#and all the ways i can be broken
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I want that Agathario flashback content, I really do, but I *need* some kind of resolution between them in the present.
Despite recent events, I am still holding out hope that at the end of the day, this story is going to be about Agatha, that it's going to be about accepting Nicholas's death and being able to finally move on and a major part of that is Rio... in order to accept Nicholas's death, she also has to accept that Rio was just doing their job.
These two so clearly still have so much love for each other buried under all that grief and pain and anger and I just really need that to be acknowledged. Even if they have to go their separate ways and go on their own path for a little while, that's okay, as long as there is some sort of resolution that makes it clear they both have someone to come back to, no matter what.
#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#agathario#this is why i wait until tv shows finish before i watch them#because otherwise i just agonize over all the ways my babies can be messed up#and all the ways i can be broken#and just needing something in a wlw ship to go right for once
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More minibatch adventure I need a full show maybe too XD
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#star wars fanart#I like them for once ^^#Trying to complain less in my tags haha#now time forrrrrr#my liffffffffffffe#I went back to the dentist today#I thought she would only deep clean my tooth and be done with it#NO#she actually reconstructed my broken teeth#I WASN'T READY TAT#me : hi#the doctor : ok sit down I'm gonna start by using a needle again to numb you#me: “the what”#It was scary all the way#me the whole time: “the bad batch had it worst you can do this”#BUT my teeth is saved now???#for a reasonable price?#bless#I'm just not ready for the two days without eating 'cause my mouth aches TAT#sight#at least I can drink#water#but still
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ooo fantasy au Poppy oooo there's so much empty space on this, it's killing me
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why is there lace? why does she have a neck corset? because she's Gorgeous and I'm the Artist Here. i will always inflict my personal tastes on everyone I draw. pretty bird <3
it's really difficult to put clothes on a bird... stream helped out a bunch with the colors & the leg gear! I imagine that the leather is durable, which is probably the only thing that gets her to traverse less Forgiving terrain. Thornbushes and itchy tallgrass can't hurt her! she's got "boots"! How Does She Secure Them, i hear no one ask. that's what neighbors are for, isn't it? and a skilled beak once she gets the swing of it.
her shawl remains largely the same due to my lack of imagination! i put a lil feather clasp instead of the shawl being tied together to give it a more fantasy-oriented look. i think i succeeded? i like to think so! i imagine that the clasp gives Poppy some stress, though. It's sharp! Ish. it's sharp by her standards!
Poppy's enchanted glasses allow her to "see" injuries and illness, both caused by magical & normal means. this is very helpful in her role as healer, but also extremely stressful - just because she can see issues doesn't mean she automatically knows what they are! to her, a papercut may be misinterpreted by the beginnings of a fatal infection! i like to think that she got tired of needing to hold the glasses in place over her beak and asked if there was a charm to keep them steady. and they confidently had their resident wizard spell them on - oops! the spell was a little too strong! they're now magically superglued on! yeah, those are never coming off.
she also has a magic bag that i imagine was a gift from her family when she left the nest! she'd never directly use it herself - what if she falls in? what if something nasty managed to crawl inside? - but the Neighborhood uses it as collective storage. it can hold a lot! supplies, books, tents, gold, even Julie when she's determined enough!
#'why are her legs broken' Technically! theyre bending the correct way for a bird#i would draw them normally but since this au is uhhhh#mmmm how do i say? theyre Flesh and Bone and Biological Creatures!#so... normal bird legs :]c#its like how everyone gets teeth here! except poppy. cause she's a bird.#and wally. bc home forgot.#but yeah. poppy <3#i like to imagine her trying to make dinner at a campsite#im now Realizing that part of the appeal of fantasy aus for me is the camping#god i miss camping. take me BACK#but also dont oh my god dont make me go back i dont want to be a kid again it was terrible-#scribble salad#wh fantasy au#poppy really can do it all!#she cooks! she heals! she screams loudly and hides during fights!#she helps frank keep careful track of the party's collective Coin!
