand and I can only go up stairs on good days and we live in a two story house I live on the ground floor and the shower is in the upstairs.

And i usually need help taking a shower because trying to reach certain areas of my body hurts too.

I have hyper mobile ehler danlos syndrome, celiac disease, POTS, possibly small fiber neuropathy, fibromyalgia, I'm deficient in a lot of vitamins because for the majority of my life I've been eating food my body can't digest and it's been damaging my organs.

I'm in pain everywhere on my body everyday without fail.

I'm on so many medications that some doctors are afraid to prescribe me more because its "too many for your age"

I have binocular vision disorder and can't see without my glasses and even with my glasses it hurts my eyes to read most books digital and paper

I'm constantly dislocating or slipping my bones out of place on accident.

I suffer with a lot of mental health struggles also partly cause of my genetics and partly because of my childhood trauma.

My existence causes pain to those who love me I'm sure because all I ever really do is talk about how much pain I'm in and I end up in the ER every couple of months with something new that's wrong.

You ever start bleeding from somewhere and you don't know why? Cause that is not normal.

I can't go into certain stores or malls because they aren't wheelchair accessible at all I can walk sometimes but mostly not.

We always have to check google images of stores before we go to see if I can go.

I can't even be near the things I'm allergic to cause the smell makes me feel sick.

Sometimes if I smell sugar it instantly makes my stomach hurt without touching or eating it.

I'm in so much pain all the time my body just expects it now.

I can feel the fucking weather change by the way my bones feel.

I couldn't eat fruit or vegetables for a month or two because they had natural sugars in them and that's all I wanted.

Everyone tells me im so strong and resilient and they could never live my life but I don't feel strong I don't feel like anything is really worth it on days like these

I just wanna cry all the time

I smell people's food sometimes cause I can't have it

I don't put much energy into myself because I don't feel like im worth it

I don't think others feel like I'm worth all this either sometimes

I probably cost my family so much in medical bills every year

I'm so scared and so sad man

[virgoitgirl-blog]

How i managed to cut out sugar for four months now, as someone who has a sweet tooth:

disclaimers:

- im not an expert, this is what worked for me, helped me control my cravings. so it might not work for everyone.

- to be fair and honest, I would (some)times let myself have a taste of something that contained sugar but it didn’t happen often.

- I’m talking about (added) sugars.

- I consume fruits, honey, dates, natural sweeteners in general, artificially sweetened foods and drinks.

so let me start from the beginning, it was very hard at first…like VERY. And by first I mean the first 2 weeks. I used to crave sugar so badly especially when it’s right in front of me but I couldn’t have any. but it wasn’t right to cut it out completely from the start. it had to be reduced gradually and in moderation because if you suddenly stop having sugar you might lose control one day causing you to binge on it in one sitting. so what I used to do is: note before I start: I cut out sugary beverages completely even at the beginning…sugary drinks were a big no for me not even in moderation. Because a “drink” having too much sugar doesn’t feel right to me. 1. Start small by decreasing your portions, say I was invited somewhere and they served cake, normally I’d have the whole piece but I only ate half of it…that’s how I started. now I can say no to sweets without feeling like I’m forcing myself. (which wasn’t easy at all) you will reach a level where you won’t be tempted by sugar anymore, but it’s going to take much time and effort. note: if the cake was sugar free I’d have the whole piece lol. so start by decreasing your portions from time to time. Tip: say and think “I don’t eat sugar” instead of “im trying not to eat sugar anymore”, when you hear yourself say that it creates a sense of responsibility for your actions. 2. Find a substitute, when you’re trying to break any habit you should find a replacement to satisfy your cravings. At first my substitute used to be artificially sweetened foods, i consumed A LOT of them—artificially sweetened candy, chocolate, ice cream, etc. but i told myself that it’s okay because I’m trying to cut out sugar, I had to consume something that gave the same feeling and satisfaction till I stop craving it. I still consume artificially sweetened foods btw. I eat more fruits now and I even started to crave them whenever I needed something sweet, so artificial sweeteners and fruits were my substitutes for the cravings. Tip: find sugar-free recipes for whatever you crave and prepare them by yourself. You’ll feel good preparing something healthy and tasty for yourself. —a few weeks back: I was really craving a hot chocolate but where could I find a sugar free one? I searched and found a recipe, it was so good I felt so proud to make an actually good hot chocolate without adding sugar to it. 3. Don’t hide the sugary stuff from yourself, especially when you’re just starting because you need to see it to build discipline and ACTUALLY control yourself. It hurts I know but this is what helped me become capable of saying no to sweets I love when I’m offered some. Which leads me to my next point… 4. “Can’t I have a little bite?” You can if you really want to, it’s better not to but if it’s your favorite dessert, an occasional dessert, etc. you can let your self have a little. I do this rarely though I prefer not to. important to note: I only do this when I KNOW I can control myself and stick to just a small bite. maybe some would ask what about the progress? actually your progress will still go pretty well. a little of your favorite dessert won’t and can’t ruin months of progress. just to clarify: why “having little”? Because im not trying to consume too much sugar and risk triggering my body to crave sugar again, after all the effort I’ve put in. 5. Once you get used to it, sugary stuff will actually make you feel sick or disgusted when you consume them. You’ll feel like it’s too much because your body got used to not having sugar. 6. Have nutritious meals, especially for breakfast. A healthy balanced breakfast that will keep you satisfied can help reduce your cravings throughout the day. Pay attention to what makes you full and satisfied in the morning. 7. Some extra benefits that I noticed: - cutting out sugar helped me noticeably lose weight. - my skin looks better it used to be so dull. - my energy levels are better.

before I end this, I want to say that it wasn’t easy at all and I worked so hard on myself to stop craving added sugars, yes it will occupy your thinking at first but it will get easier I promise.

I didn’t know if I could do it at first but I did it, and I’m sure you can too if you’re planning to.🤍

that's the end, hope you find this useful.

