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My favorite 92sies things 2: Electric Boogaloo
Part 1
Same T/W: violence, cursing, etc
Sarah stop hiding behind that curtain it's see through and also ur gay
Jack fighting the socks
"I'm just not used to whether I stay or whether I go matter to nobody." He says, with an army of children marching at his heels because he wanted to start a strike
"Got no legal cause" "Legal cause!" *point*
"The a l i a s o f J a a c k K e l l l y"
Pulitzer totally not blackmailing the mayor into doing what he wants
Flapflapflapflapflap
CCKCK Hurst
Spot being a hype man for no reason
"My pAl David"
"Whatarewespostadotothabumskissem"
"They're gonna be playin' with my hands alright"
"Nobodyain'tgonlistentousunlesswemakem!"
"TELLEM JACK!"
"I say that what you say is what I say"
Blink hanging off the balcony like a heathen
"Hello newsies! What's new!" *assorted simp noises*
HIGH TIMES HARD TIMES IDK HOW PEOPLE DON'T LOVE THIS SONG IT'S A FUCKING BANGER
Every single newsie sticking their chest out when they sing 'and I stick out my chest!'
Blink and Racer dancing with Medda
Jack dancing with Medda
Snitch's continuity errors
"That's Snider, as in 'snide'? Smile sir"
*Pulls Jack in by his jacket* IT'S SNYDER
"HE'S JUST A CHILD CAN'T YOU SEE THAT RACET R A C K"
David picking up the swing and then several newsies coming up to protect him bc they think of him as a friend now
"JACK you alright?!"
ALL OF THEM PROTECTING JACK WITH EVERYTHING THEY HAVE BC THEY KNOW THAT IF HE'S ARRESTED THE STRIKE COULD VERY WELL END BC THEY AREN'T SURE PEOPLE WILL CONTINUE WITHOUT HIM
KID BLINK TACKLING A FUCKING COP
ACAB BABYYY
Davey fighting to try and help Jack
"On the grounds of Brooklyn, your Honor."
Everyone dying laughing at that
Racer's 'old man trying to read a fast food menu look'
"We ain't got five bucks We don't even got five cents"
"How bout I roll ya for it? Double or nothin'?"
Dying laughing again
"HEY COWBOY NICE SHINA" ckckckckcckl
David's look when Denton tells Jack that the papers didn't print the story
David's utter disappointment when he finds out the truth about Jack and his family
"Remember Snyder? Remember me and Teddy Roosevelt and the carriage? Remember Roosevelt and the carriage?!"
"So ordered" "NO"
"Whaddya mean it never happened you were there?!"
Denton looking crushed when David finds out he's being transferred
Les stuffing his face, not giving a single fuck about what Denton is talking about. This kid has 0 chill and I love him
David crumbling the story before Denton's even gone
Les: *sees David throw a paper on the table* Les: Perfect I needed something to wrap my mf sandwich in
No one noticing the very visible David riding on the back of the carriage
"Sometimes I read 'em"
"I tell this city how to vote" *thinks to livesies 'And guess what he got elected.'* U sure bout that buddy?
Poke Pokepokepoke
"I must have you scared pretty bad old man."
The guy who gets thrown from the carriage
The very intimate moment they have when Jack presses David against the wall
"You don't know nothin' about jail"
"Guess what I done to his sauerkraut"
Stop the World! No more papes!
That redhead who I always think of as Albert
"Hey-heyhey Race C'mere Tell me I'm just seein' things Just tell me I'm seein' things-"
Every. Single. Reaction. To. Jack. Scabbing.
Blink's anger. Mush's desperation. Race's indignation.
SPOT'S ANGER. HAVING TO LITERALLY BE PULLED AWAY BECAUSE HE PUT HIMSELF AND HIS BOYS ON THE LINE FOR HIM AND HE FUCKING SCABBED.
"YOU'RE A LIAR." and the entire following statement
David Moscow's curls He's such a cutie
"WE DON'T NEED YOU"
DAVID ALMOST GETTING VIOLENT FOR THE FIRST TIME, BUT IT'S ONLY AFTER HE LOOKS AT THE OTHERS. HE'S TRYING TO GET VIOLENT ON THEIR BEHALF. BECAUSE THEY CAN'T DO IT THEMSELVES. IT'S TERRIFYING AND I LOVE IT
"Seize the day huh Jack?!" "He's foolin' em!" the desperation in Les's voice to believe this breaks my heart every time 😭
David: *climbs through window* David: *slams it closed* David: *walks in front of open window*
YOU'RE GAY AND DRAMATIC WE GET IT DAVID
"Are you gonna be requiring anything else this evening? No? Ah... tsk tsk."
