#There are small mercies in life
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Good thing that I am at a family party tonight, so I don't even have the chance of being tempted into watching this disaster of a club play.
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lol arthur realizes with the other knights after watching merlin flirt and being hit with a wave of deja vu: holy shit you asked me out
merlin and the rest of the knights around a campfire after leaving a village bc lancelot and leon somehow started a brawl in the tavern: ???
arthur points at merlin: after valiant! you asked me to buy you a drink! you were asking me out!
merlin is busy cooking dinner and confused out of his fucking mind: what???…..valiant….oh the knight with the snakes.
gwaine who was slightly tipsy now stone cold sober and sitting up straight against a tree: wait. explain. what do you mean merlin asked you out??
arthur snaps his fingers as he recalls the memory: i apologized for sacking you and you said that if i bought you a drink we’d be even.
merlin now remembering how he had stumbled into camelot, picked a fight with a pigheaded bully which quickly turned homoerotic and flirtatious, and continued their teasing-flirting for days before merlin shot his shot and asked the prince out only to be rejected: oh yeah, i forgot i did that…..wait, you mean you didnt realize what i was asking?
arthur: no?? we argued everyday, how was i supposed to realize you were asking me out??
merlin now abandoning the dinner and staring across the camp at arthur while the rest of the knights watch their back and forth like a game of tennis: to you we were arguing, to me that was very much flirting. i thought you were flirting back so i decided to ask you. then you rejected me
arthur, mentally beating his past self up for fucking up their chance: i didn’t reject you!!! i just didn’t realize what you were asking me. how was i meant to? we fought every chance we got
leon, nudging elyan, glee and excitement riling through him: its happening!!! its finally happening!!! seven long, grueling years is finally paying off!!!
merlin, realizing the misunderstanding and acknowledging the fact that he wasn’t rejected, his flirtations just weren’t noticed - realizing he still has a chance: oh…oh i see. arthur, my dear, our fights were extremely flirtatious. need i remind you of what you said? “do you know how to walk on your knees? would you like me to teach you?” or “i could take you apart with one blow”
arthur, mental capabilities at an all time low: m…my dear….?????????
merlin grinning devilishly as he realizes that his flirtatious persona he had hidden away after falling head over heels for arthur can make a come back: that is what i called you. should i call you something else? say…mine?
percival gags in elyan’s ear: cheesy
elyan hides a laugh: at least they’re finally getting somewhere. better than the hopeless pining
arthur, flushed from head to toe: ah uh no um im uh
merlin thoroughly enjoying himself: oh come now, your majesty. use your words.
#meanwhile leon is praying his thanks to every god and goddess above for their mercy#his pain and suffering is so over#merlin is going IN on arthur who is red as fuck#gwaine is enjoying himself immensely#lancelot pulls out popcorn to watch the two idiots finally get their acts together#flirty merlin x flustered arthur#i think yes#listen. merlin lived in ealdor. a small village of maybe thirty people - four or five being his own age#he was thrilled to be in camelot and have new faces and people to meet#he was definitely the village tease or flirt or whatever#he was gonna be a rake in camelot but unfortunately managed to fall hopelessly in love with the prince of camelot#he burned his dreams of being a rake in exchange for arthur#the issue? arthur rejected his advances. next issue? merlin’s feelings remained and grew#so merlin is a lovesick puppy for a prince who doesnt feel the same and he cant find it in himself to look at anyone else bar a few cases#he and lancelot def slept together at least once. him and gwaine tumbled into bed a few times together#but his heart always belonged to arthur he just never imagined hed get a chance to let his affection be known#now that he knows arthur never knew of his intentions in the first place and was quick to deny he rejected him#merlin is more than happy to let that part of his personality come back and terrorize arthur is a way he hadnt been able to before#hes living his best life rn#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#merthur#knights of the round table#fanfiction ideas#prompts#headcanon
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Can’t believe that in 21 hrs, we’re either gonna have an MCU Wiccan backstory episode complete with WandaVision tie-ins and canon Wiccling content, or an Agatha Harkness NSFW scene of lesbian sex with Rio Vidal (AKA Lady Death, AKA mf-ing Aubrey Plaza).
