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Interviewing an Endocrinologist: Insights and Experiences
Interview someone — a friend, another blogger, your mother, the mailman — and write a post based on their responses. Unveiling the world of endocrinology through insightful interviews and personal experiences. Learn about the fascinating journey of an endocrinologist and gain valuable insights into their expertise. Introduction Have you ever wondered what it’s like to step into the shoes of an…
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#Advancements in Endocrinology#Clinical Trials in Endocrinology#dailyprompt#dailyprompt-2046#Diabetes Management#Endocrine System#Endocrinologist Interview#Endocrinologist Journey#Endocrinologist&039;s Perspective#Endocrinology Insights#Expertise in Endocrinology#Healthcare Heroes#hormonal balance#Hormonal Health Tips#Hormonal Imbalance Treatment#Hormonal Imbalances#Hormone Education#Hormone Health#Hormone Impact on Mental Health#Hormone Myths#Hormone Research#Hormone-related Health#Hormones and Mood#Interviewing an Endocrinologist#Lifestyle and Hormones#Optimizing Hormone Levels#Patient-Centered Care#Thyroid Disorders#Women&039;s Health and Hormones
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Erectile Dysfunction and Sexless Marriage: Uncover Causes and Discover Practical Solutions
Erectile Dysfunction and Sexless Marriage: Uncover Causes and Discover Practical Solutions
Erectile Dysfunction in a Sexless Marriage: Underlying Causes and Practical Solutions 1. Introduction: What to Expect from This Comprehensive Guide Welcome to this comprehensive guide on tackling erectile dysfunction (ED) in the context of a sexless marriage. This guide is designed to provide you with: Clear explanations of erectile dysfunction. Helpful insights into how ED can affect marital…
#EDTreatment#ErectileDysfunction#HealthyLiving#MaritalHealth#MentalHealth#NaturalRemedies#RelationshipAdvice#SexlessMarriage#SexTherapy#StressManagement#Age-related erectile dysfunction#Cardiovascular health and ED#Causes of erectile dysfunction#Communication about erectile dysfunction#ED and mental health#ED Treatment#Emotional impacts of ED#Erectile dysfunction#Erectile dysfunction medications#Erectile problems#Exercise and erectile health#Hormonal imbalance and ED#intimacy#Intimacy Issues#Lifestyle changes for ED#Marital Relationship#Natural remedies for ED#Psychological causes of erectile dysfunction#Sex therapy#Sexless Marriage
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It's Best To Kiss Your Way to Happiness
It's Best To Kiss Your Way to Happiness
Are you looking for a simple way to boost your overall well-being? Look no further than your own lips. In this article, we dive deep into the impact of daily kisses on happiness and explore the fascinating science behind this affectionate act. Numerous studies have shown that kissing not only feels good but also has a profound effect on our mental and emotional state. From reducing stress and…
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#Affectionate Kisses#better heart health#Calming Hormones#Closeness#daily kisses#Desire#forever#Intimate Kisses#Kissing has positive Impact#Kissing improves blood circulation#love#Meaningful#mental health#of Kissing#Oxytocin#Passion#Physical Health Benefits#reduce blood pressure levels
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#hoping i don't make a health tag#area man discovers that ultimately his mental health relies on the same hormonal mechanisms that make his neck unstable#and the testosterone has somehow got minimal impact in all this now#it *is* stabilising my mood. and i do still have some muscle#and it is still lessening my dysphoria. but sir. my neck?#(i'll give it some lenience because i reintroduced a food last night too. but this had better not happen again without it)
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the fact that almost every single close female person in my life has has dealt with (chronic) health conditions that impacted or are impacting their daily lives...