"We're gonna go fix your pal Davey Fix him so he can't walk" *Morris disappointed head shakes* "Shut up"
Les swordfighting behind Sarah without a care in the world
Les taking roughly eight years to realize what's happening with Sarah
SARAH PUNCHING MORRIS
David throwing his hat off before trying to beat up the Delanceys
Morris's dumb little laugh😭
"Remember Crutchy?" *bonk*
"I can't be somethin' I ain't" "A scab?" "No, smart"
At least he knows
"I don't write anything I don't mean."
"But our man Denton-" "But I think our man Denton. Has something more important to do. I mean, he's gonna be an ace war correspondent. Right Denton?"
THE SASS
I LOVE DAVID JACOBS
WHOEVER DECIDED TO LEAVE LES ALONE WITH THE CAMERA WITHOUT SUPERVISION
Denton teaching David how to typeset
Once and For All
The entire thing
Can anyone explain to me how the printing press works?
Mush coming to the window twice. My mans is dedicated.
"Awfully nice of Mr. Pulitzer to let us use his press"
Boots throwing the papers from the roof into a square with like four kids
THERE'S MY LIL RAT BOY AGAIN HIIIII
"Hey kid. Can you read?"
The newsies (Skittery, Pie Eater, and someone else) taking their hats off when a lady opens the door
DIS-GRACE-FUL DENTY (read: Roosevelt and Denton have absolutely.... *clears throat* and that's his nickname for him)
"C'mon Jack" "Have hope Jack"
"When the circulation bell starts ringin', will we hear it?" "Nah"
Max Casella
Pap (this time with hat)
"B R O O K L Y N"
We aynt slavs
Not-Albert standing on the statue
Jack carrying Les on his shoulders
Bumlets carrying Boots on theirs
"It's like the end of the world- OhdearIdidn'tsaythat"
"Extrey extrey Joe Read all about it"
"Whatdoesthatmakeyou?"
"The walkin mouth" David: 😒
*Jack opens windows* Pulitzer: lalalalalalalala I can't hear you
DAVID MOSCOW'S EYES
"Well, we only used the best, Joe."
"We beat 'em" "We beat 'em!!"
Gio and Skittery spit-shaking
Skittery: Hiya Weas 😜
The newsies death glaring Denton when he tries to stop them from hiding Jack
"Make friends with the rats Share whatcha got in common" ^^
WHY DOES ROOSEVELT LOOK LIKE AN ANIMATRONIC?!
Race looks like he calls Roosevelt daddy and I can't stop seeing it someone help
Everyone pretending to be okay with Jack leaving, further proving that the newsies are not okay emotionally
The Jacobs crying
Blush leaning against the streetlight together
Them using the same sound byte of the little redhead from the beginning while David is buying his papes
"Attaboy Davey"
Jack's return
"HE'S BACK!"
Jack putting his hat on Les
"How's the headline today?" "Headlines don't sell papes, newsies sell papes"
David's first spit-shake
Our little boy is all grown up
#the group hug#“GO BACK TO BROOKLYN”#Gio going to click his heels and then falling#A true Jeremy Jordan predecessor#newsies#92sies#I was so close to fitting everything#my favorite things about newsies#my favorite 92sies things
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The gender thing ever <3 she has so many complexes
#hoof draws#hoofology#idk. self indulgent again#this one's close to heart tho#abt the whole thing of like. not knowing how others perceive you vs how you actually are#i have so many thoughts abt baby ginger <3 she's everything to me#Ginger....#more abt. being half sheep & half cow means she doesn't really fit in anywhere
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Bingqiu ponies (Happy Birthday @Piosplayhouse!)