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Standalone post of my doodles for @samhainian's AUs of sorts from this post which you should go read because oouuuuh,,,,,
There's a lot of possibilities with how either of these go, mostly depending on how honest Loop is upfront (or how caught red-handed they are, so to speak). Since... Well, the party is loving. That's the point of the story! They just learned this!
But. How do you even begin to explain this. Especially when you aren't fully over it yourself.
#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#isat fanart#isat act 5 spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#isat loop#Nohats AU#Looploops AU#i shouldnt parrot my own tags in here you can read them in the link but aaaaugh. loop having no idea why theyre grieving at all.#its not like siffrin was real. they were just a copy. they can just take their place. its not like they got attatched.#its not like its weird. its not like theyre utterly unrecognisable to themselves. its not like theyre broken so thoroughly. its fine#anyway SORRY BONNIE THERE IS NO WAY THIS COULD BE EXPLAINED ADEQUATELY. KIND OF GETS THE WORST DEAL HERE. SORRRRYYYY#anyway posting this on pokemon day is bold of me im gonna get drowned.#lucabyteart
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playing slay the princess as intended (watching your friend stream it and then roleplaying as improvised ocs for each of ur runs)
#anethia collectibles#slay the princess#so ...#run 1 is i think the witch/thorns where we chose to be very stoic and silent throughout#run 2 is the paranoid/nightmare route (fav) bcus i wanted to get to ask more qns that round and somehow that ended up leading to my poor#little curious guy getting so broken and fractured :3#run 3 is the hero/deconstructed damsel route ....#run 4 is the tower! and being a little shit who is by hell and highwater NOT kneeling down#run 5 is the spectre ... roleplayed as guy who is for reasons he doesnt understand just wants it to be over#and MEOW anyway#nobody told me this game was an rpg .....#but its cool ! i love romances :]#i think its awesome ... the way the hero and the princess are . changing over time . over with each reset#the way they find each other in the long quiet ...... its something so#i love it ...#the hero is so guilty for hurting the princess that he loves and he is scared of hurtign and he wants peace and he doesnt want the eternity#of it .... he loves the . shifting mound (?) is it (?) as much as he hates the work she makes her do as much as he loves todo the workforher#like a blank slate knowing nothing . except that broken wounds can be healed . and then he meets her. and then he meets her over and over#its a million meet cutes for the hero and the princess snd a sweeping tale of love and devotion and salvation in the long wuiet#how many more vessels do you need .....#and its fun to. at least how i played it . the things the hero picks up on#knowingly or unlnowingly with each run#its soooo#every 'remain silent' feels like a callback to the first libe#telling the voices 'itll be okay' after the brightness of the damsel snd that 'ill be okay' after the selfishness n suffering of apotheosis#or after the deconstructed damsel route . and then to the last run. becoming the damsel. seeing it throughcher eyes#and its so . this culminating ammassing of allcthese voices .... and it comes to it all being reflected at eachcother#spectre posseses hero and shifting mound and player becomign whole#anyway i like this love story i find it very tender and swet#... anyway ! this is . none of this is analysis these are just my ocs and the story i made up whilst playing
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#not art (yet!!!!)#preddy good kristen I got goin on in this piece#for some reason my brain isnt letting me do this one. been stalling on it for a good few days. but I intend to break thru it#I need to put this on paper at least once#(its space sweepers. I think it would be funny if the kids are in that universe too but theyre just like off to the side doing their own#thing pretty much unrelated to the main plot. theyre delivery people. theyre all still teens. they get up to shenanigans and then#one day they look up like huh the guy who founded eden fucking died?? when#kristen specifically I got a decent amount hashed out in my brain somehow. she's like an engineered messiah with a grafted engine#along her upper body skeleton that'd let her spontaneously rearrange objects on a molecular level#so she can theoretically knit wounds or cure diseases by thinking abt it very hard#sadly the engine of course takes enormous amount of energy to power. so most of the time in practice she just#has a half-metal skeleton that doesn't do anything. so she's buff as shit on the upper side and one of her punches can break your neck#but her mobility is limited and she sprains her ankles like every other week. her shins have broken like a few times#I genuinely love the way her shoes n braces look in this one its very fun#there are a lot of choices I made in this one that are so fun and also just like. a result of putting them in space sweepers#and thinking to myself here and there hey this would be cool if it harkens back to their canon designs#not riz tho other than being human he is fully exactly like how he looks in canon. hes just like that#hes the navigator and he charts their courses by hand with a school calculator#(also technically their legal counselor since he's sorta responsible for not putting them in traffic control's hands)#drawing this does make me realise a lot of these dynamics are really fun lol. idk if Im gonna ever do anything like proper for this but#at the very least if I draw this the idea will be out there)
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There's something so silly and funny about the sex positive social media platform having a deep hatred for erotica and the people who read it.