#star stumbles#focusing a bit on women's health for my literary essay#which i kind of ended up thinking about when joyce carol oates asked 'why do women choose pain'#and like the hysterical woman and all that#and this is in my family and outside of it#just found out today that my best friend (or former best friend; childhood best friend) found out recently that her hormones are essentially#messed up and she could be infertile#and she's like 18#and even the few girls i've met and ended up chatting with in college are like...going through it but casually#my coworker has crazy health problems#my other childhood friend has been having crazy physical and mental health issues#my friends who don't have physical health issues are mentally in the gutter#and then there's me who is not struggling but being impacted by stupid stuff#and like health issues cause health anxiety which worsen health issues or at least the ability to deal with them#but you have to deal with them. everybody is dealing with them.#doctors will be like there's nothing clearly wrong so just fix your lifestyle#which yeah. has been working great (and sometimes it did but also like.#just because you found a solution that works doesn't mean the problem was never valid/never existed or won't come back#which is something i had to remind myself of#like just because you can deal with it now does not mean you did not suffer and struggle due to it earlier in life#and that it did not magically disappear. your health is valid
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Understanding Erectile Dysfunction in Unconsummated Marriages: Causes, Symptoms, and Treatments
Understanding Erectile Dysfunction in the Context of Unconsummated Marriage 1. What Is Erectile Dysfunction? (ED Explained) 1.1 Defining Erectile Dysfunction: Medical Perspective Let’s get straight to the point: What exactly is erectile dysfunction (ED)? Medical Definition: Erectile dysfunction is the consistent inability to achieve or maintain an erection sufficient for satisfactory sexual…
#ErectileDysfunction#Cardiovascular health and ED#Causes of erectile dysfunction#Communication about ED#Cultural stigma and ED#Diabetes management and ED#Early signs of erectile dysfunction#ED and Mental Health#ED couple therapy#ED exercises#ED FAQs#ED in Marriage#ED Success Stories#ED Symptoms#ED Treatments#Erectile Dysfunction#Erectile Dysfunction diagnosis#Erectile Dysfunction marriage impact#Erectile Dysfunction medications#Erectile Dysfunction statistics#Erectile Dysfunction therapy#Erectile Dysfunction Treatment Options#Foods to combat ED#Hormonal imbalances and ED#Impact of diabetes on ED#Marriage Counseling#Non-medication ED treatments#Physiological ED causes#Physiological factors leading to ED#Professional ED help
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Can Stress Affect Breast Size? Unveiling the Connection
Have you ever noticed your breast size changing when you’re stressed? I’ve been through it, and it isn’t easy. This issue isn’t talked about openly usually. But it’s important to discuss how stress affects our breasts. Let’s look into how our mental health can change the shape and size of our breasts. My journey with changing breast sizes made me see them differently. They’re not just body parts;…
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#Breast size fluctuations#Cortisol levels and breast size#Hormonal changes due to stress#Impact of stress on body shape#Mental health and breast health#Physiological effects of stress#Stress and breast size correlation
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Pedal Your Way to Wellness: Unlock 13 Health Benefits of Cycling for Body and Mind
#Cycling benefits#Beginner-friendly cycling#Low-impact exercise#Cardiovascular health#Muscle endurance#Indoor cycling classes#Outdoor cycling adventures#Eco-friendly transportation#Joint health#Cycling communities#Nature cycling#Feel-good hormones#Weight loss cycling#Intimacy and cycling#Cross-training with cycling#Disease prevention through cycling#Fitness journey#Mental well-being#Holistic health#Environmental consciousness#fitness#Wellness benefits#Active lifestyle#Health and happiness#Exercise routines#Outdoor adventures#Cardiovascular fitness#Weight management#Community connections#Nature exploration
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i need to get back on birth control bc my hormones are making me insane and i do not vibe with this. ugh. i just looked at myself in the mirror and thought huh i'd look so cute with a pregnancy belly. what the fuck
#had to take a break from hormonal birth control bc i was on it for two years straight#both my family and my doctor were concerned it was impacting my mental health#and like. maybe but being off birth control is ALSO impacting my mental health#so. im so fucked and not in a good way
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FIVE THINGS I HAD TO CHANGE IN ORDER TO HEAL MY LIFE...
1] I had to delete social media. Exclusively Instagram. IG was consuming my life, the constant posting, the energy I was receiving was not in anyway positive. I knew my time was being wasted on the app and I couldn’t seem to help myself. It was an addiction. I first started deleting the app each day and reinstalling each time I wanted to check it. When got sick and had to have an emergency surgery last summer I knew in order to heal and stay mentally sane I HAD to delete the app. I have not gone back since. This singlehandedly removed so much toxicity out of my life.
2] I quit watching the news / reading the news. Those nightmares, those fearful thoughts, all programmed into my subconscious day-by-day by the repeated messages of fear and worry. And while my heart breaks for what is going on in the world, it was bringing me down - without any purpose. So I removed myself.