#poorly drawn svsss#svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#equineswap au#They live in the same universe: I'm making it canon right now#I do think there are probably better horse breeds to assign these two#but as far as my little PD-SVSSS guys go - I think these fit alright.#Arabian for the gracefulness and elegance. Beautiful horse (all horses are beautiful so its a close race)#(and the missing rib. Cause....you know....)#Didn't quite get the head shape right but there is always next time.#Shetland binghe for the handsome little guy energy. I personally think a non silly little guy LBH would be a shire horse.#This is 100% an open invitation to debate and discuss in the comments and tags btw. I am no expert on SV or horses.#Also HI PIO! If you're reading this I just want to say thank you a million times over for everything.#You've been so kind and supportive and I think you are a brilliant and hilarious person. The tides of the yaoi wars turned when you enliste#I hope this next year for you brings wonderful things. You're a brilliant force in this world and we all are drawn to your light.#Happiest of birthdays to you B*)
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sss day my favorite national holiday WOOOOHHHH
bonus
#pokemon#trainer lyra#rival silver#soulsilvershipping#timeskip tag#bao beis#i had so much more planned. but alas. college.#ANYWAY. sss my everything. ohh. always thinking abt them.#this is very obviously lyra's room! all the pink! massive bed to fit all her pokemon! the champion paycheck gets you that much at least#and plants!!! no. 1 horticulturist in johto#she's living somewhere around the base of mt silver... decently close to the league and her hometown#so i like to imagine her with a huge greenhouse so she can take care of plants even in the harsher climate#meanwhile silver has one of those decrepit malelivingspace flats in viridian. he's making it work.#i can only see sss properly moving in together liiiike in their late 20s#after they get to enjoy young adult independence for a while#but before they permanently settle down they should go on silly adventures again... just once. or twice. or#as much as i like to entertain the thought of them being homebodies i think they'd rather spend their lives travelling haha#since silver never got to fully experience it as a kid on the run#being a wanted man and all#and lyra is itching for the getaway#they deserve to be in nature and responsibility-free and *frothing at the mouth*#BTW i put my whole wyvussy into that wall decor#lisia signed poster... rosa's resemblance as mei(!!!) in the totoro one... bell tower + whirl island pics //#pokemon constellations... and those gen 4 mail templates that no one actually used. probably from dawn. champion penpals :]#i debated doing a lance poster because celebrity idol funny but nah she'd bin that immediately after moving out#oh yeah the drawover was um. inspired by the nonebinary neochamp fit. so happy for my son.#i'm glad i managed to finish the big piece in time otherwise i would've just posted that LOL can you imagine#okey bye happy sss day
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Mary Oliver, Oxygen // The Bear 1x03 'Brigade' // The Bear 2x02 'Pasta'
#the bear#sydney adamu#carmy berzatto#carmy x sydney#sydcarmy#the bear fx#sydney x carmy#lit#mary oliver#read this poem and thought immediately of them... the knife of separation... the life so close to mine.... the...#WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH LOVE EXCEPT EVERYTHING#u know... i'm so calm about them...#got another poem that i feel mostly close to carmy but figured out it would fit better in another post...#thebearedit
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43??
Hello Mel!! I was so, so excited to see you got 43 ^w^ this is one of my favorite songs and it makes me think about Matilda’s family back at home while she’s gone on her journey. There’s a lot of negative emotions that fester during the time she’s away, and the two eldest siblings are left feeling distant from one another as they struggle to find their own paths while taking care of their other four siblings. As scary as it is without Matilda around, Mallory knows she can’t leave Maeson to fend for the family or they’d inevitably fall apart. Thank you for the ask!!
#43: The Chapel - Madilyn Mei
#enthusiasm at its best#dnd#dungeons & dragons#goldenmill family#oc#original character#spotify wrapped 2024#theeeeeeese guys make my heart hurt aaaall the time uguguuhh#Maeson being stubborn and closed off while mallory is too nervous for her own good#she cares for him a lot but she knows any second he rests or takes time for himself is a moment he’s not taking care of the family#and he’ll blame himself for that :’]#and he’s already so bitter in Matilda’s absence#I just think maeson becomes distant both in the relationships with his siblings as well as their traditions and things#and it’s upsetting to see him care so much about Matilda being gone than focus on what they have now#also peep baby milo he’s my favorite#I’ll post their family line up soon since I have a few asks focusing on Matilda :]#but I was so so happy to try this soft yellow tone out like it’s a memory or something#the chapel just fits the vibe….#anyways this is definitely a song that highlights their cultural practices like I think they go to a chapel quotation marks and sing songs#but everything is very clunky and wrong when someone is obviously missing and someone is obviously not participating#Mallory can only be happy the younger ones are enjoying themselves#fairytale campaign
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pyro archon redesign concept sketch
#whenever her drip markets out i will spend. uhm. Days working on editing it to fit This#or as close to This as i possibly can#bc if hoyo wants her to be a motocyclist? fine! just make her ALSO LOOK LIKE THAT DAMN ARCHON OF NATLAN GRGRRG#but anyays#this is my wife#hes perfect#hes everything i ever wanted#and yes i am saving for her#guranteed in fact :3#sniped an olorun in abt 30 pulls so 💪💪#I FORGOT THE PALMS THING#FUCKKKKKKKKKKK#its fine its fine tis fine#its not perfect..... orz#catboydiiluc#genshin fanart#genshin impact fanart#mavuika#mavuika genshin#mahuika#mahuika genshin
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The worst thing is, Viconia would've fit perfectly in Shadowheart's storyline. From Viconia's (non-romanced) epilogue, we know this:
Viconia does found a cult of Shar in Waterdeep and she is betrayed by one of her followers. She is, not Shar. Shar, in fact, admonishes Viconia for this, showing she clearly never ordered that. And Viconia does not give a damn. This is the woman who left the cult of Lolth and went to the 'lighter' option that was Shar (compared to Lolth). She already deals with agents sent by Lolth, she's not going to let Shar tell her what to do.