#bloody rambles#don't get me started#i shelved a longer post because i don't want to sound like a broken record#but good FUCKING LORD#is there a way to win on the internet#everything is about the performance of education#it's all “there's no dumb questions” until someone you dislike asks a question#it's all “writers can write anything” until they write something considered shallow lol
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they look fucking DISGUSTING. i am in love with them
#furby#furby baby#furby 1998#safe furby#also yes i did buy them yes they are probably a bio-hazard i do not care#furbys have rekindled my old childhood love of electronic tinkering; and i have a HUGE soft spot for toy repair#ive always been obsessed with taking old/broken/abandoned toys and fixing them up and giving them a home#and furby is filling that niche so well#I AM FULFILLED IN LIFE#im so in love with these guys the before/after will be so good#i can tell all of them except the second to the left#it looks like a snowbell but the fur looks way too long?? maybe its just fucked up?? idk lmao#*edit: i looked at some close ups and its deffo snowy she's just been through some crazy shit LMAO
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It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.
#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me#let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough#iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire#armand#this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand#and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want#or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around#I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic#you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you#and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others#even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode#as a means of control both external and internal#this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of#armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior#and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship#idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires#all of this also ties into louis and daniel#because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him#someone HUMAN no less#and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis#breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t#not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon)#but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones#it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize#like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia#I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself#it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors#that ultimately result in your own abandonment#god this fucking show
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Thinking about how the Tower & the Adversary routes are connected through the Fury, and how you kind of get there by turning one into the other, and how horrified they are by what they become. Tower is about subjugation - she outright says she does not believe the two of you are on equal footing. You get the Fury from her when you assert your independence and fight back, forcing her to take you seriously as a threat and defend herself. Adversary is all about an equal fight - she prides herself on her strength, but also admires yours. You access the Fury through her by refusing to fight, watching her beat you to a pulp and become disgusted by what she does to you. IDK it is interesting how the Tower & Adversary parallel one another, and how you end up with the Fury in each route by doing what their sister route would have wanted you to do.
#i have no idea if the last sentence makes sense here lol#slay the princess#stp#the adversary#the tower#the fury#ive just been thinking about these guys a lot#in part just bc fury is a fascinating route to me (im very glad she's getting expanded upon)#& while tower's probably my least favorite route i still think about her a lot. i have a lot of thoughts about tower#but also 'sacrifice the yourself' has me thinking about how the princesses might feel about each other#& while i kinda concluded tower would dismiss all of the other vessels as 'insults' to her existence#i kind of started thinking about how much adversary (who loves an equal fight) would HATE playing the tower route lmao#idk it's a shame these guys get less attention compared to the 'nicer' princesses bc the ways they connect are really interesting#honestly im also curious about apotheosis bc id like to see her turn around how some ppl feel about tower#actually final addition to these long tags -#i think part of the tower hate comes from how frustrating it can be to play#(my first time through i was struggling to figure out what to do bc of the options being taken away)#and partially bc broken is a lot of ppl's least favorite voice#but *I* didn't mind broken. he got a few laughs out of me#my least favorite voice is cold
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Fought 'til you tethered me, swept under surfaces, never enough of it...