3] I got real serious about my connection with God. This transformed me. From someone who struggled with saying the word ‘God’ to Now knowing the love and guidance is something I receive daily, the transformation has been real. This looked like working with a spiritual coach, daily prayers, listening with intent during mediation to any messages. I started 1 hour mediations listening to God and although mostly silent the wisdom would pour in always from above.
4] I changed my diet. I quit carbs. This single handedly changed my life. No more extreme hunger even though I just ate 2 hours ago, no more carb crashes. I removed all the carbs and started a protein and veg diet with some fruits. I invested in a juicer, I started studying nutrition. I also quit alcohol. Learning about balancing my hormones through removing glucose (carbs, starches, sugars) has impacted me in ways I never knew possible.
5] I started running. As someone who works from home, it was very easy for me to be completely stagnant all day, and believe my dog walks were equivalent to exercise. In order to keep a healthy flow of blood, and maintain heart health, I needed to give my heart some work. This meant running. I started running down the road and back with many breaks in-between. I now run on the treadmill in the gym 3-4 times per week along with a little resistance training. When you start to show your body love, your confidence grows, you sleep better, your energy is replenished. It’s a win win.
With every one of these five steps. It took a while. I didn’t just stop eating carbs. I quit and I went back and realised going back to the old way wasn’t working. My relationship with God took time, I would skip my meditations and then realise how much I benefited from them. I had to delete and re-install instagram multiple times a day. The point being, sometimes you got to slip-up. But make sure you’re falling forward.
#levelupjourney#levelup#growthmindset#manifesting#levelup confidence lawofattraction powerofthemind#manifestingmindset#manifestyourreality#lawofattraction#manifest
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How has taking estrogen impacted your mental health? I feel like it would fix me. But also I don't think it would work for me
hmm. this is a difficult to answer question due to how subjective that is.
in my case, my emotions have become more vivid. they feel deeper, which has lead to a great sense of a euphoria on upswings, as well as a new understanding of what emptiness means from my downswings. this, however, is mostly caused by something i have, called Cyclothymia, which some people call "Bipolar III" due to how similarly it impacts your mood. it's a cyclic depressive disorder, so depression is a medical constant for me (though medication makes it bearable). i can't really blame my new deep freaky sadness on the hormones specifically, that was more of a built in feature that i just barely got access to.
that being said, it's also helped significantly balance things out for me. i learned that i'd been deprived of a specific neuroprotectant enzyme called "allopregnanolone" which the body is able to make using, go figure, progesterone. when i started taking progesterone, my thoughts became much clearer, my irritability lessened, and there was a generally greater sense of self awareness in most aspects of my life. all bodies (even "male" ones) are supposed to start producing a specific amount of estrogen at the beginning of puberty. a deficiency in these chemicals is something that people with a menstrual cycle undergo in the week leading up to their period, most often causing depression, anxiety, and lack of focus. and wouldn't you know it, i started feeling depression, anxiety, and a lack of focus around the time i started puberty.
so there's a lot of things to know about it! but to summarize in a very succinct way, at least for my own personal case, my emotions now feel "realer".
hope that helps!
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It's Best To Kiss Your Way to Happiness
It's Best To Kiss Your Way to Happiness
Are you looking for a simple way to boost your overall well-being? Look no further than your own lips. In this article, we dive deep into the impact of daily kisses on happiness and explore the fascinating science behind this affectionate act. Numerous studies have shown that kissing not only feels good but also has a profound effect on our mental and emotional state. From reducing stress and…
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#Affectionate Kisses#better heart health#Calming Hormones#Closeness#daily kisses#Desire#forever#Intimate Kisses#Kissing has positive Impact#Kissing improves blood circulation#love#Meaningful#mental health#of Kissing#Oxytocin#Passion#Physical Health Benefits#reduce blood pressure levels
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Aaron x daughter!reader where she is struggling with her mental health and has a crying breakdown in the middle of the night and he gets up from bed to comfort her?
My controversial opinion is that Hotch would be the best BAU parent for mental health struggles ❤
(Note that this is probably medically inaccurate, but I was too lazy to look it up)
Aaron Hotchner x daughter!reader
It wasn't unusual for teenagers to struggle with mental health - this was a fact that Aaron Hotchner knew simply from studying behavior for so many years. The stages of brain development and the hormones impacted the mental state of many adolescents. The phase of life led to a more stereotypical phase of emotional ups and downs. He hoped that you'd be one of the many kids that grew out of such intense struggles as you got older.