The nature of the betrayal Viconia was the subject of is left entirely up to the player. With Viconia and Shadowheart's backstory being what they are, Shar's plot for a Selûnite child could've been perfectly inserted as the reason for Viconia's falling out with Shar.
Viconia left Lolth because of how children were treated, how she was treated herself. She did not turn to Shar to do the same thing. She would reject Shar's plot the moment the order came, and that would be the perfect trigger for one of her follower to turn of her. Shar's cult being what it is, I don't think taking down the whole lot is overkill to avoid further backstabbing. There aren't many who will pick their priestress over their goddess, especially not with how Sharran's faith emphasizes self-effacing. Can't make a decision for yourself when you don't think for yourself.
Shar's reprimends following what Viconia did further proves this wasn't what the goddess wanted. Complete that by adding she's incensed Viconia rejected her order and slaughtered her willing clerics, and you've got the perfect connection between Viconia and Shadowheart.
In BG 3, we could've met Viconia in Baldur's Gate, rather annoyed because she's been getting an influx of Sharran agents after her, and she's tracking the source to put an end to it. A Shar-aligned Shadowheart could've the mission to purge the cloister that failed to kill her, while a Selûne-aligned Shadowheart would work with her to put and end to the cloister, to give them both some peace and quiet.
Epilogue could've them both sharing tips on 'How to best kill an agent of faith sent after you'. They both have sharp tongues and a similar past, they could've had fantastic banter.
Instead we have this mess.
#baldur's gate 2#bg 2#baldur's gate 3#bg3#baldur's gate3 critical#viconia devir#shadowheart#i like shadowheart#why did they make me hate her quest#with a shar aligned shadowheart you meet a drow informant#who's really helpful supplying information about the sharran cult of the area#supposedly she's sent by shar to assit shadowheart in her quest#and it fits because this strange drow's doing everything a sharran cleric should#so why would anyone be suspicious#at the end of the house of grief amongst the other revelations#we discover the ever so helpful informant was actually viconia devir the traitor this cloister failed to eliminate#who used shadowheart's mission as an opportunity to get rid of the sharran after her#and now she's long gone#shar shadowheart is of course angry and makes it her mission to track her down once the netherbrain situation is handled#when you meet her in the epilogue she's still on the hunt though she had close encounters with her quarry and is eager to get back to it#with selune shadowheart viconia reveal herself for who she truly is and you get more dialogue and time with her#she joins you for shadowheart's quest as a temporary companion#with her and jaheira bitching the whole way there#you get the opportunity to convince her to stay to fight the netherbrain#she's there during the epilogue mostly keeping to herself but chatting with shadowheart a bit#mainly about their respective evasion of agents of the faith be it shar or lolth#more bitching with jaheira obviously#possibly with minthara too#they would probably dislike each other#the one person a drow is least likely to trust is another drow
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hey wait a sec
#not a comic or an ask#kirby#hollow knight#the radiance#zero two#zero two kirby#zero kirby#we already had the ''adorable tiny god protagonists who are connected to void'' similarity with ghost and kirby#but i just realized this too dgsgsgf#what's extra fun is that i already headcanon hallownest to be similar in size to stuff on planet popstar#as in like. ghost and kirby are roughly the same size (with ghost perhaps being slightly taller)#and so they can be used as a reference for the sizes of everything around them#which is small! by human standards at least. kirby's canonically 8 inches tall#so the hollow knight characters are still small! ...most of em anyway. but they aren't bug sized levels of small#hollow is probably still taller than many humans. the radiance is still a goddess and is still quite big and a threat#similar to a human encountering zero#the shade lord/void entity being close in size to void termina's titan form probably works#but anyway.#welp. add that to my already long list of things to eventually draw dgdhshfh#i don't know how well a ''zero two fight but it's ghost and hollow fighting the radiance'' would work#but ''kirby fighting zero two but it looks like the radiance fight (with the background changed to fit dark star)'' DEFINITELY has potential
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Hear me out, kiss with a fist
https://youtu.be/ywMD3GLoKG4?si=nAot0594-vKVX3Ww
Make it slightly dead dove brudick
!!!! Florence + The Machine supremacy.