TODAY I’m either gonna learn how Agatha cries getting naked cuddled by her GIRLFRIEND, or how Billy Maximoff boy king came back to life and got a boyfriend.
What kind of World do we— WHAT kind of WORLD 😭🥹
#jac schaeffer#love of my life#we never lose#the way I’ve literally waited YEARS#cannot understate how amazing it is that Agatha’s gonna be officially cemented in the Marvel Pride lineup THIS MONTH after 50 yrs of comics😭#small tender mercies#art#representation matters#agatha all along spoilers#agatha all along#teen agatha all along#billy maximoff#billy kaplan#wiccling#young avengers#agathario#agatha x rio#rio x agatha#lgbtqia#aubrey plaza#kathryn hahn#joe locke#julian hilliard#scarlet witch#wanda maximoff#elizabeth olsen#wiccan x hulkling#Hulkling x Wiccan#Hulkling#teddy altman
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The first clear thought Zuko has after his father burns his face is that he has no idea where he is.
He sits up. His head is still groggy, but at least he can think straight. He's not delirious from the pain anymore. He lightly touches his face where his father burned him and finds that it's swathed in bandages. His hair has been shorn- probably to treat the burn. He's not in the medical wing of the Caldera, or in his room. He has no idea where he is. It looks like a room one would find in a fine manor, but it's not the palace. There's no windows for him to look out of.
He gets out of the bed, and walks towards the door. He half expects it to be locked, but it opens without a problem. It leads into a long hallway- one that is also unfamiliar. Zuko frowns. Did father have him taken somewhere else for treatment? He doesn't remember anything, but he knows some time must have passed- he's just not sure how much.
He doesn't know what else to do, so he heads down the hallway.
It's strange. There's no windows. No other doors. No sign of anyone. Just when he's starting to get an uneasy feeling in the pit of his stomach, he sees the end of the hall. There's a great door before him, etched with designs of the moon and the sun- the ocean and the earth, and the four winds that blow across the world. He suddenly feels like he shouldn't be here.
The door opens at the slightest touch.
Zuko suddenly realizes he's in the company of spirits.
The door shuts behind him.
Agni- he is sure that it is Agni- is the one who speaks to him first. He tells him that the Avatar has disappeared- leaving the world without a bridge between the two worlds. Zuko frowns at his choice of words. Disappeared? Not killed? Zuko's stomach twists as he thinks of his friend Aang. Has father already raided the air temples? Has the comet come and gone?
...is his friend alive or dead?
The spirits won't give him an answer. They say they've brought him before them for a reason. They've chosen him to fill the Avatar's duty while they are gone- not their worldly duty, to mortal men. But their duty to the spirits- the bridge between worlds. In order to resolve this, they have chosen another human to fill that role.
They've chosen Zuko.
He doesn't understand. Why him?
But they don't give him an answer. They have given him a gift, they say- a blessing. He does not have the power of the Avatar- and they cannot give him that. But they can give him an undying body and an unchanging face. Zuko doesn't understand what they mean at first.
He will eventually.
He cannot die. He cannot age. Time passes and he will not change. The rest of the world will move on without him- until the day the Avatar returns, and they release him from his service. He is bound to the spirits- what they ask of him, he must fulfill- no matter what it is.
He cannot refuse. The spirits have chosen.
#spirit bridge zuko au#they give him the small mercy of waiting to bestow their gift#so that he does not have to live the rest of his unending life with a burn that was freshly made. bleeding and raw#(it's not a gift. it's a curse)
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Can you talk about trans!Curly a little bit more? I'm curios if you have any headcanons and the like
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It's just such a thing in my mind because it adds a truthful sadness and differing aspect to mouthwashing.