Many parents would see that as an excuse not to validate the experiences, but he knew better. The idea that one might grow out of struggles was no reason to neglect them in the present.
It's why he didn't hesitate to get out of bed in the middle of the night when he heard you sobbing in your bedroom. He stroked your hair and hugged you tight, not caring that it would leave tear stains on his shirt.
The words he spoke were calm, validating, soothing. He kept his demeanor soft and steady, anchoring you to earth with his presence. Some nights you simply needed a good cry - a way to release all the energy that had built up inside - and he was always there to comfort you however you needed.
When your body grew tired and the tears stopped flowing, he stayed with you. He tucked you into bed, just as he had when you were a little girl, making sure the blankets kept you warm and safe for the night ahead.
In the case you got cold or felt unsafe, he made sure you knew he was only a call away.
#criminal minds fanfiction#criminal minds#aaron hotchner#aaron hotchner x daughter!reader#hotch x daughter!reader#hotch x child!reader#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds x y/n#criminal minds x platonic!reader#criminal minds x teen!reader#criminal minds x daughter!reader
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Sleep & Hormones: An insight into insomnia
Insomnia can be a daily struggle for some of us in the trans and non-binary community. It can also lead to frustrating effects on our physical and mental health.
Sleep is a crucial component of overall well-being. And, for some, insomnia can also impact hormone health, affecting the body’s ability to regulate hormones effectively. Head over to our blog to keep reading!
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GUT HEALTH: How it Affects Your body 🍽️🤍✨
Having a healthy gut is important because it plays a central role in the overall functioning of your body. The state of a healthy or unhealthy gut affects all of these things:
Digestion and Nutrient Absorption: The gut's main role is to break down food and absorb important nutrients, including vitamins and minerals. When the gut is healthy, it digests food effectively and maximizes nutrient absorption. When it is not, it can result in digestive issues such as bloating, gas, and diarrhea, as well as nutrient deficiencies.
Immune System Support: About 70% of our immune cells are located in the gut. A balanced gut supports a strong immune response, helping the body fend off illnesses and reduce the risk of infections.
Emotions and Mood: The gut and brain are intricately connected through the gut-brain axis. The gut produces many neurotransmitters, including serotonin, which regulates your mood. An imbalanced gut can influence mental health, leading to issues like anxiety, depression, and even cognitive impairments.
Hormonal Balance: The gut plays a role in the production and modulation of certain hormones. This can impact various bodily functions, from stress responses to reproductive health.
Weight Management: The gut microbiome can influence metabolism, appetite, and fat storage. An imbalanced gut can lead to weight gain and metabolic disorders.
Protection Against Chronic Diseases: Poor gut health has been linked to a higher risk of chronic diseases, including type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease, and certain types of cancer.
Detoxification: The gut plays a role in eliminating waste products and toxins from the body.
Inflammation Regulation: A healthy gut can help regulate inflammation in the body. Chronic inflammation, often resulting from an imbalanced gut is a root cause of many diseases.
Skin Health: There's a connection between gut health and skin conditions. Issues like acne, eczema, and rosacea can be influenced by the state of the gut. An unhealthy gut can lead to inflammation, which may manifest as skin issues.
Barrier Function: The gut lining acts as a barrier, preventing harmful substances from entering the bloodstream. A compromised gut lining, often referred to as "leaky gut," can allow toxins and pathogens to enter the bloodstream leading to various health issues.
Production of Vital Compounds: Your gut produces essential compounds, like short-chain fatty acids, which has a lot of positive effects on health from reducing inflammation to supporting brain function.
Sleep Function: The gut produces neurotransmitters and hormones that regulate sleep, such as serotonin and melatonin. An unhealthy gut can disrupt sleep patterns.
#gut health#health and wellness#healthy living#mental health#healthy diet#health#wellness#healthy lifestyle#health tips#health is wealth#food#nutrition#level up journey#self help#self care#personal improvement#personal development#personal growth#skincaretips#skincare
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Spencer Reid x she/her!reader
A/N: this song is so post-prison reid coded, it was only a matter of time.
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The tension had been instantaneous, from the very moment you first met him. It was no more than a passing glance across the office to begin with, but you have been proud of the double take you caused Doctor Spencer Reid, ever since.
