#Vent but ok to RB

[peskypawz]

grief

[orange-orchard-system]

Talking about memory issues is so annoying 'cause like. You gotta make a joke out of it or people will make a joke out of you. Y'know? I've gotta make a joke about how my issues with remembering important or common information is because x or y or haha yeah I know I'm so stupid, because that's the only way to get ahead of the people who will inevitably use those same jokes to mock you. And I'm trying not to let my memory issues affect how I view my self-worth, and I try to go against the idea that intelligence (or lack thereof) is an indicator of anything deeper, and I know that having a hard time remembering details doesn't reflect on my morality at all, but... it's hard to keep at it when the world tells you otherwise. When school tells you memorization = smart = good, when people tell you not remembering things about them means you're rude and mean, when not remembering something or mixing up information in public or online spaces inevitably gets people laughing at you, and often used as an excuse for bigotry or just general asshole behavior of some kind or another against you.

It's so tiring.

[arlene-needs-a-break]

i hate how you ruined a perfectly good song, the ocean, late night talks, certain nicknames, names, etc.

you make me feel miserable. i cant bear the thought of you without getting physically sick to my stomach and extremely angry and homicidal.

fuck you.

[babyblue-bluebaby]

i never was

[darkemptyhearts]

i miss my old body

jan. 2022 - around 115lbs

i got too comfortable

[aller-geez]

Fall is almost here~

So, please enjoy some fall themed Remi snz ☺️

Remi might not like the wintertime much, especially now that they moved back to Alaska, but the crisp September air always just seems to recharge my boy mentally, even if he’s on a walk by himself while Levi works 🖤 (maybe he can sense that his creators birthday is next month? 😏)

Read more for vent, scroll if you don’t care 😂

Forever wishing I had cute snzblr friendships that I could partake in birthday activities like WAVs or fics or art for peoples birthdays but I always suck at replying and not gonna lie, 99% of the people I’ve replied to on snzblr trying to make friends with either 1. blocked /harassed me on anon with everyone else a month ago, 2. Only hit me up trying to snext but I’m married and just want friends to share my OCs with 😮‍💨😮‍💨 I never know if I’m trying to be friends with someone just for them to actually hate my guts and them be laughing at me with other users in another chat (‘:

There have been a handful of cool people that don’t fit into those categories, but I never know how to talk to people so it’s entirely on me … if you are one of those, I’m v sorry! I promise I don’t hate you 😭

[iveeaten3humanorganz]

Me: Wow! Im having so much fun!—

🧠: *INTRUSIVE THOUGHT THAT INVOLVES HARMING SOMEONE I LOVE*

Me: WHAT THE FUCK? *spends the rest hitting my head as punishment*

Me: okay… I feel better… I’m gonna go do *insert chore* now.

🧠: *INTRUSIVE DAYDREAM YOU CANT BREAK OUT OF NO MATTER WHAT YOU TRY. THIS TIME INVOLVING HARMING YOURSELF*

Me: OH MY FUCKING GOD.. that’s it— *Accidentally trips on something*

🧠: *TRIGGERS MY GERMAPHOBIA AND NOW I HAVE BECOME DELUSIONAL AGAIN AND BELIEVE THAT THIS IS PUNISHMENT FROM GOD?*

Me: *Sobbing and having a panic attack in the shower* what did I dooooo…. What did I do wrong god…? why does everyone hate me….

[themadcapmathematician]

Kind of sick of those "how to draw" guides for mobility aids people sometimes make and the aids depicted are always the sleekest, newest models in the best possible condition that perfectly fit the users needs like I get that abled people who don't know how to accurately draw a cane may not be ready for the reality that maybe half of all cripples are using second hand mobility aids that don't fit them, don't quite meet their needs ("guy who uses a walker but needs a wheelchair," etc) and probably desperately need parts replaced, but I don't know, something about seeing art of attractive people in Instagram worthy outfits using medical equipment that costs thousands of dollars that looks like they just fucking got it brand new makes me feel...something

[overclockedopossum]

I'm just going to start unfollowing people who post dogwhistles for "you are morally obligated to vote for the genocide guy".