this song is SO them. Bruce and Dick do not know how to love each other without fighting. their violence and anger is intertwined with their kindness. i think it's fun they love each other so much, it's such a deep burning intensity that they can't figure out how to control and it leads to anger. like how do you handle loving someone so much that you want to protect every aspect of them to keep them safe and hidden from the world? because they should be *yours*. how do you handle loving someone so much that you have to get away from them because it's suffocating you that you don't know who you even *are* outside of your love for them? their lives revolved around each others for years and then fractured and all that love just bleeds out into violence.
i truly have a soft spot for Bruce and Dick fighting each other and being willing to turn to violence to try to turn to the other. and it's on both sides, they're both throwing punches and trying to hurt the other. sometimes, they don't even have a reason. they just want to hurt the other to feel the pain under their knuckles. Dick punches Bruce in the face just to finally see Bruce *show* his own pain and crumple, just a little bit. he wants to rip apart Bruce's bedroom because it's full of pieces of him that Bruce shouldn't be allowed to keep.
love the line "your slaps don't stick, your kicks don't hit, so we remain the same, love sticks" bc it's so them. the bruises they leave on each other -both emotional and physical- are never lasting. their bodies were made for this. and they don't *change*. it's just fundamental to Bruce and Dick's dynamic that they're just a *little* fucked up and unable to love each other kindly. they always crawl back bc a kiss with a fist *is* better than none. Bruce would let Dick hit him a thousand times just to feel Dick touching him and showing him attention. if fighting is what it takes to have Dick talking to him, Bruce will eagerly take it and he'll fight right back. i'm feral for this ty <3
#necrotic answerings#brudick#songs and ships#dead dove do not eat#this is the first song that's from an artist i actually listen to#which i love getting recs from stuff i traditionally don't listen to so all of the recs are so good#but ugh. the lungs album my beloved.#i'm obsessed with florence she has so many good toxic love songs.#honestly the whole album could fit brudick in one way or another. it just clicks so well for them.#covering all their ups and downs yk.#all brudick is dead dove to me#ironically the only time brudick is wholesome is when dick is a minor#bc *that* was their honeymoon “everything is perfect we do everything together” era#which is so fun. like wdym you can only get along with dick when he's your obedient boywife bruce.#it also makes the contrast fun!#like dead dove brudick works bc they were so close before. that's the salt of the betrayal. dick thought they'd be like that forever.#but of course bruce got scared and ruined it. it's so good.
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New OC for the RodgerSteward-verse!! Marceau (Mark)
#he's a well off man in his 40s#he works at a prominent cafe for his job#he's also rodger's close friends from middle school#tragic geese#<------ i know this sounds silly but i'll use this tag for everything relating to rodger and steward#since 'Tragic Geese' is the name of Rodger's band so it fits I guess#art#my art#anthro#furry#furry art#digital art#oc#my oc character#oc art#furry oc#dog furry
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Seared like a songbird flying to the sun
A belated birthday gift for @misty-wisp ! Tried to combine references for both Swan Lake and Cendrillon >:3 (Linked the English cover I took the lyrics from for the title!)
#ariart#isat#isat spoilers#gemtale#friends oc#i unlocked the ability to draw two characters and decided to just kept at it but tbf this one has 4 in all honesty and boi...#the Perspective... the one for the mirrored version was harder than i thought but aaayyyeee!!! AM SO PROUD AND HAPPY THO!#let it be known that this piece was only meant to have the mirror for the background but i was like: hm... too empty-- oh whoops--#also a lil sad that odile and odettes arms are blocking the design for front of odettes outfit. she also has a diamond by the center#of it! and its also meant to take on the shape of a star with three beads at the bottom! tried to give her an outfit combining#kabue (diamonds) vaugarde (circles) and the island (star) meanwhile odile gets diamonds and circles#and yeeeeeess!!! their outfits are mirrored in a way! i only wanted to give the mirrored effect of spiky and round#but somehow managed to pull off an actual mirrored fit like with the open and closed wings and the shape of the top#i also designed the outfit as like-- a ballet outfit thats also like just a fancy dress for the swan lake and cendrillon themes#the red part on mirrordiles leg lookin like a gaping wound. i love that part honestly cuz its so last minute#i was meant to blend that to soften the edges but my brushes wont cooperate and i noticed it looked reaaaally nice as is so i kept it!#also odile has gloves that has fake nails outside it so she gets sharp pointy nails privileges. i could write a whole ass theory bout that#smth smth odile making sure to cautiously and gently handle odette so as not to hurt her but as a result keeps her at arms length#did i thought bout that explanation when i gave her the gloves? no. i was actually just too lazy to get rid of her nails when givin#her the gloves cuz i did everything in one layer for the lineart so i was like: hey arent there gloves with fake nails? yea thatll work--#LET IT BE KNOWN THAT TUMBLR MF LOGGED ME OUT AGAIN FOR NO REASON WHILE MAKING THIS POST BUT IM SMARTER!!!#LOGGED IN A DIFFERENT TAB. WENT BACK TO THIS TAB. SAVE AS DRAFT! MY TAGS ARE SAAAFFEE!!! GODDAMMIT TUMBLR!