Emily Prentiss had been giving you a tour of the BAU offices on your first day; you had been listening to her intently, making as many mental notes as you could to avoid having to ask where things were and embarrass yourself further than you already feared you would, joining a team of seasoned profilers. When your gaze met the glance that had originally been absentminded, but was heated when it returned to you, all words lost their meaning. Hazel was the only colour you could recall the existence of for the next few minutes.
The tour of the offices continued, and you tried your best to keep your eyes to yourself, but there was a near gravitational pull to the attractive gentleman who you suddenly had a sixth sense for, acutely aware of just how far away he was at all times, until the very moment you were introduced.
“And this is Doctor Spencer Reid.” Emily had introduced you, exchanging a smile with him that told you the two of them were good friends.
“Pleasure to meet you…?” Spencer held his hand out to shake yours, a smile curling at the corner of his mouth when you looked up at him, your eyes widening ever so slightly on being close enough to appreciate his full height, his wild curls, and your new favorite color.
“(Y/N).” You had answered, meeting his hand with yours, an electricity passing through you that was unlike anything else you’d ever felt, from such simple contact.
The way his much larger hand squeezed yours, how gently he shook your hand, and the slightest twitch in his smile; you knew that he felt it, too.
“Pleasure to meet you, (Y/N).” Spencer reiterated, tasting your name for the first time and deciding there was no other name he liked the flavor of more. Your name swirled around his brain like whiskey in a glass that he nursed for a little too long, savoring each sip like the finest critic, not missing a single note of you.
From that moment, everything Spencer did exacerbated your situation. Naturally, you went out of your way to avoid talking to him; any close proximity was a risk to your health, but that didn’t matter. The way he stood, the way he sat, walked, leaned, frowned, smiled, breathed - it was all too much for you. What did he expect? You are just a girl with hormones that you are certain he could sniff out from a mile away, given the look you’d see in his eyes during instances where you caught him staring at you. Or rather, instances in which Spencer’s gaze deliberately lingered long enough for you to notice.
He was a quiet man, and an observant one. A seasoned profiler, yes, but his time in prison had given him a fresh insight to people, particularly their primal instincts. Survival had been a focus of his during his time behind bars, but it seemed that living in that wild mindset had tuned him into other primal instincts, too. While Spencer had no scientific evidence to support his theory, he was certain he could hear your heart rate pick up whenever he passed you.
Having never felt like someone that women fawned over, Spencer took great pride in your attraction to him that was so obvious even he could not deny it. He almost felt cruel, impacting you to such an extent, but he came to find that this was the conclusion no matter what he did; it was simply a result of him, to you.
The tension between you thrives during cases where the two of you are forced to work together. Spencer has even been known to volunteer to assist you when you are set specific tasks, and you have always been too flustered to politely dismiss him. Conversations between you are minimal, mainly spent with Spencer smiling to himself and you avoiding looking in his general direction; an experience you’d wager to be more painful than pulling teeth.
Of course, when working together, you do have to talk to him on occasion, but everything feels far too charged. The subtext is blinding to both of you, even in small talk.
“Good morning, (Y/N).” Spencer greeted you when you had arrived to the office this morning, not long after him. He was still unpacking his bag, leaning over his desk in a way that made you want to scream, and you couldn’t even consider the smile he gave you as he looked over his shoulder.
His greeting was as generic as it always was, but the subtext told you more.
I’m pleased to see you.
“Morning, Spencer.” You had answered, smiling at him in turn, but your breath caught in your throat, making your subtext just as obvious as his.
I’m pleased to see you, too.
In a moment of self-awareness like you’d never known, you and Spencer simultaneously acknowledged that there was nobody else in the office. At the same time as your eyes widened with the realisation, Spencer’s gaze softened, settling on you.
“Did you sleep well?” He asked, his voice quieter, more tentative - another object of small talk that you understood loud and clear.
Did I cross your mind last night?
“Yeah, thanks. Did you?” You returned the question, words casual but voice rising in pitch steadily, something a profiler couldn’t possibly miss.
Of course. Did you think of me?
“Yes, thank you. I tend to be quite lucky, in that regard.” He paused, letting his words sink in before he added, “I don’t struggle with sleep as much as I used to, when I was young.”
As Spencer spoke, you noticed he was slowly walking towards you, crossing the small amount of space between his desk and yours in no more than three paces. He stood purposely close to you, leaning against your desk as your shaking hands continued to unpack your things from your bag. He could hear your sharp intakes of breath, and he couldn’t wipe the grin from his face.