#911#buddie#911edit#buddieedit#911 on fox#911 fox#911 abc#evanbuckleyedit#eddiediazedit#my edit#otp: you don't need to pretend with me#usercam#at this point i should have a cemetery tag lol#flashing tw#i need a gracie tag dont I?#die on their watch.#so i was thinking earlier and if youve been around here any length of time you know i think about that cemetery scene a lot#because narratively its very interesting scene because i changes the tone of their relationship in comparison to the rest of the show reall#and its a fascinating choice. even the whole point that of the conversation happening at a cemetery where theyre visiting someone who didn'#but i have a tendency to look at that scene from eddies eyes#because when you look at it along with all of eddies reactions surrounding bucks death and the reactions eddie was having to bucks words#that feels like a breakup. if feels like were watching eddies heart break in real time yk?#BUT buck is very purposeful in this scene too. he's basically daring eddie to say something but eddie just thinks that he needs to agree#and if you look at it that way and think about it as buck asking for a reaction you can argue buck feels rejected here too#even tho eddie thinks hes being supportive#they are saying things and they are being misinterpreted. both of them leave that talk with different views of what happened#and thats VERY interesting with how strongly the show pushed buck eddie and chris as a family unity in the episodes before#and well i dont really know how the show plans to recover from that. if they plan on doing it at all. but like#that was a breakup. but if its a breakup where both of them think they got broken up with. how do you come back?#eddie diaz
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Going back to this thing briefly
When adapting this chapter into an episode Toei did not explain nor demonstrate to us what the fuck that spike was (instead they gave us Sables #378545), so we're no closer to finding out what kinda new moves Crocodile might have up his sleeve, whether that really was a Haki-infused sand spike or what
But when I was checking the melting point of sand out of curiosity (to figure out if Crocodile has a fighting chance against Akainu, which in theory he does because Akainu isn't hot enough to melt sand (in theory)), I was reminded of the fact that sand is mostly made of silica
Or, in other words, quartz. Sand is, on average, made of crystal. Of course, sand is also made of other things and other minerals (not just quartz), but if we wanted to assume Croc's DF is made of one element and one element alone, then let's just assume it's 100% silica, right
And now I can't help but to wonder now though
Could Crocodile have learned a new technique where he somehow compresses and hardens his sand so much it can turn into large, solid crystals? Or more specifically, sharp pointy stabby weapons to murder people with? 'Cause. How fucking cool would that be
Also considdering how much Crocodile likes his bling, being able to form crystals to murder people with would arguably be on-brand for him
#Moon posting#OP Meta#Sir Crocodile#OP Spoilers#HashtagGiveCrocodileGaudyBlingAttacks2024#Don't get me wrong I do want him to have Haki too#I just. If he could infuse his elemental attacks with Haki that would be broken as fucking hell and too fucking OP let's be real#'Cause it would mean all the other Logia users should be able to do the same and that's. Oh man that would be broken as hell#But if Crocodile did just learn a new fancy trick that's unique to his Logia then that would be cool as hell and exclusively power HIM up#(Also it would be in-character since Crocodile's supposed to keep on improving his abilities and not stagnate etc etc)#Only counter argument is that if he was able to form crystals (or glass) by compressing his sand enough like. What would be the benefit#Because sure he'd be able to form solid objects that way but solid objects can be broken and shattered#Where as the sand is just. Sand.#Like if he attacked with a crystal blade you could stop the attack because it's a solid object and/or break the blade#But if it's sand then it's not a solid mass the same way. You can't stop it or break it the same way#Although crystals could be more reliable in a wet environment or like. If it was really windy???????? IDK#There's potential for something cool here that's for sure. Oda please I just want to see Crocodile murder some people!! Release the husband
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Eve: "Regarding the lyrics, this time its about portraying the conflicts and feelings of the characters in Jujutsu kaisen. This kind of feeling inside me, made me choose the characters one by one and thus write the lyrics. I don't dare to say where or who..."