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1.10 / 1.09
#something to be said not just about how Ibrahim aims to replace his past family with his present bond with Süleiman (and Musti and Mahi#branch off of that bond) but also how Hatice fits in all of this - the one Ibrahim leans on everytime he's likely to lose SS is *her*#she isn't just the future he wants to secure in the castle but also the past he yearns for outside of it especially in that initial period#of their relationship; and not just any past but a very particular fragment of it - the next most valuable person of his past other than#his brother: his *mother*. it's no wonder him playing *his mother's* melodies with the violin marks the beginning of their story and stays#an important motif throughout. just like Ibrahim's mother Hatice is so familiar yet so out of reach (and this unreachability accumulates in#E13 - Ibrahim leaves for Parga thus returning to his past but leaving Hatice behind but *then* finding out his mother is gone too.#*both* people he wants to be close to soo much are *gone* in that moment. there's a link between them because of this. also Hatice tieing#lbrahim's mother to “heaven” as well and her “looking at their happiness from above” Ibro responds with in E14.) Hatice will distance#more and more from that role later on until lbrahim starts to outright abandon this whole 'return to the past' idea with Hatice and#search for it through Nigar instead. but yeah anyway I feel these two scenes are the perfect encapsulation of how complicated#the past is for lbrahim; he avoids remembering it because it *hurts* to remember both because why would he remember it when he already has#an established future and because deep down he resents what he's become and established as that isn't ever permanent and he's lost all else#*himself* most of all as who is a person without his roots? he wants to forget them but can't ever do it so what's left is replacing them#*all of them*; when he finds Hatice too he wants to have *both* her and Süleiman and SS marrying Hatice off directly challanges that want#up to that point he believed in the possibility of their love more than Hatice did; now? he seems as lost as she is not knowing what to do#the only way not to lose either of them is accepting Süleiman's order convincing himself that this is how it should be no matter how much#that hurts and would bury him even deeper; he can't bear it so he searches for a solution - and when he sees Rhodes sea? it hits him#it hits him how low he's actually sunk through the losses and if he can't “fully* replace the past he'll *fully* return to the past letting#*everything else* once hidden out as well. not to mention how right before he left to Parga he was brought to fear for his literal death#and then he is given more power that also brings some uncertainty with it and that likely scared him cementing his departure for Parga#directly following Piri Pasha's advice to let power go as it won't let *you* go#(btw a big contrast between S01 and S03 Ibrahim can be drawn in his relationship with Piri Pasha and his relationship with Ebusuud)#magnificent century#muhteşem yüzyıl#muhtesem yuzyil#ibrahim pasha#(sorry for the disorganized tags but if I kept it like it was I would've exceeded the limit before I even finished 😅)#(just Ibrahim and Hatice in general are people who latch onto each other to get over their losses and ache for peace amidst their turbulent#lives and positions and that's what keeps them close and will later too)
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An 0309 drabble for an anon ask I got a bit ago :) Thank you for being patient, I really enjoyed writing this!! It's actually a little moment I've wanted to write since I started Milgram fic, but never got around to it. (I mention his injured eye, but don't actually describe anything)
“Stop moving around so much.”
“Don’t tell me what to do.”
“I mean it. You’ll make things worse.”
Mikoto watched as the intensity in Fuuta’s gaze flickered between fire and fear.
He had a doctor’s kit laid out on his lap. Recently, Shidou had his hands full with Mahiru’s treatments and having intense conversations with Haruka, so Mikoto wanted to give him a break. With none of the injuries actually healing as they should, the prisoners were caught in an endless loop of changing bandages and checking for complications.