A notepad fell from your trembling hand as you retrieved it from your bag, a soft thud against the table. With only half a second’s delay, you put your hand on it, intending to pick it up, but finding Spencer’s hand was already there, acting as a barrier but applying no pressure in holding your notepad against the desk, no resistance, because he didn’t need to apply that to you. Centimeters separated your fingers and his, tiny bolts of lightning sparking in the space between.
Eyes wide like a deer in headlights, you lifted your head to find him already smiling down at you, exuding charm and another sensation rolling off of him in waves that you dared not clarify.
Silence.
Seconds.
You couldn’t even breathe.
And then the elevator doors opened, the rest of the team beginning to file in for the day, and Spencer broke eye contact to look over at the office entrance. He noticed the deep breath that you took the moment he looked away, of course. As he walked over to the rest of the team, he took the chance to drag his fingers across the small of your back when he passed behind you; a deliberate act of sabotage. Had it been anyone else, that touch had been so light you’d be surprised if you even registered it, but from Spencer? Your senses were heightened like that of a small animal in a clearing, face to face with a creature that wanted to eat you alive.
It is completely unsurprising that you have failed to recover from the events of this morning, which have been replaying in your subconscious for the entire day while you have filed case reports. What would usually be a welcomed distraction has, today, been nothing short of a curse. To make matters worse, you have felt his gaze on you from across the office, periodically throughout the day. Monitoring the results of his varying hypotheses based around the growing impact he can have on you, and you on him - though he is far better at concealing that than you are; a long standing career as a profiler has its advantages in replicating calm behavioral signs with absolute precision. Still, he would admit that he has been struggling to catch his breath since the events of this morning, too. If you asked.
However, the rest of the team are just as good at maintaining their composure in the wake of the obvious, and they are not as unaware as they pretend to be. In fact, they are excruciatingly aware of the tension between the two of you that, actually, weighs heavily on everyone, wherever you go. It is almost as suffocating to them as it is to you. Almost.
That is why not a single member of the team is surprised when, at the very end of a day spent filing without any computer troubles, your laptop receives a particularly well timed virus from a specific technical analyst, that does not allow you to log out or shut down your system as quickly as everybody else manages to. The rest of the team pile into the elevator with giddy smiles, having noticed much like you have that - to your absolute dismay - Spencer is deliberately packing his bag at an excruciatingly slow pace, to keep him in the office just a little while longer, his gaze fixed on your frustrated countenance as you argue with your laptop while it simply follows the list of commands sent by Penelope Garcia in the form of a calculated delay.
The sound of the elevator doors closing and the team’s voices fading beyond its closed doors, make the hairs on the back of your neck stand up on end. Mere seconds later, your laptop completely fixes itself, logging out and shutting down at its usual speed, and you let out an exasperated sigh.
“It’s finally let you go?” Spencer jokes casually, his tone teasing and his subtext as clear as ever.
You have no excuse to avoid looking at me when I’m talking to you, now. Can’t risk being impolite, can you?
Swinging your bag over your shoulder, you begrudgingly lift your gaze to meet Spencer’s, your heart skipping a beat when you acknowledge just how close he is to your desk, for the second time today.
“Yeah.” You answer, not having the capacity to verbalize anything more, but Spencer hears the rest.
Yes. You are always right, and it is infuriating.
“Ready to go?” He asks lightly, his smile having evolved into a smirk filled with secrets and unspoken desires.
“Yeah, are you?” The voice that passes your lips is barely recognisable as yours, it’s so strained.
“Definitely. It’ll be nice to sleep in my own bed, rather than a hotel, for once.” Spencer chuckles airily, the sound making your chest tighten even more, because you know exactly why he’s laughing.
You’re thinking about my bed now, aren’t you? Wondering if there’s enough space for you. Of course there is, you’re such a small, sweet thing.
“Agreed. I need an early night!” You joke with Spencer, intending to throw his own sultry subliminals right back in his face.
Perhaps I’ll spend some time in my own bed, waiting for you to cross my mind again.
Reaching the elevator, you press the button, standing at Spencer’s side and waiting for the metal box that will force you to linger in close proximity, to return to this floor.
“You’re in need of that? I thought you said you slept well last night?” He catches you out, his knowing smirk looking down at you.
Making your motivations even more clear than usual, I see.
“A girl can never get enough beauty sleep! Trust me, I need it.” You chuckle, but your heart is in your throat.