[kcalsforhim]

˖⋆࿐໋ sunday 8th of december

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today i woke up nice and comfortable in my bed,, i had been tossing and turning all night long kinda sleeping weirdly... so when i woke up this morning i decided to go downstairs and have breakfast.. psst.. i didnt have the best food day, but my weekends are always my worst food days so im not even going to hate myself anymore atp

breakfast : 4 chevape, a dot of mustard, a small babybowl of pumpkin soup, and 1 lotus cookie.

cals : 177

this time i had my breakfast actually warm.. the soup was nice and rich and creamy, it had just the right flavours and i like this way more than i did the soup out of the pack i had last month during soup diet week (which failed LMFAO). happy with my accomplishment of one lotus.. then my 4 chevape was good, there were only 4 left which meant i really couldnt overfill my plate either way

then i went back upstairs after i had this, it was good and it actually left me feeling ok. when i got myself ready to go to work i brought the lunch my mom packed with me.

lunch : a serving of pumpkin soup , chicken in one container, and in the other container some chicken and pasta. both of these portions were also satisfyingly small

cals : 321

the soup was lovely as i had described earlier, the chicken in the container came out of a pot of like.. chorba my parents were having today that i will not eat even if my life depended on it lmfaoooo. the chicken was okay, it was the only thing that was warm hahaha

then the pasta and chicken in the second container were better, i liked that it was slightly spicy ? i didnt have those.. green circle vegetables.. i dont like the texture of that thing so i threw it away

drinks : monster zero sugar ultra rosa, hot chocolate, but i only let the machine dispense 20% of the milk

cals : 52

mark gave me that monster, i chose the hot chocolate of my own accord... i watched as the milk from our coffee machine pooled down near the drain... i actually gave mark a hot chocolate but with the milk since he doesnt care, and there was a very visible difference.. what i drank was essentially water and chocolate powder, with basically a splash of milk.

work was going fine until one person just... idk threw me off and ruined my entire day ? basically i was ready to crash out at annnny second. the more the minutes ticked by, the more stressed and overwhelmed i was getting. i was actually reflecting how ive been thinking of quitting my job for a whiiile now, but since ill be going to a 40hrs a week internship, i need my weekend rest before i explode. so after my shift ended i wrote my manager a note and stuck it on the POS screen

"sorry i forgot to count the flowers... also, ill be dropping by tommorow, ill only have 5 minutes of your time" ... and well yeah tommorow im putting in my 2 weeks notice. or however.. whatvever. im quitting my job lol. went home after this crying LMFAO im so stressed

dinner : 1 tortilla thing, its very thin, a small layer of cream cheese, ketchup, 2 salami slices, that in a tosti toaster thing. then 1 apple, and some honey... idk what the chunks are probably some kind of nuts...

cals : 334

the original plan was to come home and eat 6 packs of kinder bueno making 12 kinder bueno's in total.. however i decided to ask my mom to make me something instead. she was very considerate of how i eat and my portioning, and we came up with something healthy and nourishing that would make me feel better rather than me being an idiot and binging on lots and lots of chocolate.. i did infact feel better and i know this was not needed, i couldve gone to bed, but this happens all the time after work and i just need to accept that my job like, actually stresses me out after close to the point where it makes me cry and makes me want to binge. the portion is kind of big but.. it couldve been worse. idk. tommorow im omad'ing

total steps : 6.3 k total cals : 884

i found this song while posting on my insta about my oc's and i needed a song to go with it... this is so cute !!! and so catchy, i love it ~

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[sawturn77]

𝑶𝑪𝑬𝑨𝑵 𝑬𝒀𝑬𝑺 (𝒇𝒖𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒈𝒖𝒓𝒐 𝒎𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒎𝒊 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓)

MASTERLIST.

04: take me out, and take me home.

january 7th, 2018.

my stomach began to swirl. disgust? no. nausea? no. i was nervous to the bone, nearly shaking. today was the day i promise nobara and yuji i’d go to the arcade with them, but i know they’d just drag megumi along to. they’d leave us together, alone, by ourselves, away from them..ugh! what was the point of being nervous?? i’ve got to woman up! what could go wrong? actually, i take that back. sooo many things could go wrong. i jinx myself every time with that. i heard suguru in the kitchen, probably making breakfast. satoru left last night, a little earlier than usual. i reach for my phone, turning it over and reading the time. “ 7:17am” i might as well get up now. after washing my face and brushing my teeth, i put on some clothes and did my hair. i’d be back in time to change my outfit and re-do my hair.

——

i make my way downstairs, the aroma of pancakes filling the air. “morning, sugu.” he turned to smile at me when i greeted him. “good morning, y/n. you got time for breakfast today?” i nod eagerly, watching him place the pancakes on the plate and drizzle syrup on them. he sprinkles sugar on them, adding a side of assorted fruit on the side. (if you don’t like pancakes, just imagine its your fav breakfast food) suguru smiles at me, handing me the plate. i stuff my face, smiling so hard my cheeks start to hurt. “where are you headed? you’re not usually up so early.” i swallow before answering. “just a quick run to the cafe. want me to bring you something back?” “no, its fine. thanks for asking though.” i just nod. im gonna get him something anyway. i finish eating and wash my dish. “oh, i almost forgot. im going to the arcade with nobara and yuji later.” suguru nodded, patting my head. “alright. will you be home before dinner?” i hummed. moments like these made me remember how good of an older brother suguru is. just when my hand reached the front door, i turned around to hug him. “w-woah, are you okay?” i nod. “thank you, sugu.” he chuckles, patting my back. “aww, n/n, you’re such a sap.” “shut up!!”

——

once i arrived at the cafe, i had to stand in line for a few minutes. i was lucky today, though. normally, the lines are huge, but today, i was only 12th in line.

before i could make a snarky comment, i noticed someone get in front of me. it was a totally random guy! what the hell? how was i gonna confront him? surely someone entitled enough to jump in front of someone in line would not be easy to deal with. he’d probably cause a scene. y’know what, whatever. i’ll just keep my mouth shut. im not in a rush-

“hey, she was next in line.”

all the blood in my body rushes to my face, was that..? the guy in front of me turns around, the same entitled smirk i thought he’d have on his face. but, that wasn’t the point. i turn my head stiffly to look over my shoulder. there he was. megumi fushiguro himself. white button up shirt, rolled up sleeves-he dresses like satoru? “what are you gonna do about it? tell your girlfriend to wait in line like everyone else.” megumi’s face remains indifferent, and his tone only get harsher. “you should do the same. scram, you idiot.” straight out of a shoujo manga, i thought. caught in my own thoughts, i almost miss the part where megumi pulls out a familiar card, a black one with silver lining, the initials “S.G” were engraved on it. satoru’s card? the guy’s eyes go wide with regret, like a deer in headlights. “im deeply sorry!” he yelps before scurrying to the back of the line. i stood there for a few seconds. turning to megumi, i spoke. “m-megumi! you really didn’t have to!” he just shrugs, putting the card away. “it was the right thing to do.” i smile. “i appreciate it. can i buy you a drink?” he shakes his head at my offer. “its fine, really.” such a gentleman. “well, surely you’ll let me repay you in some way?” “you can let me pay for your stuff.” i froze for a moment. he..he wants to pay for me? “n-no..i cant ask you to do that..”

in the end, he ended up convincing me to let him pay. even though im sure he was using one of satoru’s many cards, the gesture was nice. my face felt hot the entire time. “uhm, thank you again, megumi. i really appreciate it.” he nods. “its nothing.” god, he was humble too? how perfect could he possibly be? im was somewhat surprised that someone who grew up with satoru could be at least half decent. but then again, its megumi im talking about. he was always this way, maybe a bit more sour as a kid though. i glanced over at him. i found out that he drinks black coffee straight. im not shocked at that.

he gave me his number!! my hearts pumping fast! maybe i am oblivious. surely someone like megumi wouldn’t just give anyone his number. or maybe nobara’s delusions are rubbing off on me. he offered to walk me home, but even if i wanted to take his offer, he’d already done a lot for me. im not gonna ask him to do more.