If Curly was trans it adds the horror of the horribly selfish thought he could have easily been in Anya's situation. It could've been him but it wasn't and he so conflicted on the pit it put in his stomach that brings and the shameful relief it wasn't. In this scenario he is friends with Jimmy for a long time still. Jimmy likely knew him pretransition. Maybe he gave Curly weird looks then, maybe they never stopped after, maybe they seemed meaner. They are guys now, bros, both of them are. He doesn't really have to worry what those looks mean anymore, Jimmy just has that face with him sometimes. It's recontextualizing a lot of things for him that he was in denial about or too ashamed to admit. How naive he was being and how he let that get another person hurt.
Specifically with Anya, it's he knows the dread and fear she's feeling. He can understand it because he had to live with it for a good portion of his life, he knows it cause he still does, just in a slightly different way. It makes him think of all the times he's been alone with Jimmy, all the times he's been way more drunk off his ass and not remember the night, Jimmy was always with him the next day. Makes him think of the comments he would laugh off both because that's what guys do but because that part of being a girl says to laugh so Jimmy doesn't do something. It's the selfish realization that he was never safe and he's uncertain now too. Mad at himself for forgeting that feeling, espcially since for a long time he would've been considered the only woman on a crew (with all that implies) for a long time.
He should've taken those blinders off, step back into that position for just a moment and it's so much more painful that Anya likely came to him because he should've gotten it. Those thoughts don't leave his mind after the crash when he's in an even more vulnerable position than she was...
#this is less headcanons and more my thoughts of the intersectional horror this brings to mouthwashing which is also a thing it#already has but more directly in the mix vs just the class gender and positional struggle. like the idea he waited to confront Jimmy becaus#he could conceptualize the crime better because of experience with womanhood and also how it would've destroyed him in terms of being trans#like its weird to word as a comparison but thats kinda how empathy works as in an understanding and ability to project through aspects#like you found out your friend who has always had weird feelings about and relating to you is a rapist and got one of your other friend#pregnant and is now being openly hostile and aggressive towards you. You have only a few days to really think on all of this all the years#with him and how many oppurtunites he had that you blame yourself for giving him both in life and to do to you. You are starting to#realize that he may have done what he did to Anya because it was no longer viable with him or because of weird transphobia/homophobia#from Jimmy and god its so much and he should've know better and what did Jimmy do then - c r a s h#he is at such a small amount of mercy to Jimmy now and he can't protect Anya and it's terrifying because i know and you know that Jimmy is#giving him those weird looks again...#like it adds another layer of horror to things and while I don't think Jimmy would do anything to Curly it's heavily implied he targeted he#because of relatively more important position and getting Curly to have doubts about him as a power play and Curly knows Jimmy well enough#that him immediately exerting his authority and power would set him off after already having been mad about it and even when doing#damage control it still set him off. like its the horror of accidenlty siding with your oppresser and hurting other like you only to then b#stabbed in the back again by the person who took advantage of your nature like its so complext but my actual trans curly headcanons#are just a little bit happier like i imagine he was the first on the boys soccer team and a star player. maybe he and jimmy even picked ou#his first offical “boy” clothes and Jimmy picked most so he looked like the grungiest white boy but she was a boy so it didn't matter cause#it was with his friend who accepted him and I bet on the bed he looks back at all those moments and notices the little details that his#friend wasnt actually so happy but he can't be certain when he started looking so bitter or hes just imagining out of paranoia cause he jus#cant know and even if he could he wouldn't want to ask like god thinking about Anya and probably being a little glad if not heartbroken#that she did get out of it in the end like trans curly and anya destroy me even more its so upsetting like he didn't realize how much he go#you girl and waited to act like it was cowardice but then would she not realize what hes realizing? should that be a grace or more of a#condemnation in her mind like what are her thoughts? espically during the scene Jimmy hits Curly like she had to hear and what did she thin#they are tormented in a similar hells with the same demon and its fascinating#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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The first two drawings are the nicest. They stay up here (but also because Jesus this takes Space)