“What a nonsensical implication.” Spencer murmurs as the elevator doors open, and the two of you step inside, not daring to force anymore space between you.
Centimeters between your hands again, your opposite hands holding the straps of your bags to your shoulders, your free hands hanging loosely at your sides, those tiny bolts of lightning causing an instinctual pull, until you feel his pinky finger brush yours ever so lightly.
Your breath catches, and you bite your lip.
Your eyes and his dart up to the top of the elevator doors, watching the floor numbers tick down, and you can almost hear Spencer calculate exactly how long the two of you have as his gaze lowers to you, pulling yours to his.
The pace at which he leans down to you is premeditated, you are certain of it, and against your better judgment, you find yourself standing on your tiptoes without an ounce of free will.
His breath fans your nose, and for the first time you can detect the shakiness in him that he’s been able to read so easily in you from the moment he saw you; the impact that this same tension has on him is not so easily hidden in close proximity, either.
If Spencer speaks now, his lips will brush yours.
And then the elevator doors open, the entrance lights flooding in and forcing the two of you to part from each other.
“I should…walk you, to your car.” Spencer says, his voice huskier than you’ve ever heard it, the subtext louder than before.
This isn’t over.
Your head is spinning, but you manage to nod it. Admittedly, it is darker than you had anticipated when you walk out into the parking lot, and had you been with anyone else, you likely would have asked them to walk you to your car, given that fact. But Spencer’s hand at the small of your back is making you forget the very ground beneath your feet, let alone how this could have played out if he had left with the rest of the team. But he has waited, since your very first day, for a moment like this.
Seconds.
Silence, save for your equally hurried footsteps towards your car. Stopping when you reach your car door, you swallow, hard, and turn to face Spencer.
“Thank you.” The words match the comprehensive size of your voice as you speak them.
I’ll never forget this. Not a microsecond.
And the look in his eyes mirrors your subtext.
His large hand stays at the small of your back, despite you having turned to face him, and he is closing in. Closer, closer, and closer still, until that deliciously familiar sensation of his shaky breaths flutter against the skin of your face.
“Is this what you want?” Spencer whispers into the dark, your body now pressed against the door of your car as his other arm cages you in, his palm flat against the roof of your car. His whisper is heavy, and for a moment your delirious mind wonders if you are hearing the subtext aloud, rather than feeling it in between the lines of your gestures, glances, small talk.
All you can do is nod, but that is not enough.
Spencer shakes his head, some of his curls brushing your forehead.
“Need to hear you say it.” His voice is still a whisper, but it’s more desperate now. The mask has fallen, the yearning beneath it felt in full force, unconcealed before your eyes for the very first time.
“I want this…you.” Despite your best efforts, your voice is no more than a whisper, either; the tension holding you both by the throat, squeezing every last breath from you, until there is no other choice.
Spencer’s lips fall onto yours, the his hand at the small of your back instinctively moving to claim your hip, squeezing, grabbing, pulling you closer when his body is already flush against you, holding you against your car. He breathes life into you, and you return the favor, granting him passage to foreign lands that he’s been dying to explore, to taste, to master. And he does, in a matter of seconds. While his tongue does not hold a separate brain, Spencer’s eidetic memory carefully notes every detail of you that his body learns, every instinctual reaction you give him. Your shaking hands card through his wild curls, tugging him down to you as if to pull him into you, to become one with him. In this moment, and in every moment since the day you met, you have wished for nothing more. His lips move with yours in a dance unknown to both of you, but you are two partners across the floor that have eyed each other all night, rehearsing with each other in your glances for far too long, and practice makes perfect.
Losing himself in you, Spencer’s hand that was once at your hip is now at your thigh, lifting it to hold it up at his own waist, gripping the soft flesh through your suit trousers. Only when you whimper into his mouth does he come to his senses and pulls away from you, but barely.
“Can’t do this here.” He utters between breathless kisses, unable to stop himself, unable to get enough of you.
“My bed or yours?” The question comes with a smirk that you press into Spencer’s lips, and he chuckles darkly against yours in turn.
“Bad girl.” He teases, and he loves saying it, too, but he doesn’t answer your question with words. Instead, Spencer releases your thigh in favor of wrapping an arm around your waist from behind, leading you across the parking lot, to his car.
And, interestingly, his answer to your question is the one word swirling around his mind like whiskey in a glass when he looks down at you.
Mine.
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