Shidou was grateful for the help. Many of the others tolerated Fuuta in the same way they spent only the necessary time around Mikoto. They smiled and placated him, acting like he’d gone mad all of the sudden. Whatever was making the others avoid the two of them, it drew the pair together. Mikoto was finding he enjoyed Fuuta’s company. Something about him was rather… charming.
“Me? You’re the asshole that will make things worse. You’re no doctor! Fuck you.”
Eh, maybe he had gone mad.
He took comfort, at least, in the knowledge that Fuuta was growing more comfortable with him. He sure had a special way of showing it, but Mikoto didn’t brag about being a people-person for nothing – he picked up on the way Fuuta sought him out during the day, pretending to be involved in his own activities. The way he struck up a conversation, then acted as if it had been Mikoto’s idea to come over and bother him.
Therefore it was exciting, though not surprising, when Fuuta allowed Mikoto to help treat his injuries. They had only done it a few times, but today brought a whole new challenge.
“I’m not performing surgery or anything. Shidou said it just needs some basic disinfecting.” He flashed his usual grin. “I have a steady hand – I’m a photographer, you know.”
Aside from Shidou, Fuuta hadn’t allowed a single person to look under his eyepatch.
He remained unamused by Mikoto’s smile. For better or worse, he could always tell when it was forced. “It’s not like I have any proof of that. You could be awful at it, for all I know.”
“First chance I get, I’ll request a camera and prove it. Want me to take a picture of you first?”
“If you haven’t already messed up my face…” Fuuta’s focus was glued to the hand carefully reaching towards him.
Mikoto pouted his lips. “Shidou trusted me enough with this. And you must have, because you agreed earlier. So If it’s not about me… You’re not scared, are you?”
There were some things that Fuuta didn’t stop to see through. He sputtered in surprise. “Hell no!” He lifted his chin, finally taking his attention off Mikoto’s hands. He stared defiantly. “I can take it.”
Mikoto felt a bit guilty for resorting to foul play. But not that guilty. “Good. Now hold still...”
He got right to it. One hand held ginger hair out of the way, while the other pinched the corner of the eyepatch. Fuuta’s good eye darted nervously around the room, avoiding the other's close-leaning face. Mikoto peeled it away swiftly, gently
As a horror movie buff, the injury didn’t faze him in the slightest. As someone who’d grown close to Fuuta recently, he felt a wave of anguish at the sight.
Fuuta squirmed. “It’s nasty, isn’t it…”
Mikoto reached down for some supplies. He considered mustering up a smile and saying there was no need to worry so much, but it would have been pointless. Times like these, it was kind of a relief when someone else could see right through him for a change.
“It looks like it hurts.”
“Tch, I don’t need any pity from you.”
“I was going to say, you hide it well. You’re tougher than the warden gives you credit for.”
His cheeks flushed red. “I – I don’t need any flattery from you either!”
“Don’t need anything from anybody, huh?”
Before he could come up with a retort, he hissed through his teeth in pain.
“Ah, sorry.” Mikoto immediately retracted his hand from where it had been dabbing alcohol onto the injury.
Steeling his expression, he muttered, “it’s fine.”
Mikoto tried again. He made sure to move with even more steadiness, his face drawn up in concentration. He saw Fuuta’s features flinch when he touched him, but he stayed still. The two were silent, now, as Mikoto worked. Leaning his face so close made the short task feel much longer. The reddening in his cheeks didn't subside.
He expected Fuuta to snatch the fresh eyepatch away the moment he unwrapped it – he was shocked that Fuuta let him adjust it into place without a word.
“Alright. You’re all set.” He started packing up the kit.
“Listen, don’t tell the others. About my eye.”
Mikoto squinted. He gestured to the right side of his face. “I hate to break it to you, but the big patch kinda gives you away.”
“You idiot! I just mean, don’t tell them what it looks like.” He pulled his hood down over his hair. “I don’t need everyone trying to steal a look at it like I’m some sort of freakshow.”
“Hey, of course.” Mikoto gave him a smile, the kind they both knew was genuine. “I’ve got you.”
Fuuta nodded. He turned his face away, his fingers lingering over where Mikoto’s had just been. “... And… thanks.”