Also Eve:
Alternative translations: 1 2 3 4
The lyrics hit different after ch 271. I kinda want this to be the op for s4 ngl
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#ryomen sukuna#gojo satoru#sukugo#my post#this is all eve all I did was take a screen shot at the convenient time to further my Sukugo agenda lol#I think the characters this is about are Sukuna Megumi gojo and maaaaybe yuji and yuta#But I think it's mainly about Sukuna's feelings during the shinjuku showdown especially towards gojo#It's art anyone can interpret it the way they want#but “my passion that towards you only cuts through the air like a wish” while showing the prison cube getting cut in half... yeah...#Also “lost emotions”??? Like what? Nervousness? Lmao#Love is when he makes you feel nervous for the first time in a thousand years#“thoughts voice words and lost emotions and love spin and spin towards the chance of victory” I love the use of the word “spin” here#cuz mahoraga's wheel spinning was like a count down for the you know what#I like how it starts with Sukuna's finger box and ends with it note how it has this black sludge thingy around it in the beginning#but in the end it's cleared (watch the video)#“Expectations overlap with regrets” *Shows their hands reaching* o m g????? That other hand is definitely Sukuna's it has black nails!!!#The other hand we see coming out of an eye !!!!!!#“the memory and love to be hidden and the eternal identity till death shall it be fine to keep them staying” While showing the last finger#And that heart cut in half!!!! it's probably about kashimo but kashimo was only created to bring the subtext into text anyways sooo...#That brain is definitely yuta taking over and I'd like to think that broken sphere is yuta's domain barriers that shattered in ch 263#Expectations overlap with regrets indeed 😏 that being the slowest part of the song is so fucking funny Sukuna's really missing his wife#To me now this song is about Sukuna's unspoken love and regret and preserving this love and memory for as long as his remains exist#Also there's a line in the song about these feelings ���riding on the past and future” which is just aghhhh reminds me of Kashimo's question#why mince your soul into cursed objects and watch all those years go by what were you looking for#Sukuna literally time travelled met his love said he will remember him for as long as he lives and died in the same fucking day#only for his remains to stay protecting japan and preserve that memory The body is the soul and the soul is the body yeah?#Also Sukuna is basically tengen now so the six eyes is bound to him 😉 Gojo is the reason Sukuna's memory is preserved and vice versa#kenjaku baby trapped him to do bad things gojo finger trapped him into becoming Japan's protector against curses... Gojo best wife
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What's the favourite photo you've taken? - they're all so nice!! 💕
awww thank you sm !! <33 tbh I don’t really find any one photo too significant as of yet, not to say they aren’t nice to have but real life moments are nicer :)
these aren’t necessarily my fav photos but could argue might be my favourite “vibes”
this one was taken with a digital point and shoot — while it may be argued objectively shitty and I’m completely aware a toddler could replicate it, I think this is why I love it. the fact that it just is what it is. the untouched scene naturally tells its own story, rather than needing to curate one yourself. I personally find it’s more than just something to look at. this stripped back style evokes more emotion for me than others and I love how the darker lighting does not dull its life. I mean this is all subjective. I personally don’t think this style is the best for every photo (or maybe it could be) but I really like when it works out. as someone who feels disconnected from my own existence a lot of the time, I like that I can live through it a little, as I believe it to be as close to a reflection of my interpretation of the society we live in as possible. while it wouldn’t really matter if this particular photo got deleted. never to be seen again, I’d never know the feeling of this particular moment, until I felt it in real life again. obviously I didn’t quite know all this when randomly taking it while bored on the train but I think that’s the only reason it turned out this way which is even more warming.
but of course, maybe more so than anything, I love my trusty film <3 point and shoot ofc — these photos alongside the header of this blog, again very little effort but somewhat significant of a story. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I like when I’m able to capture a simple image that tells a story/evokes emotion (again, whether or not it portrays a story may be subjective). Especially with minimal effort, cause in my opinion if it’s perfect as is, then surely it’s worth taking a photo of. Film is more reliable to me at this point of my life, while I’m not very experienced (in any kind of photography really) I think it’s hard to fail, in fact I feel as though it almost exceeds my expectations. As someone who has never been any good at technical aspects of any form of art (or the patience to pursue them), I find film enables me to curate something to a standard of which I couldn’t ask for anything better of myself. Not to mention the process of developing etc. meaning I really have to stop and envision my image more so than with digital, which is basically an act of mindfulness (something I’m also usually very bad at). I’m pretty sure the Coca Cola photo was the first photo I ever took on film in 2020 lockdown (besides a barbie disposal I got for xmas as a kid that my parents were mad at me for quickly “wasting” and never to be developed). what I love about all these photos is that I believe I was able to zoom in on (no pun intended, because actually I didn’t) seemingly insignificant moments in life happening all around me so that they could later be recognised as something more. again, in my mind, my life feels very fragile at the best of times so I like that I can hold onto things a little longer when I’m alone. I’m so so glad film has stuck around and I hope I one day fix my favourite film camera and can take more photos like these!
