#My adhd is fighting so hard

[galadrail]

Okay but why the fuck did rick riordan wrote so much books like yeah it's good but man stop, take some rest it's okay I swear

[alchemiclee]

😺🐧🐱snuggly siblings~⭐️✨️

[writingtraumaforever]

The word count for this chapter is oVER 9000–!!

[kiwibirb1]

A thing I've noticed about my media consumption habits is that I kinda go through phases of either reading a lot or playing games a lot. Like when I'm in a "reading phase" I still play games but just less, and vise versa. But, when I'm in a "gaming phase" most of the stuff I tend to read is stuff like comics. So I think it's more words vs graphics? Anyway ADHD says it's time for a "gaming phase" so who knows maybe Calamity in Hyrule will get picked up again because I started playing Ocarina of Time again!

[bluestjayy]

Maybe I'm just cursed 🤪

[eddiethehunted]

falling into old Very Bad Habits sucks so bad bc i know im doing it but my brain will not allow me to fix this

[an-attempted-poet]

hello this is a rant/vent abt my final, you can ignore it

okay. my spanish teacher is amazing, she’s great at her job and is super good abt my accommodations-she’s fantastic. absolutely no hate to her whatsoever.

but. i have auditory processing issues. and they’re bad. bad to the point that on average if im not looking at you and face to face, i will not understand what you’re saying to me. bad to the point that my friends are so used to having to repeat things that sometimes they just say it twice without me having to ask. bad to the point that (and this is important) i cant listen to podcasts or anything like that (not music) without a transcript because i will hear it, yeah i can hear it, but fuck if i know what its saying.

so. please. for fucks sake. don’t give me a 6 minute long listening exercise that you can only listen to once followed by 15 questions.

that would be hard in english, but it was damn near impossible for me to do in spanish.

and i asked for a transcript, not from my teacher but from the guy who was monitoring my test (i take them in different classes) because i was not told in advance that i would be given this part of the test. and if i had known i would have asked a week ago.

and he said he didn’t want to call and ask bc it would be disruptive. yes i agree with that and im sorry but also, i need my accommodations. i dont just have them for fun. so we can find a non disruptive way to call the class, but i need to know if i can have that transcript, and guess what?

i can’t. bc it doesn’t exist.

so i’m like. hm, 80? 90% sure i failed that part.

*please note i take my spanish final in a different classroom bc i use papers and other things and it’s so the rest of the class doesn’t get weird abt it and ask why i get it and they don’t (happens a shockingly large amount of times)

[notdeezy]

I am not getting emotional over our immune system.

I am not getting emotional over our immune system.

I am not getting emotional over our immune system.

I am not getting emotional over our immune system.

DAMMIT im emotional over our immune system :'(

[ghostzzy]

anyway it kinda sorta feels like my life is just now starting.

[bruh-anator3000]

Me on 15 mg Adderall: this isnt working, im doing the same shit still, the voices are still loud and proud.

Doc: okay, i don't wanna fill out extra paper work to split the meds, we'll give you 30, its common dw

Me, on 30: cant... stop... shaking

[void-tiger]

Right. I need a nap. I’m feeling resentment about friends getting to do Cool Things again. And I’m old enough to know I’d feel less jealous about it with my leaky batteries recharged a bit.

(it’s not their fault I live far away, and have disabilities affecting getting to do Neat Things On My Own at least.)

[dogtiber]

Tiber had some really nice dog interactions this morning!

we met another whippet and I let him off lead in the public park for the first time!

Tiber was going absolutely berserk about having a friendly sighthound running circles around him and play bowing. I didn’t have his harness on him this morning, only his collar, and I couldn’t get him to calm down all the way and was worried he’d choke himself. he’s been getting to a good place with his recall lately and we’ve been discussing trying him off lead in the smaller quieter park anyway, and the other whippet seemed really well trained and responsive to her owner so I figured if I let him off he’d want to stick close to play with her.

he did really well! got some nice zoomies out and was really good about coming back to me. I usually ask him to tap his nose on my hand for recall and he was a little too distracted to follow through completely with that, but he was very very good about running by me to check in and reorienting towards me when called. I think we have a little more work to do, but I’m very proud of him!

I kept it short and got him back on leash once they were done running their circles.

a little later on our walk we ran into a very old lurcher. they both wanted to greet each other very badly, and Tiber was being very polite about it, so I walked him over. she was 14! he was very gentle with her, but was also play bouncing a lot lol just giving her some extra space when he did so. she bounced around back at him a little, but I think she was too old and wobbly to really go for it. but it was very cute watching them bounce at each other. her owners were very sweet and we chatted a bit and that was very nice.

and then we had a nice passing by greeting with a little daschund on the way home. as always with daschunds he was entirely enamored with her. they had a little cute happy sniff session.

those were the big exciting ones today, but he’s been doing better about dogs on our walks in general lately too! I’m very proud of him. I am thinking tho that I want to try to find some more opportunities to give him outlets for his dog friend excitement.

the other day, he was very good about waiting for the ok to go greet a little terrier-thing while we asked his owner if they could say hi. and he was being so self-disciplined but ALSO soooo excited. he literally plonked his ass down and just sat there vibrating in place until he could go up.

it was very funny and cute to witness and he’s being so good and trying so hard. but I’m worried he’s getting amped up too much trying to hold back and worried about him going over threshold? Idk I gotta see if I can find any info on excited reactivity I guess.

here he is passed out on the couch after exciting walk^^

[chalkeater]

not wanting to switch bc i like my discord icon too much. smh 😔

[brianamorganbooks]

ADHD is ruining my life and I don't know what to do

[emergent-neurodivergent]

A coworker and I were just talking about mental and spiritual challenges, and she patted my shoulder very gently and said in a kindly manner, "You know, I look at you and I really have to hand it to you for showing up every day!" and now I'm not sure whether I should be glad, mad, sad, or scared. Am I that much or that blatantly impaired?

[genderfluid-druid]

dissociating at the gym is a great way to cope when you have a lot of nervous energy and/or emotions to process, but watch out bc sometimes the processing you need to do is cry