Aggressively points at the entire Shallow Bed album
GODDD IM HAVING SUCH. BRAINWORMS WITH LIKE 5 SONGS INCLUDINF HISTORY BOOK IN REGARDS TO TRIGUN ITS INSANE
BIBLE BELT? WOLFWOOD. UUAHHHGGHGGH
#trimax#trigun#trigun maximum spoilers#i guess?#vash stampede#nicolas d wolfwood#meryl stryfe#milly thompson#it’s just. god. aughfnff#bystander eternal witness to history and future#burden no one has ever carried all placed upon shoulders that even atlas would envy#plentiful of mercy of patience of love#migratory bird to return once the season is right#IDK MANNNNN. I HOPE HE GETS TO REST. I HOPE HE LIVES OUT THAT QUITE PEACEFUL LIFE#ALONGSIDE HIS SISTERS OLD AND NEW#ALONGSIDE FRIENDS OLD AND NEW#MAKING MEMORIES AND REMEMBERING MEMORIES#AND HE GETS TO FUCKINNGGGG REST#small mercies to be able to love all of them again#(the three small figures is Rem Tesla and Knives. in that order. beeteedubs)#checkadii
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#adamandi#ambrose wellington bassford#infer as you will i suppose. wanted to draw a statue ambrose but accidentally painted it because smth smth blending fits him#again. main things taken from lyrics of the actual show ++ this definition i checked with google because i didn't remember it off the top#of my head. but Thoughts indeed#sfgdhhdf ok hello i am back today has been a Day (not very good) (oh well) (small mercies) ...#did not expect the melliot to find this so quickly but since i guess the Official Tumblr has reblogged it i'll just edit this one.#as opposed to reuploading. o//o#i painted it at 2am on impulse and have very little recollection of the whole event -? and then in a fit of pique added words and posted it#it is Very different from the original draft. i'd like to maybe do that one justice someday... anyways something something sometimes#a piece of art you make organically Evolves of its own volition... anyways.#maybe i'm projecting but recently (tuesday?) i found out something Important i had in the works Collapsed in the kiln#kaboom. ah the perils of ceramics. anyway thanks to the messed up 3d of everything i'm working on rn (the pros and cons of visual art subj#is that you get to make art for a grade) and. ceramics and sculpture and classics etcetera. <blinks> wow i really latched on to art aspects.#but nevertheless! ambrose brainrot real. iirc my thoughts were smth like. most strongly. that contrapposto? based on my school art history#was that it evolved from the very neutral rigid ancient greek sculptures of people which were all about Mathematical Symmetry. because#the main thing about contrapposto was that it reflected irl people more... more life-like? so it's very ironic to me#that Alive ambrose went and tried to turn himself into a statue. with part of the draw being contrapposto.. like?????#ah yes you like this sculpture because it's lifelike. and you'd rather be a sculpture than alive huh. the contrasts are !! in my head#also maybe i just.. wanted to paint... idk i had ambrose on the brain yesterday and it was something about sculptural messed up perfection#fun fact!!! the skin and hair i all greyed out to look like marble. fun fact number two: he has no eyes in this. like no pupils :3#fun fact number 3 (irrelevant) marble statues are only common wrt ancient greece bc the romans iirc came along and repurposed the bronzes.#because apparently bronze was a Hot Commodity at the time. and in return to preserve the art they made marble replicas. so most marble#ancient greek statues are apparently copies and the originals had totally different aesthetics#fun fact number 4: the background is a very greyed out image of my broken ceramics.. i wanted something nice to come out of it at least#fun fact number 5: i wanted to make him crack. like shattered ceramic or smth. that was the original idea. but instead it went to the pretty#sculpture route... kinda wanna make the messed up one though!!#fun fact number 6! because of Art Studio i'm covered in white paint and like it doesn't come off so it's been on my fingers and arms and#basically everywhere. so flesh turning into white stuff aes is fascinating i wanna explore... fun fact no.7.. i have accidentally maybe#began using screenshots as drawing practice. idk what to do with this info. if anything nice turns up ig i'll post it maybe
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"I want to cry for help, but I don't know how. I'm desperate, and I cling to a bit of hope that my pitiful attempts at attention will make you love me."