——

by the time i got back, it was 9:15. suguru was doing laundry. “sugu, im home.” i announced, leaving my shoes at the front door. i placed his drink and the croissant i bought him on the counter. he peaked his head out from around the corner. “y/n, i told you that you didnt have to get me anything. he smiles, patting my head. “well, too bad. you shouldve known i was gonna get you something anyway.” i shrug and he just chuckles. “youre too much. thanks.” he pats my head, going back to finish doing laundry. i make my way upstairs, plopping on my bed and remembering what happened at the cafe. he can’t possibly like me like that. megumi would probably like a quiet and reserved girl. i mean, i can be like that, but is that who i really am? and why do i feel the need to be someone worthy of his romantic interest? weird. my phone dings.

an: srry its saturday and i said u was gonna post on friday😞anyways i was thinking if starting a gojo x reader series but idk i might do it after i finish this series.

TAGLIST: @kasumitenbaz @morgyyyyyyy @fillmeup6969 @maya-maya-56 @sad-darksoul (OPEN)

[moodystudynoodle]

Day 2 of my Study-Diary + Study Tips 🌻

Hello dear people on tumblr,

today was quite a lazy day with studying. I wasn't really able to get in a good night rest. But still I tried my best, and got actually a lot of stuff done in a short amount of time, so I am still proud 🐑🌻

So like you can see I managed to study a total amount of 4 and a half hours. Wich isn't too shabby.

Anyway, like I promised in my last post and in the name of my article, I would like to share some study tips, wich are helpful to me. (And maybe too some others)

• First Tip: Setting yourself up for sucess

Thing I noticed is, that before I start to study, that I need a good morning routine. Something wich puts me in a good mood and gives me energy, so I am able to overcome my inner barriers and actually start studying.

I am able to achieve that by waking up early (but I know that is not for everyone, and it can be really hard to start that, so you don't need to torture yourself if thats not working for you).

Another thing I do is my skincare routine (splashing cold water im your face really helps with waking up ^^) and eat a delicious breakfast 🌷🌱

•Second Tip: Animedoro

Well, I am really not someone who is able to concentrate for a long time, nor am I able to motivate myself without good rewards.

So after every 40 mins I study, I watch an anime episode (wich is approximately 20 min long). And I repeat that circle. Till I am not able to study anymore or I finished my day.

•Third Tip: Juice and Lemonade 🍋🍍

This is probably a quite unusual advice. But it really helps my ADHD brain with concentration. The sugar helps me to stay alert and motivated through the learning or when I get really moody during a session. But important, don't go overboard with this. Sip slowly on your drink. If you can't do that, then don't use this advice👀 Don't destroy your health👀

Fourth Tip: USE TIMERS

Especially if you have ADHD, USE TIMERS EVERYTIME!!! Please trust me on that. Use timers during you study sessions, eating sessions or whatever thing you do. You always need to have your eyes on the clock. So that the time doesn't vanish like its nothing, and you ask yourself at the end of the day."What happend!!"

Fifth Tip: To-Do lists are your best friends

Please also do this if you have ADHD. Use 5 minutes of your day after your study session, to reflect on your achievements and to think what you would like to do tomorrow. The to do lists musn't only have to include academic things.

I also write stuff like breakfast, doing laundry etc.....

The to-do list gives me an extra boost of dopamine, when I finished a task and I am able to tick it off. Also I don't have to think all the time on what things I should do next. (Where I typically forget more than half of it. Or I just get distracted and do nothing)

So that was my entry for today. I wish everyone who read that a lovely day/night. See you next time 🐑🌻🩷

Love and peace

[cyberwonu]

Hello! I saw your requests were open, and I was wondering if I could request what seventeen would be like with a diabetic s/o? If this makes you uncomfortable, please ignore this ask. I don't want to make anyone feel uncomfortable.

seventeen with a diabetic s/o

paring : svt x gn! reader

genre : fluff 

wc : 1030

notes: Hi anon!! I'm very sorry if anything I wrote is inaccurate as im not diabetic myself so please correct me if i am and i'll fix it immediately! i hope you like it <3

Seungcheol

super cautious of foods when eating together

always asking you how you feel and if you need anything

would carry small juice boxes and some snacks with him everywhere just incase you needed it

if you prick your finger to check blood sugar he would be a little bit squeamish at first but eventually get used to it and ask to help you with it

same with insulin! he would be scared but would ask you to walk him through it and eventually would become a pro

if you have an electronic way to check he would always be checking it for you

jeonghan

would bully you if you couldn't eat smth with him

but it's affectionate

“do you want some?... oh you can't rn? haha loser all for myself then >:)”

would get you the same treat when you could have it

he's genuinely very caring and always making sure you're okay!

joshua

another one to constantly check in

asking how you feel and if you think you would need anything soon

great to be in public with, the second you mention your blood sugar going down he would find the nearest shop and get you your favourite drinks and snacks and bring you to a bench and sit with you

he's very worried give him a hug

jun

he would ask lots of questions

about how diabetes works, what's it like for you being diabetic etc etc

generally very curious

would go to any doctors appointments you had with you

personal cheerleader during harder days <3

hoshi

another super curious one

always asking questions about how it works, foods you can and cannot eat, when you can eat and how you know how much or when

would challenge himself to eat the same way you did to see what it would be like

if you prick your finger he would get you tiger band-aids

wonwoo

super understanding

it's a bad day and you don't wanna do anything extravagant or have to cancel plans? no worries wonu is on his way with some snacks and will play games or watch movies with you instead

would carry snacks or a drink for you but wouldn't admit it

“oh you're not feeling good? i have this drink i put in my bag earlier but i didn't drink it so you can have it if you want”

super sweet mwah mwah mwah

woozi

would ask if you could have coke zero

dependent on your answer he would still be happy, rather you both get to share or more for him!

would remind you to check your vitals if you're forgetful or you're busy

like id you're hanging out in his studio and it's been a while he'll turn to you and remind you to check

has a stash of snacks and some drinks for you in his studio that only you are allowed to have

will hit any of the other members if they try to steal a snack

minghao

knew generally about diabetes before he met you but when you two met and got closer he realized there was still a lot he didn't know

did some research on his own and likes to ask questions or fact check with you when he's not sure about something

would make sure his home is stocked with various diabetic safe food and drinks and let you know you never have to ask to take anything

mingyu

hes a little confused and kinda forgets sometimes but he's also very cautious of everything

will offer you some of his drinks or food and go “wait… can you have this?”

