#ana’s thoughts

[l0nelyish]

Yes. Because Nat would so be a sucker for R (always, anytime, but ESPECIALLY as mother of her kid/s). There, I said it. That woman has a soft spot and refuses to accept the divorce, i mean it def wasn’t her idea. Of course, she accepts your decisions. But accepting not having her beloved R as a finality? No.

“Please just tell me what I can do better. Because I wanna love you, y/n. I just have to know what you need. I will be happy to give it to you! please let me in…”

Poor woman is full on spiraling over losing R.

And the strategic side of her is working overdrive on how to make up whatever needs to be fixed (if it is doable ofc. I personally, rationally, draw the line at cheating.. but our Shayla would never do that, let’s be honest here guys. That woman is more loyal than for her own good.)

On one ‘make up’ date, Nat plans like four things at once and works on billion possible scenarios (infinity war flashbacks) just to do you good.

“I wasn’t sure which one you wanted to go to, so I got reservations at both places and we can take my motorcycle there, but we could also walk it’s up to you-“

Has R full on chuckling. No one can dismiss how cute she can be.

“Natasha it’s okay. Which one would you rather go to?”

It’s your reassurance, that everything is fine, that has her smiling. Def what always made her love you even more, what she needed and seeks from R.

“Okay… Then I would like to just head to the diner. It’s more relaxing.”

And it’s her honesty that gives you hope. Her way of saying ‘I am in this with you (and the kids)’.

Can you write headcannons about Nat x R where they got back together despite being divorced as they realized they still love each other? Thank you!

MY SHAYLA SORRY FOR NOT SEEING THIS | SFW

First of all, r is making it hard for Nat to take her back. R allowed Natasha for a second chance, that means more time spent with Natasha and the kids.

One time, when Nat is not asking or should I say begging for another chance yet, the babysitter which was Kate contacted Nat (she was Nat's spy, because she is a big shipper of r and Nat) that r is leaving and she's "fixing" herself up. Nat was confused since whenever you have something to do you would ask her to take the kids instead of having someone to babysit them. She immediately drove to your home, "Where is she?" Kate could only shake and point towards your room, the kids screamed in happiness when they saw Natasha but she just quickly kissed them both and immediately rushed to your room which was your shared room before. There, she saw you trying on some dress. She saw your bare back as you slip some dress on, you jumped when she stalked towards you and kneel. "Please don't go, please don't go on your date, baby, please." She was hugging your thighs, her head on your stomach as she cried like a kid, "Baby please, please. I can't see you seeing someone please. Give me another chance, please baby allow me to make it right, Y/N." You were crying now as well, trying to push her by her shoulders, "Nat, please stop." Only for her to tighten her hug on your thighs, she was burrying her forehead on your stomach as she sob. "No, no, no. I am not letting you go, I will not see you go away again this time. P-please...baby, once chance baby please?" Your make up was ruined, the tears are now unstopabble, "I really need to go, Nat. It's either you drive me to our company night or cry like a child here." It was a final decision of yours to go to the company party so you weren't able to contact Nat. You're not going on a date, she realized then she stood, fixed herself, wiped her swollen face messily. You giggled at the sight and did it yourself and kissed her cheek softly. It was something. She pulled you towards her and almost kissed you on your lips but you immediately stopped her, "No, touching, you haven't earned that yet. Zip my dress up and wait for me downstairs." You instructed her like a mother scolding it's child. Then you turned around and zipped you dress, she was fighting the urge not to kiss your shoulder but she listened like a good wife she is.

As for Nat making it up, she's always following your around and the kids carrying all your stuff and all the stuff kids bought on the mall. While you are hand in hand with the kids, but when you are now in the restaurant and you saw Natasha's tired look, you reward her with a kiss on a cheek and you would pay for the food.

She would always bring you flowers whenever she go to your home, a bouquet of flowers and 1 each for your kids.

Having Natasha back at home is like having 3 kids. One time you gave your second born a timeout for spilling your coffee not knowing that it was Natasha's fault for playing with her too much. She left your daughter on the crime scene. But Natasha admitted when she saw your kid, so both of them received a time out, Natasha sitting in front of the wall, pouting like a kid while you carry your second born, spoiling and apologizing to her. Natasha having to hear the kisses and smooches you give your daughter and her looking back with a frown, "Natalia! Additional 15 minutes!" She could only whimper and look back at her beautiful scenery of a white wall. "Dammit." She murmured under her breath, "Natalia Alianovna Romanoff, I heard that, additional 10 more minutes!"

You wouldn't let her touch you, you would be the one initiating the small touches not until you finally let her during your first date.

[halamet-chalamet]

I'm so glad you're back! Still waiting for the coroner!reader fic, that was a genius and original idea!

It absolutely was I actually just posted it! I’m happy to be back too it’s been much too long!!

[beatrixx1212]

i want to look how i look when i suck in

[cherry-blossom-t3a]

I’m not just doing this for me. I’m doing this for the little girl I was who thought she would have been skinnier by now.

[coffeeforanaliza]

DANCE ‘TIL YOU’RE DEAD

[n0va342]

You are going to be skinny, all you have to do is listen to ana, she will make u skinny, u just have to listen to her and not your cravings

[miyalife]

𐙚𝒯𝗵𝗶𝗻𝘀𝗽𝗼 !!

Snejana Onopka ࣪⭒.

[caloric-dysphoric]

i love being cold. even if it clearly doesnt mean im super small and frail it feels validating. like an empty stomach except i need a blanket.

[thereisnothinghereagain]

Where are all my adult anas?

It's a different world stepping into Eds shoes again half way through life.

I don't have to worry about my parents getting mad at me

I don't have to worry about my school teachers getting mad at me

I don't have the typical teenage drama that spurred this mentality shift

I remember Ed being a call a shout for help just to be seen and cared for as a teenager. But now no one sees me, I have no watchful eyes on me. No one whispering under their breath, no parents staring at me across the dinner table as I play with a half eaten plate, no boy trouble or pubescent drama fueled by hormonal rage and indifference. I'm not doing this to impress the boy I like or try to fit in with the popular kids.

I am invisible

Except from myself.

I'm in a strange state of visible translucency. I tell people I'm fasting and they believe me, I tell people I'm too tired to come meet them for dinner they believe me.

Fuck, even my live out partner whose been here for the last 3 days who I have said the words 4norexi4 to and who has watched me consume nothing but tea for 3 days doesn't question my choices.

How different a world it is when you're seen but not seen. I am validated but I remain a shadow.

[calsandmemes]

My brain is so dumb

[princesspiper505]

hunger hurts but starving works

(purging doesn't work half the time and apparently only gets rid of about 25% of the kcals so restricting works better for me)

[sophia-131989]

I'm so jealous of people my age who are naturally skinny. Everyone I know is smaller than me and they can eat whatever they want and don't have to worn about gaining and they don't dislike their bodies. Meanwhile I gain 5 pounds after smelling chocolate.

[halamet-chalamet]

I hate being sad.

I write like so much angst it feels like annnd I listen to sad music and I enjoy it but then I actually get sad and it’s like- 😐 not what Bestie signed up for. Anywhooo I’m rlly hoping to start writing again HAZAH! Happy holidays everyone!

[dioradd1ctbitch]

not eating anything when everyone around you is eating feels so empowering

[rexxsiren]

i feel hungrier when i’ve eaten than when i haven’t

[daughter-of-a-hungry-ghost]

If overthinking burned calories, I’d be at my goal weight by now.