Ghost, to Soap, at some point, probably in a timeline where Ghost's feelings aren't reciprocated
#*proceeds to project directly onto this poor fuck*#the evil whispers in your brain telling you that you're just annoying and they don't love you#that they never will because you’re not lovable#you're so desperate to be loved yet so terrified of being perceived#you have never been properly shown love your entire life and so you don't know how to identify when someone does#you feel so small and pathetic in this world that you cannot conceptualize that someone actually loves you#so you're begging in secrecy that this one person will take mercy on you#soapghost
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Im actually listening to new magpod statements in 2024, what a life! What a world!
#shut up kayla#small mercies in this wretched life#magpod#tmagp#the magnus protocol#the magnus archives
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binbin's last sacrifice.
i think this series showed us, intentionally or not, how powerful love can be.
we see binbin as a child, sacrificing meals for si-o, taking care of him, giving him hope for a future.
after years spent away from ryu si-o — years filled with punishment, tests, and manipulation under pavel's hand — he returns with one mission: his first mission. Ryu si-o.
Kill Anton, or you will be killed.
and ryu si-o smiles, happy to meet his one and only friend, and says once, quietly: don't betray me. let me die with atleast you having been on my side.
and binbin, even under threat of death, and knowing that there is no other outcome for ryu si-o, still decides to give his best friend control over his own death.
binbin's final sacrifice.
#tsar bomba#it's very 'the winter soldier' coded#marvel#ryu si-o was not pavel's in the end.#after a life of seeking freedom and autonomy – this was a small mercy#strong girl nam soon#ryu sio#byeon woo seok#binbin
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Here is the first post of most of the cosplays/ costumes I have done in the past! This is a long post, so I apologize, but I atleast wanted them all on here! 🖤
#cosplayer#small artist#throwback thursday#cosplay life#cosplay lineup#my cosplays#my cosplay journey#amateur cosplayer#beginner artist#beginner cosplayer#15 years of cosplaying#back when glomping and yaoi paddles existed#and you Lost The Game every 30 minutes#homestuck clogged the hallways#and kirito and asuna couples were everywhere#bleach cosplay#maleficent#juvia lockser#fairy tail#ichigo kurosaki#nelliel tu odelschwanck#ryou bakura#yami bakura#cosplay#yugioh#lady loki#loki laufeydottir#firebenders#mercy overwatch#mangle fnaf
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it's so mean of the universe when you come out as trans to your family and then a few weeks later you pick up a show after having taken a break and one of the characters in the arc you're starting has the same name that you're trying out and it's so mean of the universe to do this to me what did i do why would you do this to me....
#he has kinda ruined the name for me ngl#like.. am i gonna continue thinking of him everytime someone calls me that. like . is this my life now.#i aint changing it or anything tho. at least there is a one letter difference 😔 small mercies#me not knowing what name i want so mom suggests a family name: ok cool epic#me-blissfully unaware-watching an episode of one piece: ok cool epic no wait what no nonoo what did you say no thats so fucked up thats not#dizzyoriginals#transgender#one piece#i mean i thought one piece would ruin my life but that was in a fixation taking over kinda way not in a character has this name im trying#and now i think of him everytime someone refers to me using it and i see his stupid face in my mind and i think he might haunt me forever
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Replayed Modern Warfare 3 2011 on Veteran tonight and goooooooood night. Blood Brothers never gets any easier to watch no matter how many times you've done it and the ending really never misses huh
I apologize for the amount of yapping in the tags I reread it all on mobile and started giggling because it went on for so long but eh. Blessed are those who won't shut the freak up and all that