again, hella subjective and have found most people I know to have very different preferences in what photos they think look and feel best, but as of right now these are mine :)
#idk if anyone cares THAT MUCH#but im distracting myself from the fact I’m ruining my academic life but continuing to do so by writing this instead#also I’m literally not a photographer so like idk wot I’m saying I’m just saying wot I’m thinking#the way I went on a full blown ramble in this post ab my life philosophies and then realised no one asked so deleted it lmao#but I’ll leave u with this instead#ultimate yapper#idk which parts of the words I say are real I’m literally insane#I also wrote this while throwing up in my mouth and dizzy as fuck#and now it’s 3am and I want to die bc every second I don’t do my assignment another mark comes off#but now i really can’t do it bc I feel too unwell#soz I’m a literally broken record lmao#not lmao at all#actually I’m pissed cos why can’t I do my critical analysis report rn but I can write this help
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#i never really thought about a person being a finite thing. you can see the effects of a person after they die. in the unfinished projects.#in the rooms of clutter. in abandoned closets. in pictures and in mermered phrases. and you can see time#chipping away at those things. eroding away the evidance that a person existed. clothes move into other people's closets. projects are boxed#away. and a person becomes confined to photos and memories. and thats existentially terrifying but its not a bad thing. time erodes away all#things. that's how life works. matter and energy transforms.#we arent made to last forever. i dunno. i guess im still just rattled from being home even tho ive been back a week and a half.#and my brain tends to fixate on the wrong things. nearly 27 years of knowing someone eclipsed by a visual sequence lasting less than a day.#bc i just cant get over how scary it would be to die like that. to start losing control of your body. to not be able to feed yourself or get#to the bathroom. to have your mind be overcome by the toxins building up in your mangled and broken body.#and it could have been worse. it could have been a lot worse. but its still not fair. theres no good way to die. i dunno. i guess i just#miss my mom in some abstract way but i find it more viscerally upsetting to think about the people that have to deal with her absence.#it makes me sad that my dad is alone now. i dunno. grief doesnt feel like i thought it would. most of the time i dont even know what im#crying about. its undirected. it doesnt feel like: i miss you. it feels like: youre gone. how can you be gone? why does everything feel the#same? and its not that it doesnt make sense. its that nothings changed. the terror of that.#and im walking around in an acumulation of my dead mother's clothes. and no one knows. theyll never know.#and there's nothing to be done about it. so it goes.#i guess im just sad. and its hard to breathe at the thought of returning to school at the end of August.#unrelated
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I think we should talk more about the mind-fuck that was the fullbringer arc and what that would’ve done to Ichigo’s mental state, especially in regard to potential trust issues + anxiety stemming from the fear that he can’t trust his own mind (because being the only person to remember something, even knowing why that’s the case, has to do a number on your self-confidence) + trauma expressed in nightmares and panic attacks when his memories aren’t lining up with someone else’s. like how would you fucking cope after something like that?
#king’s court#bleach#ichigo kurosaki#kurosaki ichigo#let’s be real there’s no way Ichigo walks away from canon without an eighteen wheeler full of trauma#but this one. this one in particular really fucks with me#I have never seen Ichigo so broken as he was in the moment he realized the last of his friends and family#had been turned against him#so utterly alone he doesn’t even have the will to fight anymore#because Ichigo fights for other people#he can and does enjoy a fight I firmly believe that#but his purpose is to PROTECT#take that away and he’s a shell of himself as we saw#and yet when we pick back up in TYBW the slate’s been wiped clean like it never even happened#of all the things that piss me off about the trajectory bleach took this has to be kubo’s most egregious sin in my eyes
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