“aren't you allergic to that?” as you're having a drink on the couch and you just look at him like ??? then explain its not an allergy

immediately understands

watches you check your vitals cuz he thinks it's interesting and cool

bonus: explain to him how things work and different meanings to things and he will stare at you with big puppy eyes listening intently he's so interested!!

dk

if you had to prick your finger he may be scared and squeamish but he WILL sit there and hold you and tell you he's proud of you

doesn't matter if you tell him you've been doing this everyday for years he will still be your little cheerleader and comfort you

would be the best to be around during a bad day

he's always checking on you and is super sweet

you have the THOUGHT of wanting a snack? he's there with the snack and a kiss to your forehead

always making you laugh and lifting your mood

seungkwan

you're having a rough day? not if seungkwan could help it

he may not be able to fix everything right away but he's gonna do everything in his power to sure as hell try

always at your side, you need anything? he's getting it! don't even move a muscle,

need water? he's already gotten you matching water bottles to be extra cute

will check your blood sugar and give you insulin for you if you let him

vernon

also has snacks on him all the time

some for him, some for you, it's great

if you're having a rough day he would be so down to just go chill with you, he doesn't feel the need to always be doing big things with you. he lives for simple domestic things

may not understand much about what you go through on the daily but would be very open to learning from you

dino

super loving and knowledgeable about your needs

you know your body doesn't agree with certain foods and he's making sure that it's never around you

if you're about to eat something will always ask if you've checked it's okay first

if you're at a restaurant he will call ahead of time and ask about the menu or ask during the dinner to make sure you're safe

makes sure you pack any medicine you need if you're going out or on a trip

you mention you're not feeling the best and he's doing everything he can to make sure you're alright and get you what you need <3

[natsury-kazuki]

Valentine Card 2023

Hey, like every year there are Valentine's Day cards, this post will be updated as I find the cards, feel free to send me the missing cards! Enjoy - 06.11.23

HEARTSLABYUL

My dear friend─

Riddle Rosehearts : Not found yet

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Hello friend ─

Trey Clover : Not found yet

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Eyyy, friend!

Sweets aren't normally my jam, but the ones you

picked out were PERF─and they looked great

too! You must've put in some WORK picking

them out.

So, thanks! I'll make sure to do the same for you!

Cater Diamond

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My good friend─

Thanks for the amazing gift! You got me those

mega-popular sweets we just talked about, right?

They were so good! It's kind of a shame I ate them

all.

Have you had any? I guess it'd be weird if I gifted

you the same thing, but come shopping with me

sometime and we can pick out some sweets for you.

Deuce Spade

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Heya, pal─

I kinda freaked when I saw you left a present at

my door─in a good way! You actually sent me

sweets! You could've just given them to me in

person, you know.

I haven't had any yet, but I'm sure they'll be

great! We should share them at lunch tomorrow.

Ace Trappola

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SAVANACLAW

Hey─

You gev me SWEETS? I swear, sometimes I

don't know what goes through that noggin of

yours.

I'll be nice and say I appreciate the

sentiment...this time. But don't expect any

glowing food reviews.

Leona Kingscholar

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Welp─

Ruggie Bucchi : Not found yet

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Hi.

Jack Howl : Not found yet

-

OCTANIVELLE

My boon, companion─

Thank you for the heartfelt gift. I suppose I owe

it to you to partake of these sweets. Don't worry.

Once I've analyzed the flavor, I'll gift you

something equally delicious.

After all, fair's fair.

Azul Ashengrotto

-

My good friend─

You've outdone yourself. Sweets that pair well

with black tea? My deepest thanks. I'm flattered

that you thought of me so when selecting them.

You've inspired me. I'm going to spend my

mountain hhikes pondering just the right tea

blend to suit your palate.

I do hope you'll enjoy it.

Jade Leech

-

Dear little shrimpy─

I saw your present. You got me candy?

That rules! I saw JUST in the mood for

something sweet. I might not be tomorrow

though, so I think I'll polish them off today.

Thanks.

Floyd Leech

-

SCARABIA

To my dear friend─

Thanks for the present! What colorful and

sparkly sweets. They look delicious!

I just had an idea! How about we eat them

together after school? Gifts like this taste better

when shared, after all.

I'll pick out a good tea to go with them. Can't

wait to see you later!

Kalim Al-Asim

-

Hello─

I was suprised to see you gifted me sweets.

At first I wondered if you were hinting for me to

make you something similiar... But when I pulled

the gift out of the bag, I saw all the details you put

into it, right down to the ribbon. It's clear this was

a heartfelt gesture.

I'll treasure these treats as I eat them. Thank you.

Jamil Viper

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POMEFIORE

Dearest friend─

Thank you for the gift. The sweets were dazzling

and most attractive.

Did you try to imagine what I'd like when

picking the out?

If so, you made an apt choice.

I'll have something for you later in return.

Vil Schoenheit

-

Bonjour, and merci beaucoup!

What a lovely batch of confections!

They're so darling that I'm tempted to stow

them away in a brilliant bejeweld box.

Ah, but I jest. I'll enjoy every morsel of this gift

you've so thoughtfully bestowed upon me.

Rook Hunt

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Dear classmate─

Epel Felmier : Not found yet

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IGHIHYDE

@YOU 

huh? What the wha?

im low-key scared here

why would u give me sweets???

ig that sometimes i run low on sugar when ive been

gaming too long and my aim becomes trash...

ok sure, if this is ur way of looking out for me,

ill take it

Idia Shroud 

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Hello, Perfect─

Ortho Shroud : Not found yet

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DIASOMNIA

To my dear friend ─

Thank you. Never did I envision someone

presenting me with the gift of sweet treat.

It would be a shame for me to eat them all by

myself. Ithink I'll share them with you.

Would you be willing to provide the tea to go

with them ?

Malleus Draconia

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Greetings!

Your present was delightful.

The treats had a sublte sweeteness that was

perfect for a slightly mature fae like myself.