#call of duty#modern warfare 3 2011#i just. wow. wow wow wow wow wow#i've played these three games so many times over the last several years and i just.#they literally. never get old.#loose ends and blood brothers will never not make me cry and endgame and dust to dust will never not make me smile so hard#ending it with price smoking the cigar like he did in the first mission in the first game wHEN HE FIRST MET SOAP JUST UGHHHHHH.#i know y'all don't care but i don't care that y'all don't care i could literally yap about this until i shrivel up and die#i have never ever ever in my LIFE seen poetic justice played out so beautifully like it is at the very end#JUST. WOW. WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW. WOW WOW. WOW#they do not frickin make games like that anymore DADGUM#i also forgot how frickin sad down the rabbit hole is?? like jeez louise they didn't have much screen time but gosh#i also have never in my life heard such gut-wrenching anguish from a grown man in my life like price in that one scene#I KNOW Y'ALL KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT THAT MAN MAKES ME FULL ON S O B IN THAT PART HE HAD NO BUSINESS#anyway i'll keep cutely living in denial and pretending literally any of the main characters besides price and nikolai are fine <3#foley and dunn and their team seemed just fine at the end of modern warfare 2 so i will accept that small mercy#at this point these games have taken everything else i love away from me so#y'all probably think i'm wild for how insane i get over these games but the nostalgia bit is a big part of it as well#like they're honestly in my opinion genuinely the greatest video games of all time#but the fact that i have that connection with my dad makes it so special#crazy cause he said he also cried in blood brothers and my dad is 54 and i have seen him cry one (1) other time in my entire life#heck infinity ward but also bless them i hope the devs live long beautiful wonderful prosperous delightful exciting fulfilling lives#Lord bless them and their entire bloodline for the contributions they have made to humanity not even joking#AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE FREAKING SOUNDTRACKS DO NOT GO THERE OAUSYDJAKAKDN#MW2 AND MW3 CREDITS. EXTRACTION POINT. COUP DE GRACE. RETREAT AND REVEILLE. CONTINGENCY. PARIS SIEGE. PRAGUE HOSTILITIES. RUSSIAN WARFARE.#UGHHHHHHHGHHHH everything about these games is so unbelievably perfect and immaculate#i have got to get over my art block NOWWWWWWWWWW#makarov is also the best villain i've ever seen idc bro he's frickin awesome#i mean obviously he's horrible and a disgustingly evil human being but as a character he's stupidly well-written
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God I FUCKING love my job. I was made for management lasfkdj
#daily life with mercy#I'm the office manager for a small company#I handle scheduling and I... I think I'm HR too??#Anyway I'm working like 60+ hours a week but it's work from home#and I get to make sure our girls are taken care of#Oh you need time off to take care of you kid? Gurl you're a contractor. You don't ask me for permission.#You INFORM me you will be unavailable#this is the freedom you get as an apology for us not being able to afford benefits asldfkj
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i need to find actual stim toys i stapled my fucking finger
#shit fucking hurts even though it's small#it went all the way in small mercies that it didn't bend and i was able to pull it out pretty easy#i'm going to lose it if i get an infection though fuck my life
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Apologies for the bummer, too personal post, but just because I need to vent (if that's even the right word here) -
What is it about the death of immediate family members that feels so unreal? My stepfather died unexpectedly this weekend, and even though I have fully internalised that on an intellectual level, on an emotional level it hasn't hit me at all yet. Same happened when my grandma died, it felt like it took my heart months to actually catch up to what happened.
#admittedly i was very close to my grandma for most of my life#while my feelings towards my stepfather have been quite negative ever since I entered my teens#so i'm not even sure if there will ever be that sense of feelings catching up in this case#but there's still something unreal/unbalancing about someone who has been a presence in your life for most of it just not existing anymore#the only thing that does feel real is the effect his death has had on my sister and especially my mum#who now has to deal with the horrible yet banal bureaucratic practicalities that come with sorting out someone's death#since i live in a different country than my family the only horrible practicality that hit me so far is the unexpected cost of#buying plane tickets in the middle of summer#which is such a trivial unimportant thing in the grand scale of things but also not something that i can just not worry about at all#thankfully it's just a matter of me being a bit more mindful of my spending over the next month or so#and not a full-on 'i'll need to skip meals' type of situation#thank god for small mercies#personal#death#sorry for the ramble#just needed to get this off my chest#also apologies in advance if you'll see even more vampire posting/reblogging from me over the next few days#i wasn't kidding when i said iwtv is helping to keep me sane
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