#milgram#fuuta kajiyama#mikoto kayano#0309#thank you so much for the request woo!!!#lmao it leans more 'serious intimate' than 'sappy romantic' - i hope thats okay#and yeah! i was actually planning to have a chapter in thermoregulation where yuno treated his eye#but every way i envisioned it wouldnt fit right with the tone of the whole thing#so ive been considering other characters and mikoto works So Well -- i was really glad to finally sit and write it out with him!!#its just... having someone as paranoid and ashamed as fuuta actually letting someone close enough to see/touch his most vulnerable injury..#it Gets me man 😭😭😭#and mikoto is also showing a very open side of himself - he has someone who trusts him despite everything thats going on with him/john#someone he doesnt need to preform for -- someone who truly trusts him#;--;#im torn between picturing the prisoners staying away from mikoto t2 or him self isolating while they all still really like hanging out#i went with the first option here but it changes depending on the fic LOL#anyway i hope you enjoyed!!!!#the two start out sitting really far apart and awkward but by the end of t2 with mikoto treating him regularly they start sitting like that#meme where the girl is putting on the others makeup LOL#drabbles#what if i keep procrastinating on school writing and i just write milgram fic forever and ever huh
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I really wish that antis stopped using real life sa victims in their shit especially since they tell real life sa victims that we deserved our assaults cos we all handle our trauma differently.
#sa mention#proship#fandom discourse#fiction is the closest i can feel to normal cos my severe ptsd irl makes me violent if strangers so much as brush up against me#we all handle it differently and yes i write utterly fucked up shit to desensitize myself & somehow managed to stabilized through the years#despite me still having my snappy “scary” moments if people touch me without permission and i punched a dude for standing too close to my#back. he was literally smelling me and i lost my shit and now im banned from that walgreens but meh#now im unloading in the tags but if you're an anti sincerely gfy cos y'all literally attack sa victims on here like its your day job#y'all also don't know the first thing about psychology cos guess who's a psychologist here??? yes this unhinged bitch that covers up like a#gothic church mommy and cusses like a trucker is an actual professional in the field. i studied thinking studying psychology would make me#cope better... it somewhat did help but i should have just gone to a therapist rather than bottling in a going to a freaking university#yes i troll and say fucked up shit on here. this is a social media for my fandom shit so i aint gonna act like the doc i was ages ago and#fiction actually can help some people (especially those like me who are still having violent ptsd eps affecting them) little by little#retake their lives back#there's other forms of therapy but not everything works for everyone and its ridiculous to put all victims under the same umbrella#and its condescending and ignorant af to expect all sa victims to be your perfect little victims of convenience and treat us like crap cos#not all of us fit your toxic narrative of attacking freaking fake people in a nonexistent fictional world.#i have friends that are sa victims that can't handle it in fiction but they know thats my mechanism. since im a now retired professional#i have done everything i can to help them cos yes there's multiple ways to help victims cope with this. even regression exercises help#but that's another thing#and it involves multiple sessions. i no longer practice but can teach people some techniques to regulate their emotions in high stress#situations cos the aftermath of sa is brutal regardless of how you cope with it#you'll need a support group to catch you when you can't handle it sometimes. you're not alone or broken. pls know this
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Destined to lose an eye in every timeline (Patreon)
Bonus alt:
#Doodles#Helix#Coraline#Blood#Yippee <3 Eye horror <3#I said I'd do it and I did it! Oops??? Lol#It was too fun and too fitting of an idea to just Not do it I had to - he always loses an eye! That's just the rules!#Coraline being PG means we never see any blood but like... Yes the Beldam is magic But Like..........#I really do love the idea of him making the impulsive decision - getting so close to a total yes - and only the pain snapping him out of it#Boy just doesn't learn without The Worst consequences! <Doesn't actually believe that but I must mean to him ♥#Him being alone and locked up inside the mirror until he ''comes to his senses'' and agrees to be a good son hough <3#Just wants the pain to stop! But if one hurts this much what would two be like? But then he'd get everything promised him right?#Hmm ♪#But then Dex comes to the rescue! Yaay <3 Definitely not mutually traumatic or anything :)#Especially if there really was a magical element that was keeping the wound ''healthy'' (ever-bleeding without running out of blood? Hmm)#And then as soon as they step back into the real world they get to deal with the consequences#We never see what would've happened to a false start! I mean it's very gory it makes sense haha#And the fake snow melts like real snow... Could go any number of ways really#Maybe for the happiest ending once they get out together Max's eye is all better! :D Or healed Enough but still unusable :0#Could got the xxxHolic route and Dex gives up half his eye to Max so they only have three eyes' worth of strength between them haha#Neither of them needed glasses before - although I get the feeling Dex would wear contacts even if he did :0 He'd look good in glasses...#Though I think that about everyone haha#Love the little details like Dex calling him Max rather than ''sir'' those particular moments too much ahh <3 <3#And I do like the alt! Bleeding!! ♥ But I think the pace and flow works better with the two expressions separated out :)#Fun fun ♪ Scary fun
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