I'll be making you a lovely treat in return,

I hope you'll enjoy it.

Lilia Vanrouge

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Salutations─

Thanks for the gift. I read once that suger can

boost your concentration.

Did you gave me these to snack on when

I'm about to nod off during my studies?

That was very considerate of you.

I think I'll try them out today.

Silver

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Human─

Sebeck Zigvolt : Not found yet

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NRC STAFF

Dear esteemed student─

Dire Crowley : Not found yet

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Dear juvenile─

Mozus Trein : Not found yet

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Dear pup-

Is this gift for the staff? Excellent. Now that I

have some treats to sweeten my breaks, I'll be able

to grade your exams with a much more critical eye.

I can see the grimace on your face now.

Relax, it was a joke.

It's usually frowned upon for dogs to be the ones

buying gifts, but since you're suche a loyal pup,

I'll let you off. I'm generous trainer, after all.

Divus Crewel

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Dear student─

Ashton Vargas : Not found yet

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Yo, little imp!

What is UP? Thanks so much for the gift!

You've got a real eye for quality.

I'll make sure to stock up on goods that'll pique

your interest, so swing by the shop soon!

Sam

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OTHER

Dear hench-human─

Mraaah! Is this ALL for me?!

I've never seen such sparkly, yummy-lookin'

candy before! I feel like a king!

But I'd feel bad leavin' you out of this sugar

extravaganza, so I GUESS you can have a small

piece. I'm lookin' forward to more gifts, partner!

Grim

[kaddyssammlung]

Aqua Regia – Analysis

Name/ meaning: it dissolves gold.

“Well, my love is an animal call”

Did is say something somewhere about blind range and maybe killing something with your bare hands? I would never say that he did something like that but it kind of reminds me of this for some reason.

Either that or he was called by an animal? Maybe he means Sleep?

“Cutting through the darkness, bouncing off the walls”

I like this image. Love that is cutting through darkness. This is really nice. It sounds nice and also the image that it creates is just lovely.

“Between teeth on a broken jaw”

This makes me think about the car accident allusions. Or he means a broken jaw in a metaphorical way since he said something about jaws and how they show our true emotions.

“Following a bloodtrail, frothing at the maw”

This again reminds me of “Jaws”. It creates images of hunting and wild animals. I'm not really sure what he means though.

“These days I'm a circuit board Integrated hardware you cannot afford”

That sounds so damn cool! Seems like he is starting to say “goodbye” to someone? Hardware you can't afford...? I'm too good for you?!

“The perfect start to a perfect war putting down the roses picking up the sword”

It really seems like he is done with something or someone. Maybe he means Sleep.

“Aqua Regia”

Since he kind of hints on alchemy every now and then, at least in my perception, maybe you can see this referencing alchemy again? Since alchemy is about “creating gold” whereas Aqua Regia is about dissolving gold?!

“Well, my past is a holy book”

I wonder how he means this. This is me sensing some religious abuse again....or maybe he means that it has something to do with God? I don't know. It could also mean something positive. You really never know. I keep sensing relegious trauma though for some reason.

“A call from Olympus, ringing off the hook”

Olympus hinting at Greek mythology but I don't know which way to go from here because I don't know much about it.

“I'm stuck in a time where the mountains shook”

I take from that he is stuck in the past and also maybe there was a lot of drama going on with someone or maybe even him?

“And these days I'm a picture frame Screaming at the sunshine, singing in the rain”

I like the play with opposites. Most humans like sunshine and not the rain. I can relate to the feeling that sometimes the rain fits the mood better and then you look at the sun in an angry way. As if it was shining in a sarcastic way.

“Sugar on the blood cells, carbon on the brain”

Sugar I've got a taste for you....well! I still get ED vibes from this. Or from both of them. And carbon...maybe not breathing right? When you start to breath the wrong way because you are stressed?!

“Out of Eden's vices running through my veins”

To me this just represents the way we are so deeply attached to the materialistic world. Hinting on Adam and Eve maybe and how they were not supposed to eat apples from that forbidden tree?!

To me this always symbolizes how humanity is kind of a slave to the materialistic world.

“Oxytocin running in the ether”

I like that! Oxytocin has something to do with connection or connecting to others. Let's say you just slept with someone then your body is flooded with it.

Ether uses to be in the periodic table of the elements but someone made sure that it got erased. Not going into the depths this one, though.

“Silicon ballrooms Subatomic interactions if it's all good”

This is the nerdiest way ever of saying “sex”. At least that's what I think he means.

I'm picturing myself saying this my none existing girlfriend “let's have subatomic interaction tonight”.

(I think I need a girlfriend...for only one reason: that I can say this to her)

“Gold rush, acid flux”

That rush that love can give you? But he also says acid and I know the meaning of this word. Maybe he means drugs? Or maybe just acid from your stomach, when you ate the wrong food and then your stomach starts acting up? I have no idea.

“Saturate me, I can't get enough”

Imagine me sitting on a desk and raising my eyebrows in a suspicious way. Sex again Mr. Vessel?!

Of course he means just saturated atoms....oh well I don't know how to say this in English actually. I think he means saturated chemical compounds...or maybe not.

“Cold love, hot blood Running to your heart when you're thinking of”

Makes me think about the whole album of “This place will become your tomb” where it feels like he is torn between loving or hating someone. This feels the same way to me. Maybe he know that they are no good for each other but he still likes the thought of them being close to him.

I swear....this is such a BPD thing.....

“Oh and I am done dancing to alarm bells No wonder my ears are still ringing”

This makes me think of someone being highly emotional, very impulsive and also hysterical af...I think I know her. She is typing this right now. Okay, it's a past version of me that it reminds me of.

“And I am done fighting off change No wonder my arms are still swinging”

Change is often considered to something bad. It's us staying in the know. But it can also be something good.