I'm sick of being told having zero standards for anyone as long as they're DNC-endorsed is "playing the long game"

I'm sick being told a group that is actively making things worse (re: genocide, pied piper strategy among others) is an "imperfect ally".

I'm sick of lib-left misinformation and conspiracy theories about trump (immediately deciding project 2025 is his manifesto just because a right-wing think tank published it, the idea that he's anti-vaccine, the idea that he'll somehow further intensify the genocide in gaza).

I'm sick of feeling like when I point out that almost everything said about Trump is a half-truth that might be taken as an endorsement of him when there are a lot of very strong valid criticisms mostly being left on the table.

I'm sick of watching Liberals making arguments that I know actual Trump voters will be able to easily dismiss without one iota of doubt.

I'm sick of people who went back to brunch in 2021 telling other, frequently less able people that they have an obligation to physically protest alongside voting against their conscience.

I'm sick of the idea that failing to vote for Biden betrays "privilege" when most of the recent anger at Biden comes from marginalised groups, particularly USAmerican Muslims despite Trump's active hostility towards them.

But most of all I'm sick of the fact that the main case being made is a negative one.

I'm sick of people talking about Biden as if he's universally bad and Trump is just worse. And ok, maybe it's because saying "I can excuse genocide as long as there's student loan forgiveness" is too obviously morally bankrupt. But the reason we have Trump, the reason we already had a term of him, arguably the reason the supreme court is skewed right-wing, is the DNC "pied piper" strategy. It's because as far as the DNC is concerned, it's more important for the republicans to be bad than for them to be good.

Every post that says "you are morally obligated to vote for biden because of how bad trump is" actively reinforces that pied piper strategy.

Whenever people say "look, the DNC candidate is terrible but the other guy is even worse" they're saying that as long as the DNC can keep promoting right-wing extremists with carefully-crafted "attack" ads, they'll keep voting blue no matter who.

And I'm sick of that.

Every post about something genuinely good that Biden has done - not just an empty gesture or fiddling around the edges - is a drop in the ocean of "things should actually be made better".

Every post about how much worse Trump is, every roundabout analogy, every trolley problem that neglects to mention you'd be voting for a group that helps tie people to the track, and frankly every denial of the efficacy of single-issue voting - they're all drops in the ocean of "please keep doing brinksmanship, when is it my turn on the track".

I'm not telling anyone how to vote here, but I'll say this. If you are in the USA and in all senses are able to do so, you should vote for someone you think would be an actively good president. You should vote for representatives you think would be actively good representatives. And you should vote on ballot measures as well according to appropriate research on those, because they can be hugely important but hell if I know what's going on with them. But what you should absolutely not do is keep the door closed on third parties by voting for someone you think wouldn't be a good president, just because there are worse options.

And when people care strongly about issues that they're right to care about maybe your ire should be directed at the politicians who have let them down, rather than them for daring to be let down.

[theatrekidenergy]

4th full blown panic attack of the day, I am not a well man. Let’s hope today is better. :]

[nicepersondisorder]

one day i will stop wanting to kill myself after every little mistake but today is not that day

[vixen-angel]

i don't know why i even try to make people care about me. i know if they dont care, i should let them go. but if i let everyone who didnt care about me go, id have no one left.

[orange-orchard-system]

The next person who uses "neurodivergent" as a stand-in for "mentally disabled" or "mentally disordered" owes all non-disordered neurodivergents who don't consider their neurodivergency a disability twenty dollars

[arlene-needs-a-break]

i do things so that maybe someone will ask if im okay, yet they never do.

[trailmixtime]

genuinely infuriated how people can just call you at random with no warning. it takes mental energy to anticipate phone calls, and quite frankly, i am not going to dedicate that to my phone every day. moreover, some days, i am too tired to be speaking out loud to anyone, but if i have warning, i can prepare myself mentally.

just. why is it not considered proper etiquette to shoot someone a text or an email if you plan to call them? stop doing it out of the blue pity's sake. screaming.

[darkemptyhearts]

stayed under 800 cals today :-)