[whatthehelltony]

could be doing anything else right now but I’m sitting in bed with all the windows open writing text post for tumblr and freezing my ass off. My pants are too big for me and it’s making me so mad and I want to make something but idk what and it’s so messy in here and I need to clean and I feel sick so maybe i should close the windows and maybe I should eat something other than sugar and caffeine and maybe I should make lunch but it’s too late so I’ll just wait til dinner cause everyone knows calories don’t count after dark which is maybe my problem and my throat hurts and I’m cold and I want to talk to someone but instead I’m here rambling to no one and I hope that I remember to delete this before anyone I know sees it but I probably won’t and I feel like I’m wasting time but I can’t stop and I just want to do something but idk what I and I just want to build something but it seems like maybe right now I have to do nothing because the only other thing I can do is destroy and talk to much and maybe I should sleep well tonight but I’ve already decided I won’t until my giant painting has a sky and I know that i cannot move the dresser til after dark and I need to hide my energy drinks cause people are coming over and might want to sit on the closet couch and I also need to move my sewing stuff and the dress I started and of course never finished because if I don’t do it all at once it won’t get done like the book my girlfriend gave me that I had to force myself to read in one sitting cause i knew I wouldn’t otherwise and why is it is a struggle to do things I want to do and why can’t I type and the music is too loud in my earbuds but it needs to be loud and I can’t type and I feel like I’m going deaf and maybe I’m going blind cause my eyes are always blurry now and maybe I should drink some water cause otherwise I’m gonna die at practice and maybe I should eat something but I ate a cookie at midnight last night and my mom isn’t home to tell me to eat and why am I complaining cause I eat dinner and I eat and I don’t have a problem and I’m itching but I know the thing that will make it stop will be too obvious and the last thing I want is for people to know anything and I wanna go home but I’m sitting in bed with the windows open and I am home and it’s cold but the sun is shining and my heart is beating too fast and maybe it’s the caffeine or the adrenaline from talking too much or maybe it’s my heart and I’m going to die and maybe I should close the window and put a period in my writing so that people can actually read it but maybe I’m making it unreadable in purpose so that no one reads it and maybe I could not post this but we both know I have to because I can’t text my girlfriend and even if I could I know I wouldn’t say anything cause she’s got it way worse and I’m actually good so idk what I’m doing here and why I’m typing and there’s a notes app for a reason but it just isn’t the same and I need to stop and I need to put a period somewhere but it’s too bright and my eyes are blurry but I won’t sleep til tomorrow and I need to shut up but my head hurts and maybe this will make it feel better but now I have to go because people are coming over and I need to clean and I keep forgetting things and maybe I’m crazy but people who are actually crazy don’t think they’re crazy so im ok and I won’t put a period because fuck

[crunchybees]

goal setting for projectors:

instead of setting goals for physical, external things and burning yourself out or beating yourself up because you gave up before the finish line, try to set goals for ways of being. we've all come across something interesting that has improved the way we live, whether its for efficiency, health, understanding, or literally anything that makes life more enjoyable for us. i say, work on those things that will make your personal life better. i am a splenic projector, and recently i have found success in improving my bodily health. this has been in the works for several years (im also heavily saturn ruled and saturn rules the channel connecting to my throat center!). it started with a simple intention -i want to be healthier. but there was a lot of trying with no sticking to it. the main issue was that i could not find the right type of excercise. projectors are really iffy with excercise - we cant do it too often or too much or we get tired, and splenic projectors can get sick. i also did not have any generator to excercise with! and wow, trying to consistently exercise by yourself as a projector feels like seppuku. i have my heart and root centers defined so i could do any routine i had for about a month or so but after that i just completely lost interest and ended up feeling bad about it. like damn why cant i do that? well. thats just not how i work and thats okay. at that time i had a lot of other stuff going on, stuff that was more important than gainz, like going through the motions of being a high schooler who lives in her aunts crumbling basement. and yes i was trying to excercise in this crumbling basement - me, with taste cognition, crazy. so it wasnt the right time. but now it is. now i do have the energy to focus on directly improving myself and my life. it all started when i graduated. i immediately had a weight lifted off of my chest and i could function properly. well rested and able to focus on whatever came my way. i am a 1/3 profile as well, which means that the way i reach these goals is by first doing research (1 line), and then using my authority to choose what to take into my life and go through that trial and error process with (3 line). so from the beginning, i knew that the three things i wanted to work on, the three things that i knew were the most important, were sleep, food, and excercise. so here comes the research. and sometimes its unintentional. i didnt google search "poisons in food". but the state of food in the us led me to wonder what exactly these ingredients are doing, what effect are they having on my body? also saw stuff on twitter that triggered me to do research. i just get twinges to look further sometimes. and i saw a documentary last year about the effects of sugar and its substitutes. over time the knowledge builds up. i became pescatarian. i know what the nutritional content of almost every food i eat is. i found a partner to go to the gym with, just about once a week (i have wet kitchens environment as well). im still finding a good way for me to do reps and sets, cardio and strength, without me being absolutely obliterated by the end, but i am pretty close to finding that sweet spot. and rest has been so, so important to me over these last few months. ive been putting my foot down and saying NO if im tired, if i know something will wear me out. and my bed... after a long time of sleeping on a futon i now sleep on a beautiful cloud that begs me to stay. this is an indicator of success to me, as a projector. i didnt have a tangible thing that told me ive completed my goal. and its still not over - there is much, much more to life. but now i am able to take on the responsibilities and benefits that come with being this type of person and knowing this type of knowledge. master what you know is good for you. what benefits you, will benefit anyone who seeks your guidance. youre the one who is teaching people right from wrong here. youre the one giving them the map youve drawn from the lessons youve learned.

[weightlessisthenewblack]

do u think u can give me tips on how to fast? i’m always w ppl so someone will point out if i haven’t eaten yet and it’s also hard to keep going sometimes. do u have tips on how to feel full or on what to tell ppl so they don’t worry?

I did not mean for this to get as long as it is, i like to talk im sorry 😅

I totally know how you feel! Fasting can be pretty hard for me too, especially because almost everyone in my life knows i have problems with food.

If you are just starting to fast i would start with small goals and work your way up. I started at about 14 hours, and then worked my way up to around 48. And remember sleeping at night counts! I like to start a fast later in the day so when i wake up the next morning i got a good chunk of hours done without even trying.

Distractions are also essential for me. I play a lot of videogames, and i picked up crocheting to keep my hands busy on down days when im just watching tv. Find things you like to do that keep your mind off it, and keeps your hands occupied so you dont feel the urge tor each for a snack or something. Reading, going for a walk, pick up a new hobby if you want! Theres loads to do to keep you distracted. Im making a sweater for my dad thats taking up a lot of my time :)

To curb hunger pangs, it can be hard to ignore for sure, my version of fasting isn't dry fasting or water fasting tho. I find those kinds incredibly difficult to do. I liquid fast with sugar free or zero calorie drinks. When im working i make sure to have a monster ultra zero sugar, and any combination of tea, water with a no calorie flavouring, or zero cal sodas, i like pepsi zero. Fizzy drinks can help trick the stomach into thinking its full because its bubbly. Drink lots of water too! The more water you drink the more full you feel. If you happen to like black coffee that works too, since its works as an appetite suppressant. It gets easier after the first night. Sometimes if its really bad I'll allow myself to chew some sugar free gum and that usually helps curb the hunger a bit too.

And of course if at any point you feel like you are going to pass out please PLEASE break your fast and eat something. Even a granola bar or something, to get your blood sugar levels up. The last thing you want is passing out from lack of food.

Excuses can be hard depending on your circumstances. I happen to work in food service so i often use the excuse i ate at work. If you are working or in school you can use the same excuse with people at home. And at work or school you can say you had a big breakfast at home or you are having a big dinner! If you aren't doing either, excuses can defs become even harder, but i find just saying im not really hungry at the moment tends to work fine w my boyfriend and family. Otherwise you can try:

Saying you feel a little nauseated and dont want to risk getting sick

You have a toothache

Your jaw is hurting for whatever reason

You are budgeting and cant afford to go out for food right now

Saying you want to try intermittent fasting for your health

If the people you are with are open minded for lack of a better word you could say your doing a x amount of days juice cleanse. My sister did one a while ago and everyone supported it, even though its essentially just liquid fasting for 3 days.

Or you could be straight up! Do a little research into the benefits of long term fasting! Then you can just say you are fasting for a while bc of all the good health benefits.

I hope this helps a little bit, and of course id prefer you to seek recovery options, but there are a lot of health benefits to fasting that i wholly support! And if you are going to fast id rather try to help you do it in a way that makes you feel accomplished for succeeding and in a healthy way. Take vitamins, and dont skip any medications you have. If they require to be taken with food then do that, dont put your health at risk taking medication without food :(

Stay safe love, and listen to your body 💕

[the1312daysofchristmas]

my sister loves kombucha! ive never tried it but ur making me want to

i feel like its an acquired taste but i am an acquired taste kinda dyke. ill ingest the most weirdest flavours and textures god has put on this earth and enjoy it. its because i grew up eating ackee and saltfish i bet. though soursop and sugar apple are a little too weird for me usually i will admit.

i do like the kombucha though! i imagine it tastes like how dry wine probably tastes, which makes sense because its basically the same concept. although you could probably end up with a sweet kombucha too if the second fermentation doesnt go for as long. anyway i liked it. given the opportunity i would go for one of the nonalcoholic + probiotic brands that exist out there, but there is only one cottage industry brand of kombucha in the country so ill take it. i dont think it really counts as breaking edge but im covering my bases.

i mostly wanted to try it because i wanted to know if its something i would like if i made it myself. and honestly i dont think i could drink it fast enough. im not like obsessed with it, its fine. but it is an option for probiotics in my diet! so thats good.

[edwardscissorfeet]

. pretty bad ed content just ignore me

AND IM NOT EVEN TALL. WHATS THE POINT OF BEING >45KG IF IM NOT EVEN TALL.throws a fucking brick at my window my ed is lucky i never picked up bulimic habits. my ed is LUCKY i should just go on a fucking week long anorexic thing like i used to do and lose about 5kg and call it a day. adn in fact im going to be responsible for my meals again for two weeks im actually going to break something im so MADDD im trying to feel good about being you know. not borderline underweight anymore but i can feel my thighs touching i dont really see my hipbones anymore i feel fat and ugly and i miss being hungry forever. ok whatever. dies badly

and i know it's normal as fuck and i anticipated having a weight gain spike bc for about a momth ive been eating 2-3 meals a day so gaining 1.5-2kg is fine or whatever but I DONT WANT TO FEEL ITTTT im going to throw my scale away. fuck offffff fuck offffffffff oh my god and i put on a pair of pants i havent worn in a couple of months the other day and it was tigjt and i dont wake up with a flat stomach anymore and i just kind of. am very tired of not loving myself. bueno 👍 if i was twelve again and growing 20cm+10kg i would kill my aunt for telling me i was fat. and all my other relatives who kepts saying i was skinny and making me feel bad about gaining weight. im going to THROW UP

sick to my teeth god i remember being fourteen and trying desperately to vomit because i ate a little too much at a dinner party but i couldn't because the reflex never kicked in properly. and being like 17 and overdosing partially because of ed but i didnt wanna tell my mum or my therapist because then id have to eat and id feel sick and hate myself even more if i gained weight and i just kind of miss being in the hospital and eating whatever and wearing the most shapeless gowns because everyone had yo wear the same thing and now CARING ABOUT MY WEIGHT. is it fucked up my best month in a long time body image wise was the one i had while institutionalised.

i used to be 43-44.5kg any given day and now im 45.5-47kg and its awful. i keep thinking about how im above 100lb now. and i dont want to restart regular exercise because my knees hurt + i know im going to overdo it and feel awful and return back to when i would only eat a real meal after a real run (4-5km) i used to have to tap out after 3km because i had no energy and punish myself with only like. a sweet drink so i dont shake from low sugar. which is like stupid as fuck but i cant help it at my worst i felt soooo ill after eating food. alsp why i am obsessed with my poop frequency if im being honest lmao. this was all THIS YEAR BY THE WAY i need to start stabbing

last meal i skipped was dinner on sunday 👍 i hauv to eat dinner now :/

[transporttransportingtransport]

dumping mostly old writing

To clear to tumblr 👍

wait, this is so true. i realize: i am a set-up guy. i ❤️ to set things up for actions to be taken,, i dont necessarily live to complete things… i think i needed this~ this frees me

i can make myself invisible ive realized

its not the most honed skill

since it is unintentional slash goes against what i want sometimes 

but ill be learning 

(without judgement:)

what am i feeling (body, or emotion) right now?

what am i thinking 

what do i need rn

what am i doing rn?

whos really running my life RIGHT NOW? /whos in charge right now? 

Honestly I feel better in my day-to-day life this year, than ever, but Lately I've felt so much resentment and disappointment towards others (mostly coworkers/people in the media/on tv, etc, not so much close people ) . i thought it was just my saturn return and my growing pains of needing to see more of what i value reflected around me, 

but now I'm thinking its also grief, when considering how long it took to feel alright in myself, and to feel like i could take care of myself, to take care of others, and to be taken care of too. i ended a lot of intimate ties recently, which cleared up a lot of things, and I'm happy with the other humans im close with. which is new for me 

I wonder too if this rage means the majority of people around me really are so mediocre, or if theres something else going on. why am i so dissatisfied by humanity....? my mind floods with criticisms, wanting to burn everthing down: it feels like so many people grew up out of their child body but somehow stayed very fragmented in their unmet child needs, and im pissed off at it all. maybe its something in me wanting to be efficient about the amount of energy that is being thrown around all over the realms i watch

i want fame… i always rejected ideas of expterise, and “mastery” feels way off too since the things i do are things i love, not have,, 

but i have started to recognize a need to touch many. and to feel honourable and impactfullll. 

i think the era of celebrity worship is over, nd perhaps im going to be part of whats next for fame, something less individualist and isolating and deadly. 

studying, indefinitely what could not be said 

leaded legs

let me lie

one more time

we cant see our coworkers

they rook away our chairs

i went to a party 

with people and their careers

your friends 

i didnt like them much 

my hair still remembers you

floods my face when i walk by all the places you lived

things are changing

what shall we use these stirring sticks for

if you took away all the sugar 

i eat lunch at 4am

how to feel your head (or other body part) when you move your head 

while the waters still cold

I'll try to find the way

the entries to the relief 

it surrounds 

my ex used to put their hands in the roasting oven

you could say ive seen some shit

and they named me lazy 

i wouldn't be there in an emergency

you said you loved me

i said i loved you 

so did you hear Her crow in your dreams?

no, well, i can't be sure, but i do hear Her now

dont eat those berries at the bus stop

where is the friend who can out out the fire on thine head

panting white boys

headed to north on friday

i dont want to know where theyre up to,

seeing them hanging out that passenger window with eyes on me

oh st laurent, its friday 

we were too accepting of the individualism of that relationship

our time had not begun to hold us

we held no humility towards the inter dimensions that beckoned us

which was protective in its destruction. 

which is how we were readied

it wasnt lack

that built these roads

it was desire

it was never

lack of 

resources 

that built my roads 

my papa was a pagan

untouched and held

by the garden he flowers

a strange beekeeper allergic to the work 

[celestialpotat0]

Food and Beverage Journal

I've decided to start logging everything that I eat for a lil duration of time, because I'm trying to get a better sense of what I'm putting into my body. Will come back to edit this post continuously. I feel like my diet is trash but I would like to confirm to myself specifically all the trash I eat and when and reasons. Maybe this will allow me to find concrete ways to improve my diet. It just so happens that this upcoming week my partner is going out of town and I'm barely home, so I won't be cooking, so diet will probably be less healthful than average.

Edit on Day 3 of this process: you'd think that knowing that I'm logging everything would make me choose more healthful food options, but that is not the case. A lot of what i eat is bc i need some calories in me just to get through and it's the only thing available at the time. but also if im craving sweets, my desire to satisfy my craving is stronger than my desire to be able to brag that I avoided the sweets. i care more about taste than health for the most part, though health does factor into my decisions somewhat, and my habits are ingrained deeply.

Mon: 8:30a: overnight oats with chia seeds, fruit, and honey (made by me) 12p: 1.5 slices of pepperoni pizza (free at work) 5:50p: *needed fuel before dance* handful of honey roasted mixed nuts 9:30p: Taiwanese beef noodle soup (cooked by me) with bok choy and generous heaps of raw scallions and cilantro (4 oz dry weight of noodles lol)

Tue: 8:30a: Trader Joe's chickpea kale and crispy red rice salad (vegan) 9a: *wanted something salty and crispy with my salad* 1 handful of kettle potato chips jalapeno flavored 10:30a: *craving something sweet* one small piece butter mochi (baked by Una) 12p: *starving but unable to take lunch break yet...high metabolism today* 1 chobani less sugar yogurt 1:45p: half slice of pepperoni pizza, 1 small serving of creamy tomato basil soup 6:45p: handful of kettle potato chips jalapeno flavored *needed fuel before dance so ate what was quickest and most convenient* 9:20p: sticky coconut chicken and rice (my serving contains one-fourth of a bell pepper lol and raw green onions and cilantro) (cooked by my partner) Wed: 9a: small bit of honey bunches of oats vanilla cereal with milk 12p: three-fourths of an order of vegan Rainbow salad (more noodles than greens), one-third of an order of pumpkin stew with fish (didnt know upon ordering that fish turned out to have deep-fried batter) and jasmine white rice 8:20p: leftover sticky coconut chicken and rice (cooked by my partner)

Thur: 8:20a: leftover Rainbow salad (vegan) 12p: 2 Girl scout thin mints 3p: leftover pumpkin stew with fried fish and jasmine white rice 7:10p: organic dal tadka + murg tandoori w/ grilled veggies + butter naan Fri: 8:30a: half a small bowl of oatmeal and brown sugar (cooked with water, not milk) + 2 handfuls of rice crisps (vegan) 2p: chicken fingers w/ ketchup, bbq sauce, mustard 7p: mapo tofu + green beans + couscous (melted a lil bit of butter into couscous) (vegan meal except for butter) + 2 bites of cake

Sat: 8a: 1 Chobani less sugar yogurt with unsalted almonds + one-third of a freshly-baked chocolate-chip cookie 1p: Mexican pasta salad, basically pasta with various chopped pieces of Mexican-inspired ingredients like corn, black beans, bell peppers, greens, etc. (vegan) 5p: 1 chicken tender with bbq sauce 6:45p: mapo tofu + green beans + couscous (without butter today) (vegan) 11p: 10 pork and cabbage potstickers with ginger/soy/vinegar dipping sauce

Sun: 1p: mapo tofu + green beans + noodles with soy/sesame sauce (vegan). the noodles taste SO much better with the Chinese dishes than couscous lol! but i had been trying to use up all the couscous cooked from last week 3:30p: small slice of cake 8:15p: 2 Whole Foods chicken tinga enchiladas 12a: 1 Trader Joe's frozen chicken and cheese tamale Mon 10/14: 10a: small bowl of honey bunches of oats vanilla cereal with milk 2p: sandwich (weighing 0.8 lb) of fresh focaccia, Mortadella, Pesto, Demi-Sec Tomatoes, Fresh Mozzarella, Basil Leaves, EVOO 8:30p: Japanese curry udon noodles w/ some thin slices of ribeye, mushrooms, carrots, and potato

Tue 10/15: 5:45a: Luna bar and 1 snack packet of Japanese rice crackers 10:15a: Fage blueberry greek yogurt 12:30p: bowl containing salmon, roasted sweet potatoes, grilled corn, baby spinach, roasted Brussels sprouts, red cabbage, farro mix, apple cider vinaigrette 7p: ~10 nuts (quick fuel before dance) 9:30p: ground turkey and veggie chili (cooked by my partner)

Wed 10/16: 8a: overnight oats with chia seeds, fruit, almonds, cinnamon, and agave syrup (made by me) 12:45p: leftover ground turkey and veggie chili 3:45p: 1 piece Hawaiian shortbread dipped in dark chocolate 5:30p: bag of Lays potato chips 9p: Vietnamese chicken, dried shrimp, zucchini, and spinach soup with white rice (meal cooked by me)